i lost myself. and it's harder to find my purpose this time. everything was on temporary and it lasted only for a few weeks. i prepared myself but why do i feel like its still crushing me, like this time it was more painful. like i didn't brace myself for the things that came through.
i am afraid, that i won't find the reason this time. it was scary to even think that i'll be having a hard time finding my purpose, finding my passion, finding the value of me. i am so young, so frail, so fragile in this harsh world. i shouldn't be moping around here because of a heart break of a teen age love but i can't help it. its too shallow but the emotional impact was so strong it's breaking me into pieces day by day. tormenting me every single day, every hour and second.
i'll break but who will fill the empty spaces, who will be there to heal, to complete, to bring me back to pieces.. no one..
for in my heart there is only one person who can do that, and he's not mine to keep
i am leaving the underground, for good.
i'm sorry i'm such a failure.
-myg