~41~ Let's be friends, again!?
Rose wonders if Jennie will be there, she misses her best friend yet she won't allow Jennie to get close to Lisa, not in front of her salad...she knows she has become possessive but she gives a fuck about the world, when it comes to Lisa she will fight and gets what she wants
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It's Friday already, 20 days have passed by and Jennie has been successfully hiding herself and avoiding ChaeLisa in the university, the university camp is enough big for her to fulfill her goal without any problem also because she doesn't share any class with these two
Meanwhile ChaeLisa has been catching up with their classes and projects, of course they had to give a very long and believable excuse to their teachers, they can't miss any class not after what happened
They are not the only two pressured about this, Jennie too, she is repeating 3 classes that she lost due her relationship with Jimin, he not only fucked up her life but also her studies and she can't allow Lisa to do the same; less with this pregnancy, she can't dare to keep losing classes....
It doesn't matter how embarrassing will be walking thru classes with her big belly but she can't have the pleasure to leave classes, not when there's only one year missing for her to graduate.
She has been thru this because of Jimin, everyone used to talk shit about her and now she is sure it will happen again but she doesn't give a fuck anymore, it's her life and no one will show or tell her how to life her fucking life
Jennie must not miss classes today because today is one of her lasts tests and Christmas is coming indeed in less than one month, it's November 20th so Christmas is right in the corner
ChaeLisa walks in hand in hand like everyday, they are followed by Lisa's friends Mina and Yeri; they have become the most popular couple in the university and everyone supports them and talks about them positively
As they walk surrounded by people greeting them, Lisa notices Jennie walking to their direction thru the hall but as soon as Jennie lifts her sight
Their gazes connect and the time stops for Lisa and Jennie just like it stopped the first time they saw each other that morning at Jennie's place
Lisa smiles widely but Jennie lowers her sight and turns around walking fast to disappear around the hall, Lisa stood there frozen on the spot
Rose who was witnessing everything squeezes softly Lisa's hand and pulls the latter to her class, it has become a routine for them Lisa usually leaves her at the door of her first class
While walking Rose notices how lost and sad Lisa looks, indeed Lisa is feeling bad about Jennie and everything that happened between them
"Hey! Cheer up baby!" Rose holds her cheeks and lifts Lisa's face "Look at me and forget everything, remember only you and me...and our baby, that's what matter Lisa, we have only 1 year left and then we'll graduate so cheer up honey!" Rose leans and leaves a soft kiss on Lisa's lips
Lisa smiles warmly "I'm sorry...." Rose hush her lover placing a finger on Lisa's lips "Darling, it's ok...I'm understand you, I mean you weren't the only one who lost something, at the end I lost...my best friend too but it's ok...sometimes we have to lose something to win what we want" Lisa licks Rose's finger and makes Rose laugh successfully
"Too much PDA guys, we are going we don't want to keep cringing behind you two, see y'all!" Mina and Yeri go away leaving ChaeLisa laughing loudly
"I won't be able to have lunch with you babe, I have last project to end and I'll work with my peers at lunch time...I'll be ending my project as soon as possible!" Lisa pouts cutely but nods "Hey don't pout like that, you'll make me feel bad" Lisa grins "I'll miss you but don't skip lunch, ok!? Eat something at least! I'll wait for you at the end of the day like always!" Rose nods, Lisa leans and leaves a sweet smooch on Rose's plump lips then they bid goodbye to go for their first class
Thru the day Lisa's mind is crowded with Jennie's presence and the latter's sad expression also the guilt inside her is so much...
Lisa really...well she isn't sure, she can't say that she really regrets everything that happened between her and Jennie because at the end Jennie was, is so special to her...Since she came here to South Korea, since the very 1st day, Jennie was the first person she meet and the one she felt more comfortable not even with Chaeyoung...the must funny is Rose confessed to her that she hated her when she met her, the truth to be told ^^
At lunch Lisa tries to catch up a conversation with Jennie while buying food but Jennie ignores her
"Hi?" Lisa tils her head while looking at Jennie but the latter doesn't even move an inch to look at her
"H-how have you been?" Lisa bites her lower lip waiting for Jennie to answer her but that doesn't happen
"I... I just wanna talk with you!" then Jennie moves form the line retrieving her food from the catering service attendant and walks away leaving Lisa there, Lisa who is looking at Jennie's back feels pretty bad but she really needs to apologize with Jennie "Miss. your food is ready, here!" the attendant hands Lisa the dish
Jennie is sat alone at the table which is at the corner, Lisa follows Jennie; the great of this is that Rose is busy arranging her project with her peers so she won't come to eat here yet Lisa didn't forget to sent a text message to Rose telling the latter to not skip lunch, ok now back to JenLisa
Jennie gets startled because Lisa literally throws her own tray of food on the table, Jennie glares at the person who throws the tray of food but gets sad by the sight "What do you think you are doing Mr. Manoban?"
Lisa frowns sitting down next to Jennie "Oh, that's unexpected...since when we call ourselves so politely, Miss. Kim?" Jennie just rolls her eyes but inside she is squealing in happiness because Lisa is still the same stubborn immature brat that she met before "You should go, before Rose, I mean before your fiancée come...I don't want any problems with her"
Lisa gulps listening the name of her 'fiancée' from Jennie's mouth "....Hey, I, I just sat here because I want to talk...I mean I want to apologize with you...even if you were the one who betrayed me I want to forgive you....and I apologize for the way I treated you the last time....Sorry Jennie..."
Jennie's eyes get weak and start to moist more with fresh tears, it's been more than 2 weeks and she has been crying till fall asleep "I'm sorry too Lisa, I was so wrong, I mean....you were, are important so I wanted to keep you only for me, so badly that I...I messed up everything...I'm sorry"
Finally Jennie looks at Lisa and Lisa shows her sympathy thru her wide smile 'oh, how much I missed that beautiful wide smile of yours Lisa' Jennie thought, did she just thought it or...?
"I miss to see your beautiful smile too Jennie Unnie " Lisa says warmly and before a tear escape and fall down Jennie's cheek Lisa catches it with her thumb and there's Jennie blushing madly
Jennie leans her head on Lisa's chest feeling embarrassed and stupid "Hey, it's ok, don't cry!" she really missed Lisa's warm, it's intoxicating her senses, Lisa smiles because it's her same Jennie, the one that used to cling before to her is now doing it again
Jennie caress her face against Lisa's palm because it is still so soft against her skin 'I don't know why I think of you...when I know it is impossible to live together...' Jennie's thoughts snap her making her move abruptly from Lisa's warm
Lisa notices how Jennie is cold mode activated again and sitting straight while eating rapidly "Wow, you are really hungry, don't you?" Lisa giggles trying to remove the awkwardness
"Yes, since I have one life inside me who can't starve" Jennie mumbles but stops eating then looks at Lisa with the corner of her eyes...
She realized what she just has said "I....I mean me and my other Kim inside, I have 2...2 souls...I, what I want to say is...I feel like two people live inside me...umm, yeah" Lisa doesn't say anything and keeps looking at her with that frown on her face "gosh, I lost my sanity" Jennie mumbles and then Lisa nods confused... they keep eating
After finish their foods Lisa calls Jennie's name "uhm...Jennie?" she looks at Lisa feeling a little bit awkward "What, Lisa?" Jennie lowers her sight at Lisa's lips...fuck how much she has missed those plump red lips
Lisa seems uncomfortable because Jennie's eyes are lingering longer than they should on her lips making the atmosphere heavy and making her feel many things, those things that she shouldn't feel; she must not be even thinking about those things "I....can we be friends...again?"
Jennie just saw how those words slipped from Lisa's mouth, she lifts her sight immediately and looks directly at Lisa's green pools, she gulps down her feelings...how is she even supposed to tell Lisa about her pregnancy when Lisa is requesting this also when she already chose her ex-best-friend over her and now they will get married, not forgetting that they are living together already...
She doesn't know what to feel but she feels mostly upset "Again? We never had a friendship Lisa...ha ha" she smiles ironically "It's funny no? We started our 'friendship'...our relationship flirting and then becoming something more and....then we broke apart and now you come here and ask me...that you want me to start all over again, start from something that we haven't been or had in the past? How Lisa?" Jennie's eyes are again tearing "Tell me how because I don't know other way...the only way I know is...the pain in my heart because I love you and that would never change"
Lisa can see how hurt is Jennie thru those cat eyes, those eyes that she used to love, she still love
Jennie keeps looking at Lisa with her tearing eyes "I love you Lisa but...Rose...because you have shared your love with both of us...she is my best friend even if we don't talk anymore she is still my friend Lisa...."
Jennie's voice cracks "you are an illusion...even do I keep telling myself that I don't love you but Lisa.....I do love you and your presence is pain for me, it won't let me live...you have become an anguish for me, it's painful to see you happy but all of this...."
This is really painful, Jennie is indeed bleeding inside "this love, it has damaged my heart...you have divided two best friends for love and I don't want any more pain, your presence hurts...it's hard to say this but...leave me now, forget me Lisa..."
Jennie feels the pang in her heart, is like some unknown presence is squeezing her heart firmly "if you really love me, you have to understand...I don't want to keep betraying her, our friendship even if there's nothing else between me and Rose, I don't want problems with her because at the end she is still my friend, here" Jennie touches her chest just over her heart "and you are an illusion, a love that can't never be real even if it was my first true love, it can't be real and it won't be" and just like this Jennie stands up and takes her things, leaving Lisa behind
That evening, Jennie just decided to skip classes and walk back home
It's getting dark and cold...why everytime Lisa leaves her life and then leaves everything becomes darkness and coldness....dull
Jennie takes out her headphones and plays a random song
I wanted to imagine
That I would know what to expect
Deceiving me without anything else
I feel so lonely
Passing by the large park of her town, Jennie decides to sit down on one of the benches
I don't see the end anymore
Of this eternal anxiety
Because without your love I collapse
I'm just flesh and bones without you
A minute without your love
It's hell inside me
And I collapse
Jennie didn't notice but tears are falling down her cheeks while looking at the sunset in front of her eyes and the large lake
The distance between the two
It makes our love 'weaker'
Without forgetfulness or rancor
Lease end this cruel nightmare soon
That makes me lose my control
Jennie lows her sight and hides her face on her cold palms while sobs uncontrollably
Because without your love
I collapse
Only meat and bones, without you
I won't save myself waiting for you
A minute without your love
It's a hell inside me
And I collapse...
Jennie removes her headphones and lifts her crying face to look at the beautiful sunset hiding behind the mountains, the sight is beautiful but dull
Everything she knows is that it doesn't matter what but she will protect the life inside her belly at the end it is fruit from her true love, a love that was never real but it was magical and no one can't ever take this from her...an illusion that felt wonderful
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To be Continued
I feel hurt about JenLisa but soon maybe things will turn better? Or not?
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Lisa is so fucking hot when she is upset :Q___
Hope you are all ok and please remember to not get our of your house also wash your hands