Adelaide shoved the drink to her throat, the burning sensation making her cringe. She leaned towards the counter and adjusted her skirt, she pulled it down discreetly and hand-combed her hair. She bet she looks like a mess right now, Alyssa and Laysla have already left a while ago, but she prefers to stay at the bar a little while longer, she does not want to be home alone in her home tonight, she does not want to be lonely and to feel left out, not tonight, she won’t cry herself to sleep tonight, she won’t let herself.
She thinks of what might happen when they’re finally done filming Reign… will she still be in touch with Laysla, Alyssa, Torr, Anna, Caitlin, Jonny, Celina and most especially, with him? She doubts it, she have not heard from him whenever they go on break on filming, when he goes back to London, he becomes unreachable, even when she goes there herself he was nowhere to be found, though she can’t really blame him, she guess he will never be happy with her than he is with his girlfriend.
“Do you want another drink, baby?” A deep voice said to her, she turned around and saw a brunette man much taller than her, his dark are eyes are checking her out.
“No, thank you” Addy said turning away, she doesn’t mean to be rude but she just hates it when a stranger calls her ‘baby’
“Oh c’mon, you’ve been sitting here alone for hours, I can keep you company” The guy suggested, scooting closer to her
“Let me buy you another drink” The guy insisted when he didn’t get a respond
“I can buy my own drink and if you don’t mind, I prefer to be alone” Addy said calmly, she’s drunk and she doesn’t want to say unnecessary things to the guy, she just wants him to leave her be.
“A girl like you shouldn’t be left alone” the man said insistently, brushing his hand to hers
“you heard her mate, she wants to be alone” a familiar voice said, Addy turned around and was quite startled to see Toby standing near her, he looks irritated but tries to maintain a calm and steady voice
“Why, are you her boyfriend?” The guy said to Toby, his voice challenging
“No—“ Toby managed to reply before Addy interrupted him
“That’s none of your business” Addy said to the guy, her voice clearly pissed
The guy just shrugged and left
“you didn’t need to do that, I can take care of myself” Addy said to Toby moments after
“I know” he replied, his voice low. That’s what he likes about her, she’s strong and independent, she can stand on her own feet and not depend on others.
He sits next to her as he orders a drink.
“What are you doing here?” Addy said, not that she doesn’t want him there but she’s just curious why Toby is alone on a Friday night, usually, he’s either out with his friends or alone in his apartment, but he rarely goes out alone, especially in a bar.
“Getting a drink” he said, barely looking at her. He seems so distant these past few days, his mood varying from time to time.
“You could at least look at me when we’re talking” Addy said trying to hide the hurt in her voice, she’ll miss looking at those blue eyes, she’ll miss hearing his soothing voice.
Toby finally looks at her with hurt in his eyes, pleading for comfort
“Toby, what’s wrong?” Addy said reaching for him, her hand touching his arm
“Tara and I broke up” he said, turning away his gaze and just focused his attention to the glass that he’s holding
“oh… I—uhm … I’m very sorry to hear that” Addy said letting the information sink in, she certainly wasn’t expecting that, she wanted to comfort him but what could she possibly say to make him feel better? She removed her hand from his arm and neither of them talked for a few minutes.
Toby ordered more drinks while Addy remained silent, she stands seconds later, feeling a little dizzy, she threw her hand to her forehead and leans back to the bar stool. Toby notices this and stands up, putting his hand to Addy’s lower back.
“Are you alright?” Toby said, his voice filled with concern
“I’m fine” Addy mumbles as she struggles to regain her balance
“No, you’re not” Toby said assisting her as she stands
“You drank too much, I’ll take you home” Toby said seeing Addy’s tired yet beautiful face, he can say that she’s going to throw up any minute now from the way she’s holding her chest
“I’m just gonna go to the bathroom” Addy said as she walks away from Toby.
She hardly reached the toilet bowl when she threw up, her dinner making reappearance. After several minutes, Addy still hasn’t come out of the bathroom, Toby gets worried and followed her there, she might have passed out and hit her head or something. When he reached the bathroom, he heard someone vomiting and quickly runs to her.
“You shouldn’t be here” Addy says to him before throwing up again, he kneels down and rubs her back gently, his other hand holding her hair. He continues to rub her back until she finished vomiting.
“C’mon let’s get you home” Toby stood up and offered his hand to her, she takes it and they slowly walk outside the bathroom, she can feel his hands supporting her every move.
When they reached his car she was awfully quiet, dreading whatever it is to come.
“I don’t want to go home tonight” She mumbles as she sat in the car, Toby looks at her with confusion and concern
“I don’t want to feel alone” She added, she looks down, afraid of what Toby will think of her, she’s afraid to meet his eyes.
“You’re not alone, Addy” Toby replied and reached for her hand, she squeezed his hand, their fingers intertwining
“Please don’t leave… don’t leave me please, Toby” Addy said finally looking up to meet his eyes, his oh so blue eyes, her vision a little blurry as tears begin to fall to her cheeks. She doesn’t know what came up to her to say those words, perhaps it was the alcohol in her system or perhaps she has just been bottling her emotions far too long that her mouth decided to speak for her stubborn heart. Realizing her mistake, she quickly takes back what she said.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said that… it’s so selfish and insensitive of me to say that to you… you just broke up with your girlfriend and—oh my God, I’m so sorry” she managed to say between sobs, she took her hands out of his and brought it to her face, wiping her face. Toby was dumbfounded, he didn’t know that Addy felt that way, that she feels abandoned and alone, that she dreads the separation of the casts when they finish filming, he wants to comfort her, to tell her that he’ll never leave her side if that’s what she wants, he wants to wipe her tears and keep them from falling. But she’s already pushing him away, she builds her wall again the minute she let her guard down.
“I—I should go” Addy said after drying her tears, she quickly steps out of the car before Toby can stop her.
She bits her lower lip in order to fight back her sobs, that was probably her last time alone with Toby and it was so damn awkward. She was not that far from the car when she heard Toby call her name.
“Addy!”
“Addy please go back to the car” Toby said his deep voice pleading
“I’ll just get a cab, you should go home… drive safely” Addy said as she turns around and looks at Toby, she forced a smile in his direction
“Addy please, don’t shut me out” Toby said as he walks towards her
“Don’t push me away” his voice growing deeper and more desperate
“Don’t feel bad for me Toby, I can take care of myself” she turns her back on him again to try to hide her emotions
“But I want to take care of you” Toby said as she embraces her from behind, his voice melting her heart.
Rain starts to fall as they stood outside the bar, dozens of people staring at them but they don’t really care. Rain poured even more a little while later, Addy turns around and faces Toby
“Do you know what I like about the rain?” Addys said stroking his cheek
“When I cry, it isn’t that obvious, my tears just mix up with the raindrops” Addy said as Toby tucks a few stands of stray hair behind her ear before kissing her forehead
“You shouldn’t hide your tears from anyone, especially not from me” he wipes her tears but her stunning face gets wet anyway because of the rain
“I think we should probably go back to the car” Toby said as his blond hair starts to go dark as it gets wet
“Yeah, it’s freezing” Addy agreed as Toby wraps arms around her, keeping her warm, and though she’s now trembling because of the cold winds and wet clothes, her heart feels so warm as Toby pulls her even closer to his body.
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"I'll make you coffee, you should change, Addy. Your clothes are soaking wet, you might catch a cold, grab whatever clothes that fit you in my drawer" Toby points her to his room, Addy smiled to his concern, she went to his room to undress while Toby went to the kitchen to make them coffee. He decided to take her in his apartment because he didn't want her to feel alone in her place.
"I wore your sweater, I hope you don't mind" Addy said as he emerges out of his room
"not at all" Toby said not looking up, he's still making the coffee, hoping that he gets the right blend of it, not too sweet and not too strong. When he finally looked at Addy his heart stopped, though she didn't wear any make up she's still effortlessly beautiful
"It fits you just right" he managed to say after staring at her for too long, Addy smiled at him as he hands her the coffee
"Are you sure it's okay for me to sleep over?" Addy asked as Toby sits beside her on the couch
"Of course... are you warm enough?" Toby asked, he puts his coffee down when he noticed that Addy's hand are still shaking
"Give me your hand" he instructs her, he holds her right hand with both of his hands and he breathes into it to make it warm
"Better?" He asked her
"Much better" she replied, touched by his gesture, she puts down her coffee as he takes her left hand and breathes into it too
"How about you, are you warm enough?" She looks up to him and she realized they were too close to each other, only inches apart, but for Toby it seems that they're not close enough... he leans closer to her and their lips touch. It's not really a new experience for them, they tasted each other’s lips several times already but not as Toby and Addy but as Francis and Mary. Toby deepens the kiss, their first real kiss... she tangles her fingers in his curls and pulls him closer. His tongue parts her lips and she happily grants him permission. Her warm mouth is enough to send fire to his entire body, their innocent kiss becomes more passionate every passing second, Toby trails kisses on her jaw line to her neck making her moan, Addy's hand rests on his neck as he brings his mouth back to hers, he bites her lower lip and he smiles between their kisses, he remembers doing that to Addy on set but now he just can't believe that they're kissing each other away from prying eyes. Toby kisses her neck again as his hand travels to the back of her head to pull her closer
"Toby" Addy manage to say as Toby kisses her jawline
"Yes?" Toby said in-between kisses
"I-- I don't think we should do this... you're drunk, we're both drunk" Addy said as she looks into his eyes
"I'm sorry... I shouldn't have gone too far" Toby said his eyes apologizing
"I'm sorry Addy, I—shouldn’t have pushed you for something you didn't want" Toby said his voice barely audible
"No it's not that... it's just that—do you want this? I know you're upset about—your break up, I don't want you to do something that you'll regret later" she said avoiding his gaze
"Addy look at me" His hands brought her chin up
"What makes you think I'll regret whatever it is that will happen between us?" Toby said holding her like she's the most precious thing in the world
"And if it's still not obvious yet, I want this, I want you" he brings his lips to hers once again, savoring her sweet taste, when they pull apart several seconds later, he speaks again
"The real question is... do you want this?" His voice hopeful while his eyes search hers for any trace of doubt
"More than anything" her eyes assured him that they both wanted the same thing. Toby smiles as he crashes his lips to her, his hands traveling to different parts of her body.
"Take me to the bed" she said as he's licking and sucking her neck, he sits her up on the couch, seconds later they stood up and slowly walked towards his bedroom, their lips never leaving each other. Toby pinned Addy to a wall on their way to the bedroom, she giggles as her head slightly bumps to the wall while Toby kisses her swallowing her laugh, he bits her lip and continues to lead her to his bedroom.
Toby manages to turn the door knob without pulling apart from their kiss, they quickly entered the room and shut the door rather loudly. Toby slowly lowers Addy to his bed, he reached for the hem of her sweater and lifted it up revealing her naked breasts, Addy's bra got soaked on the rain too so she didn't put it on when she changed her clothes. Toby dives his mouth into her already rigid nipples, he rolls his tongue to it as he cups the other with his hand. Addy can't help but moan, lost in the sensation, she grasps his curls and leads her mouth to his, Toby happily obliged, his tongue explores the warmth of her mouth as he slowly thrusts against her. Addy can feel his hardness and she can also feel how wet she already is for him. Toby kisses her neck and goes lower and lower, he kisses her chest down to her stomach. Addy suddenly unbuttons his shirt and she quickly frees him from it, she has already seen him shirtless several times but it still amazes her how his body has changed in just a few months, she sits up and kisses his neck down to his chest and to his flat stomach, making him groan
"Fuck, Addy" he said while feeling her smile as she kisses him all the way down
Toby grabbed both of her hands and pins her back to the bed, the mattress bounces just a bit and Addy giggles as Toby begins to kiss her again, he sucks her nipples once more before unbuttoning her jeans, he gently take it off her as he lovingly kisses her knees up to her thighs, she loves how he glances back at her while flashing her a playful grin, she bit her lower lip when he started to carefully remove her underwear, he does it such passion that arouses her even more, he touches her with his fingers that made her let out a not so quiet moan
"Fuck, Addy you're already wet" Toby said as he kisses her inner thigh with his mouth, he teases her but he sense that she's growing impatient
"Toby please" Addy said begging for him
He sits up and undoes his jeans, Addy helps him by bringing his pants further down, he lowers his underwear and his cock springs free, Addy reaches for the condom and fits it to his hardness, she lies down and opens herself for him, Toby leans down and kisses her lips, he can feel Addy slightly biting his lower lips making him deepen the kiss
"Toby pl—" Addy said but weren't able to finish when she felt his hardness slowly entering her tight hot center. She hissed as he goes even deeper, it's been so long since someone has love her like this
"Addy—you feel so amazing" Toby managed to say in between his moans, his hands clasped hers as he captures her mouth but even his kisses weren't able to quiet her cries, his name spilling from his lips as he pulls out and thrusts deeper into her, their hips slamming to each other, her feet enveloping his waist to pull him even closer, they found the perfect rhythm as Toby continues to thrust faster and harder, the mattress almost moving with him, Addy bites her lower lip to keep herself from screaming, their foreheads now pressed to each other. Toby then moves and sits her up, she adjusts quickly as she rolls her hip to his, Toby follows her movement as he slightly pulls out of her and thrusts in an upward motion, this time even faster, Addy lets her head fall back in pleasure, her breasts pressed to his chest while his hands grips her hips to guide her movement, when their movement went steady he slowly lowers her again on the bed, he continues his movement and then he felt that Addy’s already tightening around him
"Addy look at me" Toby urges her as he sense that he's going to come any moment now, Addy focuses her eyes on Toby and sees his awe for her, his adoration, like she's some kind of a goddess for him. She gasps and cries as he continues to move faster inside her.
"Toby!" Addy screamed as she reached her climax, Toby is not so far behind, he thrusts one last time and he collapses to Addy's side, slipping out of her, sweat slowly dripping from his forehead.
"That was amazing" Addy said breathlessly, her smile reflecting the afterglow
"You were amazing" Toby said still panting, he kissed her tenderly, when they pull apart Addy scoots closer and used Toby's chest as a pillow, their limbs entangled with each other underneath the blanket, his arms travels up and down her back and he placed a soft kiss on top of her head.
They made love one more time before taking a shower together and then they finally fall asleep in each other's arms.
The next morning Addy woke up and found out that Toby is nowhere to be found, she grabbed her underwear and Toby's shirt then quickly went out of the room.
While she was walking around his flat she heard someone cooking in the kitchen.
"Morning, darling" Toby beams at her as she walks in. He's on his robe and he looks as sexy as ever.
"I was expecting you'd be there by my side when I woke up" Addy said walking towards him.
"Well, I made you breakfast. I expected that you'd be hungry and tired after what we did last night” Toby said teasing her
Addy felt his cheeks flushed as she walks towards him, his arms opening for an embrace
“did you sleep well?” Toby said while holding Addy, he’s taller than her so her head rests on his shoulder, he embraced her even tighter to protect her from the cold breeze of the morning
“hmmm” Addy just nodded as she buries her head in his warm embrace, her hands touching his chest
“if you want, we could do it all over” Toby suggested, his hand slowly caresses the back of her head
“do what all over?” Addy said looking at him, her voice slightly confused
“you waking up… but this time, I’ll be there by your side” Toby said as he plants a tender kiss on her temple
“that’s silly” Addy laughed as she continues to hold him
“It is not” Toby faked a frown
“It is” Addy said while still smiling at him
“It is not” Toby insisted as he stares at Addy convincingly, he pleads her with a look he knows she can’t resist
“ok fine, fine” Addy said giving in to his suggestion
They went back to his bedroom, hand in hand. Addy crawls back to the bad and pretend that she’s asleep, Toby does the same. He lets Addy ‘sleep’ in his arms as he gently holds her lower back, her hands are on his chest as she pulls him closer. Toby took the opportunity to look at her, he has always known that she’s beautiful but it’s her look now that takes his breath away, her serene and peaceful face makes him want to just lie there all day. He waits several minutes before ‘waking’ her up. He kissed her nose but she refused to open her eyes, Toby soon found a stray feather (probably from one of his pillows) and tickles it inside her ear.
“oh my—God! That—tickles! Stop it” Addy bursts out laughing as she grabs a pillow and buries her head into it, she covers her ears as Toby mercilessly tickles her with a tiny feather
“Toby st—op!” Addy said barely audible, her voice still breathless from laughing too much
“ok I’ll stop” Toby said after he’s done torturing Addy on his bed, he threw the feather away as he convinced Addy that it’s gone
“the feather’s gone, look” Toby said as he shows Addy his empty hands
“where is it, where did you put it?” Addy asked almost excited, she sits up and frees herself from the piles of pillow that served as her shield
“why, so you can plot a revenge plan on me later?” Toby teased, smiling at Addy
“yeah and maybe later when you sleep, I’ll tickle your nose using it” Addy laughed as she imagines the scenario
“you wouldn’t dare” Toby said as gives Addy a small peck on the lips, they heard the doorbell rang and Toby slowly stood up
“be right back” Toby said as he puts a kiss on top of Addy’s head, she smiles to him as she watched him walk away
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“Toby I’m sorry, whatever it is that went wrong we’ll fix it, ok? We always does, just—don’t end this” The woman at the door said, her voice breaking, she seems tired and exhausted, like she just came from somewhere far
“Tara—what are you doing here?” Toby said his voice equally confused and shocked
“I came here for you…aren’t you going to let me in? I went here straight from the airport and—“
Tara explained but she was interrupted by someone
“Toby have you seen my—“ Addy wasn’t able to finish what she’s going to say when she saw the woman at the door, it’s Tara, his Tara, his ex-girlfriend
Tara was shocked as she stares at Addy, she sees her wearing only Toby’s shirt and her underwear while Toby wears only a robe and from the look of things she already knew what happened last night. She looks at Addy with betrayal and disgust.
Tara quickly walks out taking her things with her
“Tara!”
“Tara wait!” Toby ran after her leaving Addy alone in his apartment, shocked and shaken by the situation.
She slowly sits down to the nearest couch as she lets out small sobs. She buries her face on her hands to let the recent happenings sink in, she then head back to the bedroom and gathers her things quickly.
Soon enough no one was left in Toby’s apartment. And when he came back from chasing after Tara, no one was there.