Author's Note:
This is simply a prologue. I have no idea what the layout is going to look like on this, with the centering and such. Um, I have BPD, so I do know what I'm writing about. I'm not taking something and just writing about it. I know people who have had eating disorders. I know people who have self-harmed. So nothing that I write will in this will ever be a guess at how things are. Uh, I hope that this doesn't turn people off. Hopefully by the last line you can somewhat tell what I'm going to do. And if not, I can always explain. Just a summary, but I will be writing the summary right after I post this. Don't be offended. Nothing graffic will be posted on here. She will not have the disorders, just a slight case of BPD because it takes much longer than eight months to cure that. No self-harm will be mentioned in this book, maybe just her talking about it. I'll warn you. I don't want to trigger anyone. I think that's it. It's a love story. That's all I write. Hopefully you'll read the book. Enjoy.
I was always so good at keeping everything hidden from the public, my life was private, my career was out in the open, and that was it, nothing else, not my relationships, not my friendships, not my choices, not my materials, nothing but my career was made public. That’s how I lived, all the time, I went home and no one was lingering in the bushes, I went home and no one was holding a video camera to tape everything that I do, and I went home and was just me, Braelyn Jefferson, not that actress Braelyn Jefferson.
But, one day, I don’t even remember when, everything became mixed, my private life became public, and all of a sudden, I was in the tabloids, those stupid magazines that I so desperately tried to stay away from, not even a picture of me walking down the street was in one of them, until then. I was no longer just an actress, I was the Perfect American Girl, who just so happened to not be all that perfect in the eyes of society, because I wasn’t skinny like a model, but I didn’t have boobs like Pamela Anderson, I was the role model for all the girls who were in that normal weight category. But, no one wanted that from a teenage actress; you’re skinny or overweight, and healthy – what’s that?
BRAELYN JEFFERSON ADMITTED INTO A MENTAL HOSPITAL
Just yesterday, February 3rd, 2012, actress Braelyn Jefferson (18) was admitted into a mental hospital. That hospital, Larkin’s Health Hospital, closed its doors to reporters and whisked Jefferson into the halls and into a room that must be her home now.
According to inside sources on her most recent movie set, “[Braelyn] wasn’t herself. [She] wouldn’t eat and she was throwing up a lot. [And she was] always in the gym when she wasn’t needed on the set. She wore jeans in the middle of summer in Texas, which was odd. Her temper worsened, anything set her off.”
It seems like Braelyn Jefferson, the titled Perfect American Girl, is going through a mental breakdown. Anorexia and bulimia, cutting and what seems like another mental illness.
You might know her from the various movies she’s stared in, five different movies in only three and a half years: her first, the action film Instant Justice; Cashing Checks, the Oscar nominated movie for Best Picture about a senior in high school and the need to get money for college; Discovering You which got Jefferson both the Best Romance award and the Best Actress in Romance at the Teen Choice Awards; her first horror movie, because let’s face it every great actress stars in at least one horror movie, Death Demon; and the most recent True Life, which she starred in with now best friend Beau Mirchoff, and was based off of work with BringChange2Mind.
BringChange2Mind is an organization that Jefferson said was “close to her heart and one of the only organizations she fully believes in.” Now we know why.
That would explain her serious weight loss; she went from the hourglass princess to the pencil-like girl she is now. However, what we don’t understand is why she would have to forcefully vomit on top of starving herself?
There are no signs of cutting, but apparently she stuck to different types of self-harm, excluding the already known starving and purging. It’s been said that Jefferson pulled strands of her hair out, “one-by-one, like someone does when they’re in serious pain, like you see in the movies” says close friend.
Reps have not answered phone calls and are avoiding the topic. But, they can’t ignore it for long. People are growing curious. What happens to her two movies that are set to begin filming in the summer?
Insiders say that Braelyn was just diagnosed with a personality disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder. We did our research on this disorder, and it looks like she’s going to be in the hospital for a long time if she wants to get better and no longer have this disorder.
She was seen, only two weeks before the admittance, smiling with friends. We contacted the owner of the bowling alley she and friends were spotted at and he says, “Nothing really seemed right. She ignored all the fans who stared at her and simply signed autographs for the ones brave enough to walk up to her. She looked angry with the attention.”
I think we can all say that we would all be angry with the attention, but her behavior wasn’t like her normal behavior. If anything, she’s the one celebrity who is always willing to stop and sign autographs and even take a few pictures.
Clearly, the girl needs help, and hopefully she gets the help she needs and deserves.
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APPARENTLY IT’S BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER THAT CAPTURED BRAELYN JEFFERSON
It’s almost a week since Braelyn Jefferson (18) was hospitalized and people are beginning to talk. Close friends who asked to remain anonymous have hinted at a disorder called Borderline Personality Disorder along with all the other illnesses that Jefferson is dealing with.
According to psychology.about.com, Borderline Personality Disorder is defined as a serious mental illness characterized by pervasive instability in moods, interpersonal relationships, self-image, and behavior, and this instability often disrupts family and work life, long-term planning, and the individual's sense of self-identity.
Now, I'm no psychologist, and I majored in Journalism, but now that Braelyn Jefferson was supposedly diagnosed with this disorder, everyone wants to know what it is. So, I'm going to try to explain.
Before I do this, and before you continue to read on, please remember that Braelyn is not only struggling with this disorder. Close friends say that her problems also include purging, anorexia, and different forms of almost unnoticeable self-harm. From what I have learned about Borderline Personality Disorder is that it doesn’t always stand by itself – there will probably be another illness involved. And yes, I said illness. This disorder is now considered a mental illness.
Criteria 1 – Abandonment Fears: These come from separation anxiety. They anticipate separation or rejection and that typically leads to changes in self-image, or how they see themselves, the mind, and behavior. Typically, they have intolerance for being alone. Didn’t her mother leave the family when she was young?
Criteria 2 – Unstable Intense Relationships: Their black and white thinking, or their extreme thinking, often leads them to see a significant other either as flawless or undervalued. When angry with the loved one, they seem to ignore and push it away to preserve the goodness. Does that remind any of you of her relationship with Logan Lerman, or who she never seems to have a friend for longer than seven months (excluding Beau)?
Criteria 3 – Identity Disturbance: Borderline Personality Disorder patients have an unstable and weak self-image. She must not like her curves considering she has eating disorders.
Criteria 4 – Impulsivity: Sometimes the intention is self-damaging, but most of the time the effects of the impulsivity is self-damaging. Common forms of impulsive behavior for borderline patients are substance or alcohol abuse, bulimia, unprotected sex, promiscuity, and reckless driving. Well, she is bulimic, and she did quit a movie three days before filming was supposed to start.
Criteria 5 – Suicidal or Self-Injurious Behavior: Well, that one is enough said. These moods only last a few hours, typically. From starving to purging to pulling her hair out, she’s definitely harming herself.
Criteria 6 – Emptiness: It’s said that the patients can feel the emptiness in the chest or abdomen region. This emptiness is associated with loneliness and neediness. That one I'm not sure of. No one mentioned her having pains. And her reps won’t answer calls about her hospitalization.
Criteria 7 – Anger: It is not known if the anger is from genetics or just the environment. Even when anger is not expressed, people with Borderline Personality Disorder report feeling angry. Research states that often anger is followed by shame or a sense of being evil. Well, friends of Jefferson have said that she has been angry recently…
Criteria 8 - Psychotic-like Perpetual Distortions: This sounds worse than it is. What this means is that sometimes people with this disorder feel that the world is unreal or feel unreal. I do know that Braelyn sometimes does not like to accept reality. I don’t really understand this part of the disorder, but maybe she has this, who knows?
Now, I'm not saying that we should all discuss whatever this is and tell the world about it like we know everything there is to know. All I'm doing is telling the public what apparently plagues Braelyn Jefferson.
Remember, she has so many other things wrong that this isn’t the only thing.
Reps still won’t discuss this and I'm just trying to keep you informed.
BRAELYN JEFFERSON SPOTTED LEAVING LARKIN’S HEALTH HOSPITAL
Today, October 20th, 2012, Braelyn Jefferson (18), the Perfect American Girl, the wonderful actress, was spotted leaving the hospital that she was admitted to in April. She has been discharged and reps have finally answered calls pertaining to Jefferson.
“She’s in a good place now. We’re going to give her about a month, a little over a month, and then she wants to start filming again. She wants to get right back into it, but we think she should have some time. Everything has worked out for her and she’s happy again. That’s all that matters,” says Lisa Marshall, the longtime agent of Jefferson.
At least fifteen pounds lighter than she was when she filmed True Life, Jefferson is finally back. She has not made any appearances or statements just yet.
Beau Mirchoff was seen walking out with her, alongside her father, younger sister, and Lisa. “There’s no need for you to be discussing anything about her private life, especially something like this. It’s actually disgusting that you’re still writing about it as if you think she’s this animal,” Beau went off on our reporter when he apparently stepped too close to Jefferson to ask her a question about her eating disorders.
That might be true, Beau, but let’s face it. She’s Braelyn Jefferson. Nothing that girl does is private. Just like nothing One Direction does is private. She’s the One Direction of actors.