you followed michael up the driveway to jordan's house. jordan opened the door and greeted you guys.
jordan: heyy...yoo... uh, w-what happened to your face?
you brought your hand up to your face. was it visible? you couldn't go home like this.
y/n: i was play fighting with my brother and he accidentally hit me too hard.
michael cleared his throat and changed the topic.
michael: we home alone?
jordan: yessir
you guys went in to his room.
nikki: just in timee
gael brought out some pills.
gael: fentanyl
your adrenaline went up. you stared at it. he held his hand out, waiting for you to take one.
nikki: only one
y/n: do you guys do these drugs daily?
you said grabbing the pill.
nikki: nahh.
gael: like, barley.
jordan: we're just here to help you see what makes you feel the best. and to make you feel better.
michael sat down on the floor opening his hand, motioning for you to take it. you did and sat on the floor next to him.
you took the pill.
last thing you remembered was gael telling you how you'd soon start to feel.
sooner or later the world slowed. and so did your breathing. you could barley breath, or were you breathing too fast? you didn't know. your cheeks and jaw hurt from smiling. you were slightly freaking out, but happy.
you felt like you did when you and mattia went on that road trip. when the wind was blowing through your hair, and music was playing. and he had your hand in his. when you felt so loved and happy.
or when you used to lay in your parents arms as they held you. and you felt safe. or when your brother actually looked up to you.
you lifted your arms and threw your head back, resulting in you laying on the floor. you felt sweaty.
but you didn't care.
you didn't care that michael had hit you, and that you see him as a total different person now. you didn't care that you wanted mattia back so bad. you didn't care that your own parents made you feel so bad about yourself every single day of your whole fucking life. you didn't care that half the world hated you.
it was the moment that mattered. life slowed. everything was blurry, almost delayed. where were you? you laid there, stiff. you couldn't swallow your saliva.
but you were happy. so, motherfuckin, happy.
and you just laid there. in the clouds. you felt like you were on the beach, happily.
until it all slipped away. leaving you craving more of it.
michael: y/n?
you weakly got up, using your elbows to push yourself up.
y/n: yeah
nikki: ooo girl you was GONEEE
they all laughed. you groaned.
y/n: i'm.... tired.
michael: yeah. i know.
he got up and helped you up as well.
jordan: where are you guys going?
gael: leaving so soon?
michael: well, imma drop her off back home. so she can settle down there before her parents come home. i mean look at her.
what's that supposed to mean? you guys said bye and he took you home.
michael: you should cover that up.
he said, pointing at your now prominent bruise. he was in front of your house. you flipped the mirror down and looked at your bruise. shit. it was purple and green. you sat their in disbelief. he did this to you.
michael: look baby i'm sorry. i really am. but i love you. here, tomorrow i'll take you out for sushi. i know how much you like sushi.
you continued to stare at your reflection. the more you stared the more you thought:
who am i?
you didn't know anymore. you flipped the mirror back up and kissed michael.
y/n: goodbye.
michael: see you tomorrow?
y/n: yeah.
you left and looked up at mattia's window. you saw movement. was he staring? whatever. you were too tired to even think about knocking on his door and try to make peace. plus, you had some covering up to do.
mattia's pov
the boys were over. we had a week of school off and today we had planned a sleepover. which meant opening the stupid window.
roshuan: you can't keep the window closed forever just because of her. plus, you need to move on. with lena
alvaro has opened the window to make a dumb tiktok and left it open.
alvaro: have you and y/n talked recently?
alejandro: bruh forget about y/n, how's lena?
he said in a teasing voice.
i was currently laying in my bed on my phone, perfect view outside the window. y/n's window stayed shut.
roshuan: mattia?
i shook out of thought.
mattia: huh?
roshuan: how's you and lena??
kairi: she better not do you dirty like y/n
he said making a fake puke noise
mattia: we're doing great actually. yeah
i saw an unfamiliar car pull up in y/n's driveway. 2 figures kissed,
and then i saw y/n get out.
fucking bitch.
i couldn't really see her face but next thing you know alejandro's closing the window. he looked at me with disappointment.
alvaro: smh my head
roshuan: stoppp looking at her
kairi: literally just forget about her
i rolled my eyes and then closed them.
should i try and talk to her?
wait
no
fuck no
she kissed my best friend! maybe i'm just being a little stubborn. i should-
alejandro: you need a distraction or something.
alvaro passed me his juul and i took a hit.
fuck everything.
mattia: imma facetime allison so be quiet
....
lena: hiii
mattia: hey cutie
she laughed. roshuan peeped his head into the camera and did a "sucking dick" gesture. i pushed his head away
mattia: nasty ass. oh yeah gian wanted y/s/n to come over so they're probably going to bother us so hide the vapes.
alejandro: just lock the door?
lena: aww wish i was there. sounds fun.
mattia: same.
fuck. i wanted y/s/n to come here so i can ask him about y/n.
or know something about her
and how she was doing.
FUCK.
i did it again! i shouldn't be worrying about her.
whatever. i kept talking with lena trying to forget about y/n.
regular pov
y/s/n: where were you? what's up with your face?
💭 mind your own fucking buisness 💭
y/n: out for a run since i'm so fat. and remember? mom slapped me.
he just looked at you weird and continued to watch tv
y/s/n: gian wants to hangout. imma go next door.
you were glad to hear that you hadn't ruined gian and your brothers friendship up. since you ruined everything. he then left.
you stole a few pills. you didn't think it'd matter. they had all the drugs in the world! you only stole like, 2.
ok, 5.
but it didn't matter. nothing did. you had all the happiness in the world, in your hands.
you hid it in your stash and went to cover up your face with makeup. then you took a fat ass nap.