It's been eighteen months since I have last seen that flaring red hair , that stupid ass smirk and those golden eyes that I hate so much . It's been so long . Should I just..move on? I can't , can I ?
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While Hisoka was getting all hyped up , cinematically yelling at air , I was busy feeling kinda icky . I couldn't ignore the fact that this has all been way too easy . We've only been in the Hunter x Hunter world for what? A couple days? And we've already managed to solve that riddle with Illumi's magnificent powers of stalking? It can't have been just that . I mean I obviously want to be happy for him ; He is probably thinking the same way as I am . Perhaps he was repressing the overthinking details for later use . Solving that riddle had been our goal all along and now that we've achieved it , what were we to do ?
Before I could carefully ask Hisoka the same question - since I didn't wish to worry him all over - , a voice seemed to ring around the place as if we were surrounded by some huge entity . I couldn't exactly pinpoint what the voice was saying as it was very incoherent , some gibberish unclear hundreds of words all at once . Naturally , I dreaded their meaning .
Something was happening .
An answer to my thoughts and worries . Suddenly , the sky , the ground , the buildings around us all seemed to collapse down , gradually compressed and rumpled till they became mere particles of dust . There was a black hole , very near to where we were standing , which took the shape of a human . It looked gooey and displeasing but, strangely enough , it was repelling the dust instead of sucking it in . The void - induced from the breaking down of everything around the three of us - was closing in on us , approaching us from all directions . Leaving us nowhere to run to or hide .
I was panicking . I was genuinely scared . Something about the way everything slowly fell to its doom was nagging at my sanity . I wanted to scream , I wanted to jump into the whole to make it over fast . The hole was somehow attracting me towards it...
If I jumped there , I would feel no pain . I had no idea where those words came from . Did I speak them out loud? They just seemed so convincing , so pulling , doubtless..
At my line of sight was Hisoka's mother as well , standing much closer to the hole than I was -staring blankly and longingly to it . I fathomlessly envied her . I had no reason why . I just did . I felt an intense desire to race and get to the hole before her , like some kind of an essential victory .
"Ally! Ally!! ...Mom! What's wrong with all of you? DON'T YOU DARE JUMP."
That sweet voice seemed to bring me out from my daze . Warm large arms held me , shook me strongly .
"Hm?"
"Forgive me for this ." He slapped me - not so lightly - bringing me back to reality .
"THAT HURTS , Who do you think you are , slapping me like that?!"
"Finally . Slap mom for me , NOW ."
"What are you talking about?"
"Ally ." He pursed his lips in a fine line .
"Uh. Okay." I've never seen Hisoka look this tense before . For some reason , I couldn't really be aware of my surroundings just yet . I felt somehow robotic but at least I was acting on my own will . I did as he told me , bowing and apologizing to his mother after she had broken out of the trance I had just been in . Hisoka was clearly panicking as well . Though he was trying his best not to show it . Still trying to be a tough boy when we had no idea what was coming of us .
In no time , The green-haired man appeared over a spot far away from reach . We both knew Hisoka wouldn't have let him get away without a hundred or so punches right in the face .
"Are you scared , now? You think I can't push them back to that hole ? To their deaths?"
"What are you saying?" Hisoka stammered .
"He's lying . It isn't our death . It's how we'll be saved ." Still in awe with the hole , probably as part of whatever charm Hisoka's mother and I were out under , I exclaimed poetically . It really wasn't time for extra drama , dear me .
"How did you manage to know , young lady ?" Uh- I didn't- I was just making a metaphor .
"Truth is , it's a trap Morrow . I'm very sorry to inform you ." he cackled . " I seem to enjoy fooling you so much . I organized this meeting . I meant to take the people you care about so much away in a whim by manipulating them to throw themselves into that hole , make you think they died because of you and your games and the consequences to your impulsive actions . However , I am not able to kill , not even a fly for I sacrificed so many of normal traits to be able to use this power . Still , it won't matter much . They'd be sent off back to the human world , far far away from you ." Hisoka was cast down with those dark thoughts . His face revealed it .
"Sad? Why is that? You've been always rotting alone anyways . Had a change of heart? Are you not the Hisoka people had always been careful to avoid anymore , the sinister clown who always got his way through anything?"
One thing I could never understand was why we had to know the entirety of this speech . Why go through the trouble , as an antagonist , to inform us of all the details you could muster? Still ,
It was a meant as a mockery but the last sentence seemed to excite Hisoka himself . His bloodlust was boiling , all over the place . It was true . He ALWAYS had his way .
I held his arm , exclaiming "I'm not leaving without you . Come on ,you can leave all that behind . Come with me , you know now it won't kill us though I knew you would've come after us even if it did , in attempt to save us . Everything is collapsing . We don't have much time ."
He had to choose , between me or his anime , unworldly self .
Hisoka was silent , in deep thought . Then he cleared his throat , clenching his jaw ,
"I'm staying here , Ally . I'll figure this out , the collapse won't kill me or mom , but it would destroy you . I can't come with you , not now at least ."
"What do you mean you're not coming with me? Are you giving up on me?" my vision was being clouded . Was I delusional this whole time? Did he not like me? Did he not love me as much as I did , willing to make effort to stay with me?
"Do I look to you like someone who'd give up what's theirs?"
"H-huh?" I kid you not , I fully gasped .
"Dumbass , I'd full make out with you right now on the spot if I could ." Was this Hisoka's way of saying he did like me? Sometimes , I barely understand him I swear .
"Go now . Take mom with you . I have things to settle . They can't mess with me . They can't pester Hisoka Morrow and get away with it . If I were to leave my world , I'd leave with my name repulsively ringing in ears ." He smirked , ruthlessly. I smiled . I liked how he was talking . I couldn't help but agree . I wanted to see him stand straight to his enemies .
I had Hisoka's mom's hand in mine . She was proudly smiling at her son , in tears , not even being able to mutter the right words . She let her eyes do the job . It was horribly harder for her than it ever be for me , she was leaving her son right after she had found him after all these years . He smiled back at her . Looking longingly at me , his eyes saying goodbye like it was the last time we'd see each other again , he yelled :
"I'll find a way! Wait for me , brat!"
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fInd A wAy mY bUTt yOu dAre cAlL mE A brAT
I came back from my daily dose of daydreaming-or-rather-recalling-past-moments-that-bothered-the-shit-out-of-you-but-you-like-thinking-of-them-because-you-like-pain-and-you-sorta - are- a-masochist . I was walking back from work . Yep , same old job . Haven't touched anime in so long . Sigh , I miss being a fangirl . I miss watching shit and actually enjoying it without having that stupid clown face pop into my mind and then proceed to ugly sob . I'm probably being pathetic , I am aware , but I just miss him in my life so much . I got so used to having him around . Arghh! Everywhere there's a memory of him! It's my fault for showing him around so much! Heck , every room of my flat has a memory of his annoying face with his damned perfect hair .
Tip : Don't show someone you like many places . It's not fun later onward . :")
You know well what could happen . The usual , in case they had to stay back in a parallel world to keep their name or whatever extra edginess that was and keep you waiting .
It's been so long . Could he ever really get back?
I genuinely didn't want to think pessimistically . It broke me apart . Yet , wouldn't anyone do just the same after a year and a half? Waiting for an a n i m e c h a r a c t e r t o c o m e b a c k t o l i f e . Gasp , Was it all a dream? It would make so much sense . No , No , it wasn't . I have lots of proof that I can't even convince myself it was just a ridiculous fantasy of mine . Plus , I didn't want to...
Sigh .
It was like any other day . You know when you're waiting for something to happen and there's this spark that you fear your thoughts be put down? That spark at the very beginning of the day : when you silently persuade yourself that 'today will be different' ? And before you could notice , you'd imagine scenarios about how it all goes ? It's a jarring silent process . Because if you did talk about it too much with yourself , you'd be causing it to repel somehow? No? Just me? Well then , yeah , that was how I urged my train of thoughts to start moving . At the end of the day , you are only half or a quarter disappointed . Since you weren't wholly relying on false hope but rather in a vague indirect manner . You allow yourself to be sure that there's a high probability non of your scenarios and dreams would happen anyways .
I had just been done with my shift . I was walking back home instead of the bus . With an audiobook of a drama play in my ears , a can of cola in my hand , I was marching back to my flat in such nice weather . Somehow , the day was going so good today that I already anticipated its disappointing ending . At the building doorstep , fidgeting with my earphones to put them back in my purse since the landlady likes to chatter with me a lot ( i didn't want to come off as rude), I heard it . That voice I've been longing for .
"Ally- chaaan! Hey , care for some gum?"
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Her jaw was wide open . She stared . His clown impression earning looks from people passing by , Hisoka looked absolutely the same . It was like a flashback , a recap to the past . As if history was repeating but she was not going to dare repeat the same mistake . She ought to teach him a lesson . He approached her , grinning even . He DARES to smile . She thought , fuming . She could feel her face burning hot . Without any warnings , She punched him . Small her just punched him in the face , thrashed and hit him repeatedly on his arms and broad chest .
"You disappear for 18 months! And come back asking to give me gum? I hATE YOU I HATE YOU SO MUCH . Go back to your hxh world , i don't want you here get out!" Angry was an understatement .
He wanted to kiss her . To seal all the yelling with a long , passionate kiss . Not because she was noisy but rather because with the way she was acting , he was feeling terrible . And to be fair and honest , she had the right to act how she was . He didn't blame her . She needed that . She longed for this as much as he did . For their reunion , for the day she'd let out all these concealed hard feelings . Interrupting her outburst wouldn't be romantic , it's be inconsiderate and selfish of me . He thought .
"As much as I don't understand this world , I highly recommend you take note of the people passing ." Hisoka , glancing around in desperation , whispered .
"YOU THINK I CARE? they're probably laughing at how dumb you look ANYWAYS . Is it really the time that you think of others now? Ah , of course . Why would you-" She proceeded to hit him . "think about me (she was weakly kicking his side at the moment) after leaving me alone for all that long?! You think I'm still waiting? HAH! AS IF! I'm already seeing someone else and I'm engaged to be married ." Her hot temper had turned Ally's face so red .
"Is that why I see no rings? And I see you have a matching earring?"
She was wearing the same earring as his . Gold and dangling and long with a heart at the end . Her face , already red , went in an instant blush .
"Aight , I'm cutting off my cOntAmInAteD ear I guess."
"Hey , just-just have some gum and give me a moment . You have all the right-"
"AGAIN WITH THE GUM . you only care about your stupid bungee gum , don't you?" Now she began sniffing like a baby , crying over gum . I swear she's a little brat- He had no idea what to do. Why was it not going well , as he had imagined? Him , cool and broody , emerging out of the blue with blinding lights around him as he marched forward for the love of live...Guess , he got carried away .
"No , I don't . I care about you ...too." He hastily replied .
"TOO"
"I mean.." He stopped . Hoping he'd at least make her slightly laugh , he said , "Did you know bungee gum possesses the properties of both rubber and gum?"
she seemed to giggle at that , thank god . With that soft smile and laugh that comes between crying , she hastily wiped her tears . Some tears remained stuck on her face dry while some glistened wet . I was about to take her into my arms , pat her head and stroke her back and hair , babying her till she wasn't crying anymore but the moment my hand held her arm , she scowled and furrowed her eyebrows at me , sending death glares .
"Don't touch me." Ally pouted , angrily . Her intense gaze , her eyes seemed to give it away . She wanted me to . She was fighting with herself at the moment . He was with her now , He was not going anywhere . There was enough time to tell her how he feel and what had happened but he was certain letting her get it out was what they both needed as a start .
"I didn't know you liked me this much ." Hisoka teased , reading her .
"Bitch you narcissistic fu**ing mother fu**er!"
"Woah!" He blinked a few times . " Such a foul mouth? My girl has sure upgraded ."
"I'm not your girl ." She looked at the ground , still frowning and crossing her arms like the most adorable being she was . My mind was screaming holdherholdher followed by kiss her but I just have to wait a little bit more . Till we make up . I clenched my fist .
"Sorry . I've missed you ." Hisoka said , abruptly .
"....."
"I really did . To the point I was frustrated and angry at everything ."
"....I missed you too ." Slowly , she replied , casting her eyes away and playing with her fingers .
I smiled . She squinted her eyes , "But don't get any ideas , you hear me? I'm still blowing you off ."
"I know it took me long . At least it's not five years or something , right?"
Was I still doing this wrong? Yes , yes I was . She glared even harder .
"How did you do manage to do it?"
"Well , when you're me , Hisoka Morrow , Alot owe you something , somehow . Like the devil . And they want to pay you back in any means just so that they're no longer associated with you . Let's say one of them was an aspiring nen exorcist , specialist who could send me here with my memories intact . I never knew where to find him , he was in and out of realms , exploring the entire time . Also , not that you asked , but Kastro and that dude suffered alright ."
"Yeah , yeah . Don't go into details , I don't want to hear about how cool you are because we know it already ." the moment she said it , she regretted speaking up and turned away , blushing . We stayed in silence for a few moments .
"I almost gave up on you ." She broke the silence .
"Did you really?"
"...No . no I didn't"
Hisoka softly chuckled , "You're so see-through ."
"shut up , idiot ."
"you were... coming back from work?"
"Yeah . Work and home . It was hard and lonely okay?I have been nowhere-"
"Say the customer who came everyday for cake and chitchats with the waiters till they secretly wish to kick you out ." said an overhearing passerby guy - who was most likely one of the aforementioned waiters -before Ally could continue with her endless whines .
"DONT ATTACK ME!" She yelled back , clearly embarrassed .
"We do enjoy your company ma'am but please refrain from coming for a week or so!" The passerby quickened to a sprint , vanishing from sight before she could shoot back another loud reply .
"Aren't you going to miss it ? You know..back there? Uncle Togashi better write something about this . I'd love to go in history ." Ally asked , seemingly carefully . If he had wished or longed for going back , she wasn't going to force him to stay even if she was aching .
"I think I've fulfilled enough ." Hisoka smiled , contentedly . "I'd miss the company of characters tho . But! Now , I'm my own person . I do whatever I wish to do . No one has control over me . Unless..." He approached her , licking his lips , "you wanna make me do things . Then i'd gladly oblige , madam ."
"You dare have the audacity to require steamy time between you and me after all that? I'm giving you silent treatment if you haven't guessed . I've already decided ." to require steamy time? Why did I word it like that- Is my lack of fanfics dawning on me? Ally thought in embarrassment and slight shame .
"Oh? " Hisoka raised his eyebrow . "Does this count as a silent treatment then?"
He grabbed her arm before she could move away to the stairs - and shut the building door probably to his sorry face- and stole a long and passionate kiss . She squirmed at first , making his body feel hotter . He had to clutch her small back a bit tighter to stop her from running away .
"What are you doing?! We're in the street! Stop it!" Ally huffed furiously .
"Didn't you say you didn't care about people?" Hisoka grinned .
"Ugh fine , just fine! We're TALKING in my flat ."
"Home!"
"...yeah..home ." He could tell she was struggling , holding herself not to yell and say something sarcastic like hOme mY fOot siLLY CloWN yeAh rIgHT .
she was already forgiving me , wasn't she? Honestly no one can put up with me like her . Her heart was soft just like that . and I am going to take care of it , cherishing it as long as I live .
He felt a strong sense of duty , like he was a soldier pledging loyalty to his queen .
She was fumbling with her keys , a bit agitated . Hisoka took them himself , unlocking the door instead . They both got in and he shut it behind him , making sure he locked it locking it well . There was no time for one more scolding . They took off their shoes by the mat ; she took off her purse , freed her pockets and watch .
"For the record , we're not DONE talking . Plus , I'd like to add that there are even more rules to this flat now."
"Mmhm ." Hisoka hummed in response ."How about rule number one? "
"And what is that?" She rolled her eyes , ready for some dumb tease .
"I love you ."
She stared , eyes wide .
I said it . I SAID IT . Hisoka tried to keep calm . He's been out with many people , back in his world , but he couldn't recall a single time of him genuinely uttering those words . She swallowed and stammered but her eyes were glowing bright with happiness . He softly pinned her against the wall , his hands around her thighs as he caressed them gently . Their faces were inches away from each other . He leaned in and their lips met . At first , it was soft and sweet then the longing brought back all the wanting and the kisses deepened , becoming longer . She had her arms sneak over his neck , pulling him as close to her as she could as if he was going to fly away in an instant . Their faces were hot and their lips were burning . Still , his lips came and went and he kissed her again and again . When he broke off her lips , their chests heaving up and down , his lips started trailing over her jaw , cheek and softly nipping at her ear . Somewhere between the whole process , she mumbled an "I love you too" but wasn't sure if he had heard it . She meant to say it again whenever she had the chance . But she really needed to be rest assured , because he heard it vividly and his heart did a little dance after her mouth uttered those words . He seemed to have regained a bit of his composure for he remembered what they had been talking about .
"And rule two ," He began, as some sort of a continuation . Hisoka carried Ally in a swift , his arms on her back as she responded , closing her legs around his torso . She was giddy , giggling and gazing at him in a dazed loving way . She really was in love . With that bratty clown . She pecked his lips , her thumbs running circles over his cheeks . He found her giggles exceedingly beautiful and precious . He strode off to the bedroom with her , his eyes can't seem to not lock with hers . He was only hoping he wouldn't trip .
"Let's make up tonight for the past year and half , shall we?" Although he was going for a play-it-cool-smirk , he found himself laughing as well . Dammit , she was contagious .
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I stayed up late to finish this because I was so excited????? I've been out of mood for a while because the chemistry exams I recently had , absorbed all my energy but your comments were so encouraging and precious AND I CHERISH YOU ALL WITH MY HEART I LOVE YOU I REALLY DO!!! Honestly this book has been one of my happiest journeys . Though it is crappy and rushed and barely edited at some parts , I hope you do enjoy it and it helps bring a smile to your face somehow! I love quirky , light-hearted plots sm! I'm aware this book is heavily flawed yet I am in such awe of how much love you've given it???? I'm so grateful????
There's still a short epilogue chapter coming , mostly to sum up things and add details to the future of the couple ? But this chapter could be regarded as an ending anyhow so come be emo with me that Nenless is a step away from ending T-T .
(BUT that also means a new book is on its way huehuehuehue i'm gonna give a lil hint it's a love triangle between Chrollo and Hisoka and reader/oc (i have no idea) : 3)
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