Lutang lang ako habang nakamukmok sa kwarto ko. I attended my classes pero wala naman akong naiintindihan. I am avoiding Blaze and Flynn cause I don't want them to worry. I know they're courting Summer and Violet. Ayaw kong magalit na naman sila sakin dahil nabaling na naman ang atensiyon ng dalawa sakin.
Speaking of Aziel. He doesn't show up for days after he take me home the other night.
I missed him. I really do. Kasi alam kong kaya niyang intindihin ang nararamdaman ko ngayon.
I let out a heavy breath atsaka ko tinapon ang unan na nakapa ko. I hate him. I hate my father. Especially my mother. I hate the both of them.
Paano nila nakayang tiisin ako.
Agad na bumangon ako at naglakad patungo sa banyo. Naiihi ako.
Wala sa sariling napatingin ako sa salamin kung saan nakikita ko ang kalagayan ko ngayon. May eyebags na ako dahil sa hindi pagtulog ng ilang gabi. My lips were paled na tila wala na itong buhay kahit kinagat-kagat ko pa ito.
I chuckled coldly. Agad na umihi ako at nagpasya ng maligo at ayusan ang sarili. This is really not me.
Nang matapos na ako ay agad kong napagpasyahan na magpunta sa cafeteria para kumuha ng makakain.
Kumunot ang noo ko ng mapansing may design na nakasabit sa mga dormitory.
Mas lalong kumunot ang noo ko ng makita ko ang lalaking sobrang namiss ko pero may nakalingkis naman itong babae sa braso niya.
Fuck it. Mas lalong nadagdagan ang poot na nararamdaman ko.
His gaze landed to mine as I looked at him coldy. Agad na lumihis ako ng direksiyon para hindi siya makasalubong. Pakiramdam ko mas lalong pinipiga ang puso ko.
I thought. I thought he would be here in my side all the times. Comforts me. Mukhang wala na nga talaga akong kakampi sa mundong ito.
Agad na pumila ako para umorder. There is no Blaze to accompany me and no Flynn to order our food. I think I should practice myself eating alone. Without anyone in my whole life.
Nang makaorder ako, I was about to turn my back ng may bumangga sakin dahilan para muntikan ng mahulog ang lahat ng pagkain ko.
Kita ko kung paano siya naalerto. He looked at me with apologizing eyes. " I'm sorry Miss. Hindi ko sinasadya. " paghingi niya ng tawad.
Nagsikuhan naman ang mga lalaking nasa likod niya na mukhang kasama niya ata. " Miss anong pangalan mo? " tanong ng nasa likod at biglang sumulpot sa harapan ko.
" Katherine. " tipid kong sagot at agad na naglakad palayo. Every student in Blue knows me. I wonder why they didn't. Pero napapansin ko ring kanina pa may hindi naman mga estudyante na pagala-gala sa Blue.
Pero hindi naman nagdadala ng gulo so there is nothing to worry about.
Agad na umupo ako mag-isa sa isang bakanteng mesa. I was eating silently when someone seated infornt in front of me. Hindi ko ito pinansin at nagpatuloy nalang.
" You look like an angel. " someone commented.
I gazed at him. Yung lalaking makulit pala sa counter. Kasama ang tatlo niya pang kaibigan.
" Hi Katherine. I'm Dylan. Were came from Darkenia. " pakilala ng taong nakabangga sakin.
Parang hangin ko lang silang tiningnan at nagpatuloy pa. Then I suddenly felt a strong force. I already knew who it is.
" Katherine.. " he uttered.
Hindi ko siya tiningnan at agad nalang na umalis ng hindi ko natapos ang pagkain ko.
I walked towards the gardenia. Agad na umupo ako sa upuan. Then I saw him again,walking towards my direction.
His hands are on his pocket as he walks cooly towards my direction. Na tila wala akong masakit na natanaw kanina. Kalokohan.
Agad na umupo ito sa tabi ko. Hindi ako kumibo at pilit na iniignora ang presensiya niya.
" I-I am sorry hon. " he apologized.
Hindi ako sumagot hanggang sa namalayan ko nalang ang sarili kong nagsalita. " I- I hate you.. " walang emosyon kong saad sakanya saka ko siya hinarap.
May sakit na bumalatay sa mga mata niya. He tried to touch my hands pero hindi ko hinayaang mahawakan niya ako. Nagpatuloy parin ako sa pagsalita.
" I hate you cause you made me feel that you're always at my side and now that I need you the most you just gonna left me there hanging waiting for you at makita nalang kita na may kasama kanang babae at nakalingkis pa sayo. " sabi ko sakanya.
Napailing siya. " Hon... You don't understand.. " he uttered.
I hissed. " I really don't understand. Ako ang girlfriend mo! Ako! Kailangan kita dahil ikaw nalang ang meron ako. Tapos ganito pa? " I asked him angrily.
Agad na nahawakan niya ako sa kamay at tinitigan sa mata. " Hon.. She's nothing. Inutusan lang ako ni Hm na samahan siya ngayong araw. You know. May big event ngayon sa school at kasama ang Darkenia doon. She's a daughter of a council and her father beg me to accompany her daughter.. " he explained.
Umigting ang panga ko atsaka ko kinalas ang pagkakahawak niya. " You should accompany her by this time. Baka mawala siya rito. " malamig kong sagot sakanya.
" Hon.. Please. Hindi ako nangangaliwa. I love you and you know that. " rinig akong anas niya ngunit hindi ako nagsalita.
" Hon.. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for not showing up for days. I'm just busy. I'm busy hindi dahil naghahanap ako ng ibang babae. " rinig ko namang sagot niya.
Napapikit ako ng mariin. I can't stay like this. I really need him. Nilingon ko siya ulit. He's still looking at me intently.
Without a word I pulled his hands and suddenly hugged him. He froze pero agad din naman akong yinakap.
" I'm so sorry hon.. I'm so sorry.. I love you okay? Please don't think about anything else.. " he whispered.
Napatango-tango ako at mas hinigpitan ang yakap niya. " I miss you Ziel.. I really missed you. Nakakainis ka. " bulong ko sakanya.
" I missed you too and I'm sorry. " he uttered. I pulled out of the hugged and look into his eyes.
Without letting out a single word. Aziel crashed his lips to mine. He kissed me deeply like he misses me so much morethan I missed him.
" Omg! This can't be happening. " someone uttered.
Napabitaw ako at agad na tiningnan kung kaninong boses ang nagsalita.
Tinuro ako nito. " So you're this prince's rumor girlfriend and why are you two kissing? As far as I know that prince you're holding with is my soon to be husband. " mataray nitong saad sakin.
I looked coldly at Aziel. Umiling siya. I let out a sighed. " You're day dreaming. " I uttered.
She raised her brows on me. " No I'm not. Hindi naman kasi maipagkaila na mas maganda ako sayo. " sagot nito sakin.
Hindi ko siya sinagot. I'm just waisting my saliva in this useless bitch, I don't even care if she's a daughter of the council.
She glanced at Aziel I looked straightly at her eyes. She glared at us after that she walked out.
Nilingon ko si Aziel. " She's fucking imagining she's marrying you. " sambit ko sakanya.
He shook his head. " Too bad for her. I only imagine myself marrying you. " he answered.
And with that, I just feel myself blushing on his sugar coating words.
He intertwined our hands. " Hon. No matter what happens. No matter what your decision is. I will always here to support you. " aniya.
Napatingin ako sakanya. " Don't promise Ziel. Kasi noong kailangan kita wala ka. "
He looked down. I let out a heavy sighed and cupped his chin for him to look at me. I offered him my warm smile.
" I tried and I'm still trying Ziel hon.. Kung gugustuhin mong saktan ako sa physical nalang. Huwag lang sa damdamin. " saad ko sakanya at ngumiti ng malungkot.
His eyes darkened and such emotion flashed on his eyes. He shook his head as he look at me intently.
A sad smile plastered in his face as he looked back into my eyes. His grip tightened. " I'm sorry. I did not know I'd hurt you. I just wanted to help. I just wanted to find your mother. But I guess it's a bad idea doing it. "
Napahinto ako sa sinabi niya at nanigas. He sadly smiled again. " I'm sorry. Pinangunahan kita. As your boyfriend I don't want you to worry everything hon. You've suffered enough. Enough for me to intervene your life but I guess it was a wrong move. "
Hindi parin ako makapaniwala sa sinabi niya. " And you found her? " di makapaniwalang bulalas ko.
" Yes. The Princess of Underworld. "