Surbhi's POV
Who are you to me. Why should I tell you anything. Why are you concerned so much.
These words were constantly ringing in my ears. I was a crying mess till now.
So finally I realized I am no one to him. I am no one. Yeah. Why he'll explain me anything.
Of course he don't owe me any explanations now.
Why I expected answers from him. Why Surbhi.
He was in London. But it's good at least I've got an answer that I'll never ever get any message and any replies from him.
I called the cab driver. It was 5:30. I'll reach home till 6:30. I can't tell di anything. She'll be stressed more.. But will I be able to hide my state of mind from her.
"Come at St. Paul's Cathedral as soon as possible " I said
" Mam. I'm reaching there in five minutes only" the driver replied
"Yeah. Thank you. Please be a little quick " I told and cut the call.
Why I love him!!!
But yeah... Love.. Don't see the person or something. Just happens. And see. It happened..
God!! Was this written in my fate only. Why!!!
Mahir, You said me you are not my friend... How much I wanted to tell you that yeah you are not just my friend. You've become the person I love. You've became my life. You've became My first and....my Last Love too !!
What the hell is with the cab. Why it's not coming now.
I wanted to go away from here. I wanted to go away from everything.
I was thinking all this and my tears were unstoppable. They were continuously flowing.
Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder!
I turned back and found... Mahir.
What was he doing here now.
"what do... " I tried to say when he spoke.
" I'm sorry" he said.
Now why He's being sorry!!
"Not necessary Mahir. Never. I should be sorry to... To care about you and be concerned about you. But never mind.. After all it was fake according to you" I said giving him a tight smile.
His face was pale and dull. It looked as if he was also not having proper sleep from some nights.
"It's not like that surbhi. You.. I.. I'm sorry. Listen to me" he said but I cut him in between
"Mahir. It's not really necessary. You don't have to be sorry. I'm sorry. For coming in your life and making it.. I guess hell" I replied
"Surbhi but listen to me.. " he tried to say.
At the same time My cab came. I didn't want to listen anything more. I was not in that state hence I opened the door of the cab.
But Mahir came in front and closed it.
" Mahir. Get away. Let me go" I cried
"I'm saying sorry na Surbhi. Please listen to me once " Mahir pleaded
" I don't want to okay. Now let me go" I yelled and tried to open the door but couldn't as his Hand gripped the handle and he was of course more stronger than me.
"Mam. What happened. Should I help" asked the cab driver looking at Mahir.
"Did anyone ask you" Mahir snapped at him before anyone could say anything
"Mahir get away from here and let me get inside" I told
"No. You've to listen me once" He adamently spoke.
"Mahir. You don't have to explain anything. It's okay " I stated
"No it's not okay" he said banging his hand on the door of cab.
"Man. What are doing" shouted the cab driver
"Listen you. Better you go from here otherwise I'll see how this cab company of yours will work. I'll put a permanent lock on your company!!" He growled
"Why are you shouting at him" I yelled
"Why he's poking his nose in between" He scowled.
I sighed giving him his payment.
" You go. I'll manage " I said and the driver nodded frightened and went away.
"You're still crying" he asked concerned
I can't understand this man. Some time before he was behaving with me like he hell cares for anything.
"Why do you care." I snapped wiping my tears
"Surbhi. Let me explain why I said all that to you" he said.
"Mahir. I told you no need. You don't owe me any explaination " I again spoke.
"What the hell Surbhi. Why don't you listen to me. I here want to owe you all the explanations. I want to explain everything to you but no !!You don't want to" he chided
I didn't say anything & just started walking.
The next thing I know was I was lifted in his arms.
"What the...Mahir. what are you doing. Leave me" I warned
"I'll not. You've to listen to me" he said and I knew he's adament !!
"Why should I? Just a few minutes before you cleared me that I'm not your friend. So why you want to explain to a stranger " I shouted crying
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to say anything like that. Believe me that much that I'll not lie in a cathedral. I'll explain you once you come inside. Please. Trust me Surbhi" he pleaded.
And these words were enough to melt me.
I wiped my tears.
"Fine.But firstly leave me. I can walk" I gritted
He carefully left me and next we were in the cathedral, sitting on one of the corner bench.
"I'm... I'm sorry Surbhi" He said
"Why you said all that Mahir. You know you are my good friend and it hurts. It really hurts" I lamented
"I didn't want you to suffer due to me. I'm not worth a good friend and you'll be happy if you will not have a friend like me in your life" he rambled
What!!! Is he mad. What is he thinking.
"Are you mad. Who said you all this" I asked
"I know this Surbhi. That's why I didn't replied your messages. " he said
"Mahir. Are you mad ? What are you saying ! How can you even think like this. What you thought before thinking this huh!! I'll just forget it. No Mahir. You know, you are so good friend and you know you made me sad by doing this. You made me sad for these days by not replying my message. You know how much it hurts when you expect a person to talk to you and he doesn't. I was hell scared if you are even fine or not. You...you even don't care about... " I tried to say but couldn't say more as I sobbed
"Hey!! Sush.. don't , don't. Please. I'm really sorry. I didn't know this would affect you so much. If I would've been knowing you'll cry so much I swear I wouldn't have done that" he panicked
"I know you've not done intentionally. I know there's something that made you do this. There's something that always stops you to open up. You stop talking in between. You seem lost sometime and that was the thing which kept me in worry because I know you are not like this. I know you've done this due to something" I stated
"You know me so well" he said with a lopsided grin
"No. I know it because your eyes always say a different story that your mouth doesn't speak or I must say that your words don't match with your eyes" I told pointing his face!
"Surbhi. Today I'll tell you something. Will you listen" he asked
"Of course I'll listen" I replied
"But promise me you'll not say anything in between and you'll yourself get the reason why I did this...Or Why I don't open up..Why I stop talking in between... why I seem to be lost sometimes and you know you'll get to know the answer to your questions that you asked me back that why I don't trust anyone..why I don't go hand in hand with people... Why this world call Mahir Maheshwari Rude and arrogant..And yeah Why I don't make friends..why I hate myself" He whispered.
He was dead serious now and he was looking constantly at the bench.
"Mahir. What you want to say" I asked
"Today I'll tell you about me. About the worst phase of my life. The phase which I've never ever shared with anyone in this world...My Past" he whispered.
His past.
I knew he has something related to his past but I thought that he'll never tell about it to me. But he's telling about it.
"Is it about anyone.. I mean any girl whom you..you loved" This words were very difficult for me to say.
What if he really loved someone this badly!!
"Not love. It is about me and a girl. A girl whom I thought was my best friend forever, what we say BFF." he said with a humorless chuckle.
"Say it all Mahir. For once and all " I whispered.
Everyone has a story to tell ! And was very much ready to listen to his!!
MAHIR'S POV
I wanted it all to come out now. It's too heavy for me to bear now. I can't loose her due to this. I.. I'm telling her everything. I can't loose her friendship and for this revealing that past is important which is making me loose her even as a friend.
"It's about Me and Riddhima" I said and started narrating her everything.
"I met Riddhima in my high school. She was the first to come to me and talk to me. Seemed so genuine and good. Aanand and Priya were in different cities for their education and I was here in Indore. She was always with me whether it came to good or bad. We used to roam in city together. We were best friends . Or I must say I thought it to be.
I shared my every problem with her. She also shared everything with me. Actually here also I must say I thought so.
We completed our high school and then we went to college togather. We never had any romantic feelings for each other but the bond was more than that for me. There was the time when She was more than Aanand and Priya for me.
She was with a guy named Rishabh since we were in high school but he was from different school. But in college he was with us only. From the day one I never got good vibes from him. I told this to Riddhima also but she loved him. She never listened to me on this. I always thought that it's okay after all she loves him. But slowly I realized one thing. It seemed as if he was using her, Using her for his comfort.
Everything which I used to give Riddhima she used to give it to him. Not in front of me but I saw it every time. I thought that he's taking all this from her. She even asked me many a times for money. She had her reasons for this. I never denied. I never even asked her a question. I had blind faith on her after all she was by bestest friend...but One day I came to know that Rishabh was cheating on Riddhima.
My doubt turned into truth when I saw him with another girl in cafe.
Next day in college I went directly to Riddhima . She was standing with that Rishabh only. I told her everything but she didn't believe me and said it was me who was having a problem with Rishabh.
Why would I have any problem with him. I just wanted her to be fine. But she took it in whole wrong way.. But that day I realized what she was doing with me!!
Flashback
5 years back
"Mahir. You.. How dare you say what you said about Rishabh" shouted Riddhima
"But Riddhi he's using you believe me. He's even using you for money and looks " I told
" What. Shut up Mahir. Do you even know how people use anyone " asked Riddhima
" How will I Riddhima .What are you even saying. " I chided
" Exactly. So listen my dear so called best friend He's not using me for money. WE ARE USING YOU FOR MONEY" Revealed Riddhima
"This is not the time for jokes Riddhima . I'm serious. He's using you" I glared
"Just shut up Mahir Maheshwari. How innocent and idiot you are. You know , let me tell you from starting. The day I came to school in 11th. I saw you. The most handsome boy in school.. Eh. No that didn't affect me. I was having Rishabh since 9th...But What I liked in you was Money. Yeah. You were a rich boy. You had everything. So I came to you. I did friendship with you. I did every hell thing to make you my best friend. What stupid things I've not done. That... That Friendship days with you.. That listening to your shit.. That spending time with you in school. Listening your songs and when you played that stupid guitar!!
You know why I did this all.. Because I wanted you to trust me blindly so that you do whatever I say without thinking twice. Firstly I wanted to make you fall for me.. But My bad!!
You didn't...Though I had a good fate!! I made myself more important to you than even a lover. And see since 2 years you are dancing on my fingers like puppet.
Mahir I want this. Mahir I need that.. Mahir... This.. Mahir. That... And you gave me everything... And you know I asked you everything for just one person. My love Rishabh.
You are such an idiot that you believed me so blindly the you even fought for me with your own friends... Oh how how poor of you. " she mocked
" Riddhima ... " I tried to say
" Shut up Mahir. You know what. You are such a useless and dumb person. How can anyone even tolerate you. I've to tolerated you every whole day. You know what you are nothing more than a thing.. No.. Actually a toy to use. You know you don't deserve happiness.. You don't deserve anyone in your life. You don't deserve love in your life and of course you don't deserve any friends in your life. Poor soul. Everyone will use you like a tissue and throw you as I did. There's just two things good in you.. Your looks and of course your money.. Nothing else. You are useless and wait.. I'm not your so called best friend forever anymore dear Mahir.. Know why..
Because you were never. You are good for nothing other than being used.. Now you know what, get the hell out of my life. I'm done with you and your shit. I no more want you Mahir" she smirked and threw the friendship band that I gave her in 12th class.
That friendship band which she knew, how important that band was for me. That was given by my grandmother to me. She said me to give it to a person who will be most important for me.
She didn't stop there. She took a lighter from Rishabh and burnt that band in front of me.
"Riddhima how dare you" I said raising my hand on her but she grabbed it.
"Don't you dare Mahir. You know just a hand on me and I'll make your life hell. You know how. Nothing much. What I've to do is just tear my top's sleeve and some fake tears which I know how to act since ages and then people will really listen to me being a victim and you being.... You know what I mean. Then police will come. Will listen to me... Will charge you under certain cases which I'll do on you and you behind the bars. And whole your dad's reputation in dustbin.Don't you think it will be fun. Wanna try it" she smirked
How she could be like this. I never in my worst dream thought her to be like this. I trusted her more than anyone else in my life.
"How can you do this Riddhima " I whispered
"You know how. Let me tell you". She said and grabbed my guitar
"This is your favorite right. This is your everything yaa!! This guitar whom you love more than anything else in this world.. More than your life right."she angrily askedt and then...
She broke apart every string of my guitar so brutally and threw it breaking it into two pieces.
"See. I can do it like this. Now do you want me to do more Mahir" she said coming close to me.
I was not in the state to say anything. I never thought Riddhima to be like this.
"No.Thankyou. All this is enough for me to die right now " I whispered and went away sitting on the ground grabbing every piece of my life.. My guitar.
She was gone till now. Leaving me with nothing..but just one thing...
Hatred. Hatred towards Trust.. People.. Love.. Relations...friends and myself.
Flashback ends
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