I wish I could say I was honest.
but it was disloyalty that strangled me: harnessed.
I fell for a beautiful young dame.
she promised me she'd take my name.
but when I asked, she became too afraid.
I wanted to be yours for so long.
but my greatest mistake was going wrong.
I'm trying my hardest to be strong.
to block out the guilt.
but it rots me down, I'm covered in my own filth.
lies and deceit.
I told myself I wouldn't become a beast.
but those nights at the honeymoon suite.
all my regret can't be returned, where's my receipt?
they leave me decimated.
my hands dripping with my bloody lies, marinated.
I thought I could fake through the pain, but it's fully escalated.
I can't sleep.
I'm terrified to speak.
I've reached my final peak.
no longer a giant, only a pipsqueak.
A mouse who's vocals are voiced as silent screams.
A mental small enough to make it unworthy.
yeah, I used to be trustworthy.
but how can I love someone that I barely see.
should I fall for someone new?
or should I see it through?
I do know what the hell to do!
I'm wishing I could decide: I'm just a loveless fool.
who cries when he thinks of being alone again.
I can't remember when, I was happy enough to sin.
I don't just want to play pretend.
please, it's 2:44, don't let this moment end.