she was a fool
to think
they truly loved her
that everyone
adored her
for her kindness
that they loved
her charm, wit,
winks, and golden heart
they don't
they don't love her
they wish to use her
and now i have to kill her
all over again
i'm disgusted by
her wide eyes, wider smiles
oh, so trusting
i hate her laugh
and her unfocused eyes
and her unworthy skin
she needs to die
she needs to survive
she needs to be cold
manipulative
and a monster
i need to take her place
wear the fangs
wear the claws
and growl
growl for them to see
for them to back away
for them to run
scream for them to pale
for them to stumble
for them to scramble
you are a monster
you will hurt
those who hurt you
until they cannot hurt any longer
and you will hate it
(as always)
"i don't want to be like this"
"i have to be like this"
"i never wanted to hurt anyone"
"they made me do it"
you are a monster
and she is a girl
everyone's broken
this is broken
why can't you admit
that this is me
and not you?
you're still scared,
aren't you?
or maybe you're her,
and i'm me?
this is broken
i wonder what
everyone will think
when they see this
oh,
the stories they will spin
maybe i won't kill the girl
maybe i'll just hide her
away from the world
maybe i won't kill the girl this time
maybe i'll hug her
and cry along with her
and tell her it's okay to be herself
maybe i won't kill the girl this time
maybe i'll insist
that she's not stupid
and this is all their fault
maybe i won't kill the girl this time
maybe i'll just hurt her
maybe i'll sink my claws
deep into her skin
and hear her cry out
maybe i'll reduce her
into a heaving, hungry dog
desperate for a scratch of water
maybe i'll chain her
and make her forget what
a sunlight is
this is broken
i'm not broken
i'm perfectly sane
it's you people who're insane
you don't see the obvious, do you?
you never do
even though it'll make everything easier
see the signs
they're right there
waiting to be noticed
this is broken
i'm not broken
it's you who's broken
i'm not broken
i'm sane
perfectly sane
nothing's wrong with me
i don't need help
that would mean something's wrong with me
nothing's wrong with me
i'm okay