*Luna*
Looking at my dad lay unconscious with all those machines connected to him only made me feel fear. I don't recall ever being this scared in my entire life. I dreaded this day like a terminal disease. I don't even know if I have a little faith cause the faithless battle going on in my mind right now, is only getting the best of me.
Is daddy gonna die?
What am I gonna do if I lose him?
Do I deserve to lose the man I love so damn much?
I just wanna rip my wig off. I can't take all of this at once.
Yesterday after receiving that call from Mama Brenda, I've become rather numb. I haven't had anything to eat. I've been unable to eat. I haven't slept. I'm drained. Yet I can't imagine closing my eyes for one second, due to the fact that I fear that if I do, he'd disappear. If he was gonna die, I don't wanna miss our last goodbye.
My life keeps falling apart more and more each day. This is all my greedy mothers fault. I hate her so much.
"Luna, listen you have to rest. Don't stress yourself more than you've already done. Just keep faith alive and let's hope for the best"
Hearing Dr. Deans voice only angered me more. Ever since I came in yesterday, I haven't been blind to his lustful stares at me. He distanced himself when Pam, Tania and mama Brenda were here. Tanai and Pamela left late last night, but mama Brenda left this morning. She couldn't persuade me to go freshen up with her. I wasn't leaving my daddy alone.
"Okay Doc" I kept my response firm and short. The last thing on my mind is to entertain some dude. Dr Dean is far from my type. I don't know when he'd get the hint that I'm not interested. Right now I dislike him.
I was startled when he placed his arms on my shoulder.
"I'm here for you. If you want a shoulder to cry on. A beautiful lady like you doesn't need all that stress Lu-"
"Get your disinfectant charred hands off me. What has gotten into you? If I wanna stress, let me stress, don't come in here and start playing boyfriend games. My man wouldn't like that. You are my dads doctor and I respect you for all you've been doing so far, but listen here, focus on him and ignore me. Do your damn job"
He looked appalled. But did I really care right now? Hell no.
"What is it that is unattractive about me Luna? I got money, I could take care of you! "
"I can fucking take care of myself! Get outta your feelings. This conversation is over" Tania and Pam stepped in immediately after our little rant. Thank God they just saved my ass.
They walked in with a questioning look. Rolling my eyes at Dr. Dean, they quickly understood.
"Give us some privacy doctor" Tania said giving him a rather fake smile. I watched him walk out in embarrassment.
"Hey sweetie" Pam hugged me after Tania.
"Hi girls"
"How are you holding up? " Pam asked rubbing my back.
"I really don't have an answer to that question." My voice was barely above a whisper. I heard them sigh.
"You should go freshen up and catch some sleep. Mama B said we should come take you home. She's on her way here." Pam let me know.
"I don't wanna go" I wiped the tears that began to fall again.
"Come on Lu. Don't cry. He'd be alright, you gotta be positive " Tania hugged me from the back. The comfort and sympathy only made me wanna cry even more.
"Let's take you home. We would keep you company" Pam suggested. For some reason I didn't want anyone's company. I just wanted to be left alone for some time.
"No thanks guys, but I wanna be alone if you don't mind" they both nodded in understanding.
"We'd let you have some alone time bit we'd be back to check up on you when we feel you've had enough alone time." Tania said with a smile. What am I gonna do without my girlfriends?
"Thanks a lot guys." I pulled them into a group hug.
"You better hurry up let's go. You badly need to shower" Pam said holding her nose. I smacked her while Tania laughed like it was funny.
"Oh yeah girls, I'm not gonna be going back to school at London. Due to Rameek and I being so much in love, the distance is not needed. So I'm gonna transfer! Daddy agreed and my moms cool with it, so bitches I ain't going no where! " We were really happy. Tania had build this beautiful friendship with Pam and I and the fact that she's staying is super exciting.
At least a little good news today.
On our way to my apartment, I couldn't help it but zone out. Tania and Pam conversed as Tania drove. I wish I could close my eyes, open em up and my life would be perfect. I find myself thinking of Jamari. When I broke down in his house yesterday he had this facial expression I've never seen on him before. He looked as if he had sympathy for me. Like he wanted to hold me so bad. But, maybe I'm just reading meaning to it. You can never know what's really on Jamari's mind.
"You sure you don't want us to stay with you? " Pam snapped me out of my thoughts.
"Yeah. I'd be okay. See you later"
We said our goodbyes and soon enough I was inside my apartment.
Brushing my teeth, I starred at myself in the mirror. I looked terrible. I applied some scrub on my face before going to take off my clothes.
As I'm about to step into my shower cubicle, I hear a knock on the door. I'm definitely not expecting anyone.
"Ugh"
I put on my bathrobe and hurry to go check. Opening the door...
"Jamari? "
Right now I feel extremely insecure, considering the fact that I'm nude underneath my robe. But what the hell is my boss doing here? I'm most likely fired cos I didn't even tell him I wasn't going to make it to work today.
"Hey Luna. How are ya? "
He seems like he's in a good mood. Gosh this dude better not act crazy right now. I don't have any atom of strength to handle his multi personality disorder.
"I'm good?, I guess" I whispered the last part, trying as much as possible to avoid every form of eye contact with him.
"You down for some chicken sandwich? I got some sprite here too. Heard you like that shit. So you gon let me in? "
He cocked his eyebrow, smirking at me. Is someone allowed to look this good?
"Is it spicy? "
" You know the vibes" I couldn't help but to giggle at the way he wiggled his brows while he said that.
Stepping aside, I let him come in. His cologne made my legs week asf.
"Uhm, I was just about to shower, make yourself comfortable. I'd be back soon"
He looked over his shoulder to glance at me before focusing back on arranging our lunch.
"Sure, go clean yourself up. Can't let all that foul smell ruin my lunch"
"Douchebag"
*Jamari*
Seeing Luna look so broken yesterday did something to me. I've never seen her that way before. Today she didn't show up to work and honestly, I don't care, I just hope she's fine.
Heard her pops was having a heart issue and it's gotten worse. Last night, I couldn't stop thinking about Luna. It pained me to know that she might be crying her ass out while I'm in bed sleeping. That made me stay up late.
I hope she's okay. I really do.
Waking up this morning, she was still on my mind. My head was messing with me. I just wanted to hug her and let her know I'm here for her. Damn this girl is causing my head to fuck with me, I can't even focus.
After my usual morning routine, my mind was still fucking with me. So I went with my guts.
I called a well known doctor I was familiar with. I organized for Luna's dad to be transferred to a different hospital were special care was going to be given to him. I want him to be given all the help and assistance that he'd be needing. Hopefully he recovers fast and Luna would be happy. I want her happy.
Letting Pamela and Tania know about my plans, they were able to let Luna's step mom know about it without getting Luna involved. I didn't want Luna to know I did everything for her. She shouldn't feel like she owes me something in return.
Pamela and Tania helped me convince Luna to leave the hospital, since it came to my notice that she didn't wanna leave her fathers side at all. Tania just text me saying it was successful, but Luna wanted to be alone. I wasn't okay with that. She shouldn't be alone, sulking, crying and starving herself.
After giving it some thought, I decided to go over to her place and keep her company. I made a quick stop to grab lunch. Some chicken sandwiches and sodas.
Getting to her apartment, I feel nervous as hell. Considering the fact that she was in her feelings, I didn't want her shutting the door in my face. Besides, I haven't given her the best of impressions. But imma try my luck.
Knocking on the door I patiently wait for Luna to open the door.
I waited a few minutes before I began hearing movement close to the door.
"Jamari? " she was surprised to see me. I eyed her down, checking her out. Her bathrobe formed a slit from her upper thigh. Damn. Having a peek of those fat thighs of hers got me in a mood.
"Hey Luna. How are ya?"
"I'm good? , I guess"
I could tell she was unhappy. We made little conversation before she had to go shower.
In good time she was out. Looking fresh and beautiful, as always.
" Thanks Jamari. This means a lot"
She nervously said before plopping down on the couch.
"No problem" I passed her her lunch before I began digging into mine. I glanced at her and noticed the sad look on her face. Its a good thing that's about to change soon.
"How's your pops? "
"He's...pushing through.I hope he doesn't give up" she had gotten teary and I knew she was about to be balling her eyes out.
Dropping my plate, I pulled her into my chest. Letting her hold on to me and cry while I rubbed on her back.
"He's gon fight for you girl. Come on, it ain't nice to see you this way" I assured her with my chin resting on her forehead.
She rose from my chest, wiping her eyes before taking a sip from her sprite.
"I'm kinda surprised that you came to check up on me" she said fiddling with her fingers.
"I ain't heartless. Besides, I can't ignore the ones I care about " she starred into my eyes, as if she was search for an evidence to think I was lying.
"Are you tryna say you care for me because you have a creepy and psycho way of showing it"
Well I deserved that. As much as I wanna respond disrespectfully, I had to remember it was about Luna and not me.
"I know I ain't the easiest nigga to roll with. My apologies for my previous disrespect. I just want you to be good. Happy, you know".
I caught her blushing as she turned away from my stare.
"Well, we're progressing" she spoke while biting on her bottom lip. Those lips...
"Thank you" she mumbled before hugging me. I snaked my arms around her waist as I inhaled her vanilla and jasmine scent. I love her scent.
Placing a kiss on her forehead, I felt her tense up. But soon enough she had grown comfortable.
Man, Luna be making me feel all types of shit all at once.
"Can I kiss you? " I asked politely. I didn't want her misinterpreting my motives.
"Yes please " she responded in a whisper.
Placing my lops on hers, this feeling I haven't felt in a while came over me. But in a rather more intense way. I've been telling myself I wasn't gonna fall for Luna, but now it seems like I only keep falling deeper.
We kept on kissing intensely. Luna was now straddling me and there was no way I was not gonna be feeling up on all that ass. Giving it a good squeeze, I played with the band of her shorts.
My dick is telling me to take her right now on this couch, because he hasn't had some in a while now and I sure have been dreaming about being inside Luna. Fucking up her guts in ways she knew nothing about.
But I can't fuck up my chances by doing that. I'm not tryna give her fuck boy vibes.
"Wow" Luna mumbled as we broke away from each other to take in some air. Her cheeks were bright and she avoided looking into my eyes.
"You are one beautiful girl Luna"
I didn't plan to say that, but its about time I said it. Luna is beautiful. So damn beautiful in lots of ways.
"Oh Jamari stop" she covered her face shyly before getting off of me. I messed with her hair as she was tryna recover from all that make out.
"Thank you "
I kissed her forehead as a way of response.
Her phone vibrated, drawing both our attentions. She grabbed it and read the message to my hearing.
Mama B❤
"Hey sweetheart. I need you to come to this address this evening. Hope you're fine babygirl. Can't wait to tell you some good news! See you soon!
- New York Cardiac Diagnostic Centre115 East 86th St.
She gasped as she starred at the message with her left hand now over her mouth.
Well, I hope Dr. Steven Reisman could work some magic on her pops. Anything to get her fighting with me again.