Taehyung didn't end up coming back, instead he sent someone to come and tell me he's stuck in an important meeting. For what, I don't know but I understand that for whatever reason it must be important, I mean he does run the mafia and leads the vampires. It's a busy life.
But without him it felt awkward and suffocating so I say my goodbye to Nahla and excuse myself to my room.
She didn't tell me much about the Lux beings after mentioning them, just saying that I will soon learn more about them.
She's very kind and very captivating. It's my first time seeing an Arab in person and she exceeds any expectations I've ever had of them. Her hair is thick and long and slightly curly as well but that just made it look like it had a nice texture. Her eyes are so big and they were colored such a nice honey colored mixed in with some green. And even though she looked so young, she has a look of maturity to her and she holds that aura throughout.
I would like to talk to her more sometime but for now I wanted to get back to my room.
I don't know exactly how to get there but I knew by just looking at my surroundings I will be able to find my way back.
I start to walk around aimlessly not really caring which way I was going because either way I would end up back to my room.
Every rode leads to Rome.
So I continue to walk aimlessly and I find myself in the main hall and as I look I'm met with a very large portrait.
I gasp when I notice who it is.
Its Taehyung but without the long blue hair. Yet he still has the bright blazing gold eyes with an emotionless yet powerful look held in his face. He looks absolutely captivating and of course he hasn't aged a day.
In the portrait he has black hair which is styled away from his face and you can see that his hair was not long at all yet his hair seems to have grown. But how can that be when vampires are frozen at their age and can never grow?
I don't think to much of it as I go back to admiring the painting of Taehyung. Its so huge and right in the center and you can feel and see the power he has just with that painting, as if he is daring anyone to step out of line as they walk into his home.
Its quite intimidating but I guess thats the point of it.
I move down the line to see portraits of others hung there, each one painted with care and detail which amazes me because how can someone paint something like that to the exact point of a persons feature, it's perfect.
There is a lot of peoples portraits hung on the wall that I don't know but there are some who I did and I stood there a little longer to admire those.
As I was on one of the last paintings I hear a noise coming from the hallway which catches my attention. It was a muffled noise but it was loud enough for me to hear it.
They start to get louder and so with slow and careful steps I make my way to where I hear the sounds coming from.
I don't really know what I can except when I turn the corner but I knew that I couldn't stay still and just wait for something to happen.
So as I get closer to the corner the noises become more coherent and I can hear someone moan out Hoseoks name which is one of Jimin's mates.
What the hell?
I only had a few more steps till I round the corner and I decide to take them. As soon as I round the corner I stop dead in my tracks from the sight in front of me.
I can't move, I'm frozen in my spot, and I can't make a sound either. I just continue to watch what is unfolding right in front of me.
All my training and fighting skills disappear as I take in the sight and sounds.
When they sense me they turn around and Jimin looks at me with big worried eyes as he let's go of Hoseok who looks back at me with his mouth open, fangs on display, and blood dripping from his mouth.
I see two puncture wounds on Jimins neck with some blood coming out of them and I just can't believe that Hoseok, his mate, would do that.
"J-Jungkook." He tries to come towards me but I finally break out of my daze and hold my hands up to stop him.
Hoseok looks at me in shock but doesn't make a move towards me and for that I'm thankful because all I can think of seeing him like this is that he's a monster.
A complete monster.
How can he do that to his own mate?
I take a few steps back not wanting to be near either of them.
I thought they were good but how would I know when I don't know where their blood supply could even be coming from. For all know they can have humans in the back and sucking them dry of their blood for their own gain.
I know nothing.
"Jungkook, let me explain." I don't want to hear his explaination, not at this moment. I know I should before I jump to conclusions but seeing Hoseok like this brings back unwanted memories and I feel the panic and anxiety start to rise.
"N-n-nnnnn-no!" I yell out as I turn around and start to run and run.
Run as far away as I can from them, to run from away from the monster I had just saw.
I start to breathe heavily and I knew it wasn't from the running but from the panic, it felt as if though someone was following me a monster that was chasing after me and I could hear the footsteps, I could feel the coldness and it all felt too familiar from a day I don't want to think of.
I start to run like there's no tomorrow and the coldness just keeps creeping and creeping I felt like I was going to be caught, that it was my turn to be bitten and to be killed just like my parents were.
And when it all felt too much I fall to the floor unable to go anymore as I cave into myself, trying to calm my breathing and the tapping of my chest but it just keeps getting worse and right in that second the cold engulfs me and I let out a scream.
"AHHHH! L-L-LE-LET G-GO O-O-OF MMMM-ME!" I scream out but they continue to hold me in their arms.
I continue to punch and push them away but everything I do fails and they don't budge. I feel tears start to stream down my face and I try to wipe them but it was of no use as they just keep coming.
I haven't felt this weak in such a long time and to feel weak in a place such as this isn't the greatest of things to happen. But I just couldn't help myself.
"Jungkook please calm down." I hear the soft voice and I recognize it immediately but it doesn't calm me down, maybe only slightly, but I just don't want to be around any of them anymore.
So with one last push I shove him away, with him finally letting go, and run to my room which I'm thankful was right there.
I barge in and close the door as quickly as I can and lock it so everyone knows not to disturb me. So they know they are unwanted.
"Jungkook please open this door and tell me know what happened."
You can read my mind no need for me to open the door.
He sighs as I feel him tap the door as he rests his hand there.
"I know but you need to be comforted, let me help you."
At this point I'm shaking and crying and I knew I no longer wanted to be here anymore.
I can't. Not when some sense has been knocked into me and I can see them all for what they are, monsters. They all hid behind this facade, all appeared as happy and gentle.
They aren't who they say they are and all my lessons and training fully comes back as if they were pushed back their by someone but it all comes flooding back to me and my dislike for them returns.
I don't hate them and I definitely don't hate all vampires, some as I've been told are kind, but seeing them feed on humans has changed my outlook on it all.
They aren't human. More like monsters is what comes to mind.
"We aren't all monsters, I can assure you that." He says with a soft tone and I think to myself how he could say it in such a soft tone. Is he not mad that I called them all monsters?
Is he not mad that I no longer want to be here? That I no longer feel safe here?
"Jungkook I care for you so please stop drowning yourself in your thoughts and let me in." It's the first time I have heard him plead and I would love to have seen the face he made while making the plea but I knew that I would not be able to open that door and look into his eyes without fear or exhaustion from all this overcoming me and ends up with me passed out.
I can't let you in. Not now and probably not ever. I want to be home.
I want to be with my uncle, I can't stand being in such an unfamiliar place while not being told anything. Just being told to be calm and not worry yet that makes me worry.
I want my uncle back, I want my family back.
"I know you want to leave and I'm sorry but I can't allow that to happen. So please let me just comfort you." Again he pleas but they fall on deaf ears because I choose to ignore him.
He can read my thoughts, he knows how I feel.
My breathing doesn't even out rather it grows and and grows until I feel myself unable to breathe.
Vampires aren't what I hate, it's their actions.
I only really hate the vampires that killed my parents.
The rest to me are nothing. I hunt only the ones who kill innocent people without a second thought. I didn't feel intimidated by these vampires, I felt okay being around them, and I even started to find one rather intriguing.
But seeing Hoseok like that changed everything.
The only vampires I seemed to have begun to like turned out to be not who they say they are.
And then that's when it went black and I feel myself falling.
Falling into a black abyss.