I heard, assalaatu kharium minannaum. (Prayer is better than sleep)
I opened my eyes, and say alhumdulillah.
I made wudu in bathroom and then enter in room, then I found beside Jai Namaz red roses bouquet with ferroro rocher and there was cutely written Sorrryyyyy.:)
Not so easily Khaddus. I rolled my eyes.
I hide my smile because I know, he is here. But no I will not smile. But I was redddd.
I keep them aside.
I prayed my Fajr, ask Allah to forgive us (ummah) and thanking Allah for making him realise his mistake.
He is trying to say sorry from 2 weeks but I'm ignoring him.
And go back to sofa to sleep.
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I was making breakfast for Ayaan and everyone..
Then I was keep everything on dining table.
There was plates, paper on plate written Sorry na plesh. :(
I was controlling my smile, may be he is watching I don't want him to know that I'm melting.
I take plate and act like I was throwing paper in dustbin.
Yes, he was here. I could feel he is walking to me from backside, smell is scent.
And, he hold my waist with his right hand.. placed his chin on my right shoulder.
“I'm sorry.” He whispered, huskily.
What the jahanum? Control Zehna.
“Don't.” He whispered.
I try not to shiver.
“Move Arhaan..we are in kitchen. Stop this please.” I tried to say in anger.
“No.. Zehna.”
“Please.. ”my voice cracked, my eyes filled with tears. I remembered what he did.
My tears touched my cheeks, but he kissed there.
“Don't.” I hissed.
And he kissed again.
I said, “don't. What else you want from me now.? Go, I forgive you. But please I don't want this all.”
I closed my eyes tightly.
He cupped my cheeks and then placed his forehead on mine.
And walked away.
I opened my eyes and wipe my tears.
I'm sucha cry baby now-a-days, Look Arhaan, what I am because of you.
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Arhaan and Ayaan was listening Islamic stories on YouTube.
I was reading surah Yaseen, then I read Surah Rahman. And then daam on them both.
Ayaan giggled.
“Mumma, come here.” Ayaan says.
And I bend, Arhaan kissed on left cheek and Ayaan on right. My eyes widened.
No, no, I don't want to blushhhh.
Huh, Arhaan now you are trying with Ayaan.
Whatever, but no. I will not let you break me again.
Ayaan take my hand, and make me sit with them. Ayaan was between me and Arhaan.
Arhaan was gazing at me.
Ayaan slept and I kissed Ayaan's forehead.
“What?” I asked Arhaan, angrily.
“What?” He asked back, teasingly.
I sighed and I was about to get up but then he clutched my hand and pull me back to bed.
I glare at him angrily but he smirked.
Idiot!
“Please, don't involve Ayaan in this.” I whispered in anger.
“Ayaan, tell your mumma to start packing as we are going to London soon.” He winked.
I have to handle him alone there.
“How are---”
“Mumma, where are you?” Ayaan tears touched his cheeks in sleep.
“Don't go Mumma.” He pout.
Oh my baby.
“Plsh, I'm with you.” He was crying.
I hugged him.
“I know, only you are with me ayaani. But one-day, you will also forget me.” I cried.
“No, he will not.” Arhaan says.
But I ignored him.
“I'm sorry my jaan, Mera bacha. Mumma will never leave you.” Wiping his tears and kissed him on his nose.
“Zehna--- ” I stood up and walked out of the room.
Arhaan-
She walked out without listening.
“Sorry for hurting you and your mumma, Meri jaan.” I brush Ayaan hair with my fingers.
I know, this is all new for her from my side. But I'm trying for her, because I don't want to hurt her more.
May be, it's hard for me. Because whenever I touch her my mind remind me of every moment with Aisha. I don't know how to forget her for you, Zehna. I don't want to forget.
Ayaan smiled in his sleep.
“Tell me Ayaan, apke Mumma ku kaise manaoun Mai?”
(How do I convince your mom?)
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Zehna-
I'm gonna miss gossiping with mumma and Aliyah. Ayaan is playing with them. Mumma was upset that we are leaving tomorrow for London. But however Arhaan make her smile. They were not to talking to Arhaan but now everything is going smoothly.
“Bhai, you are so bad. You are cheater.” Aliyah slapped on Arhaan arms.
He was laughing.
They was playing carrom board.
“Cheawtteerrrrr!!!” Ayaan pout angrily.
Like he knows how to play, I Chuckled
“Acha ji, on phupu's side okay bete.” Arhaan says raising his one eyebrow.
“Your mumma is with Abbu.” Mumma says, smiling.
My eyes widened. No I'm not taking anyone's side.
Arhaan looked at me and grinned.
I stood up and start walking away from them..
He clutched my right hand.
“Arhaan?” I groaned and turn to him.
“Don't walk away from me like this.” He says stepping closer.
I stepped back and crossed my arms.
“Arhaan, again you will end up hurting me please stop okay? I'm happy without this all. Stop giving me false hope.” I said looking away.
He exhaled.
Pain was back in those green captivating eyes.
He smiled, brokenly.
If you will walk away from me now, I will kill you Mr. Arhaan Ahmed.
Just try, don't give up on me easily.
I don't know that when he came closer, we were inches away. I look down immediately. He take my right hand, placed a soft kiss on my knuckles.
I gulped and close my eyes.
“I will not let you go anywhere, Zehna.” He whispered, kissed my eyelids.
And walked away, I smiled.
Then, I'm ready to ruined myself for you.