"I personally think that it all happened all of a sudden. There were barely any chanced of him getting murdered, he was just a school kid with a low profile life." Everybody in the conference room heard him, some nodded their heads, while some his made the humming sound.
"So, Dr. Kim, according to you what must be Jungkook's reason of depression? Why was he depressed in the first place?" One of the students asked who were there for Dr. Kim's conference.
Dr. Kim stayed silent for a moment but then he parted his lips, answering the student's question.
~
Jungkook closes his eyes, it was the night time and the surrounding was quiet. There was pin drop silence to which Jungkook would always fall asleep very fast. But this time it was different, most of the times were different since that day.
Talking about that day when all this started, on 1st September 1979, when Jungkook turned 14.
It was such a great time for Jungkook to celebrate his special day with his best friend Jimin.
Fourteen year old Jungkook was just as happy as any kid would be on his birthday, it was his special day after all.
Jungkook picked up Jimin on his bicycled and both of them ride to their favourite ice cream parlour. Jungkook wasn't very rich, he wasn't poor either. So was Jimin. They used to stay in the same neighbourhood and were friend from very start.
Jungkook had a few dollars, in coins which his father gave him to spend on his birthday to buy himself a present.
Jimin had a small locket which he made for Jungkook, as a birthday gift. Jungkook wore it with the help of Jimin, and it looked really very pretty. They were happy.
"Here, try this chocolate." Jungkook forced the shorter boy to open his mouth. Jimin shook his head.
"I don't like chocolate. I will have my strawberry!" The two teenagers were laughing and enjoying their scoops and chitchatting about school and stuff.
Suddenly the door of the parlour opened with a loud bang, all the kids inside looked at the direction of the door. There were a group of three guys, and they were really very scary. They were the punks of that time. Blue and blacked coloured hair, dark cloths, tattoos and piercings.
All the other kids, including Jungkook and Jimin looked down, not wanted to make eye contacts with any of those three.
The gang walked inside the place, laughing over some vulgar jokes. One of them walked towards the place where Jimin and Jungkook were sitting, he grabbed Jimin by collar and pushing him off the seat.
Poor Jimin fell on the floor, luckily he didn't get hurt.
"JIMIN!" Jungkook yelled as he ran towers Jimin to pick him up. "Idiot, why did you push him?" Jungkook shouted as he picked the fallen boy.
The three of them stopped laughed and looked at Jungkook with rage filled eyes, feeling insulted by what a 14 year old just called them. "What did you say, bunny toothed bitch?" he growled. As he walked towards Jungkook and Jimin.
Jungkook's throat went dry, his father clearly told him not to get into fights or be a bad guy. But it wasn't the situation to keep quiet, was it? Well, not for Jungkook.
"I said, WHY DID YOU PUSH MY FRIEND, YOU IDIOT!" Jungkook yelled.
A scary silence falling in the parlour, Jimin's eyes got watery and he begged Jungkook to shut his mouth for the love of god. Because the boys looked lethal, the kids with a bad reputation. It was really not easy to stand up for themselves.
But Jungkook had to do it.
One of the guys walked up to Jungkook and grabbing him from his collar, pulling the little boy from the ground. Jimin stood along too, begging the big guy to leave his friend.
"Please Yoongi, don't beat him up. I will give you all my money, but please- please don't hurt Jungkook. I beg you please." Jimin got on his knees and held the elder's claves. "Please don't hurt him, today's his birthday."
As soon as Yoongi heard that the day was supposed to be a happy day for Jungkook, he held a smirk on his lips. He let go of Jungkook and pushed him backward. Jungkook fell on the ground and Jimin ran towards him, to pick him up.
"Hey Ken!" Yoongi called one of his gang member, "C'mere. Look, today's little Jungkook's birthday! Let's celebrate." Ken too smirked at Yoongi's words, stepping forward to grab the water lemon soda.
The soda which was poured on Jungkook's head, looking down Jungkook felt helpless. Jimin on the other side was begging them to stop and not ruin Jungkook's birthday.
"Dave, hey man what you doin' there alone? Come here have some fun." When Yoongi offered the other guy, he walked up to Jungkook and stood in front of him. "Whatcha gon' do, Dave?"
Dave said nothing, he grabbed Jungkook by his waist and pulled him inside the bathroom. Yoongi, Ken and Jimin followed him. Jimin's heart was pumping at a very high pace, he couldn't even get help. The store manager was one of their friends.
"Yo Dave, you gonna make him clean the toilets?" Ken asked and high-fived Yoongi. Jimin was still crying his eyes out, looking his best friend getting bullied on his own birthday was a nightmare.
Suddenly the whole rest room felt a heavy silence when the sound of unzipping pants echoed.
Jungkook was on the ground, helpless. Jimin's eyes widened, even Yoongi's jaw dropped. Ken was still laughing. "Yo man, w-what is this? What are you doing?" Yoongi asked in a low voice, as if not sure what was going to happen next.
"Just a little fun, you can take him too after I'm done." Dave said, eyes now filled with lust and staring deep into the 14 years old boy.
Yoongi frowned, a weird sensation was driven all over his body, hitting the nerves of his spine. "Dave, what the fuck man? You know we just bully kids for fun, don't cross your limits." Yoongi said, he stepped to pick Jungkook up. "C'mere, let's go." He said to Jungkook, then looked at Jimin as if telling him to follow too.
"Yoongs! Don't be an ass now, I'm horny. I'll just fuck his mouth a little, then cum on his pretty little bunny face." Dave let out, convincing Yoongi. But the boy stood firm on his decision, he could never do something like that to a 14 year old kid, that too on his birthday.
Bullying was a crime too, but Dave was asking him to rape a kid.
"I said No, and I don't want you near him-" Yoongi said pointing at Jungkook, "Or this one." He said looking at Jimin. "And don't bother if I don't talk to you again. You suck ass man, didn't expect this from you." With that Yoongi left with Jungkook and Jimin.
~
"I- I am really sorry for whatever happened today, I didn't know it would turn that way. Dave is- just forget about him. I'm really sorry that happened to you." Yoongi apologies but Jungkook didn't say anything. He was mute at the moment.
"Thank you for saving up, Yin Moongi." Jimin said with a bitter smile.
"It's Min Yoongi." The older said with a genuine chuckle. Looking at Jimin and Jungkook he felt a little bad that Jungkook's birthday was ruined because of him. He offered Jungkook and Jimin to watch a movie with him and Jimin agreed.
Jungkook didn't say anything, he simply nodded and walked along with the two guys.
The day ended on good terms, Jungkook forgave Yoongi, not because he paid for the movie tickets, but he actually saved Jungkook from getting sexually abused. Which was he thankful for.
"Hey champs!" Yoongi called both the boys before dropping them home, Jungkook and Jimin turned around with a smiley face.
"Yes?" Jimin asked.
"Let's get some milk shakes tomorrow? My treat." Yoongi offered with a smile and only God and Jungkook knows why Jimin blushed, his face became as red as a tomato. Jungkook elbowed Jimin's arm playfully and nodded at Yoongi.
They spent good time with each other, shared secrets and got along really very well. Jungkook told Yoongi that he has a big crush on this girl named Jieun, Yoongi assured he'll help Jungkook with his crush.
Jimin on the other side was going all lovey-dovey over their senior Yoongi himself, Yoongi knew but he never said anything. He too liked Jimin but he was just very small to date, Yoongi wasn't a paedophile.
Everything was going just well until one day, the day everything changed and the beginning of the most disturbing phrase of Jungkook's life started.
That day Jungkook, Jimin and Yoongi decided to meet at this pastry shop near their football ground, Jimin cancelled at the last moment because his mother wanted him to attend his cousin's wedding.
So Jungkook and Yoongi met, they had orange juice and pastry, later on they decided to sit on the bleachers of the football ground. Walking towards the ground they also had a little chat, "So, how are things with Jieun?" Yoongi asked.
Jungkook's cheeks tinted crimson's lightest shade to which Yoongi cooed. "I asked her about math homework today and she let me copy her work. She's such a sweetheart, this is why I like her so much. She's so nice to everyone, and to me."
"Jungkook, I guess that she's nice to everyone and to you. It's not like she's nice to everyone but especially to you. Do something man, woo her. See, I'll tell you what to do." Yoongi shared his pro tips to get your crush and Jungkook noted down everything in his mind.
They munched on some waffles and discusses about Jungkook's crush, later on the topic somehow shifted to Jimin.
"You have a crush on Jimin!" Jungkook yelled, earning a playful punch from the older.
"Jungkook, shut up. Don't tell him that I told you." Yoongi let out shyly, he was blushing so hard that his face turned cherry. Jungkook yelled an 'I will tell him' and ran on the field like Naruto.
Yoongi ran behind him, catching Jungkook by the hem of his shirt. "You won't tell him anything!"
"But why? Do you know that you're Jimin's first love?" Jungkook asked, huffing.
"Listen boy, he's my first love too. But you guys are too little now, I'm 5 years older to both of you. But I promise, when Jimin will turn 18- I will propose him, right here. In this football field, at the time of sunset, in front of the whole school! And I will make him mine forever, ever and ever till I die."
Jungkook felt tears arising in his eyes as he heard Yoongi saying all those things about love and being forever together. He wanted that too, even if it wasn't with Jieun, he wanted the same feeling with someone.
"Look at you, Yoongo bongo going all blushy over Jiminie." Jungkook teased and laughed. Falling on the ground they both stared at the sunset and talked about feelings. The age was the reason their feelings were so innocent.
"Do you love Jimin?"
"Yeah."
"Do you wanna marry Jimin?"
"Yeah."
"Do you want kids with Jimin?"
"Yes."
"Will you love him forever?"
"Ever and ever."
"You're so whipped for Jimin's cute butt."
"It's getting late, Kooks. Let's go." With that Yoongi stood up straight on the ground, giving a helping hand to Jungkook. They both looked at the setting sun one last time before turning to the view of those two guys who were going to ruin everything.
"Ken, Dave? What are you guys doing here?" Yoongi questioned, Jungkook hid behind the older as he noticed that one of the boys approaching them. "I asked you a fucking question, Dave!" Yoongi growled.
"We are here to play with little Jungkookie. Aren't we are best buds, Yoongi? Why are you playing with him all alone? Sharing is what homies do, right?" Dave spoke, venom dipped words sliding off his tongue.
That was the moment when Yoongi's blood boiled, he held Jungkook's hand, tight. "Don't come near him, otherwise I'll fucking end you!" his eyes got red by the anger in his mind.
"Yoongi. Yoongi. Yoongi. Give up the kid, and go home. You can have the other one with big lips and thick ass. He's not my type anyway." Yoongi didn't spare them even a glance, he just pulled Jungkook with his wrist as they walked back towards the exit of the field.
Suddenly Jungkook's hand was grabbed by Ken, Jungkook cried out loud because his grip was much tighter. Yoongi turned back to see what happened but just then he got hit by a football. Dave kicked the ball aiming for Yoongi's face.
Yoongi fell on the ground with a yelp, Jungkook's hand slid off his grip and Ken got him. Yoongi's vision blurred all of a sudden, the hard football hit his face really hard. The world around him spun, he still could see Jungkook crying and begging for them to stop touching him.
Yoongi felt his eyes getting tear up, witnessing Jungkook cry as both they ratchet boy ripping his clothes off, the kid was helplessly sobbing. Trying to run away from their grip as they pulled him back from his hair.
"Don't touch me! Save me, Yoongi!" Jungkook cried, but Yoongi was still on the ground feeling more helpless than Jungkook. Jungkook's cries were echoing in his head, he just wanted to get up and kill both the boys who were trying to rape a child.
"Leave him!" Yoongi yelled, but the guys just laughed and continued to touch the little boy in inappropriate ways. Ken grabbed Jungkook by his waist and pushed him down on the ground, shoving his hand in Jungkook's underpants.
"YOONGI!" Jungkook screamed, now the fear in his voice developed a tint of pain too.
"Leave me! YOONGI, SAVE ME PLEASE!"
And Yoongi finally got up.
He ran towards them and pushed Ken, which resulted the boy to stumble backwards. Pulling Jungkook from their custody, Yoongi then punched Dave in the face. "Fucking asshole, let go of the kid!" Though Yoongi was still not in the condition, he fought against them for Jungkook.
"Jungkook! Run!"
"I won't leave you, Yoongi!" Jungkook yelled back, but Yoongi gave him a certain look which said 'I can't hold them for much longer, you have to save yourself. Please go, Jungkook. Please leave, for me.'
Jungkook's cloths were torn, he had small cuts on his face and scratches on his body. He had to listen to Yoongi, he had to save his life and run. So he did that, without looking back, ignoring all the screams, yelling and the sound of fighting. Jungkook ran.
But before Jungkook could run out of the field- all the noises stopped. All of the sudden there was a screaming silence.
"WHAT HAVE YOU DONE, KEN! SHIT!" was the last voice Jungkook heard before turning back. Ken and Dave ran from there, and Yoongi was on the ground, lifeless. Ken kicked the football which hit Yoongi in the chest resulting his heart to stop pumping, instant.
Jungkook's heartbeat stopped, he slowly walked towards Yoongi. "Yoongi?" He called out, but received no reply from his best friend. "Yoongi..." Still no reply. Jungkook reached where Min Yoongi rested.
Shaking his body, Jungkook sobbed softly, "Wake up, Yoongi." Jungkook begged. "Please wake up, for me. For Jimin." Yoongi was no longer breathing.
"You promised!"
"I have nobody actually." Yoongi said, looking up to the sky. They were talking about their feelings and family. "I don't have a family, no mother, and father thinks it's better if I die." Yoongi told both the boys.
"You have us, we will be together always." Jimin assured, slightly hugging the older, the action earned an 'Ooooh' from the bunny boy near them. "Shut up, Kook. And love Yoongi."
Jungkook laughed at Jimin's embarrassed face. "Yes, Yoongi. You are ours and we are yours. We will never leave you, and you're not allowed to leave us." Jungkook declared with his cute bunny smile.
"Okay, I won't."
"Not like that, you have to promise."
"Okay fine, I promise."
"We are sorry, Mr. Min. but your son is no more."
~
Years passed, Jimin and Jungkook were in different schools.
Jimin had an excellent study background. His life was pretty smooth, unlike Jungkook's. Jungkook was good in studies and everything. But his social life was not decent.
People never talked to him, actually he never wanted people to talk to him. He had his friend Jimin and Jimin had him, they were both good with each other.
Their love lives were not the ideal ones as well we can say. Jimin couldn't forget about his first love and Jungkook was non-existent for Jieun. Jimin was still in love with Yoongi, even though he was dead. He would always say 'I belong to Yoongi and always will.'
Jungkook didn't want to hurt his best friend so he never told him about Yoongi's love for Jimin. He knew if he'd tell Jimin, that'll hurt the boy even more.
That incident was the worst thing that had happened to Jungkook. Ken and Dave were arrested after Jungkook's statement and CCTV footage proving them guilty for 'Attempt to rape of Jeon Jungkook' and 'Murder of Min Yoongi'.
That day was a usual on, Jungkook was sitting in the canteen, looking at his crush. She looked happy and all, the feeling of unidentified jealousy was felt by Jungkook in his heart. It was something that Jungkook didn't want to feel, he wanted to feel loved.
Jimin had to change school due to his father's transfer, and now Jungkook was left alone in his depressing life. All by himself.
That day Jungkook went home, locked the door of his room and threw his bag on the study table. Jumping into his sheets, he removed his shirt and jeans.
As soon as he closed his eyes, he felt a weird sensation of someone sleeping beside him. An unknown presence in his room, as the atmosphere in there changed suddenly at being cold as ice.
Jungkook opened his eyes, he saw nothing. Maybe it was just a hallucination. He closed his eyes again.
Next day went same as usual, Jungkook got ignored by everyone, as if he wasn't even there. Getting back home Jungkook did the same, going late, after spending his whole day in library.
He could still feel the same presence around him, the same fragrance of petrichor. It was weirdly satisfying for the boy to sense it around him almost all the time.
That day Jungkook saw someone in his bedroom, he was there when the clock hit 4 AM. It was really creeping him out. All though his hallucination were nothing new to him, they were same as he used to get when Yoongi died. He'd see Yoongi everywhere.
But this was a little different, he could feel some presence around him. And that strong satisfying scent of petrichor, it was something else.
Jungkook tried to tell his father about all these things happening with him, but his father let him down by telling him to quit lying and making stupid stories. The only thing he knew was- his mind was playing with him.
But why that face? Though Jungkook couldn't see his face properly, he couldn't figure out who the person was? Does Jungkook know him? Does he know Jungkook? Many questions just arising in Jungkook's mind. Who was that guy?
When the sun was shining brightly outside, the rays fell on Jungkook's face waking him up. The day was special, he was going to do something he was planning to do for a long time. He was going to confess to Jieun about his feelings.
That day Jungkook came back home at the same time as usual, with the same gloomy aura around him, but this time Jungkook had tears in his eyes, but he didn't cry. He kept it all inside him.
Jieun rejected him. Cursing himself Jungkook looked in the mirror. He wanted to hear those words from someone.
I love you.
These three words that we speak so easily to anyone, they seem nothing to us, right? But some people are so desperate to hear them, to feel them, waiting for someone to actually love them. And Jungkook was one of those people we refer as "Desperate"
What actually was Jungkook's desperation? Was he desperate for love?
Yes, he was. Aren't we all?
Jungkook would always see Jieun laugh and enjoy with her friends, because she had many people around her- for her. Jungkook wanted to make her happy and he wanted to call her 'Mine'. Which his mind would always yell that he will never claim her his. Everything about the girl was so nice, her fragrance wasn't strong, it was soft and fruity.
That night Jungkook saw him again, but this time he was crying. Crying his heart out, as he stood by the door. Jungkook remained claimed, he didn't move even a bit. He just stood there on the bed, lifeless. His body getting numb was the only sensation he felt.
Jungkook fell asleep without caring about anything, he was just too tired of all. He felt so dead inside that even the crying stranger in his room didn't affect him. Even though he was crying for Jungkook.
Few days passed and Jungkook could do nothing about his situation. But one day everything changed again, Jieun talked to him. She said she was sorry for rejecting Jungkook and neglecting his feelings. That day Jungkook felt like he was on the top of the world because Jieun wanted to be his girlfriend.
He was happy, like really very happy because he got what he desired- someone that he can claim his. Someone that'll love him for who he was. But the amazing feeling didn't last longer, Jungkook started feeling awkward, guilty and stupid.
Even when he was with Jieun, he'd feel like he wasn't with her. He wasn't with her by his heart, it was just his body. Nothing else. He didn't feel like he was supposed to feel, no butterflies, no songs, no moon getting bigger and shit.
It seemed- it seemed pretty dull. Like some garden with dead roses.
He still gave it a shot.
His life was going back to normal until Jieun said she was lying, she was lying all the time and she just wanted to know what Jungkook's past was. It all happened within a blink of eye, Jungkook felt so stupid to believe that someone could actually love him.
He felt stupid to trust her and tell her about all those nightmares and his past, his hallucination and the shadow he'd see in his bedroom. Yes, he told her everything and all she did was to divulge his secrets and life story.
Just imagine how it'd feel to someone that when they open up after being closed to the whole world, they trust you so much that they give you everything they have... and then you break that trust, leaving them broke again. Leaving them in a state that they could never revert.
Jungkook walked back to his bedroom, it was cold. But just cold, not the one to give him chills all the time. Jungkook unknowingly missed it, he missed the presence which never let him be alone in any situation.
That gaze always followed him.
The aura never left him.
The fragrance always surrounded him.
And when it was all gone, Jungkook missed it.
Maybe being stick to someone- someone being stick to him was the wish Jungkook wanted to be true. Maybe he was a part of Jungkook. The night was expected that Jungkook would see him again. It was obvious.
~
The cold breeze sweetly kissed Jungkook's cheeks as he opened his eyes, he could feel the same aura around him, the same presence, the same person sleeping beside him. Calling him out in the most loving manner.
"Jungkook..."
This was decently not a dream when Jungkook felt his touch, he wanted to scream and call for help but he simply couldn't. He was paralyzed, sleep paralyzed.
I wanna wake up!
He was still looking at Jungkook, with just a satisfied smile on his plump lips.
"Close your eyes, Jungkook."
Wake me up someone, this is a dream- a nightmare. This is just another stupid hallucination. But what if it's not? Is he going to kill me?
"I am not going to kill you, Jungkook."
Jungkook was shocked that the shadow with the most beautiful eyes just answered his question, the question which was going on in his mind. He was reading Jungkook's mind which was a scary thing for the younger.
"I can hear all your silent screaming, Jungkook."
If he's real, then-
"This is not a dream, baby."
Jungkook wide opened his eyes and he was gone, it was morning now.
Jungkook's next day was planned, he thought it was a dream but then too he wanted to know about this guy. He just wanted to know if they have some sort of connection or not. The research was a failure, he came home at the usual time, but decided to not sleep today.
But he did and-
"Hey angel." He was there, looking at Jungkook with his beautiful deep eyes. Jungkook could just stare and keep looking deep into his almond pitch black eyes.
Then the most unexpected thing happened, he touched Jungkook.
And it felt amazing, satisfied and mesmerizing at the first touch, Jungkook was carving more. He wanted to-
"I know you want me to touch you."
It was true, then their lips collide. He kissed Jungkook so passionately, both desired more intimacy. His kiss was sweet, like apricot. Jungkook kissed him back, and they kept kissing.
Jungkook was naked in his bed. Though he couldn't move, his angel did.
He kissed Jungkook all over his trembling body, tasting each part of his body on his lips. He licked Jungkook's thigh and bite it hard, Jungkook screamed- in his mind.
The only question that Jungkook had in his mind was- who are you?
"I'm your demon."
~
Many days later Jimin visited Jungkook, Jungkook was dying to let out all the things to the only person he trusted, which was Jimin. He told Jimin everting and Jimin assured that he'd help Jungkook.
When Jungkook told Jimin, the only question that Jimin asked was 'Do you want him? Even if he's not real, do you wanna let him go?' Jungkook didn't know the answer.
~
Three months passed by and Jungkook felt empty because the demon didn't come. He stopped coming and maybe Jungkook knew the reason. He realised that he actually missed him, and he wanted him back.
That night when Jungkook closed his eyes, the demon opened his.
"Baby, I'm here.
Jungkook slowly opened his eyes, still feeling his body numb. Looking at the demon and his heart smiled.
Come closer.
Closer.
More.
"Think twice, Angel."
....
"Because there's no turning back."
Jungkook was confused whether to let him do what he wants or not. What was this fear all of a sudden taking over him? He sensed Jungkook's feeling and started to walk away just when Jungkook called him-
Wait- come back.
He turned around with the same gorgeous smile. He asked Jungkook what he wanted.
And Jungkook answered-
I want you
But he had some question to be answered before he gets into something dangerous.
Who. Are. You?
He walked towards Jungkook and looked at his lips, touching and caressing them with his beautiful hands.
Who am I to you?
Then one answer made Jungkook feel something he always wanted to.
"More than just a body."
Then he sang the song which was going on his Jungkook's mind, in his deep honey dripping voice.
That night they made love, just the way Jungkook always wanted. He claimed the one who wanted more than his body. It was just perfect.
As seasons passed by they fell in love more and more, Jungkook was falling in love every day. All the time he'd fall for Taehyung.
His name was Taehyung, he told Jungkook. He knew about Jungkook's past and he loved Jungkook for who he was. Jungkook couldn't speak, but he spoke with his eyes and the demon spoke Jungkook's heart with his lips.
For Jungkook Taehyung was his Angel- Fallen Angel.
Taehyung would hold him in his arms and chant 'You belong to me' and 'mine', 'just mine'- things Jungkook always wanted to hear.
Other than Yoongi, Jungkook never felt this safe with anyone else.
Everything they'd make love, he'd claim Jungkook every night. Kissing him all night love and showing his passion in the way of affection. They were so in love to see the things which were risk to their true love.
One night Jungkook's father heard noises from Jungkook's room. He asked about it and Jungkook told him the truth honestly. His father couldn't believe what his child was trying to say. He was disturbed by the things which Jungkook told him.
Mr. Jeon took Jungkook to a psychologist. After the check-up that Jungkook went through, the doctors informed that it was the case of Schizophrenia. Jungkook was under treatment, he was fooled that it was something, which will not take his Taehyung away from him. But that took away Jungkook's everything.
Jungkook thought Taehyung left by his own, but his heart refused to believe it. He was in love with Taehyung, so deeply madly and passionately. He refused to accept that he was just a nightmare and nothing else.
All he knew was he was in love with Taehyung and to be with Taehyung- Jungkook could do anything... Anything.
On that night when Jungkook was discharged from the hospital, he ran into his room and locked the door. He tried to sleep but he couldn't, like desperate people who need love- he did what he thought could bring Taehyung back-
If Taehyung can't come back, I will go to him.
Love is a blank sheet, a blank canvas to paint with our tears.
From exploring our bodies in the sheets to face together our deepest fears.
We grew up, oh love.
You slowly undressed insecurities from my body, I've been waiting for someone like you my whole life.
Turning into existence, you came alive for a person so needy, just before I was about to break down and end all the promises by one knife.
I didn't fall for you on purpose, it was all you.
It was you came in my life out of blue.
Touching me like I'm precious to you, making me feel love, which all crave but no-one do.
The moment you sang for me "what if I never love again?"
I felt it in my heart, the sorrow, the pain.
I'll do anything to gain your love, because how can the lake let go of it's most beautiful dove?
You're not the apple of my eye, but the bright twinkling stars in the my dark sky.
You turned my lips into your desires, lighting up my whole body on fire.
I don't know whether your real or a myth... But I've decided to love for till my last breath.
Falling in love with you was easier than I thought, just like the raw gold had to go through a lot.
To become something worth the price, we have to be someone, we have to disguise.
For the love of my life, my Taehyungie.
-Jungkook
~
"In taking the whole bottle of sleeping pills, Jeon Jungkook committed suicide according to me. He was found dead in his bed, we cannot actually count it as a suicide. He was not perfectly stable on mental basis. I hope the things are clear now. So, that's all for today." With that the conference was over and Doctor Kim headed back home.
On the way he kept thinking about the boy and his tragedy. Thinking about the love Jungkook always wanted, but couldn't get.
Doctor Kim unlocked the doors of his house and enter it swiftly. Walking into his kitchen he take a few sips of water and undressing himself on the way to the bedroom.
Turning off the light he got onto his bed, closing his eyes he fell asleep.
In his sleep he heard his favourite voice which he would be hearing every night-
"Taehyungie, did you miss me?"
-THE END-
EXPLANATION : Okay, so many of you must be thinking about the ending... Like why does Jungkook see Taehyung as his sleep paralysis demon? and how did Tae can see jungkook? What was the connection... I wasn't going to explain, thought it was better to keep it that way, but here we are.
You see that when Tae was puersuing his degree in psychology, studying jungkook's case. So there was NO TAEHYUNG in jungkook's story.
The story was of Tae himself and it was just a shadow for jungkook. When Tae studied about jungkook, he himself fell in love with him and THEM BOTH HAD SCHIZOPHRENIA.
Tae didn't let that out to anyone because he didn't want jungkook to leave and he wanted to be with jungkook forever. Jungkook told his father, so he got cured, but he still loved the shadow.
So this story was about Jungkook losing someone very special that is Yoongi. And he was in depression, he used to see hallucination when Yoongi died. He fell in love with the shadow that his depressed mind made for him to love.
While Taehyung loved the way Jungkook loved and that's why he got hallucination of Jungkook as HIS sleep paralysis demon. Tae was immersed in Jungkook's story so much that his mind created Jungkook.
Tae didn't tell anyone about Jungkook's real story, it was all a flashback that slide through his eyes.
About the burnt pages of Jungkook's dairy, Taehyung was the one to lit them so no-one else could ever come near Jungkook. The previous chapters were pages of Jungkook's diary.
So, that's it.
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