After that terrifying expirience, I wasn't looking forward to trying to sleep.
I knew I was going to have nightmares all night, but I also had a class tomorrow morning, which meant I can't be exhausted.
I laid in bed, feeling BEN right behind me.
I guess knowing he's right there would help me sleep.
I used to always climb in bed with mom when I was scared.
But since BEN is already with me, I don't really need my mom.
I closed my eyes, trying to sleep.
But I found that since I couldn't actually physically feel or see BEN, I wouldn't be able to sleep.
I would always face my mom, or she would have her hand on my back.
Should I turn around and face him?
What's the worst that could happen?
I slowly shifted and turned around.
When I looked at BEN, he was fast asleep.
He actually looks cute when he's asleep.
He looks peaceful.
I smiled a bit and moved my hand onto his, then closed my eyes.
Sleep quickly took over and I fell asleep with a small smile on my face.
———
I woke up feeling refreshed.
Until I opened my eyes.
BEN was staring right at me, a huge grin on his face.
"What?" I asked.
He glanced down at our hands, mine still holding his.
I rolled my eyes and took my hand away, making him frown.
"Why'd you move your hand?" He asked, sitting up.
"Because you were being weird about it." I said, sitting up and turning away from him.
"No I wasn't! I was just happy..." He mumbled the last part.
I felt a pang of guilt, hearing him be so sad over me moving my hand away.
I turned back around to face him and grabbed his hand.
He looked at me in surprise, and his face went red.
I leaned in until our noses touched, making him gulp.
"BEN, do you honestly think you like me? Or is this just some kind of game for you?" I whispered.
"It's a bit of both." He said.
"What's that supposed to mean?" I asked, backing away.
"Oh, no, no, no. Come back here. I'll explain." He grabbed the back of my head and inched my face closer.
Our noses touched once again and he began explaining.
"Basically, it's a game because I'm having a lot of fun with you. More than I have with anyone else, ever. But it's not a game at the same time. Because I really do like you. And I haven't ever really felt the need to protect anyone like I do you. You know what I mean?" He stared straight into my eyes.
"Yeah..." I said quietly, nodding a bit.
"So does that mean you feel the same way?" He asked.
"I still don't know. I do know that you aren't really just a friend anymore. But I still don't want to put a label on it." I said.
"Can we still cuddle and stuff?" He questioned.
I rolled my eyes and smiled, nodding.
"I'm okay with that, then." He said quietly, pulling away from me.
I felt a bit upset by that, but didn't say anything.
"One more question." He said, looking at me.
"Shoot." I said.
"Can I kiss you?" He asked, a glimmer of hope in his eyes.
I felt my stomach do a few flips and my face go red.
"U-um, I-" I stuttered, avoiding eye contact.
"You're all red, so I'm assuming you like me. Which means you'll say yes, right? It's fine if you say no, but don't expect to be left alone for even a second tomorrow." He added.
I snapped my head back in his direction and took a deep breath.
I can't believe I'm doing this.
I grabbed the collar of his shirt and smashed my lips onto his.
I felt him smile and wrap his hands around my waist, forcing me closer.
He licked my lips, which made me break the kiss.
"Awww, why'd you stop?" He pouted.
"No tongue." I demanded.
"But that's boring!" He whined.
"I don't care. Actually, I'm over it now. I'm gonna sleep on the couch tonight." I announced, grabbing my pillow and standing up.
"What?! No, you aren't." BEN said, grabbing my arm and yanking me back over to him.
I tripped and fell directly onto him, making me scramble to try and get up.
"Oh-ho no, you don't." He said, wrapping both his arms around my waist to keep me on his lap.
"BEN!!" I whined.
"Let me go!" I yelled.
"Nope." He grinned.
I wiggles around, trying to get out of his grip.
"Keep squirming like that and I'll get a boner!" He announced, I could hear the smirk in his voice.
Instantly, my body stopped moving.
"Good girl." He purred.
"Oh, god. Do NOT say that. And especially not like that." I said.
"Why not?" He asked, frowning.
"Because that's weird." I raised an eyebrow.
"How's that weird?" He asked.
"It just is. So don't do it." I said.
"Kiss me again, and I won't." He teased.
"I'm not gonna kiss you again. Get over it. You suck at it anyways." I said, glaring.
"I do not. You liked it and you just won't admit it." He scoffed.
"Whatever! You're gross." I said.
"Apparently that's what you like." He mumbled.
"What?!" I yelled, glaring at him.
"Nothing. Just talking about how beautiful you are." He said, smiling at me.
"You're hopeless." I muttered.
"Why do you keep making fun of me if you like me so much?" BEN asked.
"Because you're annoying!" I yelled.
"Again, that must be your type." He pointed out.
"Can you just shut up and let me go?" I mumbled.
"No can do. I still haven't gotten a kiss." He raised an eyebrow.
I took a deep breath and turned around to face him.
"Oh? What's this? Going to pay me?" He teased.
Oh, I am about to DESTROY you.
I turned around to where I was straddling him, then leaned down, brushing my lips against his.
I gave my eyes the glossed-over look, and put my hands on his cheeks.
He started to breathe a bit heavy, telling me that this was working like a charm.
I slowly leaned in and gently placed a kiss on his lips.
He again put his arms around me and deepened it.
I tangled one of my hands in his hair, and pulled a bit.
This time, I licked his lips.
He quickly obliged and let my tongue into his mouth.
Only, before I could do so, I split the kiss and pulled away from him.
We were both breathing heavy, and he looked like he was about to faint.
"God, I'm so horny right now." He announced.
"Ew." I said, giving him a weird look.
"What? I just made out with a total babe, what did you think was gonna happen?" He asked.
"I'm gonna go downstairs." I muttered, standing up.
"I'm gonna use the computer. Uh. Don't come in. Unless you get horny too, then feel free." He said, winking at me.
"No thank you. And clear the search history when you're done. I don't wanna see what kind of messed up shit you're into."