[unedited]
{j's}
It was very uncomfortable to pack my things, specifically because I am going back to the place I alreay cursed in my head a lot of times.
"Do we really have to go?"
"Jeonghan, its just for two days. And the party, you can just show there up for an hour then go home already." Shua explained.
"Why are you rushing me home? Are you meeting someone?"
I looked at him suspiciously. But surprisingly, he looked really suspicious and I think he looked at me very unusual.
"Are you gonna meet someone?" I asked again, emphasizing every word.
"We, Jeonghan. Its not healthy for you to meet that person."
No one has come to my mind and was confused but then as I looked at him, he looked worried and so am I. I got nervous as hell.
"Is he really gonna be there?" I asked.
"I am truly sorry, but yes.. he's invited."
I felt this disgusting feeling inside my stomach. I ran to the bathroom and puked. After I puked, someone who looked like him went after me.
"Are you oka.."
The voice became inaudible, my body started to feel like a stone. I can't move a limb but am currently standing. I can hear the beat of my heart and the feeling was making me sick.
-
I woke up in a set where it was shaky and kinda dark. After some time and focus I realized it was a car and Joshua was driving. I still lack strength to move my body, so all I could do is groan. Our eyes barely met at the rear mirror, my eyes still felt groggy and was ready to sleep again.
I can sense that he is actually worried and maybe because of me he'd cancel this trip. After another time, all I could see was white. I was confused keeping in track, why am I jumping places?
As I try to focus my eyes I already felt the comfortable bed I am in.
"Jeonghan?"
I noticed that I accidentally moved my hand. Literally annoyed, just let me sleep.
"Water." I said softly, but he was able to hear it.
He called someone to take care of me. I also realized that my eyes are widely opened, but I still can't move my body.
"For how long?" I asked.
"An hour from now?"
"It felt like days."
"That's scary don't say that."
He went closer to me and looking at me as if waiting for my permission. I nodded at him, and he immediately hugged me and rubbed his head on my belly. I couldn't do amything but watch him. But I really can't see him because I can't move my head to see but I can feel him and I let him do what he wanted.
When I was about to asked what happened, he stood up.
"You showed severe signs of trauma. Im sorry for dragging you into this."
As he said this, I saw his eyes were already teary. It was painful that I couldn't wipe it even though I tried all I can, I still can't move thing from my body. I can do small movements but I still can't control my body.
"Do we really have to go?" He asked me.
Look at how the tables turn.
"You have to go." I said.
"Its still in two days, you can still make it. I need your support. I can't do it without you." He sincerely said.
I was astonished with the sentence. I have never thought that his love for me was like this. I could always tell that he likes me but I still don't know how much. I think I confirmed it just now. I was feeling happy so I smiled at him.
"I love you, Joshua." I said.
"What? Say it again."
"I love you."
I saw his eyes smiling and he turned his back for me.
"I am not ready for this, fuck. Its the first time you've said it first. I mean it hasn't been long since we're official. But I was shocked because you said it."
My heart felt some kind of warm. It feels so good to see him actually happy because of me. I decided to recover fast and face the problems with him.
After a day, I gained much strength because I could eat already. I was actually feeling a lot better because I can already move a lot of my body, but I haven't actually tried standing up.
I was still in-bed and Joshua being happy just looking at me. I wonder what he is when he's sad he only shows his happy side instead of the aggressive side.
You know me, I like it the wild way.
Nothing ever really happened between us except that night when I answered him. It was the first and has never really been followed. Isn't he sexually frustrated, because I am. But damn, his flat but shaped belly is too fucking attractive every time I look at it, the better it looks. And damn his size. Just damn.
Maybe he's just holding back on me everytime.
"Hey, Joshua. Did you ever masturbate thinking about me?"
It was seen at every part of his face that he was shocked by the question.
"Uhm, do I really need to answer that?"
"Why not?"
"All the time?"
"But, why don't you just go to me and fuck me then."
"I don't wanna be physically attracted to you, that is.. unhealthy."
Damn, this guy. Does he really deserve me? He deserves so much more than I can ever give him.
"But still you masturbate and think about me right?"
"You know what? Okay, stop. This conversation is too nonsense."
I pouted at the idea. I was just curious no need to be angry though. But I feel good that he masturbates about me. I mean who isn't?
He left the room and I think he went somewhere I wanted to follow him but I couldn't I immediately asked the guard to follow him.
Yes, he's listening to every word we say.
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We both were already standing in front of the car after two days of lying down on the bed.
"Are you really sure?" He asked me.
"I am, are you?"
He sighed and opened the door for me and I immediately went in and he walked to the other side and sat beside me. He isn't driving?
We arrived at the airport and the atmosphere was making me nervous and anxious. But I can't show it. I had to smile everytime for him to see that I was fine.
"Are you really okay? We're near."
"I am, Joshua." I put my hand on his thighs and he flinched.
I like the reaction.
What is happening to me?
"Aren't we going on a private jet or something?"
"We're on a private jet this ride."
"Ooh~"
I said it with an attractive look. And he looked uncomfortable and yes it was intentional to make him feel that. I can just forget what's gonna happen temporarily if I enjoy this ride with him.
"You ready?" He asked.
I nodded and we both got down the car and we both got our things but the guards took it for us. We are currently on our way to go to the boarding area.
It was tiring to walk this far for me. I still haven't got used to walking again. So I felt like I ran a mile or two because of this. I saw the jet which is smaller than a normal one. And the guards and flight attendants were just waiting for us. So we all got in. And as we fly, we were informed with safety instructions during the trip, just for me. Because I get clumsy.
After a while we were on the air and it became alreeady became stable and I stood up and went beside Joshua.
I sat on his lap and looked down on him. He looked up on me.
"I know your plan, be nice to me baby."
I felt goosebumps in my skin as he touched the skin under my shirt.
We both ended up fucking at the bathroom and the crew noticed. I had two hickeys but Joshua had 4. So I laughed at the situation.
"Please go back to your seats and prepare for landing."
My heart raced so fast when I heard that. I immediately went to my seat and put on my seatbelt.
Why does the seat have to be apart? Seriously. I am nervous. I don't even know what I am nervous for. Is it because I am here, or because of the landing?
Joshua held my shoulder and patted it, telling me it'll be fine.