Okay, I gotta give it to him. Jamie's pretty damn smart. How he was able to think of that. I never would've thought of any of that, and it really takes a leap of faith for him to do this. He's probably the craziest person I have ever met, honestly.
He's really desperate to find his best friend Sawyer again. Sawyer looking for this source, in my opinion, is kind of stupid. You know just because she has powers, doesn't mean she can find a source. A source can literally be anything. Its existence may even be invisible and traveling, you know?
Today's date is an odd day, so it's a school day. On even days here we train for our powers, and odd days we go to school and actually learn things. I'm in chemistry right now, the class I hate the most.
The one thing I like about it is Emmet. He sits three seats away from me, and two seats in front of me. For so long I've never liked the idea of a relationship, but with him, it makes me want one. I don't know what's so different. He's just so... wow...
The thing is I also like someone else though. I've liked him for so long, and I'm too afraid to talk to him, but swear I am absolutely in love with him.
I glance over at Emmet from my paper. Oh my God, he's looking at me. That smirk that all girls want to be looked at by a guy kind of look. Once he sees that I'm looking at him, he turns back in front quickly.
A spring of joy runs through me. I smile so big it starts hurting.
Oh my God I suddenly hear in my head. I jump, turning around at my friend Veronica, who just telepathically spoke to me. It sucks to have telepathy, because this random voice appears in your head and you don't know where it comes from sometimes. Veronica always scares the living hell out of me when she talks to me. You and Emmet are totally looking at each other!
What?! No we're not! Jesus! I exclaim to her. She looks at me smirking, raising her eyebrows.
See him after class! Because I already ship it! exclaims Veronica.
Dude! We've only done brief small talk! Calm down woman! I exclaim. Veronica giggles.
Limmett. Omg it works so well!
I roll my eyes and turn back to my paper. She makes me cringe sometimes. That's the part I hate about relationships. Ship names. I always doze off when my friends talk about their ships, because they're just to damn ridiculous.
I make a quick glance over to Emmet.
He's looking at me again. Turning away quickly, again.
Um... wow... I have a feeling he likes me too. Just a small one... but a feeling is a feeling.
Once the bell rings, and we all get up from our seats, and walk out to the hallway. Veronica goes up next to me.
"That boy, is meant for you!" she exclaims.
"I kind of think you're overreacting here." I say to her.
"Lillette," I hear next to me suddenly. I jump, turning to where I heard it. And it just happens to be Emmet. He looks at me smiling. Veronica smirks at me, giving me a nudge on the arm, as she walks away leaving me with Emmet.
I feel my cheeks get heated. I walk up to him slowly.
"Hey," I say.
"Uh hi," he says. "Heard you got a perfect score on the test. And I'm the one with enhanced intelligence, and I got four wrong."
I raise my eyebrows.
"Really?" I say weirdly.
"Yeah, my friends gave me so much crap for it." he says with a chuckle. I giggle, awkwardly, looking down at the floor. We stand there for a few long seconds, until he says something.
"Hey, um... are you free, like right now? Because I have my free period now... I don't know about you, but thought you'd may wanna..." his voice trails off.
"...Go for a walk... around the grounds...?" I finish for him. He stares at me, as if he doesn't know what I think yet.
"Um, yes. It can be as friends... or it can be as like... you know, more than that..." he says to me.
My emotions are exploding inside, but I'm keeping my cool.
"Um...... yeah!" I exclaim. "Sure!"
Emmet smiles brightly.
"All right! All right! Nice!" he exclaims. "Wait like right now?"
"Yeah! Yeah! Why not? Heh!" I exclaim chuckling.
* * *
I talk as he hands me the cheeseburger he snuck from the cafe.
"Wow, you really know how to sneak in and sneak out of things." I say unwrapping the burger, referencing to the time they were in the cage during Jamie's plan. He snickers.
"Heh, well, it is kind of my thing." he says sitting down next to me in front of the window, watching the sun set, the sky turning pink absent. I take a bite of the burger, the same old flavor as ever, but somehow incredibly delicious.
"Oh my God, the same old flavor but somehow I love it every time." I say chewing. Emmet giggles.
"Wow. You like to eat cheeseburgers and you're a twig." he says. I roll my eyes.
"Yeah see my friends, they force themselves to get eating disorders. If you wanna sit at their table, you have to eat only fruit and vegetables. But that is not, stopping me from getting this delicious meal in just maybe even once a week." I say.
"Wow, do they know?" asks Emmet. I turn over to him smirking.
"No they do not," I say. "And I have no regrets whatsoever."
He snickers, "Ha nice!"
I nod, chewing. A while passes.
"Hey, you got any other powers besides illusion and telepathy?" asks Emmet.
"Oh yeah, two others. Enhanced emotion and enhanced sight." I tell him. The enhancements in the book are so hard to keep straight.
"Oh wow. I heard enhanced emotion really sucks. People always thinking you're overdramatic." says Emmet.
"Yeah, I guess. But I'm just generally overdramatic honestly, so it's not too bad." I say. Emmet smirks and shakes his head at me. "Enhanced sight is the real thing that sucks. Like when you're looking in the mirror, you can make your mind zoom in on your face, and you see all this stuff on it... causing you to constantly pick at my face and cause scabs and acne to spread and... when you have all this stuff on your face, that's like... one of the main things people notice about you."
Emmet stares at me confused.
"It's not the only thing I've noticed." he says. I turn to him, an indescribable feeling springing through my body. He then reaches out to a strand of hair over my face, and moves it out of the way, tucking it behind my ear.
Holy shit.
This is the most intense feeling I've ever felt in my life.
I think it's... "love". In love... am I in love.
I smile slightly.
"Um... I should... start heading to my next class... now that I think about it... it's like five floors up, and the elevators are down ever since Jamie's whole fiasco down in the lab, so I like... have to use the stairs and all," I say standing up. He stands up looking down at me, with his bright green eyes wide. "But, good talk."
He smiles.
"Yeah, same goes to you." he says. We end up staring at each other, until I find myself walking closer to him. I put my hands on his arms, as we slowly make our way towards each others mouths.
I suddenly stop, when I weirdly feel his right hand fit its way onto my butt, tightening.
I stand there wide eyed, and back away from him slightly, away from his face.
"Whoa!" I exclaim. He stares at me weirdly. His hand slides off.
"What?" he asks, looking concerned. I stare at him, backing away from him even more.
"What was that?" I ask, offended by him looking as if nothing is wrong. He stares at me, looking guilty, trying to think.
"Oh, oh that! Oh yeah, I kind of realized while that was happening it felt wrong and all, but I really wasn't intending you to make it feel like that... but I gotta admit..." he says walking closer to me, everything around me starting to feel darker by the moment. "Sometimes it's hard to let that just slip by."
I stare up at him, the entire bottom half of my body feeling heavy, a tornado swirling around in it.
His handsome green eyes have now turned into snake eyes, staring down at me, ready to sink his teeth in me.
This is not the guy I was looking for.
He just touched me. My butt.
"Hope we can do this again sometime, Lillette. Good talk." he says. He walks past me, walking away.
The feeling of love had completely drained out of me, and filling back up with guilt, and helplessness.
I can't believe that just happened.
A guy that I liked has just sexually assaulted me.
How the hell did this happen? How the hell did this happen?!
The fast food slips out of my hands onto the floor.
The bathroom. The bathroom, where the hell is the bathroom. Dammit dammit dammit. The bathroom, through the lunchroom.
I sprint over to the lunchroom. Between the tables, my hand cupping over my mouth, as laughter, frantic talking, and yelling is sent throughout my ears.
"Lillette? Lillette are you okay?" I hear. That was Grace. But I keep walking to the bathroom. I keep hearing her voice from behind me.
I turn left, heading towards the door. Tears form in my eyes as I get closer.
I throw open the door of the bathroom, go over to a stall, and shut it, locking it.
I sit on the toilet, breaking down completely.
I went from feeling the best feeling of my life to the worst I've ever felt in my life.
There is no way in hell I would've expected that. A guy I liked just went to a guy to sexually assault me.
I hear the bathroom door open, and Grace's voice.
"Lillette, what's going on? What happened?" she asks.
"Grace, just go away dammit!" I wail, burying my face in my hands. She knocks on the door of the stall.
"Lillette I just wanna know if you're okay..." soothes Grace. I wipe the tears from my eyes, and look at the door of the stall.
"Well you do think, smartass! You're asking if I'm okay we'll I'm crying in a stall, the hell I'm not okay!" I say slamming my fist against the wall of the stall, angered. I hear Grace sigh.
"Can I do anything?" she asks.
"No! Just go away and leave me alone! Please!" I exclaim. She hasn't gone away yet. "Go!"
I hear her walk out and close the door behind her.
The first ever time I felt like I was in love has been ruined. Forever. You only fall in love for the first time once. I can't go back and rewind it.
Seriously. I never want to relive that moment ever again. But it involves with love. How am I gonna ever trust anyone falling in love again?
Or if I even want to...
Or ever want to again...