(Jase ;) the hottest above)
We get back to the hospital. We had grabbed coffee and donuts for everyone. I wasn't hungry, but the coffee helps. My dad called to tell me a specialist was coming here and that he would fly back with us to monitor Dani. I felt relieved. Like I could almost breathe.
I went back in and let everyone know. I looked over and saw Anna still sitting there. I began to wonder if she felt guilty and thats why she was here. Her son was sitting next to her. He was quiet and fiddling with his hands.
Nicky woke up. He looked around and started whining. Chase went over and picked him up. Chase and I are alot alike. We don't even think about what our family needs. We just do it. Nicky started sucking his thumb as Chase started rubbing his back and whispering.
Will comes back in. He looks at Nicky and then sits down. I take a sip of my coffee. Brody is on the side of me sleeping. I look at the time again. Two minutes have gone by. I can't handle how it feels like forever. I get up and walk to the nurse.
"Can we go stand by her window until we can go in?" I ask almost ready to beg.
"Let me ask." She gets on the phone. I back up a little to give her some space.
"Okay, She's being monitored. It's been steady. If you guys go up, no noise. She needs to remain calm. If you see the doctor wave you guys away then you have to leave. Okay? "
"Okay. I will tell everyone. " I tell her. She follows me to the waiting room. Everyone gets up and comes over.
"If anyone has anything to say do it right now. She's letting us go wait outside the window. I know its killing me knowing that she's hurting and I can't even see her. So I know its got to be hurting you guys too. There's seats across from the window so we can sit. I think we will feel less helpless being able to at least see her. So once we leave this room we have to be quiet. " I say feeling like we're in a football huddle.
"Thanks Jase. I feel like I let down her mother. So maybe just watching her breathe will be enough for right now." Will says. I pull him into a hug. Will hugs me back. We let go and follow the nurse out.
We get to the window and see her laying on the table. The machines working her body for her. I watch her chest rise and fall. Its hard seeing her like this but it was even harder not seeing her. I look over to Brody and he has tears running down his puffy cheeks. He comes over to me and leans against me.
I won't be weak until I'm by myself later. I will be strong so they can be. Chase is still holding Nicky and Alex is staring thru the window. Will is sitting behind us. Anna comes up to the glass. She looks like she is aging next to me.
"Oh god Dani. You need to survive this." She whispers. "Jase, I didn't realize that she was out here by herself. I haven't seen her since her birthday. I didn't know they weren't getting along. It took me a minute to realize what happened in front of me. Then we started fighting. If I knew she was here alone, I would of went after her."
"I don't want to talk about it." I tell her. She nods at me. I turn back to the window. The doctor looks over and sees us all.
He comes over and opens the door. "Her stats have not changed at this time. The swelling in her brain has gone down a little. I will let one person in at a time."
They all look at me. I know I have been bossy but I want the best for her. "Will your going first. Then Chase, Alex, Brody, Anna and then me."
Alex looks over to me. Like he's not sure of what I said. Will nods and follows the doctor in the room. Anna looks at me"What about Andy. He loves her to Jase."
"I didn't want to scar him." I bend down next to her son. " listen I'm not saying you don't love her. You have to understand once you get closer your going to see her covered in bruises. She can't move, see you, she might be able to hear you. She can't breathe on her own. The machines in there are pumping and cleaning her blood for her. I know this sounds scary. I have been thinking about it all day. You have to be very careful and not touch any wires. Are you okay? "
Andy looks like he wants to cry. He nods his head. "I love her too." He says in his tiny voice. I pull him in for a hug.
"Then you go in next. Tell her softly that you love her. If you want hold her hand. The hand with out the wires. The doctor will tell you were to stand. Tell her to get better and that we're all waiting. Ok?" I say. He looks at me and gives me a small smile.
Will comes back out and hugs Chase to him. I know he's thinking about how much he stands to lose. Andy follows the doctor in and we watch him hold her hand. You see his mouth moving. I watch Anna take a picture of them. I wonder if its wrong. I know I did it. But now that I think about how she looks, will she get mad? I hope not.
I know we're wondering if she will survive. If this will be the last we have of her. I hate sounding so negative but the Doctor stated to me that its extreme measures to keep her alive right now. Andy comes out.
"I told her Jase. Just like you said. " Andy says looking up at me.
"Good job buddy." I look at how little he looks. I was only two years older than him when our parents left us for England and I had to take care of Brody. We had a house keeper that came at night and made dinner. Then she went home to her family once she gave us a look that says she doesn't approve but she still doesn't take us with her.
"Anna go next." Chase says. We watch her go in. We watch her talk and then kiss her hand. She comes back out. Chase goes in. I know he will be longer than all of them.
"Im going to take Andy home. Can you please call or text when you get to California. Let me know. I gotta go home and get my thoughts in order. I just met someone for the first time yesterday and its not someone I like." Anna says and hugs everyone. She takes Andy's hand and leaves. Maybe I was wrong about her.
A half hour goes by and Chase finally comes out. I know it was hard for him to leave her. I don't know about Alex. He's hard to read. I know we both stay away from each other. Chase and I see so much of each other in each other. I'm not man crushing. It's just we are both strong people and I respect stand up people. I hate thinking so much. He comes over and stands next to me.
We watch Alex now. He wipes his face. Picks up her hand and doesn't look away from her. All three of us love the same girl. Im okay with it. Im actually okay with it. Maybe its just to much right now.
"Hey Brody text Tyler and let him know we will be home tonight. After Dani gets situated for the night, we will go to Chase's house and have movie night in the Livingroom. That way we can all be together." I tell Brody. He nods and pulls out his phone. Will nods at the idea.
More time goes by. Chase is now leaning against me and Brody is standing next to him. It's weird seeing her just laying there. I feel the need to hurt someone. But there's nothing I can do.
Alex comes out. Chase walks over and grabs hold of Alex. "It's hard. I haven't felt like this since my parents died and I don't really remember them anymore. She can't die. Its just too much in this lifetime. "
Brody goes in and we watch him looking down at her. He smiles and then laughs alittle. He starts talking with all these hand gestures. Oh he's telling her about the clowns. He's so easy to read. He then points out the window. He's telling on me. He's telling my girlfriend thats in a coma on me. How are we related much less twins.
He comes out with a smug look. I hit the back of his head. "I know you told on me."
"Yeah and she will take care of you. We're thunder buddies that's what we do." Brody says. He got everyone to smile at him.
I walked in. I look down at the bruises covering her face. I kiss her forehead. All her hair is gone. She's not going to be happy about that. I sit in the chair next to her. I hold onto her hand.
"Baby, I'm here. Im going to take you home."