Y/n pov
Hell. That's one way to describe love. That's all I learned. Kim jisoo. She was my life and light. My everything. Alas, all good things end she left me.
I was sitting at my table as my buddies yelled at each other. I was the leader of our gang. We were known as BTS. I sat at the head of out table with a cold face staring at her. She was sitting with her group and I just stared at her. I sighed and just put my face in my hands and cursed internally. It wasn't one of those daydreaming sighs of wonder. It was me looking away in pain.
I cursed lightly and I felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked up and saw Jin. He looked at me sympathetic. I sighed and brushed his hand away. I grabbed my bag and said
"C'mon boys we got a job from my dad." They all nodded and we stood up. We were assassin's so was blackpink. And sadly assassin's can't date. No emotions can show from them no love. Only hatred and care for other members. I gripped onto my bag and shoved past everyone. The thing is we had to pass their table. I quickly walked by and couldn't help but glance at her.
We made eye contact. I felt my heat speed up my stomach feel tighter and my face feel hot. I clenched my jaw classes my eyes and pushed people out of my way out to the school yard. I felt a land in my heart. The boys and stared at me and I murmured out
"I just want to see her. Be with her alone just once." I felt my throat clench up. All I wanted was her. I felt a bunch of hands on my shoulder.
"Y/n, we're here for you. It's ok." I swallowed strained and nodded.
I quickly got everyone in the car and raced off. I drove to the base and grabbed my equipment. My arm guards, boots, black clothes, gloves, night seeing glasses, guns, and knife. I thickly swallowed and I got a call. I picked it up it was my dad.
"Hey y/n change of plans. You know blackpink. Right?"
I felt a pang in my chest and softly answered
" Yes."
" Great, you'll be working with them for the next few missions." I felt my throat clench up and I choked on my saliva and said
" What?" I heard him laugh over the line and say
"Son, I said you'll be working with other people. Man, you are way to anti social. You know what your old dad is going to take you out after this." I heard a beep as he hung up. Someone planned this.
I told everyone else and I felt all eyes on me. I loaded all my guns and said without looking up
"It's just work nothing else." I felt them all nod and I shoved my gun in it's holder.
"Let's go. They'll met us there." I walked to the car and when everyone was in I drove off.
Time skip
"Glasses on now." We all put them on and I rushed out. I breathed in air. We were infront of a factory. Of course how cliche.
"What's the bio?" J hope asked
"Drug dealer, a big one." Answered RM. I cleched my jaw when I heard the lightest step I yanked out my gun and pointed it a the sound. Out walked Lisa. I sighed and dropped it and whispered
"Be more careful." She rolled her eyes and said
"Yeah yeah." I glares at her. And looked around jimin wasn't here he was super sick. So it was a even number. Yay.
That mean Duos. If he was here I could go alone. I stared at them and said
"Partner up." Me and jisoo were always partners if I wasn't alone so she came next to me. I saw everyone and said.
"Target the man in the center the ring leader kill anyone in the way." They all nodded and I grabbed my gun. I smiled slightly and we walked in. Two groups from the top one each on the side. And me and jisoo as the leaders the ones who do most of the killing. I smiled slightly as me and jisoo got into position.
"Everyone ready?"
"Yep"
"All good"
"Ready"
"Yeah"
"3, 2, 1, NOW!"
I kicked down the door and some windows shattered. There he was the man himself. Not very protected. I ran up to him as the others started fighting off the body guards. Jisoo ran as well. I lifted her and sort of catapulted her forward.
She landed right in front of the guy and punched his face. I grabbed my gun and aimed it at the man when I realised there were multiple floors to this building. I looked up and saw a lot more people then before. I growled and pulled the trigger.
The leader was dead. I heard a up roar and next all I saw was black.
I woke up with a jolt and looked around. I was alone on a stage. Fuck no. I started thrashing around when a light came on. I yelled and realised my mouth was clothed. I felt a hand on my head untie the cloth. I growled once it was off and said
"Who the fuck did this?!"
I heard a chuckle and heard a voice
"My, my we have a fiesty one. Now, shut it. Be a good boy or your friend over there get hurt."
The figure pointed to the side and I saw all of them tied up.
My fault. All my fault. I felt a pang of guilt hit me. They had blood on them. I growled and yelled
"LET THEM GO JACKASS!" I heard a chuckle and he said
"You wanna play?" He pressed a button and I heard a Yelp. RM was shocked a bit. Fuck. I clenched my jaw and saw the rest get shocked.
"Let them go. LET THEM GO!" I felt my eye slightly twitch. That only happened when I knew someone was screwed. I felt a hard slap at the back of my head and a sharp pain hit me. Whatever. I've had worse. I closed my eyes and said
"Let them go. Now." Then man laughed and said
"Oh you really are stupid. You think I'm going to just let you go? After you killed our ring leader? As if." I heard more groans and saw the others get shocked. I growled and said
"Stop it. What do you want? Money?" I heard him chuckled and say
"My, my a smart one. But no. I want someone skilled. You. I want you." I clenched my fist.
" Well you can't have me." I felt a sharp jeer and a shock. I kept a straight face the pain lasted 15 seconds. I clenched my jaw and said
"Look dude. What your doing is illegal. People are dying of what your doing." He laughed and said
" You think I fucking care? If your not going to cooperate willingly. Let's do it forcibly, eh?" I heard a tell and men walked up being everyone. Then man snickered and said
"Let's see who has the most effect on him." Shit.
I stared as each of my friends got hit. All yelling. I cursed myself inside. When the guy stopped on jisoo. I glanced away and I saw the man shift.
"That girl. She has something with him. Mind sharing boy?" I filled and said
Yes, I do mind sharing." The man snapped and the guy behind jisoo pulled her hair. I filled and said
"Stop. Just stop! What do you want to know." I felt the guy smiled and he said
"My my a assassin who has emotions? We can't have that." He snapped again and each man grabbed a knife out and placed it at their throats. My breath hitched and I yelled
"STOP. STOP I'LL DO WHATEVER. STOP!" He smiled and said
" You want me to stop? Ok let's put the pain on you then." I nodded eagerly and the man smiled. He snapped and the men released their knifes. They walked towards me and untied me. The man walked out. He had a mask on and said
"Beat him. Y/n, don't move don't yell and most importantly stay strong." He laughed and I stood up and instantly I met a face to the face. I stumbled and I got a kick to the back and my stomach. I kept silent as my back cracked. I felt a punch to my nose, jaw, and body. I felt kicks to my shins and stomach. I felt nails on me cutting me and the cold metal of a knife.
I didn't fall not once. I heard a snap and they all stopped. The man walked over and said
"Well, what do we have here? Clearly strong willed. We need that. But how good is your endurance physically and mentally?" He snapped and they grabbed me and shoved me in a electric chair near the guys girls. They yanked off my shirt. I cringed mentally as they threw me on a strapped me in. I clenched my eyes closed as I suddenly felt all the pain suddenly fall onto me. I saw him grab a remote and crank it up to medium. He pressed start and I felt electricity shock me. It went through my wounds. I gasped and clenched my fists. I couldn't look at any of them. I couldn't. I can't this is all my fault. If only I thought more. It was just like last time. I felt a hot tear prick my eye but I held it in. I saw the man smile and say
"Well y/n. This is what you asked for. But it isn't that entertaining."
He snapped and a man pushed my head to face them. I closed my eyes and heard the man yell
"Open your eyes y/n." I felt him crank up the electricity. I yelled and opened my eyes. He cranked it up and said
"No sound y/n remember?" I cursed myself again. And clenched my fists. And opened my eyes staring at them all before I felt more electricity. I gasped and felt the shocks rock throughout my body. I felt eyes on me. I didn't care at this point the pain was torture. I felt the electricity increase drastically. I lurched forward and jerked trying to get away from the shock. I heard a laugh. And realized I was sweating causing the shock to hurt more. I felt tears prick my eyes and clenched my eyes shut when he stopped the shocking. They unstrapped me and I fell to the floor.
The pain was crazy. It went to my brain. I stayed silent but inside I was yelling. For help, comfort, anything. I was always good at hiding pain. Emotions. I heard the man laugh hysterically and say
"Oh god, this is hilarious. Y/n l/n on the ground in pain. Let's make it more fun." He grabbed me and made me stand up. I clenched my fists and forced myself to stand. He smiled and said
"Apologize to all of them." I choked on my saliva and coughed. That racked pain through me. I grabbed my chest and coughed even more. I stopped coughing and got kicked in the back.
"STOP AND APOLOGIZE!" I took in a deep breath. Three times and said weakly
"I'm sorry. I couldn't do it guys. I'm sorry I wasn't careful. I'm sorry for getting you into this. I'm sorry I couldn't prevent this. I'm sorry you have to see me. I'm sorry you have to burden me. I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise. Im sorry you have to see me everyday. I'm sorry... I'm so sorry."
I'm sorry jisoo.
The guy kicked me and Said
"say sorry to that poor lady. He motioned to jisoo." And I whispered
" I'm sorry jisoo. I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise. I'm sorry I was so foolish. Im sorry." I felt a hand on my shoulder I glanced behind me and felt a harsh impact. I was sent flying into the wall across the room. I gasped at contact and the guys yelled
"I couldn't hear you y/n. I don't think she could either. No stand up and stop being a pussy! Stand up and apologize properly." I got up and stumbled over back. I said louder then before
"I'm sorry for being foolish, jisoo. I'm sorry that I...that I couldn't keep my promise to you. I'm sorry." I felt and hand on my shoulder and the man smiled and said
"Good boy." He grabbed me and threw me into a wall. My whole body hit the wall and I fell to the ground. I growled and stood up. The man smiled and said
"Strong willed, still?" I stumbled up to him and said
"C'mon keep going. How much is left?" He took off his mask and said
" Oh come on. Just give up." I nodded no. And he smiled and said
" Ok. Then let's put you in a arena. Fight with others huh? " I nodded no and he looked shocked and said
" Fine then let's have you talk to your friend over there. Specifically the girl." I froze and nodded no eagerly he smiled and said
" Perfect. " He shoved us in a room. And I immediately fell. I'm so weak. I tried to get up and it just wasn't working. I mumbled to myself
"Get up. Get up. Your weak. Get up y/n." I felt eyes on me and I knew jisoo was staring at me. But it was her look of sympathy. I didn't want her sympathy. I finally pushed myself up and dragged my self to the chair. I stared at her and said
"I'm sorry. If only I thought more you guys wouldn't have gone through this. It's all my fault. I shouldn't have.... I shouldn't have even..." I slammed my fist against the chair. I cursed at myself. I felt a hand on me and she said
" It isn't your fault. You have nothing to be sorry for." I nodded no and said
" Did he hurt you guys?" She glares at me and said
"Why? You ask about us but we just witnessed you go through all that. Y/n, you need to care about yourself to!"
I smiled and said
" No, I'm not relevant. Never was. Never will be. It's all my fault. " I sighed and then a guy opened the door. He dragged me out and threw me against the floor. I yelled and the man put his foot on my head. I yelled as he pressed me harder into the floor. I heard him yell
"It is all your fault y/n. Everything is your fault. You caused the suffering of your friends. Just accept defeat and be on your way." I glanced at them and saw their eyes on me. Just as I was about to answer he punched me hard against my gut and started kicking and punching me. Hell no. Wouldn't even let me answer. I won't pussy out now. I lifted my fists. And fought back I blocked and kicked. He was beat up. I... I was barely able to keep conscious. He laughed and just as he laughed he knees my stomach and I coughed out a lot of blood. All of my pain rushed through me. I yelled and the pain rushed to my head and I fell to the ground gripping my throbbing skull. I groaned and gripped my head hard. I saw his foot. I growled grabbed it and threw him across the room. I grabbed a gun. And shot him three times. I felt a sharp pain to my arm and saw a wound. I growled and grabbed two guns. I killed everyone in that room. I threw the guns down and stumbled to my friends. I untied all of them. They all stared at me. I heard a clack and the door opened with operators. I heard Jin yell
"YOUR FUCKING USELESS YOUR 2 HOURS LATE. LOOK AT Y/N. LOOK AT WHAT HE SUFFERED!" I stumbled to him and patted his shoulder. I walked and grabbed my shirt. My breathing was harder. Please don't pass out. I saw all eyes on me. I stumbled against all wall and walked to the guy. He was a gangster. I walked past him put on my shirt and said
" I'm sorry for all of the..... In con vien ience." I fell to the ground and felt hands support me. Jisoo. I smiled and said
" I'm sorry." I grabbed the wall and pushed her away. I was covered in blood. I looked at everyone and said
"I'm sorry everyone. I'm sorry I couldn't be of more use. Im sorry you had to go through things while I was passed out." I saw the medical come through. The boys were all yelling angrily at me and the paramedics. I saw jisoo and reached out an arm to her. I just wanted her embrace. I fell into her arms and she hugged tightly and said
"It not all your fault you dumby." I sighed and said
"I'm sorry I couldn't love you like I promised. I promise now. From this moment on. I'll love you forever. I'm sorry jisoo. I'm so
So sorry."
Time skip
It's been a week. I was in the hospital everyone was around me. I glanced at them and said
"In sorr-"
"Shut up." I looked shocked at J hope.
" It wasn't your fault you saved all of us. Look at you we have a few cuts and your laying in bed with about 50 wounds." I smiled at him and said
"If I only planned more..." I felt and hand on mine jisoo. I smiled at her and everyone.
"Thank you. For all being here. Boys when will I be released?" RM smiled and said
" Since you heal quickly you can leave now." I quickly shot up and changed. They all smiled. We all walked to school. When I entered all eyes were on me and jisoo. We were now a thing. I didn't care if I was an assassin. I love her.
She's my everything. All eyes were on my scars. All the boys and girls surrounded me to make sure no one came near me. I stared at jisoo and said
"I love you." She nuzzled her head into my chest. I kissed her head and said
"I'll protect you all. Forever."
I live you my sunshine. Forever