"Come on,Tobs!"
"N-N-No."
"Pleeeaaase?"
"I d-don't want to."
The blonde girl sat in front of me,pouting.
"But lil' bro,last time i asked,you told me that you'd come with me next time. Well,next time is now! So let's goooo!"
She desperately tried to convince me to go to the mall with her.
I didn't want to. I didn't want to go anywhere near other people.
She grabbed my hand,her long nails slighty digging into my skin.
It wasn't painful in any way.
I let her drag me outside our house and into the passenger's seat of her black car.
"You know th-th-that i hate going o-out..."
"Yes i do. But we'll have fun. We can even get ice cream if you want to."
I smiled at my sister.
She's so silly.
I think i fell asleep when we were driving.
However,i was woken up by a strange feeling of being watched.
Deciding to ignore it i tried to fall asleep again,but opened my eyes and looked towards my sister just in time to see her legs being crushed and twisted in a unnatural matter and her torso and forehead being impaled by glass.
I'm guessing we had a car crash...
There was blood splattering onto my face and i had to close my eyes for a split second to not get blood into them.
I was probably also getting hurt somewhere,because i felt something at my arm and head but i couldn't feel the pain.
Warm liquid was running down my face and it took me several minutes to comprehend what had happened.
Then it hit me.
It felt like time stopped as i heard my sisters screams fade away.
The silence was painful,the scent of blood was filling the air.
I couldn't talk.
Couldn't move.
Hoped that i couldn't see.
But i saw it.
My eyes were widened and my mouth hung open in a silent scream.
My sister was sitting there,right next to me.
Not too long ago she told me that we would go to the mall.
Now she was..
She was dying more and more every single minute that was passing by.
It was so simple.
I blinked.
And as i opened my eyes again,i noticed that i was staring at a white ceiling.
What...
I blinked again and found myself looking down onto my sister.
She was lying in a hospital bed,her body crushed and hurt,her face was a mix between a grimace and and a bloody pulp.
I looked up and saw my mother standing at the other side of the bed,her head buried in her hands.
Her cries,as well as my sisters faint breathing broke my heart.
Blinking again,i was standing in front of a grave.
I heard louder cries from multiple people.
I blinked again and noticed that it suddenly was night time.
Nobody was there anymore.
I was alone in front of that grave.
Aside from my tics,nothing else could be heard in this dead silence.
And i think i felt a warm tear slip out of the corner of my right eye and make its way down my cheek.
I blinked again and saw my old room from the corner i was sitting in.
Looking down,i saw my hands.
The skin and a few chunks of meat were chewed off of my fingers and blood covered my hands.
It didn't hurt though.
I blinked once again,and saw the corpse of my father under me.
As i blinked again,i saw flames surrounding me.
It was warm,and i smiled.
This was my end.
I will be dead after this.
My vision turned black,and suddenly this ..thing was standing over me.
It had no eyes,no nose,no mouth but...
Somehow it spoke to me.
I closed my eyes,and as i opened them again,i saw a bunch of weird looking people sit around me.
The voices in my head were talking to me,and even if i was trying to block them out,i couldn't make out what these people around me were saying.
So i closed my eyes and hoped for everything to disappear.
And,strangely,it did.
I opened my eyes again and saw a man leaning over me.
He was wearing a grey shirt.
I let my eyes travel up to meet pale blue eyes looking back at me.
His dark brown,almost black hair was messy fell into his face on some parts.
I reached out to brush a few streaks away.
They shouldn't ruin such a perfect face by lying messily on it.
But why was i here?
I was confused.
Were these memories of the accident and everything after that only a dream?
Who was this man on top of me?
"Toby?"
The moment i heard his voice was the moment i knew who he was again.
I let my hand sink.
"M-M..Masky..."
I heard someone banging at the door,screaming "Timothy,open this motherfucking door or i'll cut off your motherfucking balls!".
The blue eyed shouted back "Calm down,Jane!".
My throat felt funny.
It felt like someone was scratching and breathing in and out felt weird.
I cleared my throat but that only caused me to turn my head away from the man and start coughing.
When i stopped,i also noticed nobody was screaming or knocking anymore.
What the flying fuck was going on here?
I felt strong arms wrap around my body and pull me close. "Wh-Wha.."
Masky muttered "I'm so sorry Toby".
I guess i laid my arms around his neck and hugged back.
I remember what happened.
He strangled me,didn't he?
His grip on me tightened and he whispered into my ear that he was sorry.
I don't know what that feeling inside of me was,but i think it was a mix of fear and.. something else.
But i wasn't exactly scared.
I felt.. good.
I like how warm his body is.
I wasn't hugged like this in years.
I didn't feel save like this in years.
I didn't like any person to be close to me in years.
What i felt for Ben was a little like this too,and i assumed that i was in love with Ben but...
this is completely different.
It was at that moment that i started to wonder..
What is it like?
To be in a relationship?
To kiss someone?
To love someone?
To be loved?
The last thought i had was a little embarassing but still..
What is it like,to have sex?
I remember that the people in school always roared about how they already had their first time and how awesome it was.
The people should do this because of love,but some do it for other reasons.
It's stupid,really.
And i'm not sure how i should feel about all this lovey-dovey shit.
I don't know what happened,but i think i had an emotional breakdown.
I have these every once in a while.
Anyways,i was still hugging him but i was crying my eyes out. There were darker spots on Maskys shoulder because of my tears and i was feeling bad for just starting to cry while he obviously felt bad himself.
He pulled away and as i looked up,he wiped my tears away.
His thumb ran across my cheek carefully.
It was a soft touch.
He looked like someone who just found a kitten with a broken paw.
Masky cupped my face with one hand and leaned down.
One of my questions was being answered.
Maskys lips felt soft and warm.
He closed his eyes and after a second i did it too.
Our lips moved in perfect sync,and i wrapped my arms around his neck to pull him closer as his hands rested on each side of my waist.
I felt him bite my bottom lip slightly and to be honest,i didn't know what to do.
Apparently Masky didn't care,because i suddenly felt a tongue slip into my mouth.
I couldn't control myself,and i let out a small moan.
My hands wandered up to tug slightly at his hair while my head tipped to the side a little.
He pulled me even closer and i felt his tongue rub against mine.
It felt amazing but the need to breathe became too much.
As i pulled away,we both gasped for air.
Still panting,i pulled him close again.
There was no way that i would let the chance to continue this wonderful feeling slip away.
I felt him smirk slighty into the kiss and my tongue met his again.
I loved this feeling.
Masky pulled me into his lap and wrapped his arms around me.
I let my hands wander under his shirt and touch his warm skin with my cold hands.
Masky pulled away to get some air and get the shirt off of him.
Then we continued kissing again,and my hands roamed across his chest and every other spot of his body that wasn't covered by clothes.
His body was amazing,and his kisses too.
My cheeks were a right red by now and as he pulled away once again,he took my wrists and pulled them away from his body.
He just looked at me and i noticed a slight red hue on his cheeks.
Maybe i was too shocked to talk or i was just taken aback.
This was my first kiss,i've never imagined it to be like..
this.
I mean...
First of all,Masky's a guy.
Second,he's 25 and i am 17.
Third,i'm not even sure what the fuck i'm feeling towards this guy.
Fourth,i just kissed the dude who strangled me.
The door was kicked open and we looked towards it to find a very pissed off Ben standing next to a pokerfacing Jane.
"YOU MOTHERFUCKING BASTARD."
The next thing i noticed was Masky being punched in the face by Ben.
Jane walked towards me.
"Are you alright,Toby?"
Trying to hide my blush,i simply nodded.
She turned towards Ben and Masky.
Ben was on top of him,beating the shit out of him.
Masky was a lot stronger than Ben but he didn't try to block his punches or even punch back.
Jane pulled Ben off of him and tried to calm him down.
I stood up and walked up to them.
Suddenly i had three pairs of eyes on me as i helped Masky up.
"Toby?"
I turned towards Ben. "Y-Yeah?"
He tipped his head to the side a little. "Why are you blushing?"
"Uhm..."
Jane looked at Masky. "And why the fuck are you only wearing pants you fucking pervert?!"
He smirked and i saw Ben clench his fists.
This was really awkward...
Ben pulled me away from Masky and i stood next to him now.
"Good thing we came in time. He probably would've fucking raped you if we-"
He was interrupted by Masky saying
"I'll fuck him some other day anyways".
I was blushing even more now and Ben was dumbfounded.
Jane started to giggle.
Authors Note:
Hey there.
This chapter sucks.
Sorry that i took so long to update.
I'm like "Please?"
And my life is all like "Nope."
So.. yeah.
Dunno.
Hope you like this shit anyways.
~Darkii