Once again I've been an idiot in picking a girl. I honestly should have just stayed out of her life.I should have been focused on soccer. that should have been my sole focus. I've been slacking a little but not anymore. My new top priority is getting into a school. One that's far from here, far from her. Yeah maybe I should give her a chance to explain, but that won't change anything. She lied to me and still had the nerve to try and make me seem like the bad one. I'm not gonna avoid the situation this time though. I'm gonna be mature about this. I'm gonna show up to school, talk to her and if we work things out then that's great. But if we don't that's fine too. All I know is I'm not gonna be played anymore.
It's now 6 am and I'm barely coming down from my high. Just in time for practice too. I change in my room, make my shake, and drive off to school. The locker room in the morning is usually quiet but today it was full of whispers.The whole team had their phones out looking at something that was out of my view. The whispers that stopped when I got there. Everyone was giving me looks of sympathy. I ignored them and focused on doing what I had to.
Today's practice went by so fast and I wasn't even tired.
Before we left Cameron stopped me. "Hey y/n I know you're pissed Camila's cheating on you but don't hurt Shawn. Camila came onto him last night while she was drunk. That picture of the kiss shows the bottle.
What the actual fuck. So she still cheated on me even after I left. That's when it clicked the boys must have been looking at the picture of Camila with Shawn. I didn't wanna look stupid in front of the team so i just played it off.
"Yeah man no worries, I'm not worried about the situation anymore, clearly she doesn't love me.
We had an hour and thirty minutes before school started so I headed towards my room to shower so I could have that talk with Camila. Now it had to be a break up for sure. She isn't gonna have me looking stupid. When I opened the door to my room the sight that greeted me made me almost change my mind.
There she was. The love of my life, on my bed, wearing my team hoodie. She's so fucking beautiful. I just played with her hair for a few minutes because deep down I knew that this would be my last chance. I can't believe she cheated on me. I finally got the strength to get up and walk away towards the shower. I started singing in there. I usually only do that when I'm bummed or real happy. Today unfortunately was the former.
"No quiero que mas nadie me hable de amor
Ya me canse
To' esos trucos ya me los se, esos dolores los pase, yeah yeah yeahNo quiero que mas nadie me hable de amor
Ya me canse
To' esos trucos ya me los se, esos dolores los pase"
A soft knock on the door interrupted my little singing session.
"Baby." When I heard that voice my heart broke a little more. That's when the first wave of tears started. I already knew what was gonna come next and I didn't want it to happen just yet. I didn't say anything but she still walked in. I saw her through the shower door coming my way and I let the water soak my face so my tears would remain hidden. I had my eyes closed until I felt her wrap her hands around my waist.
"Baby I swear it was nothing. He was just teaching me." She still had the nerve to fucking lie to me. I bet she doesn't even know someone took a picture of her and Shawn. I grabbed both of her hands and pushed them off me gently. She still didn't give up and turned me to face her. When she saw my eyes she started crying too. I never sang to her but it would have to do for now because I couldn't form any of my own words.
"Hoy te odio en el secreto, ante todo lo confieso
Si pudiera, te pidiera que devuelvas to' los besos que te di
La palabra y todo el tiempo que perdi
Me arrepiento una y mil veces de haber confiao' en ti Quisiera que te sientas como yo me siento
Quisiera ser como tu, sin sentimiento
Quisiera sacarte de mi pensamiento
Quisiera cambiarle el final al cuento"
"Please y/n stop it." She said interrupting me again. "This is the only way I can talk to you right now." I have nothing else to say." I said and continued the song
Las barras y los tragos han sido testigo del dolor que me causaste
Y to' lo que hiciste conmigo
Un infeliz en el amor que aún no te supera
Y que ahora camina solo sin nadie por todas las acerasPreguntandole a Dios si en verdad el amor existe
Y ¿por que si yo era tan bueno toda esta mierda tu me hiciste?
Lo más cabrón es que tu ves todo como un chiste
Siempre voy a maldecir el dia en que naciste Los chocolates que te di y todas las flores
Se convierten hoy en dia en pesadilla' y dolore'
Ya yo perdi la fe de que tu mejore'
Si despues de la lluvia sale el arcoiris, pero sin colores, yeahNo quiero que mas nadie me hable de amor
Ya me canse
To' esos trucos ya me los se, esos dolores los pase, yeah yeah yeahNo quiero que mas nadie me hable de amor
Ya me canse
To' esos trucos ya me los se, esos dolores los pase, yeah yeah yeah
She was full on sobbing by the time I was done. She knew it was over.
"Camila why did you do this to me? Was I doing something wrong? Was I not good enough? And why are you still trying to lie about it?"
"Baby I promise it was nothing I love you so much, I wouldn't do anything to purposely hurt you." She said while sobbing.
"Stop fucking lying Camila. Just stop. I know you cheated on me. The whole team knows you cheated on me. That probably means the whole school knows. There's fucking pictures and a video of you cheating on me. I had my whole team looking at me like my dog just died. I know wha you did Camila." Her whole face paled when I mentioned the pictures and video, even if there was no video I added that in for effect.
"Shawn took a video of us in bed? I'm gonna kill him. Baby I was drunk."
Bed
Bed
Bed
She fucked him. My dumbass thought it was just a kiss. So she really went all out. That was all I needed to know. She didn't know exactly what I knew but now I know everything. I punched the shower glass so hard it cracked.
"I was bluffing there wasn't a video, but now I know. Now I know what you really are Camila. You're just like the rest of them aren't you. Just a common fucking whore with no self respect. Did he fuck you good? Huh? Did he make you see stars? Was it because he was all the way a man? Was he everything I wasn't? Huh? Answer me you dirty fucking slut. You knew exactly what you were saying yesterday when you said I didn't own you. You knew you weren't mine."
"Don't, please don't talk to me like that y/n. It was a mistake. We were both drunk. You didn't pick up the phone. He was there and I don't know what came over me but please y/n I've always been yours. I promise it won't happen again."
"But you are a slut. You're a cheater and I don't want you in my life anymore so I'm gonna say this slowly for you to understand. Once I walk out of this restroom we're done. Me and you are over. I don't want you to speak to me. I would appreciate it if you would stop coming to my games. I don't wanna look at you anymore so I'm gonna make your godmother switch my classes. Don't 'accidentally' bump into me. Don't come to my room, hell don't even look my way Cabello. As for Shawn, you can keep fucking him. I'm not even gonna waste my time with y'all because it's not worth it. So have a good life Camila Cabello."
I walked out of the bathroom shaking. I think Lauren must have known we were arguing so she left. I got dressed and went on to talk to Lovato to fix my schedule. I didn't even knock when I got there.
"Can I help you Gonzalez?" She said with an angry tone.
"Why yes you can. I would like you to change my schedule so I have absolutely no classes with your goddaughter. That includes homeroom." I said in a serious tone.
"What makes you think I would do that for you? Especially when you just barge in here making demands. Besides why do you want to stay away from Camila?"
"She cheated on me. Your whore of a goddaughter cheated on me." I said with venom in my voice, not giving a fuck if I got in trouble.
"You watch that filthy mouth when you speak about her. I won't change your schedule now get out before I give you detention." Her face was red with anger.
I just laughed because I knew she was going to have to change my schedule and she wasn't handing out any type of punishment.
"My filthy mouth? The only filthy element of this whole conversation has a name, and her name is Camila Cabello. Now like I was saying I would like my schedule changed right now please and thank you.
"Forget it and also you have detention for a week."
I laughed again and then changed back to a serious tone.
"There won't be any detention for me because if you don't change my fucking schedule right now I'll leave Miami Prep."
"Well leave then no one is stopping you."
"Without me the lions are gonna lose. Mahone is gone now you don't have a striker anymore you won't even make it to the second round of states. Especially if I go play for the sharks. You may run the school. But I run the field Lovato. So I'm gonna say this one last time change my motherfucking schedule."
She started typing furiously on her laptop and printed out a paper and threw it at me.
"There now get out of my office and don't let me hear you disrespect Camila again."
"Now that's what I'm talking about. You see everyone wins now. I hope to see you at the game today. I'll dedicate my hat trick to you Lovato." With that I got up and walked out of her office with a smirk on my face.
I always win in the end. Even if right now I feel like complete shit because the girl I love cheated on me. I'm still gonna win. I'm gonna show her what she threw away. I'm gonna get over her and then I'm gonna finish my last year of high school. And then I'm gonna go to a college nowhere near here and live out my dream to be the best women's soccer player of this generation.
What's up guys. I'm finally updating lol 😂 I've been on vacation this whole last week but I'm back and unfortunately school is too 🙄 Anywayyyys this book is almost finished but there will be a sequel to it so yeaaaa. Also for my non spanish speaking readers I'll translate the song that y/n was singing to Camila below. That song was my shit for the longest. The english version is kinda lit too.
Spanish- Amorfoda- Bad Bunny
English- Amorfoda-Ralph Larenzo
I don't want to hear another word about loveI'm exhausted, I know all the tricksI felt all the pain, yeah, oh yeahI don't want to hear another word about loveI'm exhausted, I know all the tricksI felt all the pain, yeahToday I hate you on the lowFirst of all, I confess, if I could I ask for youto return every kiss I gave to youAnd the words I've said in all the time I lostI regret the effort I put into youI would like for you to see how I feelI would like to be like you without feelingsI would like for you to be out of my headI would like to change the ending of the storyThe buzzing and the jinxes have been my witnessAbout all of the pain you have caused meI'm unhappy in love, I can't forget youI now walk alone on every sidewalkI'm asking God if love really existsWhy if I was good, she'd do all of that to meWhat chances you take all of this as a joke?Always going to curse the day that you were bornAnd any gifts that I gave youThey are part of my agonizing painI already lost some for you to improveIt's the end of the roadI don't want to hear another word about loveI'm exhausted, I know all the tricksI felt all the pain, yeahI don't want to hear a thing about love anymoreI'm exhausted, I know all the tricksI felt all of the pain.