WARNING: TALKS ABOUT RAPE
Giovanni leaves me in the apartment for the next two hours so I find entertainment in reading James Patterson's 'Cross'.
I was at the part where the butcher savagely rapes a girl in the bathroom then takes pictures of her naked body.
"Sophia?"
"AAAHHHH!"
I put my hand on my heart to steady my breathing as Giovanni's figure sets his briefcase next to the bed.
"You scared me Gio!"
"I'm sorry baby, I didn't mean too"
As his figure walks over to switch on the lights, I turn off my phone flashlight.
Pulling me into his arms he frowns at my current stage, "You've been crying mio amore".
I rest my head onto his chest, "He freakin' raped her, and he took pictures of her naked body. He didn't kill her though but he told her if she spoke out he would come back and do it".
Giovanni picks up the book and shakes his head, "Sophia, I told you not to read these books if they upset you".
I shrug my shoulders, "I know, but It's so good".
After removing his clothes until he's in boxers, he climbs under the covers and pulls me into his lap.
"She was raped in a public bathroom and although that's never happened to me before it's triggering. Women suffer so much at the hands of men, they forget they all came from a women. All men are protective over their mothers, sister and daughters. They know how men act and they don't want another male to treat the women in their lives like that. But if that's the case why do they find it OK to treat another person's mother, sister or daughter like that? It baffles me how everyone is scared that their daughter will get raped but no one is ever scared their son will be the one doing it".
Gio tilts my face to look up at him, "It makes me angry as well my love. I wasn't raised to treat women like they're less human and it's not in me to do it either".
Leaning in I kiss his lips, "That's why I married you. Your a gentleman and I want my son's to be gentlemen and my daughters to see how their Father treats their mother and know how a man should treat them. I love you so much Giovanni".
Gio's eyes go dark, "If you keep talking like that I'll put a baby In there faster than you can think."
I tease him with a fake moan, "I'd love that."
Flipping me over, Gio's hands slide up and down my nightgown, "Your legs are already shaking and I haven't even touched you."
I look away from his eyes embarrassed, "It's because they were asleep."
But the feeling of Giovanni kissing my inner thigh sends me into hysteria. He removes his hand, lift's up my left thigh and smacks my exposed *ss.
"I told you to stop playing with me Sophia."
***
I wake up early in the morning the next day and make us some breakfast. I know I could have easily ordered food up to the suite but I was feeling good.
Sadly my spirits drops as Giovanni wakes up around eight in a bad mood.
I reach out to him, "Gio what's wrong?"
He snatches his hand away, "Stop".
I step back confused, "Um...Ok? Well I made you breakfast, your plate is in the fridge just warm it up-"
"I'm not hungry."
I watch as he turns away and walks back to the room. Five minutes later he comes out dressed in a black suit and his hair gelled back.
I turn off the TV, "Where are you going?"
He opens his briefcase and puts folders inside, "Meeting."
I look down, "Oh but I thought we were gonna go shopping toda-"
He stands up glaring at me, "I came here for business Sophia. Remember?"
Pulling out his wallet he tosses me a wad of cash.
"Alessandro can take you. He's in suite 236".
I sit there until I hear the door click shut and the sound of him locking it with his keys because he's learned that I'll forget to lock it.
I bring my legs to my knees and cry. I don't know what I did to make him mad. Last night before we slept we prayed together and then he gave me a kiss goodnight. But I do know I don't deserve the way he just treated me, it was rude and unnecessary for there wasn't a reason behind it.
Getting up I pass the money he threw on the couch and head to the room where I change into the Samara midi dress from Princess Polly. My hair was in box braids so I just let it stay down. After I apply mascara and lipgloss I slip on some short heels. I had planned to look good for our day out so that Giovanni could take pictures of me but since he isn't coming anymore I'll just ask strangers to take them.
With my purse and camera in hand, I make my way out of the hotel and walk to the bank where I transfer my American dollars to Euros. Next I go to a local Coffee shop where I order a chocolate chip muffin. I spend around fifteen minutes in there then I head back to the streets where I take pictures and I also stop around shops to find something for both Lucia and Sammy.
Taking a Metro I head to the outer part of Paris to the town of Eguisheim. The first thing that I see is children running around with Soccer balls, chasing each other, and riding bikes. Couples old and young hold hands walking together, and teenagers fill the air with laughter as they trade stories. It makes me so happy to see people slow down and enjoy life.
Back at the City and in New York City, everyone is in a rush going Somewhere. Even as they eat their food it's in a rush and they lose patience when their children can't walk fast enough. I want to live this kind of life, a slow type of life where I can enjoy life type of life.
I want to live in the country side, build a beautiful home where the grass is always green and raise my three or five children in peace. I know they grow up fast so I will take advantage of everyday and hold them tight every night.
"Mademoiselle, frappe mio le ballon s'il te plait".
(Miss, pass me my ball please?)
I look up to see a cute young boy with the greenest eyes I have ever seen. He is pointing to an old, faded soccer ball that rolled to my feet.
Smiling kindly I give the ball a kick and watch as he picks it up running back to his friends who have been watching from a far. Pulling out the camera I snap I few pictures of the village and the cute shops that were nearby.
By the time I get tired of walking around it's 5pm and I haven't had lunch yet so I head over to the nearest restaurant where I order Steak Frites. Finding a seat outside the small restaurant, I settle down, say grace then start to eat my food.
A little girl with dark hair and green eyes comes up to me. She sits on the chair across from me sucking her thumb as she watches me eat.
I pull out a napkin, place some french fries on it and slide it to her. She pulls her thumb from her mouth and beams while shoving them into her mouth. I finally take a look at her and notice she is missing a shoe and her pink dress is practically falling apart.
Upon losing my appetite I slide the plate towards the child and watch as she finishes everything. While she is talking I order more food for her to eat. Pulling out my phone I use google translate to communicate with her. She tells me her name is Madeline and she is five years old. She tells me she doesn't have a father and her mother died last month.
I don't realize how late it was until the young boy from earlier comes over. He scolds the little girl and pulls her from the seat.
I frown and use my phone to tell him I meant no harm. She takes my phone and tells me he is her brother and I nod seeing the striking resemblance with the green eyes. He takes the phone from her and tells me he is sorry she ate my food but I tell him not to worry I offered it to her.
I walk the two back to the orphanage and meet sister Esther who is one of many nuns that care for the children. She thanks me for returning the girl that was 'always running off' and I tell her I would love to stop by sometime again to see the children. She smiles genuinely and tells me the children would love that. She gives me a phone number where I can reach her and shows me where I can find a Metro to go back home.
***
I get home around nine pm and find the house pitch dark.
"Where the hell have you been?"
Flicking on the lights I jump back as I finally see Giovanni sitting on the sofa with his arms crossed.
I kick off my shoes, "You told me I could go shopping".
He shakes his head, "With Alessandro, not by yourself!"
I close my eyes annoyed, "I'm a grown women Giovanni. I don't need your permission to do sh*t!"
He suddenly stands up making me step back, "Curse at me again Sophia. Go ahead baby, do it".
I smirk, "Your a motherf-"
With lightning speed, Giovanni grabs me by my wrist and pins them above my head on the wall.
"I got home and found you gone with the money still on the couch and Less said he hadn't even seen you all day. This is a foreign Country, you could have gotten kidnapped, raped, lost, killed...I was worried about you Sophia".
I narrow my eyes, "You didn't seem to care about me in the morning. You were rude for no reason. You hurt me Giovanni...I didn't deserve that".
He nods his eyes softening, "Your right, you didn't deserve that. It's just...you kept rubbing and cling onto me during the night. It's because of that dumb book every time you read it you get nightmares and cling to me in your sleep. I woke up hard and couldn't even take a cold shower because I was running late. I also had been stressed about the meeting. But there is no excuse for the way I treated you, I'm sorry Sophia, forgive me".
My face heats up and I look away, "Your forgiven and I apologize for being irresponsible and not letting you know where I went".
He kisses both of my wrists before letting them go, "Lets go to bed?"
I shake my head hard, "Not before I eat. And I have to tell you everything I did and who I met".
His eyes narrow and I laugh, "We have been married for almost two months and you have no faith in my loyalty to you as a wife".
He touches the red dress rubbing the material in his fingers, "It's not you. It's other men I can't trust. It does something to me knowing you went out looking so beautiful in this dress and I wasn't there to glare at them. I know they stared as you walked past in this little red thing. Sh*t men, women and children probably turned around to see you walk by. I'm a jealous man Sophia I don't and I won't share".
Sighing I take his hands, "I can't stop people from staring at me and I feel the same when women flirt with you in front of me or gawk at you. We just have to trust each other baby".
He lifts me up with my back against the wall, I wrap my legs around his waist.
"My love for you is out of this world Sophia".
I lean down and kiss him but he pulls away after an intense minute.
With dark stormy grey eyes he peers into me, "Are you trying to give me blue balls again baby?"
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