I weakly opened my eyes just in time to see him waking out of my room I felt droopy watching him leave I tried calling him back I opened my mouth and nothing came out I suddenly got sleepy once again before I knew it I lost consciousness
Dear diary:
I'm hurting
I'm hurting in so many ways no one can imagine.
No one knows what I'm going through
Not being harsh to myself but I can't help but hate myself
I can't help but be disgusted
I get it no one likes me everyone I correspond with hurts me and leaves me broken then I have to start all over again
So many unshed tears for so many reasons
I'm just sorry I have to be in everyone's life if only the clock could've turned and things could have been done differently after all I'm a mistake that shouldn't have happened I know everyone is tired of me tired of seeing me tired of being around me
It's hard
Keeping up with life is hard.
I put away the book and laid in my bed tears started flowing I let them flow.
I tossed around in my bed not being able to sleep when I close my eyes memories of what he did haunt me in different scenarios I fucking hate him there are no words to explain what I'm feeling now I got off the bed taking a pillow and a blanket I left my room and I walked out of the room and went outside
I sat by the pool staring at the water I didn't know I was crying until I felt a tear fall on my hand he used and abused me god knows what else he did to me while I was out or if he let anyone touch me gosh, I'm so stupid maybe I'm better off dead
Zathrian POV
"What have you become?" my mom asks looking at me in disbelief
I rolled my eyes, "Ma, what are you talking about?"
"The bruises on that girl her neck her face why?" she cried
she's so fucking soft she cries for everything
"Ma you're wasting my time, my time is very expensive," I told her
"Who is she?" she asks
"Ma, you need not to know that," I said
"Zathrian you hit her god knows what else you did to her" she cried
"Ma stop with all the bullshit and unnecessary crying its pathetic, I didn't hurt her things got out of control, a little rough," I told her
"What have you become?" She cries
"A monster, woman beater oh my god" she gasps covering her mouth while looking at me in disbelief and disappointment I rolled my eyes
"I just lost my son, and you lost a mother," she says and walks away slamming the door
"Fuck" I cursed running a hand through my hair
Avyanna POV
It's early morning, and I barely slept I keep getting these flashbacks
I laid on my back silently crying like I did every night when Lucio was alive I've fallen back in that place and it's all because of Zathrian he will regret it all and he will pay
Suddenly I felt someone kick me then SPLASH I fell into the pool sank to the bottom and swam my way back to the top
I looked up to see Elizabeth with a smirk on her face I swam out of the pool walked up to her and grabbed her throwing her into the pool
"HELP! I can't swim, HELP!" She shouts.
**Flashback**
"Get in little bitch" Lucio shouted and grabbed my small arm and throw me in the pool
I'm only a child I couldn't swim
"Help! Please!" I shout as I struggle to keep my body on top of the water I am sinking my mouth is filled with water he stands there watching me
"Swim worthless bitch, worthless cunt," he angrily cursed
"Help! I can't swim HELP!" I shouted gasping for breath as I sank and pushed myself back up spitting out a mouth full of water he stood there watching me while I screamed for him to help.
I almost died that day he had to do CPR on me and after that, he beat me breaking my arm
"HELP!"
She sounded like she was drowning I don't fucking care she should've thought about that when she kicked me in I picked up my things and walked away
"Where's Elizabeth?" Camille ask
"Good morning, Camille!" I greeted her with a bright smile
"Good morning have you seen Elizabeth?" she asks again
"Yes she's in the pool," I told her walking away
"What! She can't swim! Get Help!" She panicked
I shrugged
So the bitch didn't die I wish she drowned, I hate fucking bullies it turns out Camille saved her I got a long lecture from Elijah which will not do me any good
I sat under the gazebo smoking a weed joint and taking a shot of Casamigos it's midday and I'm taking shots I just want to get drunk so I can't forget what's it like being me.
"Your sister could've died this morning, you pushed her in and walked away leaving her just like that, it's not nice," Elijah's voice says
"It's not huh Elijah she's a fucking bully she kicked me in I the pool I only returned the favor," I told him and he looked at me weirdly
"Why were you sleeping outside is something wrong with the bed?" he asked
"I couldn't sleep," I told him
"What happened?" he asks breaking away from the topic I used makeup to cover his handprint on my face
"I rather not say" he nodded not pushing the topic any further
"I read the letters that you would send to Aunt Gwen explaining what happened why didn't you just call her or message her," I say taking a drink from the bottle
I felt him look at me those letters were from years ago I remember what he told her in them
"I felt better writing," he says
"She never replies to any," I pointed out
she never did because she died he knows nothing about this because Lucio buried her body in his garden after putting a bullet in her head
She didn't deserve to die, at least not like that
"I know," he says sadly
"Speaking about her, how is she doing?" He asks
"She died," I told him
"What! How? When?" he asks
"A few years back," I lied it was years ago
"How did you survive all alone? A few years you were still a teenager then"
"Alexander and Lucio, they were the ones who told you I didn't want anything to do with you, I only figured that out when I got here," I told him
I could tell he was angry, "did they treat you well?" He asks
I shrugged "They died it was tragic and sudden," I said he looked shocked after all they're still family
He processed all the information I had just given him he looked dull. Gwen was verbally abusive when drunk while sober she's the sweetest thing in the whole wide world
"I'm sorry," I told him Lucio is his brother even though they're sworn enemies I know he still has love for him I felt like I needed to tell him how they died no point hiding it I think it's time to tell him what I went through I France
"I have something else to tell you," I said
He looks at me worriedly, "Are you pregnant?" He asks
I looked at him dumbfounded I mentally laughed out of all the answers that's what came to his mind
"What is it?" he urged
I opened my mouth to say something but Camille was standing there
"Are you pregnant?" She asks
I rolled my eye "You should've let her abort me," I say
"What do you mean by that?" he asks playing dumb
"Nothing forget it, Dad," he smiled
"You called me dad!" he said happily
"No big deal" I shrugged
Camille shot me a nasty glare "Got something to say bitch" I say to her she ignored what I said
"Sweetheart Mr. De Callisto is here to see you," she says to him and walks away
"De Callisto as in Zathrian De Callisto?" I ask
"No his father we're business associates," he says
I sighed in disappointment I low-key wanted to see Zathrian
No, you don't you hate him
"So you and Zathrian, what's going between you two?" he asked
"Nothing is going on between us, I thought you said I should stay away from him" shit I sound too guilty
he looked at me as if he knew I was lying and said "I'll take your word for it besides I can't tell you who to date you're grown and if it has anything to do with Zathrian, once he has his eyes on something he'll move the earth to get it at any cost"
Hmmmm.
He got up, and I did too and took my bottle of Casamigos
We went in the house to see a very handsome man around my dad's age Jesus Christ he's hot and so fit for his age I could marry this man now I can see where Zathrian gets his looks from
He looked at me and recognition flashed in his eyes "You must be Avyanna I've heard so many lovely things about you for the past year you're so beautiful" he said to me
"Thank you" I gave him a confused look
"Zathrian told me all about you. I heard you were at the De Callisto estates did you enjoy your visit?"
Elijah look at me
"No, Zathrian is an asshole, that bastard"
He looked at me with amusement and smiled
"Amore, why the hell are drinking so early?" Zathrian's voice said I turned around and shot him a glare he came up to me and kissed me on the lips I almost kissed him back gosh he makes me so weak and giddy
"You can't hate me because of that"
"Elijah you will be at the party tonight correct?" he asks as he pulls away from me
"I'm not sure Elizabeth almost drowned this morning," dad answered
"It's at 8 pm don't leave Avyanna she's the main reason you got an invitation," he says hugging me again he smells so damn good I could get high off his scent I felt so safe in his arms he pulls away, and gives me one last look and walks away
Why does he have to be that handsome I sighed
"Let's talk outside," his dad told to Elijah
"Nice meeting you Avyanna I'll see you at the party" he walked out with my dad like father like son
"I'm not attending,"
I turned around and Camille was standing there looking at me
"Is he the father?" She asks
"I'm not pregnant," I told her and walked away
Will the feud between the girls die down or grow more
What will happen at the party if she decides to go, more drama?
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-Littleleague