I was so grateful for Johnny, he was so nice for just letting me sleep in his bed, in his room, in his apartment. If it wasn't for him, I don't know where else I would have been. He was also very good looking with his tan skin, black longish hair, really dark big black eyes, they reminded me of a puppy's eyes.
But I had just met him so there was no way that he liked me and it was 1965 so there was also no way he was gay like me.
I sigh and decide to put my thoughts away and I drift off to sleep.
(Dream mode) - (By the way in the story this actually happened, Ponyboy is having a dream of what happened earlier.)
I was sitting in class just looking out the window. I really wanted to go home. I didn't even want to go hang out with Curly. He had changed. A lot. I didn't want to go and deal with him. I was tired of him. The bell rings and I groan. It was time to put on my happy face and go to Curly's house.
I went to his house everyday. I lied to the gang and said we were just best friends and we liked to hang out together, Darry said he didn't really like me hanging out with him because he was scared Curly's attitude would rub off on me and I would be like him. The truth was it never would, and I'm glad it wouldn't.
The first few weeks when we were dating were so great. I remember when we were sitting down at his house and just talking but all of a sudden he looks at my lips. My heart was beating wildly.
Was there a chance he also liked me back?
He told me a while ago that he was gay and I told him I was too. After that we were inseparable.
"Curly? I-Is something wrong?" I asked blushing.
He got closer to me and kissed me. Right on the lips. I was shocked at first but quickly kissed back.
After a second we both pull apart.
We stared at each other's eyes and he grabbed my hand.
"Ponyboy, will you be my boyfriend?" He asked smiling at me.
Of course I said yes and we were so happy but after a month. He just changed.
One day after school I came to his house. His brother was almost never home and same thing for his parents.
The second I step inside he glares at me.
"Curly? Are you ok? Is something wrong?" I ask.
"Don't act stupid Ponyboy, you know exactly what you did."
"I didn't do anything, please tell me what upset you." I ask stepping closer to him.
"When you got paired up with Kyle Sanders in Chemistry you were all up on him and you wouldn't stop flirting with him and all that." He said raising his voice a little which scared me.
He was bigger than me and we've never fought like this.
"I wasn't all up on him! We talked and he joked around with me but that was all! I wouldn't even think of flirting with another boy, if I did, no one would even breathe my way and there would be people beating me up all the time!" I said trying to get him to stop fighting.
⚠️MENTIONS OF ABUSE⚠️
"Well maybe that's what you deserve! No ones ever gonna love or like your fat ugly ass anyway!" He said as he raised his hands and threw me down to the ground.
⚠️ABUSE IS OVER⚠️
I gasp and he storms away to another part of his house.
I feel hot tears fill my eyes but I quickly wipe them away. No one in my entire life has ever hit me. I really liked Curly, I can't believe he would do this to me.
I stand up and wince because I'm still in pain.
He hit my ribs when he pushed me and my back because I hit the wall when he did.
He also called me fat and ugly. I wasn't the most confident person in the world and having your boyfriend call you ugly and fat didn't make you feel so good. I didn't know what to do.
He came out of his room a few minutes later. He hugged me and said, "Sorry baby, come here that will never happen again."
I sigh and try to put on my best smile.
"It's ok."
But the truth was he never stopped. He still yelled at me all the time almost everyday, and he still hit me a lot. He never hit me in my face except once I lied to the gang saying it was because I fell. Somehow they believed me.
I was tired of him. I tried to break up with him once but he yelled at me and hit me that was the time he hit me in my face but he also kicked me and punched more than 1 time that day. He never stopped talking about my weight either whenever I ate in front of him he would look at me and say something mean about my weight.
I stopped thinking about my thoughts and I walk over to Curly's house. I did this everyday so my brothers or the gang never wondered or worried were I was.
I knock on the door feeling miserable.
When Curly opens the door he smiles at me and motions for me to come in. We talk for a bit and then he asks, "Want something to eat or drink?"
Before I can say anything though he says something again.
"Maybe I should stop asking that question, you're getting a little fat, but what else is new? I should be used to it by now." He says as he starts laughing. I look down and blush.
I feel tears filling my eyes but I try not to cry.
He stops laughing and says, "Ugh, it's a fucking joke! Learn how to take one dumbass." He says as he sits next to me on the couch.
We watch a movie and I know he's still mad because I haven't apologized for getting upset at his joke.
"Curly I'm sorry..." I say.
"It's alright Pone....but there is something that could make me feel better."
He gets really close to me and puts his hand inside on my inner thigh.
⚠️SLIGHT SMUT AND ABUSE⚠️
I immediately tense up and sit up straight.
"Relax Pony, you'll like it." Curly whispers into my ear as his hand goes up more and more up my thigh.
I move away quickly.
"I...I don't want to." I say but he ignores me.
He throws me down on the couch really hard so that I'm laying down and he's on top of me.
He starts kissing my neck and his hand goes down to my belt. I quickly try to sit up.
"Stop! I don't want to do this! I'm not ready!" I say tying to get out of his grasp.
His hands move up to my wrist and he grips them really hard and it hurts.
"Shut the fuck up, you ruin everything!" He says as he grips my wrists even tighter.
"Stop! You're hurting me please stop!"
He let's go and he stands up and walks to his room.
⚠️SLIGHT SMUT AND ABUSE ENDS⚠️
"You're such a mood ruiner. Go home. I don't want to see you dumbass."
I quickly get of the couch and run to my house.
I felt like crying but I knew I couldn't cry.
When I reach my house I'm still scared and in shock. I look down at my wrist and I see there's definitely a mark there, and it's gonna stay there for sure too.
I take a deep breath and go inside.
I go into the kitchen to get some water when I see Darry there and a letter in his hand. The letter looked oddly familiar.
"Hi Darry." I say trying to sound normal.
He didn't answer back so I turned around and he looked really mad.
"Are you ok?" I ask confused.
I look at the letter some more and my heart skips a beat realized the letter he's holding is my letter. One that Curly gave to me when we first started dating. Only Darry wouldn't know I was dating Curly because it wasn't signed as Curly it was signed as, "You're boyfriend that loves you very much."
"Ponyboy....please tell me this is not real...." Darry says his eyes showing anger.
"Darry...I....I'm sorry.." I say putting my head down in shame.
⚠️WARNING: HOMOPHOBIA⚠️
Before I can even blink I feel myself fall down all the way to living room. That's how far Darry threw me.
"I'm- I'm sorry! Please! Forgive me!" I say pleading. But he doesn't seem to care because he punches my face and kicks me in the stomach.
It hurt so bad, but I didn't even fight back. I deserved this anyway.
I can feel blood on my face and I know he's not stopping.
"You stupid piece of shit! You're worthless fag!" He said.
He kept repeating that stupid word over and over.
The pain was so bad.
"D-Darry please stop!" I plead.
"Shut your trap faggot!"
I hear the front door open and a bunch of laughing and talking and I know it's the gang.
"Darry! What the hell are you doing?!" Soda says as he grabs me pulls me away from Darry.
Steve stands there frozen by the door, his eyes are wide.
Two-bit and Dally pull Darry off of me.
"Soda! Our brothers a fag! He's a faggot! He's dating some boy!" Darry yells.
The whole room is silent.
"Ponyboy...is-is this true?" Sodapop asks looking at me.
I look down and nod slowly.
Everyone else gasps and they look at me.
Darry manages to get out of Dally's and Two-bit's grasp and he lunges toward me. Since the front door was still open he pushes me down the stairs which makes me hit my nose on the concrete.
I feel my nose and surprisingly it's not broken.
"Stay out fag! I never want to see you!" He says.
⚠️HOMOPHOBIA IS OVER⚠️
I quickly get up and run. I don't even know where I'm going but I run. It hurts so bad but I still run.
"Ponyboy! Come back!"
"Ponyboy stop!! Come back!"
I hear the gang screaming after me but I don't stop. They probably hate me and they're gonna beat me up like Darry did.
I manage to outrun them and stop at a park but I later realized it's a park I don't recognize. I'm in a Soc park.
It's getting late so I try to leave this park and go somewhere else but I see some Socs and they surround me. They all looked ready to beat me up again but I won't let that happen.
"What are you doing here Greaser!"
"Go away! L-Leave me alone!" I say backing away. But the Socs grab me and get a switchblade.
"You look pretty beaten up. Don't worry this'll end your suffering. They put it to my neck but I manage to get out of their grip and run. They end up only cutting me up a little.
I end up running in an unknown part that I don't know about. It seems like there isn't really any people here that are Socs or Greasers. They're all dressed normal.
I get into an alleyway and start crying.
What am I gonna do?
I wake up screaming.
I suddenly feel terrible because I hear Johnnys footsteps come into the room.
"I'm sorry Johnny, I just...I don't like to sleep alone because I get nightmares and in my old house I used to sleep with my brother Sodapop." I day shaking and crying.
Johnny blushes slightly but he quickly stopped.
"I'll bring my blanket and pillow here. I'll sleep on the floor with you" He says.
"Are you sure? You don't have to!" I say.
"It's ok. I'll do it." He says smiling at me.
I was so grateful for him.
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