ya know what? screw the 30 day challenge. fuck rules and stereotypes. i'm a motherfucking rebel. i'm gonna do it all in one.
Day One:
Current relationship? If single, talk about how single life is.
Honestly, I couldn't fucking tell you. I have no clue what the fuck is going on right now. And by single life, do you mean crying yourself to sleep whilst constantly cuddling your cat so you feel loved? Because if that's what you mean, then yeah. I'm that.
Day Two:
Where'd you like to be in ten years?
Well, by that time, I'll be 23. Yes, I'm only 13 shut up. If I'm being completely honest with myself, I want to be in an apartment in London. I'd be a youtuber and I'd draw comics. (professionally) Maybe I'd even write a book!
Day Three:
What are your views on drugs and alcohol?
Do cigarettes count as a drug? I don't freaking know. But just in case, fuck. cigarettes. i hate them. they gave one of my grandmas cancer and caused the other so many surgeries it's insane. i hate 'em. I could care less about weed. ITS A FUCKING PLANT WHY WOULD I CARE?! I don't really like the idea of drugs. I understand alcohol. Some people need an escape. I know that I could have used a few shots before.
Day Four:
What are your views on religion?
From the start, I have been very open about my thoughts on religion. In case I haven't made it clear enough or you really just don't want to look at my profile very much, I'm agnostic. The actual Google definition is 'a person who believes that nothing is known or can be known of the existence or nature of God or of anything beyond material phenomena; a person who claims neither faith nor disbelief in God.'
Basically, maybe he is, maybe he isn't. Even with me being agnostic, I'm not very religious. At all. Religion can suck it, in my opinion.
If my opinions offend anybody, I truly am sorry. My opinion doesn't effect your life whatsoever and I hope that you can accept that. I still respect your opinion, and I hope that you respect mine.
Day Five:
Tell about a time you thought of ending your life?
*inner self battle* which one which one wh-
So I decided that I'm going to tell you guys about the one that most people in my life know about, because I am not about to get a thousand messages in my inbox. I'm looking at you, Autumn!!
One day, when I came home from school, my parents weren't there. This is pretty common at my house. Well, I was getting bullied a lot that day. It was one of the days that my friend wasn't on the bus, too. This also gave people more opportunities to mess with me. I was already deeply depressed at this point and I had tried talking to my parents about it saying that I needed help, but they just brushed it off thinking that I was being dramatic again. To this day they still say that I was being overdramatic and never actually needed help. (*spoiler alert* we finally went to the doctor and i got diagnosed with anxiety and depression. i got pills for it. turns out my anxiety was running wild and causing me to overthink things and react extremely harshly to criticism.) So I grabbed a knife from the kitchen. Not one of the small knives, but one if the big ones. The knife that I grabbed was literally longer than my forearm. I held it up to my chest and pushed. The knife had already pierced my skin by the time I heard a ping come from my phone. I looked at it and smiled. My friends were texting me. At that moment, I thought 'there are some people in this world that need me just as much as i need them. i can't abandon them.'
Day Six:
Write 30 interesting things about yourself.
Well wtf am i supposed to write i'm not that interesting—
Well, here we go...
1.) i write like i talk. if i ever type something that i am trying to keep a secret or something, i don't back out of it. if i type it, it's fucking there and nothing you do can get me to remove it. i may move it to another part of the conversation, but i'll still say it. i also write in stutters..? gotta be on brand, ya know?
2.) when i moved in 3rd grade, i had an imaginary friend. this friend was Lilicorn the unicorn. yes, i had a unicorn as an imaginary friend. they were to help get me through going to a new school, okay!!
3.) i have only ever had crushes on my best friends. (and fictional characters, but that's different)
4.) i was born left handed but my dad taught me to use my right hand more so now i can use both
5.) i didn't learn how to ride a bike until i was 10
6.) apparently i sat on someone's head in preschool because they stole my snack.
7.) i've gone over three days without sleep
8.) my cat cuts me in my sleep
9.) i almost killed one of my friends when she tried to wake me up
10.) she successfully woke me up an hour later by putting her dwarf hamster Caramel on me. (didn't even argue) (look up kawaii dwarf hamsters. you won't be disappointed.)
11.) i have gone three days without peeing. (don't try that!)
12.) i have blocked people for hating one of my OTPs
13.) i'm addicted to mint. i love mint chocolate chip ice cream, mint gum, mint chocolate cookies, the color, literally anything mint. another username that i go by is 'Mintastic' actually! (follow me uwu) (i'm -mintastic-)
14.) i'm making a comic
15.) i am autistic
16.) my birthday is september 6th
17.) my grandpa died october 22, 2018
18.) i once got a birthday present that was about six months late
19.) me and louise were writing a book together in 5th grade
20.) i love camp buddy
21.) i have read dipper goes to taco bell. (don't do it.)
22.) apparently i died from a stab wound in my side in one of my past lives
23.) i once agreed to date one of my gay guy friends after him and his boyfriend broke up
24.) i have jumped over a railing and dabbed in the air with said gay guy friend
25.) me and gay guy got caught stealing donuts and honeybuns from the school cafeteria after hours
26.) i've never gotten anything less that an A average
27.) i'm a coffee addict who isn't allowed to drink coffee
28.) i've had a yandere before (i was their senpai. let's just say yandere-chan didn't get her senpai)
29.) i get extreme motion sickness (i used to get bullied for getting sick on the bus so i learned to hide it well)
30.) i practically live in ibuprofen
Day Seven:
What's your zodiac sign and do you think it fits your personality?
I'm a Virgo and I do think that it does fit my personality pretty well.
Emotions suck.
Day Eight:
What's the moment that you've felt the most satisfied with your life?
Holding Louise's hand on the top of the bleachers..
I'm not going to get too deep into that because, honestly, it's personal.
Day Nine:
What do you hope your future is like?
Well, I hope that my parents will finally accept that I'm bisexual and I want to be a youtuber who makes comics and writes novels.
Day Ten:
Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Shit I'm about to go down the rabbit hole again—
my first kiss was a dare and it was with someone that i thought was my friend and then a bunch of stuff happened that i really don't like talking about because then i want to slap someone and i'm not in the mood to kill someone right now and i'm done—
I'm going to split this into different parts! i'll take everyone in the last part!