I love this song, this my best song from
Sam Smith *how do you sleep when you
Lie to me*
It driving me nuts
McCall POV...
It been three month and 14days
Since I saw the love of my life
I missed him, I wasn't going
To work any more, though
Random call came through
My phone but I busied it all
I didn't care I told smith my
Very close friend a PA to me
At work to handle thing out for
Me I wasn't going to show up
At work any time soon
Right now I handled business
At home, major once which
Needed my drastic attention
I was sick, I was pale, I was dying
He didn't call me, he never did
Sometimes I feel like if I was forgotten
Forgotten by him, he was the only
Family I had left in this damn stupid
World of mine
Sometimes I feel he has moved on
Not thinking or caring to look back
He was living a carefree live without
Me, without him I was useless, I
Couldn't think straight at time
Most time I even skip meals
I misses his food, I don't sleep
I my room, rather I go to his
Room just to be felt loved
To feel his scent, to feel his presence
I missed his scent, it was breath taking.
His father called me asking me a
Question he knew well I have been
Dying to do
That afternoon which was a day before
He called asking me if I still wanna see
His son again
What kinda of question was that
The Williams are weird I swear they are
Was he waiting for me to die before he asked
I was already dead if you asked me
When he said that over the phone
Apart of me got frozen, was I ready
To face the music, was I ready to face him
What will I tell him, how will I say I regretted
All I did to him, will he even believe me
What would be his reaction when he sees me
What will be his thought when he see me
Will he see me as gross because that what I'm
I'm such an idiot, I lost him just because of
A random caller that said something stupid
Will he ever let me back into his life, will he allow
Me rim him again, or even kiss him
Will he allow me look into his green eyes that
Glitters at night. He was a beauty, he was divine
He was perfect, no he was above perfect
All this question came rushing down
My head like a bullet the plane was tomorrow
Morning I should be leaving with his dad
Since he wasn't living in his grandparents
House I might as well crash there
U may so that I can sneak Into his
Room then and now.
His grandparents where over with the
Fight they have forgiven me but they
Haven't forgotten what I made their
Poor son go through..
Same as his dad he was OK with it
His mum gave in just because of her
Husband endless talking to her
Well she OK with it, I never even care
All I wanted was his approval
Jessy approval he was the one I
Hurt not them, he was the one
I endlessly killed with my
Trusting issues.
XX
I was waiting for Jessy father at the
Airport endlessly waiting
I came petty early, I took out the phone
Plunged in my earpiece too listen to
Some good GAM not listening to
People talking on there daily businesses
I felt a hand tapped me, I looked back to see
Mr William, Jessy father
"Well Son it about time you get to see you
Lover" I corrected him no his my husband,
My life partner, my pride, my joy
"Yeah yeah what ever" he said it out
Rolling his eyes like a teenager
I thought Rolling of the eyes was
For teens not a full grown man that
Has a son almost my age.
I heard our flight been called out
And we went in the plane.
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We got to California pretty much
Earlier on like the last time I was a flight
To California the weather was bad
So the pilot had to fly under the clouds
And he flew very slow.
As we walked out of the airport
I saw Mrs William in her red dress that
Stopped on her kneels
She was beautiful, this was the first time
I observed her appearance she looked
More like Jessy , Jessy stoles her eyes,
Her nose which was pointed that could
Pinch on your skin, her curved legs
And yeah Jessy had hips
It was weird for a man to have hips
But I never found it weird in Jessy
His hips always turn me on
I wonder how he would look like
Now, I guess he will be pretty much
Healthier and more beautiful
I guess all the scars will be gone
Scars I placed in him.
I was lost my thought
When Mrs William hug me
I was shocked she brought me
Back to reality
Her hug was welcoming, does it means
She has accepted me or not, I did not
Hesitate to hug her back I needed it
It felt motherly, wish I never had
I never got to see my mum
She did while giving birth to me..
Leaving me to my father and my
Elder brother and sister mason and Ariana but
They both died in a plane crash
And due to the news it affected my father,
Plus with the company and all, the money
Jessy father took from him, and all added
To his breakdown which led to his death
"Hi son" I heard her say bringing
Me again back to reality
Did she just called me son,
Tears built up in my eyes,
I never cried, I only cried during
My dad way keep but that was the last
I never cried but why did I feel like
Crying, I hated the Williams
My dad died because of them
But I remember Jessy
Endless patients, he was hopeful
Despite all the stuff I afflicted on him
Building in him scars upon scars
That why he will always remain
Perfect to me I swear he was
A side, a view of perfection.
Hi I said back withholding my tears
I didn't wanna feel week in front of
Her so I waved the thought off my head
We got in the car, a red Ferrari I guess
It was her favourite, well I don't know!
We stopped In a white and black house
I guess this was the Williams family house
Yes it was huge, it was big it would be spacious
I said as in my thought getting out
Of the car.
While Mr William got my stuff out of
The car, they where kind to me after
Everything I did to there son I felt loved
Nothing but love in return
In me I felt Gross, I was a waste
I was a monster...
"Common son" I heard from a far it was
Mrs William speaking and she was with
Her husband right in the front door
As she threw the door open I saw a Man
And a woman standing inside the house
Starring at me.
The man and the woman looks
Elderly I guess they where.......
I was lost in my thought when I saw a hand
Rapped around mine ushering me in
I looked at the person to see Mrs William
I didn't understand I still don't know
Why she been nice to me.
I waved it off my head as a ma brought
Out his hands to shake me I looked out mine
And responded to this welcoming gesture.
"Welcome son" I looked to at the woman
Beside the man that welcome me.
I nodded in response, before saying
Thank MA
She nodded and said to me "well boy go
Freshen up I know you must be tired
From the flight all here"
I smirked before replying her.
"Well you right he should be tired"
I heard Mr William saying
"Go son go freshen up"
He said before o heard another voice
Saying when your done dinner is ready
To be served OK.
I nodded as Mrs William ushered me
Upstairs I guess she want to show me my room
Mr William followed from behind.
With my luggage's
"Well McCall this your room" I heard her say
I nodded as she threw the door opened
I went it and Mr William handed me my stuff
And they left without a word.
I looked around the room it had Queen sized
Bed in the centre and had a big mirror also a wardrobe, I headed for the wardrobe to fit my things in
Then went to shower..
X
Dinner was quite no one talked and I was
Guessing it either a family habit or may be
I was the one..
I stayed in silent eating my food it was
Spaghetti and meatballs.
I loved it, Jessy made it my favourite
I was busy doing my thing
Until someone signed before saying
Um, McCall have you been?
I traced the voice and it was Jessy grandpa
I swallowed a loom in my mouth that I never
Knew had formed before I answered him.
Well, um, I been doing OK I finally said to him
Still looking at my food, he made me feel
Intimidated and no one make me feel
This way but him the case was different
I guess it because I was still hunted
By what I did to there son.
"Well boy as you can see Jessy moved out
I'm guessing my son" has told you I had
Him still speaking while the rest remain
Silent.
Yes sir, but why ?
"Well he feels his old enough to take care of
Him self so he got his on place without our
Finical assistant, thank to his bakery
He said as he rolled his eyes not getting
Interested in the topic anymore.
Did I just hey him say he owns a bakery.
My baby is independent, this cane to me
More like a shock, no don't think otherwise
I was happy and at the same time I was sad
" why did you do it?" I could hear Jessy Grandma
Saying sternly her voice was calm and terrifying
Did what? I said as I took the last bit
Of my food.
"O c'mon McCall you know what I'm talking
About here she said and her voice became deeper
The air became teased and I could feel my
Pants wet, I was sweating something I never
Thought was there.
All I did was I'm sorry, " look sorry won't
Fix it, but we are behind you I heard her say
With a smile now"
"Look it been hard for our poor boy, him
Leaving you I thought we will loose him
He was skipping meals and the rest
I heard Jessy mother saying as she
Paused a looked at me I could see
A bag of tears about to break loose
But she wiped it off with her hands
Before stating " he still loves you, yes he
Is hurt but he still loves you"
"his angry at me but he hides it. She said
A tears drops running through her face
Down until it dropped on her cloth"
"Thanks to liam his old friend from school
He has been keeping him company and
I'm guessing they are really close" she said
Me hearing that did not keep
Me calm knowing that some bitch
Had my baby I was mad, but it was my
Fault.
I broke down openly, I'm so ashamed of
My self, I did all the terrible thing you could
Think off as punishment I did to him, all
He did was stay calm, hoping that one day
The morning will come, I made him go
Through hell Mrs William I'm a devil
I'm a monster I'm a devil who have been
Hurting the only family I had who loved me
He been nothing but caring towards me
He was ever patient numerous tears flew
Down and dropped in my cloth
I was crying, I was scared
I'm scared, I voiced out in my broken uncleared
Voice, I'm sorry you guys I been nothing but trash
To your baby, I loved him and I still do
.I got into that marriage because that the
Only way I could make him mine
I was selfish,I was a devil who thought
Only about himself, only about his pleasure
I hated it but it was there
Please help me out here, I want him back
I want my baby back I said still in tears
I really need him I will do anything for him
I'm sorry, I'm very sorry I'm sorry Jessy. Pls
I'm really sorry it was my fault I was at fault
I saw a hand on my tight "it OK son" I heard
I looked back to see it was Mr William
No it is not OK
I'm a beast, I was a monster, I was prideful
I was...... Stop it you I heard Mr William as he
Yelled out, stop it we know saying all this will
Not change anything McCall, McCall
He still out there waiting for you, yes like I said
You just have to strive to get him back,
You hurt him so much,you broke him OK
Look if there is anything I want is to see
My old Jessy back and only you can do that
For this family, we can't, he practically hate
Us for what we did to your dad
He never say it but I know fully aware of
My past mistake, look all I want is the best
For my son and if bringing him back to you
Will make you and him stable, then I'm
Solidly behind you I swear I am.
Look at you, you both are a mess now I said
Well tomorrow we are having dinner
With him OK
And you coming along did you hear me
Hearing that made me stunned
Well guys, how did I do I hope I did well.
Finally what I have been waiting for is finally
Here
McCall will get to see his baby again
I so happy, but the question is will Jessy
Be happy, will Jessy forgive him, will Jessy
Let him back in, will Jessy even look at him
All this questions Will be answered in
My next coming chapters not chapter
I said chapters OK
Bye guys, well I decided to bring McCall back
In I know you miss him
I see you all in my next chapter
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