Monday ... today is the day
A million things were running threw your mind as soon as you woke up.
Am I even good enough to be on Zach's team?
What position will I even play?
Will his team like me?
Should I even go?
Maybe I should just say I'm sick
But the one thought that kept coming up in your head was absolutely eating you alive.
What is going to happen when the guys find out? Will I ever be able to go to the sandlot again ?
What am I talking about ? I don't want to go back to the sandlot. Why would I wanna be on Benny's team again?
But that was mostly a lie, you wanted to go back to the sandlot. You wanted to see yeah-yeah and the others. You wanted to have an amazing time with no worries about messing up or pitching bad. You loved everything about playing with them. But the one thing that wasn't a lie was the fact that you didn't want to see Benny.
How could he say that to me? How could he treat me like that ?
You had felt disrespected by him but yet the words your dad had said to you never left your mind but, you were determined to put that thought as far back into your mind as possible. You needed all your focus today on play good on Zach's team.
After finally getting up and getting ready you head down stairs to have breakfast with your dad before he went to work.
"So you're still gonna play on Zach's team and not at the sandlot?" Your dad said with concern.
"Zach's team is no different than Benny's. If anything Zach's team is better than the sandlot. Zach is a lot better then Benny in my opinion." You reported to your dad
"Sweetheart your opinion is a little bias don't you think ?"
"Just because Zach is my boyfriend doesn't mean I wouldn't be honest with his ability to play the game" you retaliate.
"Oh honey I'm not saying your making it seem Zach is a better player then Benny because he's your boyfriend. I'm saying you're making Benny seem like the worst because you're mad at him."
You stay silent because what do you say ?
"Listen honey," your dad continued
"just because you're mad at someone doesn't mean you should put them down. Eventually you'll stop being mad at him and you'll go back to the sandlot and forget-"
"I don't think I'm going back to the sandlot dad.." you interrupted.
"Oh sweetie. Don't say that, you guys are just kids everything will be back to normal in a couple of days trust me." He said trying to help.
"Well what if it doesn't, I mean Benny is just as mad at me as I am with him. And the rest of the team is going to flip when the find out I'm practicing with Zach." You said finally breaking down your feelings
"Well maybe they won't find out, now go out and practice with Zach and have a nice time. I've got to go to work but I'll see you later sunshine." Your dad said as he kissed your forehead and walks out the door.
Maybe he's right, I just can't let the guys find out... I don't think Benny would even mention me if he's mad at me.
Just as you finished your thought Zach knocked on the door then walked in.
"Hey (y/n), you ready for practice?" He said with a toothy grin on his face. You could tell he's excited for you to be with him instead of the guys at the sandlot.
"Of course babe but ... can we go out the back door?" You asked knowing that if you went out the front door you could be at risk of seeing one of the guys from the sandlot.
"Uhh, sure ? How come?" Zach asked with confusion.
"Well...."
What do I say? He'll be upset if I tell him it's because I don't want anyone to see me headed to practice with him.
"...Ummm because the house I usually walk by has a dog that has chases after me and I don't want to be exhausted before I get to practice."
Wow I really pulled that one out of my ass
Zach chuckled not giving a second thought about that being a lie.
"Of course babe, but you know I'll always protect you." He said giving you a quick kiss on the cheek.
After finally making it to the field you were relieved that you didn't see anyone from your old team. But a new set of nerves came to you when you realized now you actually have to impress your new team. Zach walked you over to the dough out where you two set your things down and got ready. Watching the team work up and stretch was shocking to you.
Wow they look like an actual competing team
This thought had thrown you off because the sandlot was all about having fun and making memories. They were actually serious about being the best to everyone else they were only concerned about being the best for themselves.
Once everyone warmed up and got into a huddle you awkwardly stood there not knowing your place yet with the team.
"Guys this is (y/n), she's gonna hang out with us today." Zach said proudly showing you off.
You wave shyly to the team and speak up finally.
"Yeah, I cant wait to play with you guys. Everyone seems so good" you say trying to make a positive relationship with the guys.
"Wait she's ... playing with us?" One of the kids said in the group. A lot of muddering was going around as you stood there frozen by their words.
"I thought you said she was just gonna sit around by the bleachers and watch" another said
"Ummm no I actually pitch... I thought you told them?" You said to the group and then Zach.
"Yeah.. well.. um, she will be playing. She's actually pretty good guys." Zach had said quietly.
You were completely confused on what was happening. Zach made it seem like the team would be happy to have you. And was proud to actually have you come to his practice.
I'm not a cheerleader! Never have been never will be! Why is everyone acting like this?
This situation made you miss the sandlot more than you already have. Realizing that you weren't here for the reason you thought you were you went and sat down on the bleachers.
"(Y/n)! Come onnnn the guys aren't serious, they just... forgot."
"Forgot?" You said a little harsh
"Yeah they naturally thought you'd be siting here like my other-" he stopped. Eyes extremely wide now.
"Your other what ? Other girlfriends? Oh I'm sorry I forgot my pom poms at home. Want me to go get them?" You said angry as hell
"No.. I uh I didn't mean to -" he said stumbling over what he's saying
"Oh you didn't mean to compare me to your other girlfriends? How many girls have you brought here exactly? 3,4,5? Cassie was one right?" At this point you probably look crazy in front of his team but you didn't care. All you wanted was to play baseball with your boyfriend and his friends. And that obviously wasn't the plan. Zach just stood there in silence for a second trying to figure out a way to make this better.
"(Y/n)... you can play I promise. The guys just weren't expecting you to be so... enthusiastic about the game... I just don't think you'll be able to pitch for us.. the guys are pretty serious so you'll have to play outfield probably." Zach said trying to make this situation better. Honestly it did a little.. but if you wanted to play outfield you'd go back to the sandlot and take small's position. And that's exactly what you told him.
"Zach. If I wanted to play outfield I'd do it at the sandlot and take smalls position. Actually Benny would have let me pitch." You said slightly smiling at the memories you have with your sandlot boys. But Zach didn't look like he was taking that comment well at all.
"Oh so that's what it's about? Benny? So Benny's let you pitch and now you think you can just start off pitching because of that loser?" Oh he's pissed. Probably more pissed than you were
"No? That's not what I meant." You said trying to get him to understand that Benny wasn't the reason you thought you'd be pitching today.
"Oh really because first you bring up Cassie, then you bring up how oh Benny would let me pitch" he said mocking you
You stood there in silence just as he did a few moments ago.
"Those dorks are nothing compared to my team. They're trash (y/n) ! Why can't you see that those dweebs will always be losers! They're not going anywhere!" Zach said screaming
"Zach that's enough !! You can be mad at me all you want but they have passion like I've never seen! They're amazing and accepting." You said putting your foot down.
"What makes you soft for them huh (y/n)? What do you like one of them? Which one huh? Yeah-yeah? Smalls? Ham? Benny?"
You fall silent once again you literally cant seem to speak if you tried.
"You like him don't you ?" He said mad
"You like Benny don't you?" Making himself more clearer on who he was referring to.
But again you couldn't say anything. The logical thing was to say no but you couldn't bring yourself to actually say it.
"That's it! I'm going over there to beat that punks ass!" He said running over to his bike.
What do I do? Do I follow him? Tell him to stop and not go over there? I don't want him to know I didn't tell them about me coming here. And most importantly I don't want them knowing I'm here. I should've just said no god (y/n) you're such an idiot.
You said to yourself knowing that this was gonna end bad no matter what.
You decided to stay at the empty field knowing that if you went you were only gonna make it worse. You didn't want to see the two boys you cared about most fight.
Should I wait for Zach to come back ? What if he doesn't want to speak to me again? Does this mean it's over between you two?
After 10 minuets of waiting and praying that somehow by a miracle Zach was just gonna turn around and come back and realize that he doesn't need to go after Benny or the rest of the boys. But you left, you went home, I mean what could you do ? You can't stop what's happening . The suspense was killing you from not knowing what is going down at the field. Hopefully yeah-yeah won't be mad at you and he can tell you what happened. So when you go home you went to your room, completely ignoring your dads questioning on how your day went and looked out your window for someone. Hopefully soon.