💌 "I looked at him as a friend until I realized I loved him" 💌
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•Harry's POV•
*A week later day of the party*
May
It was a few hours before the party and I was currently on the phone being lectured by Finn.
He was telling me not to hang around Louis because he was causing me to feel things that weren't real.
"I just think he's really nice! Plus it's not like that!" I reassure him as I get dressed for the party
"Then how'd he convince you to have a party? When I've tried to for 3 years?" Finn asks
"It was really more Liam than anything, plus they're leaving in a few weeks and I don't know I guess it's like a goodbye party," I say not wanting to anger Finn
"You barely know them Harry," Finn says clearly not approving
"You're still coming tonight though, right?" I ask unsure
"Yeah I'm coming. See you in a few hours." Finn says hanging up the phone
I frown as he hangs up. Why'd he dislike Louis and the rest of the boys? They were so nice.
After a few hours Liam, Louis and Niall arrive with food and beer. They set up around the house and almost immediately people begin pouring into the house.
I lived in a pretty empty area so there wouldn't really be any noise complaints
This was a good thing because things started to get pretty loud after a while
I barely talked to any of the boys all night because Finn made sure I was at his side at all times.
"I'm gonna go to the restroom" I tell Finn already walking away
He nods at me and I head upstairs to try to use one of the many bathrooms in the house.
Once I finally find an unoccupied one I do my business and head downstairs
I bump into someone only to realize it's Liam.
"Hey Harry! We haven't seen you all night where have you been?" Liam says pulling me in a direction
"I was with Finn," I say realizing we're going to where Louis and Niall are
"Harry!" Niall says once he sees me.
He comes over and pulls me into a hug. I can tell he's completely drunk just by the odor he gives off
"Hey Harry," Louis says hugging me as well
He also smells of alcohol barley though but I'm still surprised because supposedly Louis doesn't drink
"Where were you dude!" Niall says slurring his words
"With Finn." I say going to sit down next to them
"Here have a beer, Niall says giving me one
I hesitantly drink out of it and hang around the boys for a while before they begin to get emotional
"I'm gonna miss you Harry," Niall says putting an arm around my shoulder
"I don't want to leave you H!" Liam says also putting an arm around my shoulder
"You guys are being complete idiots" I say giggling and taking another sip of my beer
I look up at Louis and see him smiling at me fondly
I give him a look warning him not to look at me like that. He frowns then looks away
"We should put them to sleep, if we don't they'll be mad in the morning," Louis says remaining the only sane one
"We could never be mad at you Louie poo" Niall says reaching to touch Louis' nose and tripping in the process
Liam bursts out laughing and he ends up falling as well. Louis and I help get them on their feet and take them to the guest room. In the process Niall vomits all over Louis' shirt and after we set them down I bring Louis to my room to give him another shirt.
"Here," I say grabbing a black shirt that doesn't fit me anymore.
He puts it on and despite my better judgement we end up talking alone for a while.
"Do you remember your parents?" Louis asks quietly while laying on the bed
"Kinda, I remember my mom's voice and a little of my dad's face but that's it," I say laying down next to him trying to keep my distance
"Why are you drinking tonight? I thought you didn't drink?" I ask staring up at the ceiling
"I don't know I just, I wanted to break away from my parents, they've always had these rules I had to follow, things I couldn't be, and now that I'm going to be leaving I wanna be who I am," Louis responds thoughtfully
"Things you couldn't be? What do you mean?" I ask turning to face him
"Well I couldn't be gay for one thing," he says looking me in the eye
"Louis, don't" I tell him with butterflies in my stomach
"You keep saying that we're only friends but you look at me for a moment too long for that to be true," he responds looking down at my lips
I'm unable to speak. Butterflies fly wild in my stomach as I wait for him to say something else
"You're really beautiful Harry," Louis says looking into my eyes
I blush and look away. He was just drunk.
"I need you to know that our night together meant everything to me. I need you to know that everything I told you that night was true," Louis continues as he speaks he gets closer and I feel enticed not being able to look or move away
"Harry?" Louis asks
"Yeah?" I ask quietly his face so close I could feel his breath
"I know you said you weren't ready but I think I'm falling in love with you and I don't know what to do "He says stopping to look at me
My breath stops at that. He just admitted to falling in love with me as in the process of loving me. If he could admit that even after I had rejected him so many times than I could give into him right?
I look down at his lips coming closer to mine and decided that it was time for me to take charge of my life and decide what I wanted. And Louis was a part of that
"If you don't stop looking at my lips without doing anything about it, I'll take you right here on this bed," I tell him letting out my real feelings for him
He chuckles and finally his lips touch mine and we engage in a kiss full of lust.
Things go similarly to when we first kissed and suddenly he's on top of me and I'm removing his shirt.
"Before we do this I need to know for sure that you'll be committed to me fully," I say suddenly stopping
"We don't need to do this for me to prove that to you, I'll be fully committed no matter what," He says breathlessly
"I want to do this," I say looking up at him sincerely
"You sure?" Louis asks as a final attempt to get me to change my mind if I wanted to
"I'm sure," I say pulling him back into a kiss.
He removes my shirt and begins trailing kisses down my body reminding just how much I had missed his touch
"Louis please, don't tease," I tell him my desire for him taking over
He smiles and nods taking my pants off. He comes back up to kiss me and I begin to unbuckle his pants for him
"Eager are we?" He asks biting my ear
I moan loudly as he begins trailing wet kisses from my ear to my jaw while simultaneously palming me
"Shh baby, don't want anyone coming in here do we?" Louis says covering my mouth with his own lips
The night carries on with loud filthy moans despite Louis' attempts to silence me and when we're finally done Louis cuddles me until I'm fast asleep and even after that because when I awake the next morning I'm still in his arms.
I look up to see his face and realize he's awake and watching me.
"Morning beautiful," He says kissing my forehead
"Please don't leave me this time," I say fearfully
"I wouldn't even want to," Louis says kissing me
"It was always you no matter how many time I disagreed, it was always you," I say pulling away
He smiles at me and pulls me in for another kiss
"Finn walked in here last night, I don't think he realized I was here though," Louis says breaking away from the kiss
"Good," I say playfully
"What? You ashamed of me?" Louis asks pulling me closer
I giggle and we lay there for a while before we both decide we have to get up.
Once we get dressed and leave my room I realize just how trashed my house had gotten last night.
"Sorry about your house love, we'll help you clean up," Louis says putting an arm around me
I nod at him and we head over to the guest room to wake the boys.
After many groans and protests we finally get them out of bed and head downstairs to make them breakfast.
They look dead as they eat it but at least they eat. We decided to get them to take showers while I put their clothes to wash. When they finally get out and come down into the living room they find me and Louis cuddling while watching a movie.
"Uhh, what's this guys?" Liam says coming to sit next to us
"Oh yeah, this happened last night." I say casually
"So you took my advice!" Niall says sitting next to Louis
"What?" I ask turning to look at him
"Louis's been crushing on you since the night he slept over." Niall says stealing some of the popcorn we were eating
"He told you about that? But he was still dating Eleanor?" I ask turning to look at Louis
"That didn't stop him. He wouldn't stop talking about you! He was absolutely infatuated with you." Liam says smiling at me
"Aww, you had a crush on me!" I say cuddling into him even more
"We literally fucked at the camping trip I think you knew." He says bluntly
"Louis!" I say hiding my face in his chest
"Thats what happened back then? Ew I still have that tent," Liam says making a face of disgust
"Oh, oh my god, is that what happened last night?!" Liam says looking horrified
"No shit! You guys were the ones being louder than the goddam music?" Niall says looking shocked
"Everyone heard us?" I ask burying my face once again
"Canada heard you," Liam says with wide eyes
"You're lying, you guys were knocked out by then," Louis says trying to comfort me
"Well I woke up because I was covered in vomit and I was extremely uncomfortable,"Niall explains
"And then Niall woke me up because I was drowning in my own vomit," Liam says cringing at the thought
"At first you could only hear it if you passed the door but when everyone realized what was happening they turned down the music and we heard everything," Niall explains
"So everyone heard us? Were you able to hear specific names being said?" I ask nervously
"Well I did hear Lou but I just assumed that was a girls name," Liam says looking away
"I'm so sorry you guys," I say hiding my face
"I'm not, let the world hear our love!" Louis says loudly
"That was my first gay experience and it was projected to everyone," I say jokingly
"Don't forget the camping trip," Louis pipes in
I playfully hit him and he devours me in kisses
"So you've never had a gay experience before Louis?" Liam asks when we finally stop
"No I did, I kissed this guy freshman year but Finn just convinced me I was just confused," I say nonchalantly
Liam looks at Louis and Louis looks at him
"Is that what he was yelling at you about?" Louis asks
"Yeah, he said he didn't want me to get any ideas if it wasn't true' But I'm not stupid guys I know he probably won't accept me when I do tell him about us," I say while eating popcorn
They all just stay quiet and I begin to get worried so I look up at Louis and he just smiles at me so I decide it's nothing.
We all begin cleaning once the movie is over and they end up leaving at about 6 with all of our backs aching.
I text Finn and apologize for leaving him alone at the party.
He responds that it's okay and that he saw me passed out on my bed when he went to go check one me
I think back to Louis and how happy I was to be with him and decide to tell Finn
To Finn: I wasn't passed out, and I wasn't alone.
To Finn: I was with Louis
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Smack me with a bible :/
Anyway I'll update tmrw