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8. Catching feels.
"Wooyoung is probably waiting for me I can call him to pick me up He drove all the way here to get me and I'm sorry, I didn't mean to take up your time. You really didn't have to do this for me-"
"Can you shut up for a moment?" He immediately cut me off. And I realized I was mumbling nonsense. Oh gosh, what is wrong with me.
"I don't understand what Wooyoung sees in you." He muttered.
I freaking heard that what the fuck?
Ugh, whatever. Learnt from past experience. No point arguing with him.
I stayed quiet and glance at him and he look straight on the road with a stone cold expression. I bit my lips and decided to call Wooyoung.
As soon he answer, San grabs my phone away from my hands.
"Hey!" I furrowed my eyebrows. Why did he do that??!
"Hey it's me San. Haejin is with me. Some dude tried to touch her while she was waiting in the lobby. I'll drop her off at the gas station near the for area. You can pick her up there." He said to Wooyoung on the phone. I sighed. I feel bad for Wooyoung. I hope he doesn't get the wrong idea.
"What?!" He suddenly said.
"No.. I have to meet Boss in the morning. I don't have time for this." He said.
What is going on...
"Now?! Why does he want to see you now?" San sounds very annoyed.
See who now? Is Wooyoung okay?
"Are you serious?" San sighed.
"Yea.. I guess so.. Ok fine. Come by midnight then. I can't let her stay all night." He said.
"Excuse me? I didn't agree on anything. What is going on?" I asked.
San passed me back my phone and I quickly check if Wooyoung was still on the line.
"Wooyoung?" I called out his name.
"Hey Haejin.. I'm sorry. Sorry about what happened to you. I should have been there to help you but something actually came up and I am forced to go back to do work. I'm so sorry but I'm glad San was there to save you." He said with his voice sounding quite soft and nervous.. I am just confused in what was going on? All the sudden?
"Wait, I thought we were supposed to go out for dinner?" I said.
"Something came up last minute. I just got a call a few minutes ago about it. I'm so sorry.. I will make it up to you. I promise." He said and I sighed.
"You always say that. It doesn't feel the same anymore Wooyoung. You never tell me what is going on. You always disappear and appear out of nowhere without a good explanation." I'm genuinely sad. I know he has his secret business that he is doing. He will never tell me what, but I'm worried. I'm worried for him.
I just want our relationship to work.
"Haejin.. I know it's my fault but, I promise, I will tell you everything one day. Just wait for me okay?" He said.
"I love you. Stay safe." He said and I suddenly felt my eyes tearing up. I decided to end the call and look away so San doesn't see me crying.
I put all this effort to make our relationship work. I don't know of its still me being selfish or its just not working out. I try to understand him, I do. I limit myself from asking all the questions. I don't know what to do now..
I wiped my tears and took a deep breathe to calm down.
"I've warned you both about dating each other didn't I?" San said and broke the silence. Seriously? Must he do this now?
"It was our decision." I said.
"It's also none of your business." I continued.
"Yea it's not. I know. But, I still warned you both didn't I?" He said.Why does he sound so annoying? What is he trying to do?
"What's your point? You literally disappear from my life for two months and now your gonna give me life advice?" I snapped.
"I mean... Wasn't your life better without me in it for the past two months?" He bluntly say.
I stayed quiet.
"You can't blame Wooyoung you know." He said.
"I don't blame him. I never will. I know itsnot his fault. I know he has his reasons. But, I just wish for something better." I sighed.
"You can't expect a perfect relationship if your gonna date one of us sweetie." He said.
"Ugh whatever San. Wooyoung is not you. We love eachother. It won't be perfect I know but, we can at least try right? Better than nothing at all?" I'm starting to lose my patience with this man next to me.
"Are you sure it's love? Looks to me you were losing hope." He said..
"What's your deal honestly? Don't you have a girlfriend? Why are you talking like dating one of you guys is a curse or something? Don't you love her and try to fix things when things go bad?" I scoffed.
"Wait? I have a girlfriend? Since when?" He sounded so confused. I turn to look at him but his eyes was glued on the road. He can't be serious..
"Yea... Naomi was her name right?"
"Ah Naomi.. She was and still is just a friend." He tells me. Well, he ain't lying to me. She told me herself.
"She said she was your girlfriend." I said.
"She can say what she wants but, everybody knows I don't date." He said and I couldn't help but laughed.
"Shut up you sound so cheesy" I shake my head.
"No I'm serious. I don't have time to date and its the truth." He shrugs.
"Busy doing what?" I crossed my arms.
"I have work. Same work as Wooyoung. It's more important than worrying about a love life. Trust me." He said.
"So what? Your life is all about work? Don't you live a little?"
"I live my life to the fullest. But, when it comes to taking a relationship seriously. I think its just a waste of time." Wow, in conclusion. He is a player. I can't Stan guys like him.
"Your so wrong." I said.
"How is it a waste of time? Having somebody way you and love you and care for you is good for your health." I continued.
"Well, we live in two different worlds Haejin. You wouldn't understand."
"Yea whatever. I bet nobody would want go date you too for having this type of attitude. At least Wooyoung tries." I said.
"And he fails." He snapped back.
"What's wrong with you??"
"It's not gonna last. You and him. Trust me." Gosh, now I remember why I hated him. I thought he would be better after the two months not seeing him. Guess he is worst than before.
"What the hell? I can't believe you. I will prove you wrong. I will show you we can learn to love even if its hard to make it work."
"Okay, let's see how long you and Wooyoung can last then once you know the truth." That cold assholes. I will prove you wrong.
"Just a reminder. I'm not like other girls. whatever the truth is. I will stay by his side."
"That's what they all used to say."
"Okay fine Choi San. Whatever you say." I rolled my eyes.
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"There is guest room there." He pointed at the end of the hall way.
"My room is here. If you need anything I'll be in here. Just go freshen up. If you need anything to eat just take it from the fridge." He said.
With that he went in his room and lock it..
What the hell? I mean.. I can expect much coming from San.
He took me back to his apartment. Not gonna lie. He has much a nice unit in this apartment. It's very modern and clean. From the looks of it, it must be expensive too. Like, I could never afford an apartment like this.
I made my way into the guest bedroom to freshen up like he told me too.
But, I have nothing to change into. I can't wear what I wore before as it is not comfortable and tight.
I need to ask him if he has anything I can get into. I hope he don't mind me asking.
I walk back towards his room and knock on it for a few times before he opens it.
My eyes widen in shock to see him JUST IN A TOWEL.
Oh my gosh...
My eyes just scanned his body and I didn't know why I did that? His body is so...
My heart was about to brust.
And that towel hanging losely on his hip is just a sin to look at.
"Done checking me out?" His voice appeared in my head and I jump in shocked.
"What? I wasn't checking y-you out?" I quickly look away.
What an idiot Haejin. YOU HAVE A HOT BOYFRIEND WHY ARE YOU CHECKING HIS FRIEND OUT?!
"What do you want?" He sighed.
"Um, do you have any clothes that I can wear? I don't want to get back in this uncomfortable outfit." I explained pointing at what I was wearing.
"Wait, Let me check." He bluntly said and step back in his room. Took him about 2 minutes to appear next to the door again.
He hand me over a black shirt and a grey sweats. It looks big..
"Are these yours?" I asked.
"Who else lives here?" He raised an eyebrow. I rolled my eyes.
"The shirt is mine. The sweats belongs to some girl. She left it here. You can have it now." He said and with that he shut his door in front of my face.
Wow, geez I can't believe this man. Giving me pants from a girl he hooked up with? Ugh whatever, at least it's something. Better than nothing.
I got back into the guestroom and took a quick shower. Thankfully this guest room has an onsweet.
What a long night. If I'm not wrong Wooyoung will come to pick me up later. That's good. I don't want to stay with San any longer.
After I'm done. I walk towards the living room area. I saw him sitting on a chair while he is on his phone. He looks freshen up too. His hair looks fluffy. Not his usual hairstyle yet the colour in his hair don't seem to fade.
I sat on the sofa in front of him and I don't think he noticed me. So, I decided to start a conversation.
"Hey, do you know when Wooyoung will be done with his job?" I softly asked. He looked up at me and put on his phone.
"Oh, your done." He starts off.
"Well, he should be here in a few hours time. You can sleep. He will wake you up when he arrives." He said.
"No, it's okay. I'm not sleepy." I smiled.
"Do you need anything to eat? Or drink?" He asked.
"Wow, that's kind of you." I chuckled.
"Well, I don't want to be a bad host." He said.
"A drink will do." I said.
"I'll go get it for you." He said and got up.
Not long later I heard bells jingling from somewhere on the floor. I furrowed my eyebrows and look around the dark flooring. Out of nowhere a cat appeared which scared me for a moment. It jump onto the chair, the one San was sitting on earlier.
"You have a cat?" I asked.
"Oh, you've met my baby?" I heard him say.
"It's cute." I say. Though I'm really a big fan of cats.
"It's name is Miw." He said.
He walked back into the living room and placed the glass of cold water and a bowl of chips on the coffee table. I thanked him and took a sip of the water.
"Miw, get down of Daddy's seat." He said. I choked on the water.
What the hell?
I started coughing and quickly put the glass down before I drop the glass or something. Did he just refer himself to that?!
"Hey, are you okay?" He asked bluntly. Ok, as If you didn't referred yourself as daddy...
"Oh nothing nothing." I reasured him and look away. I glance back at him trying to get Miw off his seat, he had a smirk on his face. That was so uncalled for Choi San.
"Ugh, whatever." He said after finally giving up on Miw and he decide to sit next to me.
"Why don't you just carry her down?" I asked.
"A cat don't work that way. Where ever the cat sits, it concurs the place. It's not like a dog. Besides, I love her too much to scold her. But, its okay. I can sit here. This sofa is big enough for 5 people at least." He said. Yea, I can see that..
I just nod. I didn't know what to reply. He went back to his phone as I sat there quietly.
"Actually, your house is quite nice." I said. I need to break the awkward silence. Why are things so awkward between us San?
"Thanks." He said.
"You must be rich." I tell him.
"I won't disagree on that." He said. Wow.. The cocky man he is.
"Are you rich because of the job you have? With Wooyoung?" I asked.
"Something like that." He said.
"I mean, I feel like eventhough you don't know. I'm sure you still have some clue about what we do. I don't think you are that dumb to not guess anything at all." He said.
Is it the dark lighting or why does San looking at me in this lighting giving me chills? His relaxed face just staring at me while he talks just makes me feels some type of way.. What is he doing..
'I do have a clue. I'm not sure if it's true. I'm too sacred to ask." I mumbled.
"Well, you can ask me." He said.
"Can I? I thought Wooyoung said it's a really big secret. And its quite sensitive." I said.
"Did he mention he didn't want to say any of it because of me?" He raised an eyebrow.
"Yes. Apparently.. Everything is about you. San this.. San that... Is he scared of you or something?" I asked.
He laughs. Wow, is this the first time seeing him laugh? His dimples are showing. I couldn't help but smile a little after seeing that reaction.
"He isn't sacred of him." he reassured me.
"I respect him for keeping it a secret. That's very kind of him also, very loyal of him." he said.
"I actually was very confused at first about all these secrets you have going on. I'm trying my best to not get curious. To not ask.. But, its hard. I just want to understand. At this point. I really give up." I tell him. Which is true, I can't pry anything open from Wooyoung.
"I'm actually surprise you stayed with Wooyoung for a quite a long time. 2 months? Is the the longest he has been in a relationship. He always wanted a serious relationship but every girl he is been with fail to understand him. That's why, I don't believe love exist on guys like us." He explained. I frowned. Aww Wooyoung.. I'm sorry..
"Really? I'm glad I stayed. To be honest, I thought of leaving too." I said.
"If I left him... I might hurt him. Right?" I ask San.
He smiled and look down.
"I've never seen him so in love before. So, yes. Please don't leave him. He is like a brother to me. I don't want to see him broken again.." He sighed. Its weird seeing San talk with emotions. He must really love Wooyoung..
I suddenly felt comfort. Wooyoung, I'm sorry for doubting you. Yes, so it was me being selfish all along... He is trying his best for me. I need to be there for him too no matter what.
"Just know that Wooyoung is doing his job. And most of his job relates to me. That's why everything he says about his work relates to me. You should norice too how my personal information is very private. I act differently when I'm outside and when I'm Uni. I can't look like this in Uni. It will be easier for people to recognize me. I have to change the way I look." He said.
I furrowed my eyebrows. Im just confused. Are they something I think they are? It can't be.. But..
"I know you have a lot of questions." He sighed
"Yea I do.. Now you made me very curious now." I said.
"You know what, just go ahead and ask me." He said I widen my eyes.
"Wait what?"
"Don't make me change my mind. You have access for one question only." He said.
"That's good enough. I'm just curious about one thing honestly. I'm trying to respect why you guys keep it as a secret but.. I'm just worried for Wooyoung." I said.
"I just want to know.. What you guys work as?" I look at him and he sighed.
"If I tell you. Promise me, you won't tell Wooyoung. Never tell him I told you this. This is the only thing he never wants you to find out." He said.
"Really?" I frowned. Is it that bad?
"Do you still want to know?" He asked.
I stayed silent for a moment. If San doesn't tell me. I will never know. And I can't help it but be curious daily about what he works as. Its now or never.
"Yes. Just tell me." I said.
"Wooyoung works for my father. My father is a gangster. That being said, we all are mafias working under my dad." He said. I widen my eyes.
Sorry what?
That happened to fast, I barely heard it all.
I am shocked. I am speechless. But, at the same time...
I knew it? That was my guess. I knew they are working in an illegal business, underground business. But, hearing San said it to confirm it actually made me so shocked.
"Haejin?" He calls my name.
"Are you okay?" He asked.
"Y-yes.. I'm fine. It's just a lot to take in." I said. Why am I shaking? I already knew it. This isn't supposed to effect me this much.
"Are you scared?" He mumbles.
"I'm not. I'm not scared of you. Not scared of Wooyoung." I tell him. He looks shocked when I say that.
"Your not?" He whispered.
"I just didn't expect it to be true. What I thought was true.." I sighed.
"So, you guessed it."
"I mean, when I went to that bar that night remember.. It kinda gave it away. But, I didn't expect it to be true." I said.
"Your smarter than I thought." He chuckled making me scoffed.
"Like I said, I'm not like other girls."
"But, are you not scared of us?" He asked.
"I'm not. I would be dead by now If you have intentions to kill me or sell me off to some rich man. I've been with Wooyoung for 2 months and I'm still with him with no problem other the obvious problem that we bad" I said.
"But, now.. Are you gonna look at Wooyoung differently?" His voice became softer.
"No.." I muttered.
"I love him. He didn't want me to interfere with his job because he loves me and doesn't want me to be in danger. I should have respect his decision more. Why didn't I see it before..."
"Yes.. He cares.." He let out a small smiled.
"Everybody have their reasons for what they do in life. Wooyoung has his reasons why he work for your dad and why you guys started this illegal thing in the first way. I can't judge you guys for what you guys do.. it's still a lot for me to take in but, like you said earlier. It was my decision to date Wooyoung. You had warned me before hand. Wooyoung had also told me things before.. I'm not gonna just leave him now. And after you said that about him not having a serious relationship before. I'm not about to just leave him because of what he works as. I understand why now its hard for us to be together. his job.. Your job mighy affecy my life for the worst. But, I can try and be a supportive girlfriend he needs. Everybody need support.." I said. Everything just came out my mouth automaticly. But, its all true. What he works as doesn't effect my determination for our relationship.
I survived for 2 months. If I just continue being with him without interfering. I'm sure everything will be alright.
"Wow.." I hear San softly mumbles. I look at him and he has his head down.
"You owned up to your word. Your not like other girls. He had met.. I had met.."
He look up at me and he stares at me with such eyes. He smiled. Why does his smile looks sad?...
"I'm glad Wooyoung has you by his side." He said with a softer voice.
"Wait.. Really?" I'm shocked by his words. Is this really San?
"Yea.. He is lucky." He said.
What?
It's also weird to see San all soft spoken like this. Its very different from him in thw car just now.
I bit my lips and smiled.
"Thank you." I mumbled.
He stood up and sighed. He was about to walk away towards his room. But, he stop halfway and turn to look at me again.
"Don't worry about Wooyoung. He is strong. Both mentally and physically. Your relationship with him will be alright." He said and continue walking to his room.
When I hear the door shut.
I don't know why but...
I felt something weird with San's reaction.
Not only that, I felt something too.
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