There's a bit of NSFW content in this, but it's not what I would consider full on smut maybe... light smut? If that worries you you've been warned. Enjoy!
This is also a lot longer than I expected it to be. ┐('～｀)┌
It isn't a secret, nor is it hard to see, that Kihyun wasn't exactly very comfortable with a lot of skinship. It wasn't really his fault, he's always been that way; being so touchy-feely was not how he was raised, nor did he ever develop the attribute by himself. It's not like he was completely disgusted when someone would touch him, but a lot of the time when it came to things like cuddling, hugging, kissing, or anything bit more extreme he felt uncomfortable.
This troubled him... he wanted to show his love and appreciation through physical assurance, but he either couldn't bring himself to do it, or it would just end awkwardly, so he decided its best not to even try. Of course he wanted to be as affectionate as the other members of Monsta X, even if he'd never admit it, it was something he was self conscious about. Sometimes he'd see them being so comfortable with each other and he'd feel a sadness creep into his chest, he tried to hide it though.
Recently however he expressed how he wished he were more comfortable with it.
This caused minhyuk to respond, "That's okay Kihyunie, we understand. You're just not like that."
This caused the others to agree, and though he appreciated their acceptance and understanding he still found himself frowning a bit.
Shownu noticed this but decided to keep silent... He wondered what he could do to help is fellow member feel better about the whole situation...
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"Hey Shownu-hyung." Kihyun greeted with a small smile as he walked into their room. The group were currently on tour and they had drawn each other as roomies for at least apart of the trip. He casually sat next to him on one of the beds. "What are you doing?"
"Reviewing our dance practice." Shownu responded not looking up from his laptop.
"Trying to pride yourself over being such a better dancer than us?" Kihyun asked teasingly, pinching the older's arm muscle.
Shownu flinched only slightly rubbing his arm. "I'm not a better dancer than all of you."
Kihyun let out a large annoyed sigh at their leader. "Don't lie." He squeezed his arm again a bit harder this time, laughing a bit as Shownu finally looked at him and gently punched his hand away.
It's not like the pinching really hurt all that much, Kihyun and the other members did it all the time, it was more just like an annoying itch at this point.
Kihyun smirked evilly, pinching the same again after a few seconds.
Shownu rolled his eyes but then suddenly had an idea and smiled very slightly waiting for Kihyun to pinch him again. When he did, the older put his laptop aside and grabbed Kihyun by his wrists, pulling him off the edge of the bed and pinning him against the wall nearby.
Kihyun wasn't expecting the sudden and very fast action. He looked up at Shownu with wide eyes, but didn't try to free his wrists. He didn't even say anything.
Shownu couldn't help but let a slight smug smile tug at his usually calm and cool expression. "You should respect your Hyung Kihyun." He scolded slightly. "Or as the leader I may have to punish you." Of course he was teasing him, after all even though he was better than Kihyun, he wasn't much for skinship either. But if he could at least maybe get Kihyun used to being touched, maybe he wouldn't feel so bad about himself. He leaned his head down toward Kihyun, brushing their foreheads together lightly.
Kihyun suddenly snapped out of his shocked trance and felt his entire face grow extremely warm. "H-hyung!" He yelled closing his eyes and turning his head away.
Shownu chuckled and Kihyun felt the sharp warm gust of his breath on his already reddening ear.
He snapped his eyes open again noticing his heart beating uncontrollably, and he suddenly realized that right now in this situation he was feeling a lot more nervous than usual. He knew Shownu was teasing him and yet it wasn't the slight uncomfortableness he usually felt, but it's like his nerves were burning. He couldn't handle it, he panicked. He then easily removed his arms form shownu's grip seeing as though he wasn't actually using much force. He pushed him away, surprisingly causing the larger male to stumble a bit, before removing himself from the wall and taking a few clumsy steps back himself. "U-um, I'm gonna- I mean- I should- take a shower! Yes that's what I'm gonna do, shower!" Kihyun sputtered quickly grabbing some clothes and running into the bathroom.
Shownu watched him go before shaking his head with a smile. Well it's not like I thought it'd happen so soon...
Meanwhile Kihyun slid down the opposite side of the bathroom door, dropping his clothes on the white tiled floor. He sat down on the floor himself and placed his slightly cooler hands over his hot ears, trying to get at least a little less flustered. Calm down Kihyun, it's just Shownu. He hardly touched you, just your wrists and your forehead a little bit... it's not like he pushed himself against you or anything. The imaginative image of Shownu pushing their bodies together then suddenly crossed his mind. He let out a very quiet and involuntary squeal of distress in the back of his throat and then covered his mouth in embarrassment. He squeezed his eyes shut and shook his head as if trying to fling the thought away. Kihyun don't think about that! You're supposed to be calming down. He slowly opened his eyes, taking a few deep breaths. He didn't feel uncomfortable... not at all actually. In fact he realized the only reason he freaked out was because he actually liked it... And that scared him even more.
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It had been about a week and a half since Kihyun's freak out over Shownu, and the entire group was still very busy on tour. Throughout the days Shownu had been doing small things to touch Kihyun. Simple things like putting an arm around his shoulders, or placing a hand on his back and leading him as they left a room.
He seemed fine with it too, in fact when they were resting, preparing to preform, or doing a Vlive Kihyun didn't seem uncomfortable at all sting close to him, and even resting his hand on top of shownu's large shoulders whenever he had to sit behind him. Maybe that was his desperateness to conquer his shortness and be seen, but either way he did it. In fact even after one of their performances Kihyun was the first to grab his hand when they all went to take a bow.
Shownu felt accomplished that he was slowly helping him, but also was conflicted. Throughout his mission he had found himself staring a lot more at Kihyun, and not like he usually did. He would start thinking about how beautiful he was, or how much he wanted to pat his head and feel his soft face. It got to the point where when they were watching one of their interviews minhyuk just had to say,
"Look how Shownu-hyung is staring at Kihyun when he speaks. It's like he has hearts in his eyes." He then laughed teasingly at their leader.
Shownu tried to ignore the comment, but felt strangely nervous at the observation. He was just glad Kihyun didn't hear what he'd said.
He tried to just push off his new feelings as him just feeling closer to his fellow member because of the new skinship.
Shownu and Kihyun were still rooming together, despite being in a new city and hotel, and currently Shownu was posting on twitter for monbebes thanking them for all the support they had been giving them on tour, and telling them to be sure to take good care of themselves. He looked up as Kihyun walked out of the bathroom. He'd just showered so his hair was slightly damp and his bangs casually hung over his forehead instead of being styled up. He tried not to think to much about how adorable he looked in sweat pants and a baggy long sleeve white T-shirt that was at least two sizes too big for him.
"Kihyun." He stated to get his attention.
"Hm?" The younger responded emotionlessly, focusing on putting his clothes and shower items back in his suitcase. He then decided to refold some of his outfits seeing as though they were just thrown on top of the rest. "What is it Hyung?"
"That thing you said a while ago about you feeling bad that you're uncomfortable with skinship, do you still feel that way?" Shownu asked watching him intently.
Kihyun looked at him for a second, seeming confused as to why he was asking the question all of a sudden, before turning back to his clothes. "Yeah, I suppose. Why?"
Shownu smiled a little at his response, putting his phone down and standing up from the chair he was in. He calmly walked over to Kihyun who still had his back turned to him obliviously. Shownu then leaned down, grabbing him and pulling him to his feet easily, turning him to face him before once again pushing him against the nearest wall, pinning his arms to his side, this time staying a lot closer to him than before. "Then let me help you."
Kihyun was surprised by the action and then squirmed a bit. "Shownu-hyung don't tease me!" He whined slightly. He was also confused, Shownu wasn't the type to tease this much, especially not like this. He then pulled his arms away from his grip trying to walk away.
Shownu however just responded by grabbing his wrists again, pinning them above his head this time, holding them there with one hand as he tightened his grip so he'd no longer be able to get away against his strength. "I'm not teasing, if you get used to being touched maybe you won't feel so uncomfortable."
Kihyun hardly processed what he said, he was too overwhelmed by their closeness. He found himself lost in shownu's stare. He nearly jumped when he felt the older's other hand snake around his waist, so gently it sent ticklish jolts through his nerves. He felt his face warm up again, but tried to remain as composed as possible.
"Are you uncomfortable?" Shownu asked bluntly.
Kihyun was snapped out of his daze a bit by the question. "Uh- um, no not really uncomfortable..." damn it Kihyun you should have lied and said yes, he would have let you go! But he knew why he didn't, he didn't because he secretly didn't want him to let go.
Shownu smirked a little almost like he saw the shorter's inner panic. He then leaned his head a little closer, so close Kihyun could feel his shallow breaths dance against his nose. Shownu then found himself not looking at Kihyun, but his lips. He snapped his gaze back to meet the shorter's eyes. He couldn't help but notice how small and helpless he looked in their current situation, and it was kind of driving him crazy. He couldn't help it, he looked to his lips again; his perfect, dark pink, soft looking lips.
Kihyun stood still, he didn't know why, but his body just wouldn't move. He just watched his heart literally feeling like it skipped a beat when he noticed the leader leaning in.
Shownu wasn't even thinking anymore he leaned closer pressing their lips together softly for only a moment, seemingly to get the other's reaction. When he got no sign of resistance he tilted his head to the side, closing his eyes, and gently taking Kihyun's upper lip between his own. He literally felt himself take Kihyun's breath away, it stopping suddenly in his throat. His lip was smooth and warm, it felt amazing... he could feel his Cupid's bow folding gently into his mouth, the perfect arch seeming to fit so undeniably well with his own. He pulled away for a moment feeling the shorter take a quick shaky breath, before this time capturing his thicker bottom lip. It was just as soft and plump as it looked. He leaned into the kiss more taking in the intoxicating warmth and slight wet. His lips tasted sweet almost as if they had a hint of honey mixed into their perfect texture.
Kihyun couldn't exactly process what was happening. When Shownu first kissed him he thought maybe he was just giving him a small peck, a friendly kiss to get him used to it, get him used to skinship, that's what he was doing right? But when he kissed him again, kissed him deeper, kissed him like he was something special, something precious and intoxicating, his mind went blank. His breath hitched in his throat getting caught with the nerves bundled deep inside him. He found his eyes fluttering shut, almost as if they had a mind of their own, and after a shaky breath and shownu moving position and pressing his lips in deeper he couldn't help but lean into the older male's kiss.
Shownu felt Kihyun give back and for a moment the thought of how crazy, how complicated, how possibly wrong them doing this was crossed his mind. But that thought quickly passed when he felt Kihyun's lips start moving with his. His grip on the smaller's wrists loosened and he let go, releasing them to slowly fall back into Kihyun's control. He then grabbed the other side of his waist pulling him a little closer to him, but not parting their lips. His hands seemed to fit perfectly into his shape and he couldn't help but let them slide around him slowly and sensually, almost like he was afraid he'd slip out of his grasp if he moved any faster. He pulled his lips away for only a moment allowing both of them to take a few needed breaths before tilting his head the other direction, allowing their noses to brush together before swiftly bringing him into another kiss by pulling Kihyun's hips closer.
Kihyun was surprised but the sudden movement, his eyes opened, and his hands met Shownu's chest, eventually sliding upwards a bit, gliding along the endearing ups and downs of his muscles through the thin layer of his T-shirt. He could feel something go through his own body that he'd never felt before. Everywhere Shownu touched him flared almost like it burned, and the areas surrounding them tingled with jealousy. He sneaked a look at shownu's expression and saw that it was filled with blissful contentment, yet slightly focused, like kissing him and kissing him correctly was the only thing in the universe that mattered to him in the moment. He began to realize the feeling sparking though his body that he'd never experienced before was the actual desire to be touched. The desire to have someone close and have their hands against you, against every part of you. He closed his eyes once again letting his body almost melt forward into his Hyung's.
They were trending dangerous territory, both blindly following their passion. Being pulled in deeper with every nerve-sparking touch and every irresistibly harmonious movement their lips cohesively made together.
Shownu couldn't help but take advantage of the fact that his younger member was completely submitting himself to him. He moved his hands to quickly trial up his back, a little less gently rolling his fingers against the length of his spine, before intertwining one hand in the shorter's soft and light hair, tilting his head back and completely taking dominance over the kiss.
The tug to his hair caused the hint of a muffled moan to radiate from the back of Kihyun's throat. He wanted to hit himself for letting it happen, but he couldn't help it.
Shownu parted his mouth more taking the younger's bottom lip between his teeth, not biting down much but dragging it through till he got to the edge of his mouth and released it letting it flick back to it's perfect position. He opened his eyes looking at Kihyun's expression.
Kihyun slowly opened his eyes as well meeting his stare. He was panting slightly, his eyes glazed over and not once looking away from his leader. He looked different from how Shownu had ever seen him, almost like he was drunk off of something, and more noticeably, like he desired so much more.
To Shownu's surprise this time Kihyun was the one to move his head up and kiss Shownu, drawing him down with his lips, and wrapping his arms around his broad shoulders, one hand almost teasingly trailing up his neck and tickling the ends of his hair.
Shownu felt the flick of a tongue against his bottom lip, but didn't give the younger a chance as he parted Kihyun's lips, sliding his tongue deep inside his hot wet mouth. He slowly explored the walls of the newly discovered cavern before twirling their tongues together, earning another small moan from the other. He didn't know how long they stayed like that, but he suddenly was aware of a lack of oxygen, so he retracted his tongue, releasing his lips as well, a slight string of saliva still connecting them for a moment before it broke. "You're doing so good Kihyun." He murmured into his mouth after they'd caught their breath.
Kihyun tried to ignore how good it felt to feel shownu's voice vibrate in his mouth. He was a good kisser, Shownu was a godamn amazing kisser, and Kihyun wondered how he'd gotten to be so good. "Mm, shut up..." he replied breathlessly. "Don't patronize me."
Shownu fought off a smirk. "I'm not." He connected their foreheads once again brushing their noses together slowly. "I'm really proud of you, you haven't retracted once." He brought his thumb to Kihyun's bottom lip brushing it across the now glistening area to wipe away the excess moisture.
Before Kihyun could respond he was gently hushed to silence by Shownu kissing the corner of his mouth so lightly you would think it was a kiss from a butterfly. He then kissed the other corner and finally the center of his mouth one last time before moving his face to the crick of Kihyun's neck.
Kihyun could feel the taller's breath against his skin with every exhale he took.
Then Shownu noticed a few droplets of water that had dripped from Kihyun's still damp hair residing on the boy's neck. He chose one and caught it with the tip of his tongue following the trail it had left up behind Kihyun's ear, feeling the other male literally shiver under his touch. He stopped just as he got to his actual hairline. Looking down to his neck again before closing his eyes.
Kihyun tried to recover from the teasing motion. Then Shownu did it, he placed an open mouth kiss on his neck, pushing him against the wall again. He felt his tongue swirl around the area, followed by the presence of teeth nipping at his soft skin. It hurt, but only slightly and in a good way, like a pleasurable little ache pulsing in his skin. Then he started sucking and— oh my god, Kihyun lost it. It felt so good he finally let out a full somewhat high pitched moan, his hands balling the cloth of Shownu's shirt out of desperation. He didn't even comprehend the sound that came out of his mouth due to his whole body reacting to the love bite on such a sensitive part of his neck.
Shownu circled his tongue over the area a few times as if soothing it a bit before removing his lips. He then used a hand to pull down the sleeve of Kihyun's oversized shirt, exposing his shoulder and half of his collar bone. He chose a place on his shoulder and did the exact same thing, nipping the skin lightly before sucking the area till it changed color and left a mark. He continued his love bites along the newly exposed area, receiving small sounds from the younger with each one. He then stopped on a soft spot just between Kihyun's neck and the start of his collar bone. He could tell the area's sensitivity by the way Kihyun's breathing changed simply from him gently gracing it with his lips. He smiled, placing a kiss there before biting just a little harder than before.
"Ah! H-Hyung!" Kihyun whined. "There- Right there. Again..."
Shownu was slightly resistant, but seeing as Kihyun asked for it he obliged, biting the spot again. He then began to suck the skin a bit roughly and realized he may have broke skin a little, because he tasted the slightest about of blood on his tongue. Kihyun didn't at all seem to mind though In fact it seemed the complete opposite.
"Mm, Yes Hyung! Oh God- it feels so good!" He was using a tone of voice Shownu had never heard before but took an atomic liking to.
Shownu pulled his lips away licking the large bruise a bit.
"So good Hyung... more, more please."
Shownu was surprised by the request, still, he locked his hands around Kihyun's waist again. He connected their lips again for a moment, pulling him away from the wall and swinging him around. He then walked forward a bit both of them tumbling on top of the bed, Kihyun falling backwards and Shownu catching himself just before he crashed into the other. He broke the kiss and looked down at the male beneath him.
—bad idea—
Kihyun was quite the sight. He looked up at him panting, his eyes once again asked for more. His damp hair, previously neat, now messily fell into his forehead and yet away from his face at the same time, forming slight waves in the strands as they dried. His lips were red as well and slightly swollen from all their kissing. Half of his sleeve was still pulled down revealing the bruises Shownu had left. The shape of his mouth stamped on his perfectly milky skin. Not to mention he was just lying there completely submissive, leaving himself fully exposed to whatever Shownu may want to do to him. In fact he'd hardly done anything and yet by the way he looked and the way he had just sounded, you'd think Kihyun had just had sex for hours.
Shownu couldn't deny those eyes, he slipped his hands under Kihyun's shirt feeling around his stomach, rib cage, and chest, the other male literally gasping in response, his eyes rolling shut and his head falling backwards against the sheets. Shownu then took the bottom of the smaller's shirt and lifted it dragging it up and over his head, before taking the item of clothing completely off. He placed his lips on his neck again trailing soft kisses downward past his collarbone and along his chest. When he reached his nipple he glanced up at Kihyun before starting to suck it, feeling the male's whole body shiver as he did.
"Oh God, Hyunwoo." Kihyun whined.
Shownu wasn't gonna lie, hearing Kihyun say his real name like that really turned him on. He continued pleasuring him, using his index finger and thumb to massage his other nipple.
"Mm, Hyung... I cant- please Hyung... please." The younger male cried. His entire body was burning now, he was practically gasping for air, and he squirmed uncontrollably under his touch.
Shownu stopped what he was doing raising his head to look to his face once again. He didn't know exactly what Kihyun was wanting, but he had a pretty good idea. He reached his hand down and softly stroked the bulge in the other male's sweatpants. He smirked a little, "Is this what you're begging for?"
"Fuck you." Kihyun tried to sound as bitter as possible, but he was still a bit of a mess.
Shownu chuckled a bit in response before starting his kisses again this time on his upper stomach. He glided his lips across Kihyun's skin like he was delicately painting a portrait. He eventually stopped at his pant line, and looked back at him one last time.
Kihyun was just staring at him with those dangerously hungry eyes.
Shownu took it as a chance, he took the waistband of his sweatpants and pulled it down, as well as his boxers, just enough for his hard member to reveal itself. He then gently grabbed it, lightly licking the shaft.
Kihyun whimpered, he actually whimpered. "God, fuck Hyung..." he let out a couple moans so light and breathy you could almost miss them. "Please..." he begged one last time.
Shownu couldn't take it anymore, he wanted to make him feel good, he wanted to hear him moan for real, feel him be pleasured, see him melt. He put the tip of Kihyun's member between his lips, and slowly moved it into his mouth.
"Ah! Mmm... Hyunwoo-hyung..." Kihyun bucked his hips a bit. "It feels... so good..."
Shownu continued starting to bob his head at a faster speed.
The reaction he wanted was received.
Kihyun's body tensed, him having to ball the thin sheets into his fist, using his other hand to grab onto the hair on the back of shownu's head. He seemed to be struggling to keep his moans at a fairly low volume, although he made sure to do it out of fear of a neighboring room hearing. Eventually however, he seemed to just give up his body went limp on top of the bed, all except his hips, which were thrusting himself deeper into shownu's hot mouth. He released the sheets and clapped a hand over his own mouth to muffle his loud sounds of pleasure. He had never felt so freaking good before, nor did he ever think being touched like this would ever get this kind of response out of him, but he couldn't help it. There was just something about Shownu...
Eventually he released his hand from his mouth. "Hyung, I'm close... so close, I- I'm..." before he could finish he felt himself cum into his oldest member's mouth
Shownu took it, before pulling away, swallowing, and wiping his lips with the back of his hand. He looked to Kihyun who was now just laying on top of the mess of sheets and blankets trying desperately to catch his breath. He sat next to him, giving him a moment.
Kihyun suddenly flicked his eyes open wide. "Oh my fucking god..." he almost whispered. He sat up pulling his pants back up and grabbing his shirt before practically throwing himself off the bed and onto his feet. "Shit! Oh my fucking god!" His face was completely red and he had tears forming in his eyes, a hand gently cupping his mouth as if he were gonna be sick. After his initial high had worn off, what just happened was hitting him, and hitting him hard.
Shownu noticed his panic and felt his stomach literally drop. "Kihyun, it's okay." He stood and tried to walk towards him but Kihyun flinched away and literally ran to the other side of the room.
"N-no, I'm sorry, I just, I can't-" he threw his shirt on quickly. "I have to go, I just- I have to go." He ran out of the room, letting the door close behind him, and leaving Shownu alone.
"Shit!" Shownu hissed raking his fingers through his hair and falling back onto of the bed. What the hell did I do..?
Meanwhile Kihyun ran down the hall and around the corner stopping when he was sure Shownu didn't followed. He fell back against the hotel wall and slid down, pushing his hands onto his mouth to silence his quiet cries as the tears finally broke free. Kihyun you stupid disgusting idiot... he squeezed his eyes shut trying desperately to stop the streams running down his face. Not only did you get extremely turned on by just kissing one of your closest friends and leader, but you actually got off on him! He felt another wave of extreme nausea. He was so embarrassed and upset he wanted nothing more in that moment then to just disappear...
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Kihyun was in the lobby as the sun was now rising. And before it could be pointed out that it was very dangerous for an idol to fall asleep in a hotel lobby, no worries, because he didn't sleep. Not at all, he just sat there in regret and fearing nothing more then going back to the room.
"Kihyun-hyung?" He heard a concerned voice question.
He looked over to see a somewhat sleepy Hyungwon watching him seeming very concerned.
"H-Hyungwon, What are you doing down here?" He asked trying to seem composed, but he knew his eyes were obviously watery and bloodshot.
"We needed more towels..." The younger responded gesturing to the folded white items in his hand. "Why are you down here."
Kihyun inhaled, fighting off more tears before finally just hiding his face in his knees. He hated being so emotional in general, but hated it more when he was in front of people.
Hyungwon was surprised by the reaction of his hyung. He quickly sat down next to him, gently placing a hand on his back. "What's wrong Hyung? Did something happen?"
"N-no. I just-" he couldn't finish the sentence because he was fighting off crying way too much.
"It's okay, please just tell me." The younger member, who was normally very pouty and annoyed in the morning, said softly.
Kihyun took a deep breath lifting his head. "It's Shownu." He slowly started to explain everything that happened, leaving out a few details of course.
Hyungwon stared at him in shock, but didn't at all dare say anything against him. "Oh wow..."
"It was just so stupid!" Kihyun said in frustration. "We shouldn't have done it."
"Well do you really regret it?" Hyungwon then asked. "I mean putting aside the context, and how it could possibly mess things up, did you not want to do it?"
"No... I don't really regret it..." Kihyun trailed off. "And I did want it."
"Did Shownu-hyung?" The younger asked.
"I don't know, I think, but god I just don't know!" He sniffled a few times. "I just- I feel so disgusted by myself, how could I let that happen? And I was the one who asked for more. I-I I don't wanna lose him or make things weird... I can't lose him..."
"Well it's not like you forced your dick in his mouth." Hyungwon stated bluntly.
Kihyun couldn't help but laugh a little at the comment.
Hyungwon smiled a little, happy he could cheer him up even just a bit. "Look, from how your explaining it, neither of you did anything wrong, and I sure as hell don't think Shownu-hyung is disgusted by you. I think you need to talk to him though. Running out probably freaked him out, whether he'll admit it or not, and if you've been gone all night he's probably really worried."
Kihyun nodded. "I should go back..."
"You should." Hyungwon stated firmly.
"Okay." Kihyun stood. It wasn't that he wasn't still scared, in fact he was terrified, but staying here wasn't an option, nor was it helping. "I'll go, thank you Hyungwon-ah I'll see you later." He flashed him a genuine smile.
"See ya Hyung." He smiled back watching him get into the elevator.
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Kihyun stood outside his hotel room door and took a few more deep breaths to prepare himself. He told himself he was ready, and really it was most likely a lie, but he figured he may never be ready so he may as well just do it. He tried the handle, and was glad to find it unlocked seeing as though he had left both keycards behind in the room. He couldn't help but wonder if Shownu had left it unlocked because he had been waiting for him to come back... or maybe just hoping. He swallowed hard before opening the door and walking in. He saw Shownu had just showered, gotten dressed, and was now packing up a bit. He looked over to him when he heard him enter. "Shownu- hyung."
Shownu stood slowly. "Kihyun..."
Kihyun tried to compose himself. He stepped forward folding his hands in front of him and looking down. "I'm sorry I ran out like that last night, it probably freaked you out and it was irresponsible and I shouldn't hav-"
"No I'm sorry." Shownu interrupted moving closer and placing a hand on his shoulder, causing the shorter to finally meet his eyes. "I know how much you don't like skinship, and I wanted to help, but I kept pushing too far and too much. I let things get out of hand because of what I was wanting, and I apologize. I never want to make you do anything you're uncomfortable with, and I'm so sorry that I did."
"No, no, you didn't!" Kihyun stressed. "That's not why I freaked out. Everything we did together was completely consensual I assure you. I just freaked out because... I didn't ever expect to go that far with you and I was worried you'd be disgusted about how I- well how I so obviously wanted it. I just don't want things between us to get awkward, and I don't want us to just be... that. Because... I-I really like you Hyunwoo, I like you more then just a strong leader, a more then just good friends."
Shownu seemed surprised by the confession, but then his expression softened into a small warm smile. He used his other hand to gently grab Kihyun's hip. "I really like you too Kihyun... more then anything in this world."
Kihyun smiled too before his voice took a teasing tone. "Even more then monbebes?"
Shownu exhaled somewhat quickly. "Okay Maybe on the same scale as monbebes, but in an entirely different way."
Kihyun laughed a little at that. "Me too."
Shownu leaned down, and placed a small yet sweet kiss on the younger's lips, longer then a peck, but nothing too intense, before pulling away and making eye contact again. "We still have quite a bit before we have to leave, you should get some rest." He let go of him.
Kihyun nodded in understanding. "Okay." He sat on the edge of the bed. "But Shownu?"
"Yes Kihyun?" The leader asked curiously.
Kihyun smiled at him. "Could you hold me while I sleep?"
Shownu blinked back at him in surprise, but then nodded. "Of course Kihyun." He crawled into the bed with him allowing both of them under the covers.
Kihyun couldn't hide his smile as he moved closer to his hyung, turning to his side and placing his head on his chest, an arm stretched around him. He felt shownu's strong arms wrap around him as well bringing him an automatic feeling of comfort.
He was really starting to like skinship...
Hey guys, oof that was a long one lmao. I hope you liked it and don't mind it strayed from the fluffy side of things a bit. Tell me what you thought. Vote and comment, bye!
~Hannah😋