As much as I want a cure, I'm terrified of what it would be like, you know, not being sick
And I hate myself for it
I would give anything to not be ill yet a part of me doesn't want a cure because I don't know what I'd do with myself. How do I act if I'm not ill?
How do I live?
What's it like?
I terrifies me
But I know there's no point worrying about that because what's the point of worrying about cures when you have a INCURABLE Disease?
I hate this so much