ik the title is kind of stupid but it's just talking about how there's four separate conflicts and four months were passed sksksk
take a shot every time the past or "four months" is mentioned
awsten knight: why i was gone
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weloveawsten im so glad he had the courage to come off his hiatus with such a powerful video! telling someone you have mental health problems is always hard to do, but he managed to tell us e v e r y t h i n g right off the bat. @awstenknight im so proud of you for continuing to beat such a shitty disease 💜 you're so amazing at what you do and we all love you so much!!! 💙💜❤💛 ~wla admins jake, lisa, vivian and toby
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dumbass.for_thou I LOVE YOU HUN! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORKXOXOXOXOXO
doublefinger_fxck thank you so much for choosing to stay alive <3 my sister absolutely adores you and would be so heartbroken if you weren't here anymore
awstenknight thank you for all the nice comments ❤❤❤ i love you all ❤
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AWSTEN: [showing GEOFF and his foster daughter the selfie they took together.] We look adorable!
GEOFF: Hell yeah we do. Right, Sydney?
SYDNEY: Yes.
AWSTEN: You're so damn cute, ugh! It's not fair!
SYDNEY chuckles.
SYDNEY: You guys are really cool.
GEOFF: Yeah?
She nods her head.
AWSTEN gets a text from Judi saying she's ready whenever he is.
AWSTEN: Babe?
GEOFF: Yeah?
AWSTEN: You ready to take us?
GEOFF: Only if she is.
AWSTEN: [to SYDNEY] You ready?
SYDNEY: Mhm.
AWSTEN: Alright then, let's go.
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AWSTEN and SYDNEY are greeted by a merry JUDI who has a painted face and nice clothes on-- a rare view to witness.
AWSTEN: Dang girl, what are you all dressed up for?
JUDI: [twirls and does a courtsey] Went for lunch with my lad to a beautiful park, dearest Awsten.
AWSTEN: We just came from a park, too.
JUDI: It's the perfect day for going!
AWSTEN: Most definitely. [pats SYDNEY's shoulder] This is Sydney. [points to JUDI] That crackhead is Judi and she's pregnant, so say hi to the baby too.
SYDNEY: [timidly] Hi.
JUDI: Don't be so quiet! I literally cannot stand people who aren't loud!
AWSTEN: Don't be so mean.
JUDI: I'm not being mean!
AWSTEN: Whatever. Where's your boyfriend?
JUDI: [flutters her eyelashes] Waiting on me to come into his life.
AWSTEN: I meant Patty.
JUDI: Oh... He's running errands for me.
AWSTEN: Cute, cute.
JUDI: We should probably get going. He's been really tired today so I'm sure he'll want to nap when he gets home and I don't want to disturb him.
AWSTEN: That's very nice of you.
JUDI: I thought so. [bends down to be eye level with SYDNEY] What kind of home cooked food do you like?
SYDNEY: Anything oven baked.
AWSTEN: Oh my God, me too!
SYDNEY smiles shyly.
JUDI: We should probably get going soon then, you know so we can have enough time to make it and have it ready by tonight.
SYDNEY nods her head.
JUDI: Alright then, let's go!
As they head downstairs, JUDI gets a text from Patty.
juddiiiiiii
yes?
are you alone?
no why
nothing
im just stuck in traffic and bored as hell
so why ask if im alone
so i can call you
mhm. you only called me judi in what i read as a very antsy text
:(((
im with awsten and his daughter rn i dont feel like talking
ugh meanie
idc
smh
i'll be home soon
okie dokie
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the only abstinence judi is sticking to is intercourse, meaning she is open to any other type of sexual activity
just thought I'd let you guys know that
~ryan
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Her, Awsten and Judi all giving peace signs in front of the condom section.
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syd_420_666_69 today has been one of my best days in about a year and it's all thanks to my amazing foster dads and aunt :)
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amkhardcastle ooh heehee
morgina8900 congrats boo ❤
gawsten LOVE YOU
awstenknight me and geoff are very glad to have you in our lives!
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Patty and her sitting across from each other at a table, holding an ultrasound together.
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gawsten im so glad to have this man in my life. i think he's my best friend.
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pattyxwalters love you
padii y'all would be so cute together
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AWSTEN and SYDNEY sit on the balcony, watching the cars pass by while hoping to see Geoff's car turn into the parking lot. AWSTEN begins to ponder how he's going to deal with being in the same room as Patty again. His face shows worry, so SYDNEY decides to start a conversation.
SYDNEY: What's Dad doing?
Hearing her use that language makes Awsten's heart break, for they had only met this morning and she's already desperate to see them as her parents.
AWSTEN: He's probably recording a small video for this week. He uploads three times a week and he told me he wanted to get some prerecorded so we could have more bonding time.
SYDNEY: Why couldn't he have just not recorded videos?
AWSTEN: Because we need the money. The album isn't selling much anymore because it's been a while since it came out, we're not touring, I just came back from a four month long hiatus... You know, we're really only surviving on one income right now.
SYDNEY: Mhm.
AWSTEN: Surviving on one income that's decent is okay for two people but we have you now so prices for us are gonna go up fast.
SYDNEY: I'm sorry.
AWSTEN: You don't need to apologize, hun. We decided to be foster parents, we decided to divide our money into lesser parts. It's not like you forced us to take you in or anything like that, it was all on us.
SYDNEY: I'm sorry, I guess it's just habit to apologize for stuff like that.
AWSTEN: Oh?
SYDNEY: My other families were in it for the money aspect and didn't care about me at all. I felt like I always had to apologize for everything because they made me feel like my abilities weren't even abilities. That's also why I jumped between a lot of families. The mean families would accuse me of having mental health issues, so the system would send me to people who were skilled in that department but when I got to those people they said I was fine so they'd send me back. All of my friends were so lucky; they got adopted out by their first families and have the most amazing lives but I've had over forty in the span of seven years. Nobody liked me until I met you guys. They didn't even put me into the adoption system because I was classified "special care" just because I had so many families that gave bad reports. [exhales heavily] On average, foster kids have one family every year and a half. My average is three families every year and a half.
AWSTEN: We're not going to be mean to you at all, even when you're misbehaving.
SYDNEY: That's what I was hoping for.
AWSTEN: Good. Hey, you do realize you were giving me and Judi attitude earlier, right?
SYDNEY: Yes and I feel horrible for it.
AWSTEN: You don't have to. I totally understand having to let go of a little bit of frustration.
SYDNEY: Yeah...
AWSTEN: I do want you to know we're not going to let you off every time you throw attitude, you understand? For small things it'll be okay, but not if it's about refusing to do your school work or getting mad at us for telling you to clean your room.
SYDNEY: I promise I'll try to contain myself.
AWSTEN: I'm sure once you get more comfortable with us you'll start to give us more rude remarks.
SYDNEY: I don't want to.
AWSTEN: We'll see about that.
AWSTEN sees GEOFF pull into the parking lot.
AWSTEN: Geoff's here.
They watch as he pulls a small box from the car.
AWSTEN: I wonder what he has.
SYDNEY: I'm sure we'll find out soon.
AWSTEN: True. Let's go inside.
They go back inside the apartment.
JUDI: Geoff texted me he was coming up.
AWSTEN: Yeah, we saw him.
JUDI tidies up a bit around the apartment while AWSTEN and SYDNEY wait patiently on GEOFF.
AWSTEN: [to SYDNEY] You should hug him when he gets here.
SYDNEY doesn't reply verbally.
AWSTEN: If you want to.
A few moments later, GEOFF knocks on the door.
JUDI: I'll get it.
JUDI runs to the door.
JUDI: Geoffrey!
GEOFF: Hey Jude. [hugs her]
JUDI: Come in, hoe!
He enters the apartment, bearing the same box Awsten and Sydney saw earlier.
GEOFF: You look great! What was it for?
JUDI: Patty and I went out for lunch.
GEOFF smiles at her, hinting suspicion.
JUDI: For the last time, we are not dating! His interest is for someone else!
GEOFF: I won't believe you until I see him talking to this other person.
JUDI: Well they don't live in the U.S so...
GEOFF: Damn, I can't imagine doing that.
JUDI: But him and- you know what? Never mind on that. Talk to your fiancé, I gotta start dinner.
GEOFF: Loser.
JUDI gives him the bird.
GEOFF: [to SYDNEY] I got you a--
He's cut off by her running up to him and hugging him tightly.
GEOFF: Oh, [chuckles] okay. Thank you?
SYDNEY: Dad told me I should do it.
Awsten smiles at GEOFF.
GEOFF: Of course he would. [pulls her off him, kneels down to her level.] I wanted to give you something as a welcoming gift to our family. See, we like to talk over text a lot, and we often do it over Instagram like us young Millennials take pleasure in doing. So, since we hardly ever look through actual text messages and laptops are a lot to carry around, I decided to get you a new phone. [gives her the box] It's an X. I know it's kind of outdated, but it's definitely way better than that shitty piece of plastic you have now.
SYDNEY begins crying.
SYDNEY: Thank you so much. [hugs him again.]
GEOFF: You're very welcome.
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patty and judi
you need to hurry the fuck up it's getting late
i have to emotionally prepare myself
you've been emotionally preparing yourself for five hours you need to come back home
I'll call him
if it'll help then do it
gimme thirty minutes
okay
love you <3
love you too >4
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PATTY calls his kind-of-boyfriend.
Person: Hi Patty! What's up?
Patty: I'm gonna see him in about thirty minutes and I just need to talk to get that shit off my mind.
Person: Oh, okay. What do you want to talk about?
Patty: [chuckles] Anything.
Person: How about... visiting me?
Patty: You could always come visit me but okay.
Person: It's expensive.
Patty: I'll pay.
Person: Patty.
Patty: Ben.
Ben: You're not going to pay for me.
Patty: Yeah but I'm not taking my ass up there and you can't pay for it.
Ben: That doesn't mean you're allowed to pay for me to go halfway across the globe because we're both clingy.
Patty: I miss you so much.
Ben: It's been two days.
Patty: Two horrible days without you.
Ben: Oh so you don't love Judi anymore?
Patty: No! It's just hard to adjust to being away from someone you grew so attached to.
Ben: At least you have other friends to be around.
Patty: I have, like, one.
Ben: I have one too but he left me.
Patty: It's not my fault they decided to start recording basically right after I left!
Ben: Calm down.
Patty: How do you expect me to calm down when you're telling me shit about crap I can't even control?!
Ben: I wasn't!
Patty: Yes you were!
Ben: Stop yelling at me!
Patty: I'm not!
Ben: Well you are so bye--
Patty: Don't go, please.
Ben: Then stop getting so fucking mad for nothing.
Patty: I'm not.
Ben: [laughs] Sure.
Patty: I apologize; it was horrible of me to yell at you.
Ben: It's okay, I understand. I know you're anxious.
Patty: I don't want my mind on him right now, you know that.
Ben: It's probably going to be harder if you don't talk about it.
Patty: But I don't want to work myself up about it.
Ben: Maybe you should.
Patty: I don't know.
Ben: You're seeing him tonight in your own home. You take control as to what happens. You deal with the situation as you see fit.
Patty: You're right...
Ben: Of course I am. I told you to stay with me, I told you to accept Judi's offer, I told you get on that airplane; I'm telling you to suck it up and deal with your feelings.
Patty: You've made my life so much better.
Ben: Mhm.
Patty: Jeez, you don't realize how much you took someone for granted until you don't have them.
Ben: I'm still here, just... not physically, for you.
Patty: I'll see about getting you a flight here soon.
Ben: What did I say about th--
Patty: Love you too, bye.
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PATTY stands in front of the door to his apartment hesitantly. He knows who's on the other side of the door, the other side of the wall. He knows who he won't want to say hi to after not seeing him for four months. He replaced him with a wondeful man during that time.
A man who always knew what was best for Patty.
He knocks on the door, knowing his best friend would come open it for him as reassurance.
JUDI: [not pulling him inside] Hey Patty. [in his ear] He's on the couch by this wall.
PATTY: Okay.
She takes hold of his hand, making sure to keep his focus away from the man on the couch for as long as possible. GEOFF is to greet him first.
GEOFF: Hey! [hugs PATTY] It's been too long! [pulls away] You look good! You been taking care of yourself?
PATTY: Yeah, the person I was staying with was real into self care and self respect so he taught me some good stuff.
GEOFF: It worked! You look amazing.
JUDI: [staring at Patty, mesmerized] He is.
PATTY kisses JUDI's forehead to throw an extra little something in Awsten's face. Ben was right. He's the head of the house so why not be in control?
GEOFF: This is Sydney, our foster daughter. We got her today.
SYDNEY waves.
SYDNEY: Nice to meet you.
PATTY: Likewise.
Awsten doesn't look up from his hands which fidget from his growing anxiety.
GEOFF: Awsten?
He pretends to be out of it.
GEOFF: Aws?
AWSTEN: [tries not to glance at PATTY] Hmm?
GEOFF: Say hi.
AWSTEN: [forces himself to look PATTY in the eyes.] Hi.
PATTY: Hi...
AWSTEN: [allows his eyes to scan Patty like he used to.] You do look pretty nice.
PATTY: Thank you.
Awsten doesn't reply.
JUDI: Dinner will be done in about an hour. [smiles] Would y'all like to play Phase Ten, Uno?
GEOFF: Phase Ten since there's hardly any betrayal.
JUDI: On it!
GEOFF: Aws, Syd, you want to play?
SYDNEY: Yeah.
AWSTEN: I think I will.
GEOFF: Good.
JUDI goes to get the cards from the junk drawer.
JUDI: Oh wait! I just remembered we have Cards Against Humanity. Would y'all prefer to play that?
PATTY: I'd rather just have a game where we can talk, you know?
He gives her a look telling her he wants to get Awsten to talk.
JUDI: Yeah, honestly me too.
She grabs what she needs as Patty serves the others drinks and snacks.
GEOFF: Jude, how far along are you? I always forget.
JUDI: [sits down opposite of him] Fifteen weeks. [smiles, watches PATTY as he places her drink down in front of her] We'll be seeing their gender this Monday.
The pair smile at each other lovingly and Awsten looks away. Well, it wasn't lovingly at all, but that's how Awsten perceived it.
GEOFF: [jokingly] When are you going to date?
JUDI: He's got someone else and I don't have feelings for him anymore.
PATTY: I'm still single!
JUDI: By titles, yes, but by relations, no.
PATTY: Then I guess I'm pulling him along for a ride, huh?
JUDI: [grinning] Whatever, dude.
PATTY: [sits down in the chair at the end] We can elaborate more tonight...in private.
GEOFF: [To PATTY] Sounds like someone's horny. [chuckles]
JUDI: Shut up! You know I'd never have sex before marriage, and especially not with my best friend!
AWSTEN: He can still be nasty with you.
JUDI: We're not friends with benefits.
Sydney pretends not to hear what Awsten said as Patty pretends to not hear his voice.
JUDI: But... we could always fantasize.
SYDNEY: There's a kid here.
JUDI: Oh crap, sorry. I'm so used to being so open about sex because of these damn buffoons.
Everyone chuckles.
AWSTEN: Yeah, so are me and Geoff.
SYDNEY: You guys are my family though so it's weird.
PATTY: We can stop-
JUDI: -Talking about ourselves. You wouldn't mind if we talked about it in general though, would you?
SYDNEY: Not at all.
JUDI: Okay, good! I don't think I could go without making inappropriate jokes.
SYDNEY: [smiles] Me neither.
JUDI: I love you so much, my goodness.
Everyone openly agrees.
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im fucking hungry lmao and my arm hurts
this chapter is currently 3k+ words I hope y'all have enjoyed this train wreck so far
~ryan
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JUDI grabs plates from the cabinets.
PATTY: Hello. [wraps his arms around her waist.]
JUDI: Uhh, hi?
PATTY: We have a child together, but I'm not allowed to hug you?
JUDI: They'll suspect we're going steady.
PATTY: And?
JUDI: I don't want them to see us that way.
PATTY: Mhm.
JUDI: I think you understand where I'm coming from, right? Like, trying to mask certain things from others.
PATTY: How would I?
JUDI: With Awsten. You hid your relationship by pretending you're just close friends.
PATTY: [sighs] Don't bring that up.
He lets go of her, moving on to helping her prepare everyone's plate.
PATTY: Earlier, when I called Ben, he told me I should take control of the situation as I see fit.
JUDI: Oh?
PATTY: Yeah. It really got me thinking about how I used to do things. I'd always let people choose for me, rather than just limiting them to being influential.
JUDI: You've taken control of many things, you just never saw it.
PATTY: Even then I still need to be able to recognize it.
JUDI: I think you worry too much, is all. Ben does have a grain of truth to what he said, but only to your current conflict. If anything, it's me who doesn't take control. Take the night I was... [sighs] Take that for example. It should've been my personal mission to tell someone I felt something was up, but I never did because I felt there wasn't enough in me to handle the situation. I let my guard down, and look where it got me.
PATTY: Emotional pain.
JUDI: ...And a little bit of happiness as an outcome. Plus an amazing friendship. [smiles]
PATTY: Basically what I went through, just not as bad.
JUDI: I don't know, both of our situations knocked us down pretty hard.
PATTY: I'd say yours is worse.
JUDI: Maybe, but I recovered just fine.
PATTY: I don't think PTSD is fine.
Judi backs away, two full plates in hand. She eyeballs him as she ends their conversation abruptly.
AWSTEN comes up next to PATTY to grab fresh cups from the cabinet.
PATTY: Don't you already have a cup?
He doesn't answer right away.
AWSTEN: Sydney and I want a root beer float.
PATTY: Those suck ass. Coke floats are better.
AWSTEN: Coke is fucking disgusting.
PATTY: Your attitude is fucking disgusting.
AWSTEN grabs two large cups and rolls his eyes at PATTY.
AWSTEN: You're an uncle who's also going to be a Dad soon. You really want to be that immature around them?
PATTY: You're the one throwing a fit.
AWSTEN: You're the one trying to make me jealous.
PATTY: How so?
AWSTEN: Judi, you dumb fuck. I see how you two are with each other.
PATTY: I don't get why you're so angry with me, you literally could not wait to see me when you called Judi.
AWSTEN ignores what he said.
AWSTEN: I'm sorry. [pats his friend's shoulder] Welcome home.
Awsten leaves Patty for the other side of the kitchen. Geoff enters just to show Awsten affection.
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PATTY helps JUDI to her seat, making sure to do little things which will annoy his ex lover.
PATTY: There you go, Jude. [adjusts her hair]
JUDI: Thank you.
PATTY: You're welcome. [sits down next to her.]
All five continue to eat, but Judi and Patty openly show affection towards each other.
Awsten tries his best to keep from twisting it, and Geoff tries his best to comfort him.
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i knew this chapter was going to be long.
you can ask questions if you want about any of the characters here
~ryan