Rosé pov:
We've just boarded the flight to get us back to America to finish up our North American tour. We've been told Jennie and Lisa are to meet with Pharrell in the studio. Im guessing they're going to get that sub unit. I wasn't bitter, i was happy for them and it would bring more attention to blackpink i guess.
My parents keep on checking up with me after yesterday, they are really worried about my emotional stability right now but honestly, i think i'm okay. Im just waiting to get back to Seoul and talk to YG and send over my contracts to my family. Maybe we'll be able to salvage something.
Ive decided im not going to let anything ruin my time in the States. I came to have fun and thats what im going to do.
Jisoo and Lisa sat together as they had to spend the majority of the day together recording for BP tour diary. I sent Lisa a smile as we sat in our seats. I hope yesterday didnt affect our friendship in anyway. She sent me a finger heart with a big smile and i couldnt help but to smile back. Her little chubby cheeks were the cutest.
Jennie sat with me on the plane and i just fell asleep on her shoulder given how little i slept last night. Although i never shared with her what exactly went down yesterday, she was still being very supportive and i appreciated it.
Lisa pov:
Today we were on our way to Newark. Canada was still a good time despite everything that ended up happening. Im just glad Rosie is okay, or well, trying to be okay.
Jennie and i had to meet with Pharrell today and the only thing i could think about was how Rosie wasn't even getting her solo and we're already working towards our subunit.
I mean, Rosie seemed okay with the news as she gave us both high fives when we were told about it but, i know shes a strong girl who always puts on a brave face, so who knows whats going on underneath there.
We arrived in Newark and Jisoo and i recorded some scenes at the beach. We had so much fun there, i wonder what Jennie and Chae were up too.
Rosé pov:
This was bliss. Jennie and i were just relaxing in a hot tub while i was reading my book 'the art of not giving a fuck'. Perfect read. This book was actually pretty handy and quite funny.
I felt really relaxed right now and honestly, although in the back of my head so much was going on, right now, in this moment, with Jennie, I felt happy. I held Jennies hand as we both just sat there in silence enjoying the heat.
Lisa pov:
I met up with Jennie at the studio. Pharrell is so cool. We didn't really record anything we just sat and had a chat, i dont know if this is going to go anywhere but it was nice to meet with him.
I wish the other girls were here too but i know, they'll do their thing soon too.
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Rosé pov:
It was time for the show now. My hair and make up had just been done and i made my way to the stage. Yesterday when i was on stage i was in a completely horrible head space and while today i feel a lot better, it was still there in the back of my head.
I do believe in myself a lot and i know i can sing and i can dance, i just dont understand why YG wants to suppress me so much. If they dont give me opportunities how am i supposed to become popular like they so desperately want me to be.
Lisa walks over towards me. This was the first time id seen her since we checked in at the hotel.
Just seeing her made me feel better. She sent me a smile and asked how i was doing.
"Im fine, thank you. How was your day?" i ask.
"Yeah it was good, Jisoo is too funny" she replies.
Isn't she just i nod along agreeing with her.
"So how was the studio?" i ask her. I decided to bring it up because i know she wouldn't out of fear of making me upset, but, she didn't have to worry about me, im a big girl.
"Yeah, no, it was good, nothing really happened, he's a cool guy but i dont know if it'll go anywhere music wise" she replied. I just nodded my head before we were told to get into places for stage.
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Lisa pov:
We were almost done with the show, we only had 'hope not' to go. After tonight, we'd only have two more shows here till we were done. Crazy how fast time goes.
I sense Rosie feeling down next to me. She was doing really well throughout the show but i could tell, she was thinking again. She just seemed a little phased out.
I put my arm around her as we sang our last song. It just had to be a sad one didn't it. I try and smile big for her and to try and make up for Chaes sadness. I can see she's trying to smile, but the sadness in her eyes was so evident.
It was time to stand up and walk around the stage now. I didn't want to leave Rosie alone when shes clearly trying to keep herself together. So instead, i lace our hands together and get her to walk with me.
As soon as she saw the fans faces she cheered up again. She loved the blinks a lot, it was the most special thing ever.
Im proud of her for how strong she is and this brave face she puts on for the fans but i do worry for her sometimes. Theres only so much a person can take.
We wrap up the show and head to our send off.
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Rosé pov:
We were off to our next stop within the next few hours. Boy im so tired right now. Im so glad the girls are being there for me right now.
I dont know why im being such a big baby right now but, i just dont feel 100%. We get onto our flight for tomorrows show.
*** Two days later***
Lisa pov:
This was our last show in America. I was both happy and sad. Happy we had the opportunity, sad it was coming to an end. I've met so many beautiful people here and i just dont want to say goodbye.
I made my way to soundcheck with the girls and everything went well, the fans went crazy and i was so excited for our last show here. These guys had a different type of energy.
Today when i get on this stage, im going to make sure i have the most fun.
Rosé pov:
Im happy. Im happy today. Its our last show here and im grateful. Tonight is going to be a blast. Im determined to have extra fun tonight.
I wanted to show Lis i was thankful for her support the last few days. I know they hadn't been easy for her either but she was still there for me.
We were performing D4 when i decided i would make my move. We hadn't interacted much on stage apart from hope not, so this would be a nice change for both us, and the blinks.
Lisa pov:
I felt Rosie hug me from behind as i was doing my rap. This was nice, i love fun Rosie. I felt her move her arms like she was about to move away so i put up my hand on her arm as a way to tell her to stay. It must have worked as she stayed with me till the end of my rap.
What a great way to end our last show in America. I was truly happy now, i got to have the fun i wanted to when i got on the stage earlier today.
Tomorrow morning we were flying back to Seoul and i was both happy cause it meant i would get to sleep in my bed but also really nervous as Chae and i would be meeting with the big guys to discuss that solo. Im not sure when but definitely at some point.
We were sleeping in different hotels tonight due to security reasons dont ask me why. I wanted to make sure Rosé was okay so i decided to text her.
Me: Hey, you did great today on stage. You settled in your hotel?
Rosie Posie💙: thank you! You were amazing too. Always a pleasure Manoban & yess!! Sleepy time soon
Ugh. She was just adorable. Part of me wished i was sharing with her tonight, i mean, don't get me wrong i love Jisoo, but, Rosie definitely had a special place in my heart. Especially lately, whenever im not busy on stage or trying to rev up the fans, Rosé was always on my mind.
Me: Okay, get some sleep then!! I'll see you tomorrow at the airport. 💙💜
Rosie Posie💙: okiee, love you, na night!!
Me: i love you s̶o̶ ̶m̶u̶c̶h̶ ̶R̶o̶s̶i̶e̶ too. Have a good sleep <3
After reassuring myself that she's fine, i've decided to call it a night. Tomorrow will be a long day.
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The part of the text that has a strike through is what Lisa types but doesn't end up sending.
I dont really have a storyline for this so im just going with the flow to be honest. I feel like changing the timeline so thats its not EXACTLY going to be like irl if that makes sense?? Im still going to base it off real life events and Chaelisa moments but imma add some bits in to keep the fic interesting. Ygm?? Hope it aint tooooo crap and ur finding this somewhat of a good read. Thank u <33
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