After tour
the feeling cascaded over
our spring sand drenched feet
and over wrenched pale ankles touched
under covers
but
we met at 7:30
i wasn't being flirty
it was all his worry
me and you walked to shore
we planned on drowing
my heart was linked to your core
yet you said, "it's only training,"
and all started raining
That's not from me. That's from the twelve-year-old boy who aspires to get his friend's old ass sister to be his girlfriend. But fuck me, I'm turning into one anyway. Girls and guys are asking me to parties nonstop, wanting so desperately to get their hand up my shirt. If they'd asked a few months ago I might've said yes, but definitely not now. Even the smallest sexual feelings shake me to my core. Ever since our fight, I couldn't take any of it anymore. My mental health could not survive around him, so I left. Took off before they would need me again.
Fuck L.A. Fuck it.
When I say fuck you I mean it.
His voice still lingers in my head. At this point he's the voice in my head, talking to me about the most mundane things. Thankfully, I have someone who's here to distract me from it.
"Patty!" they yell from the kitchen.
"What?" I reply.
"We gotta get going; your plane departs in four hours!"
"Okay! I'll start getting ready!"
I don't get up. In fact, I get more comfy by pulling the sheets up past my face. Procrastination works best when you have to get on an airplane to go back to the city which your ex resides in. He's not your ex, dumbass. There's his voice again! I hate it, Jesus Christ.
bb girl 🍒💫
what up bitchass u ready
big dick daddy 🤙🏻
not at all
bb girl 🍒💫
at least we'll be there
big dick daddy 🤙🏻
yeah. yknow you really should be looking for your own place and not just claim my apartment as yours
bb girl 🍒💫
but we're gonna be raising it so like i don't really want to
big dick daddy 🤙🏻
trueeeeee. how far along are you?
bb girl 🍒💫
15 weeks my guy
i see their gender next week
big dick daddy 🤙🏻
fun fun fun
I'll get to be there for it too :,)
bb girl 🍒💫
ik ik
also i won! the pos is getting 20 years!!!!
big dick daddy 🤙🏻
good for you! he deserves it
bb girl 🍒💫
thank you
big dick daddy 🤙🏻
i fucking miss you
bb girl 🍒💫
MEEE TOO GODDAMN
big dick daddy 🤙🏻
sksksk love u
bb girl 🍒💫
love you too babyyyy
big dick daddy 🤙🏻
I'm scared to be a dad
bb girl 🍒🤙🏻
I'm scared to be a mom lmao
I'm sure we'll be amazing parents though ;)
big dick daddy 🤙🏻
hopefully
bb girl 🍒💫
if not we can get an experienced nanny to teach us their ways
big dick daddy 🤙🏻
or we can just call your mother multiple times and beg her for her advice
bb girl 🍒💫
we could
ah shit that twink is calling me ttyl d00d
big dick daddy 🤙🏻
aight lass ttyl
"Patty!" He said accusingly, pulling the sheets down past my knees. So much for staying in as long as possible.
"Don't make me get up,"
"You have to,"
I sighed heavily, my body aching from all I've put it through these past few months.
He threw a shirt at my face, along with some clean pants and underwear. How was it that we ended up together again? By pure luck, that's what.
"I don't want to leave," I say, pulling the fresh shirt over my head. "It's not my fault you're scared to leave the band," he says.
"Or that I have a fucking kid on the way, but you know,"
"Who 'isn't' yours,"
"Who's entirely mine,"
He chuckles and glances at me. We both know what we have.
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-- chapter break --
btw, august 2021
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gawsten he's coming back home! {and just in time for the gender ultrasound!!!}
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julia_robbins1977 can't wait to see him again .
pattyxwalters see you soon judi!!
gawsten @pattyxwalters you too!!!!!!!!