haysum
hey
are you okay
nardeeya
um
depends
what is it in reference to
haysum
life, i guess
nardeeya
oh
well in that case
i'm not okay
haysum
i'm sorry, and always here for you
do you want to talk about it?
nardeeya
yeah that would be cool, i haven't been able to talk about it with any of my other friends because of the situation
haysum
oh okay
whats the situation?
nardeeya
ruby convinced me to get in to see a counsellor
and turns out i may have mild depression
so that's great
haysum
aw, nadia
i'm sorry
nardeeya
it's ok haysum
i think i've always been a sad person just because of my whole upbringing and the money shit
but then i made some really bad choices to do with johnny and mackenzie and i guess that kinda fucked me up a bit
haysum
oh :(
nardeeya
i just feel so alone all the damn time
and everyones in love and i just really wish i had one person that i could go to for love and they could just hug me and make it all better but noone likes me like that and it makes me sad :(
haysum
nadiaaa i had no idea you felt like this
what about darius?
nardeeya
darius is out of my league
haysum
that's not true, darius is a good person just like you
nardeeya
really
well im sure he would want to date someone so sad all the time
and anyway noone loves me so why would he
haysum
cut the crap nadia you have so many people that love you- friends, teachers, coaches, parents, family, pets
nardeeya
that doesn't count
haysum
yes it does nadia
love doesn't diminish just because it's not romantic love
believe me
nardeeya
that's a good point hayden, but i'm still alone
and you know what hurts? seeing everyone else happy. maddie and kailand, you and lauren, and most of all johnny and kenzie
haysum
johnny and kenzies relationship isn't healthy and you of all people should see that
nardeeya
yeah but regardless they're still happy
haysum
i guess
nardeeya
can i tell you a secret
haysum
sure
nardeeya
sometimes i get so mad at the both of them that it scares me. it just fucks me off that they live inside their own stupid perfect world where everything is happy and they don't even have their eyes open enough to see how many people are fucking mad at them. like, both of their families are going insane, the teachers at school are pissed, johnnys teammates all think he's a dipshit and mackenzies cheer girls are basically running themselves. how can they be so far up eachothers asses that they can't even see what they're doing to people and how selfish they're being? like jfc open your eyes!!
haysum
fuck you worded that good
i've been so angry for so long at them and that's exactly how i feel
nardeeya
grrrr
haysum
okay that's it 😾
i'm doing it
nardeeya
doing what?
haydennn?!?!
hayden what are you doing
fuck you hayden answer me
HAYDEN!!!
AUTHORS NOTE
lol guess what haydens going to do i can guarantee none of you will guess 😳🥵🥶