Fancy POV
“Bubwit, can we talk?”
I'm kinabahan sa tone ng pagsasalita ni Yumi. She wants to talk with me. Ano kaya ang sasabihin niya? I'm so...naba-bother bigla.
"Ye-yes sure, Yumi! Where ba?"
"Sa kwarto mo nalang, bubwit." She said.
I'm tumango and nauna ng mag-walk towards my room. Then we make pasok na kaya I locked the door. You know naman, may tsismosa all over the house.
"What is your sasabihin, Yumi?" I asked her while making upo sa single couch. Yumi is nakaupo na sa sofa eh.
She's serious and I'm kinakabahan talaga eh. Yumi is like my totoong Ate na kaya may times na takot ako sa kanya. I'm lumaki kase na walang Ate. Puro Kuya kaya I'm so happy nung mag-asawa na si Reid and yeah, there's Yumi na. I have nasasabihan ng secrets and nahihingan ko ng advice about girly stuffs.
"Nanliligaw ba sayo sina Kit at Lyndon?"
O_O
Why kaya? Baka..WAAA! Baka si Yumi is making taksil na kay Reid and she wants Lyndon and Kit na? OMG. I kennat!
"Ah, y-yes Yumi. Why?"
"Si Sydd, nanliligaw din ba sayo?" She didn't answer my question instead, she ask me again.
I'm tumango. "Kind'a oo, kasi he's open naman to me. He said that he likes me talaga."
"How about Blake. Nanliligaw na ba sa'yo? Napansin kong pumupunta na 'yan dito."
OMG! Type kaya ni Yumi sina Sydd at Blake? Why ba kase na tinatanong niya?
"Yes? Maybe but he's nagbabago. I can't understand him eh. I don't know if he's nanliligaw ba talaga or what. Why ba Yumi?"
She sigh and look at me. "Sinong gusto mo?"
I'm natawa ng kaunti. "Who pa ba? You know naman that I'm so inlove with Blakey 'diba? Dati pa? I'm always make it kwento naman to you. Why did you ask ba?"
"Yun naman pala eh. Sigurado ka naman pala sa kung sino ang gusto mo. Kung sino ang tinitibok ng puso mo. Pero bakit kailangan mo pang magpaligaw sa tatlo? Pinapaasa mo sila, bubwit."
That...hits me. I didn't know. I'm not making isip naman that bagay. And now ko lang na-realized what I've done. I'm just overwheled na there are lot of boys that making ligaw to me. But, is it bad na ba?
"Masamang magpa-asa, Fancy. Kung wala ka namang nararamdaman sa isang tao, diretsahin mo nalang siya. Wag mo ng hayaang mag-effort sila gayong sa huli, alam mo sa sarili mong hindi mo rin sila matatanggap."
Yumi is right. Yes. But.. "It's their gusto naman eh. And they know naman that they are madami na nanliligaw saken."
"Oo nga. Pero hindi nila alam na may laman na ang puso mo. Na sa kanilang apat, you're so much inlove with Blake."
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I'm being masama na ba? "Pero Yumi, I didn't know naman kung mahal na din talaga ako ni Blakey. I'm not sure If he's really making ligaw to me. Kaya.."
"Kaya hinahayaan mo na may reserba ka? Na kapag wala si Blake, meron namang Lyndon, Kit at Sydd? Mali yun fancy. I'm here telling all of this because I'm worried about you. I'm here as your Ate."
"Yumi.."
"Ayokong isipin na iba na masama kang babae. Kapag kase nalaman ng iba 'yan, na kesyo nagpapaligaw ka kahit may isa ka naman na talagang minamahal, masasabihan ka pang malandi. At ayokong mangyari yun. You're like a little sister to me. It's better kung sabihan mo sila na itigil na nila ang ginagawa nilang panliligaw dahil may iba kang mahal."
She's right naman eh. But thinking of..
Si Kit, he's not my type nga. He's mas matanda kase.
Si Lyndon, kahit na he's mas matanda to me, he can still make me kilig.
Si Sydd, I'm so inis sa kanya but I'm na-attached na din sa kanya. And I'm comfortable with him even before.
Then si Blakey, he's nag-iba na. He's paiba-iba, now he's okay naman then later on, he's being masungit again and cold. But he's still the guy I'm inlove with.
What to do? "How can I make sabi to them na ayoko nila akong ligawan?" I asked her.
"As simple as saying thank you. Thank them for their efforts but you're sad to say na ayaw mong umasa pa sila dahil may iba ka ng mahal."
"I don't know if kaya ko." I'm a little devil but sometimes, I'm nagiging afraid din.
"You can do it bubwit. Gusto mo bang makarating pa sa Kuya mo na nagpapaligaw ka kahit wala naman na silang pag-asa? Worst, mga kaibigan pa ng Kuya mo."
Lyndon and Kit have no pag-asa naman talaga to me eh. I'm happy lang talaga with their company. Like a brother, like that. But not as a lover. I know age doent matter pero I can love them. I can't bigay them what they gusto.
"Cheer-up bubwit. Sinabihan lang kita about this kasi napansin ko na. Ayoko lang na maging masama ka sa tingin ng ibang tao. Okay?"
I'm tumango. I'm thankful I have Ate like her. She's really magaling sa advice.
"Wife!"
"Tinatawag na ako ng Kuya mo. Psh. Yang Kuya mo, saglit lang ako mawala sa paningin niya, akala mo mawawala nakong tuluyan."
I'm natawa naman. My brother is really a possessive husband to Yumi. But they are perfect with each other. I want a relationship na katulad ng kanila.
Yumi is tumayo na and make labas na after waving her goodbye to me. I'm naiwan dito sa kwarto ko. I'm napaisip sa sinabi ni Yumi.
What should I do? I don't want them na masaktan but I need to tell them the totoo. They don't have pag-asa talaga eh. Because Blake--he's really the one here in my puso. He's solo lang talaga.
I have to tell them isa isa that...I have someone I love na.
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My puso is beating so bilis na. I'm here at SWU and you know. Blake and I have usapan that we'll not attend the class. In short, cutting kami. And I have no idea if anong pag-uusapan namin.
Kahapon, he's so sungit pa naman. He's masama tumingin pa. If before, I'm kinikilig? Now hindi. I'm really kinakabahan.
I texted Blake na that I'll wait him here sa quadrangle. I'm nakaupo lang sa isa sa bench here.
"Jewel."
Dug, dug..
I'm dahan dahan na napatunghay and there I saw Blake. He's so serious.
"Blake.."
"Let's go." He said then he's nauna ng maglakad.
He didn't make hintay lang ako. He's nagmamadali pa so I follow him hanggang parking. Bakit dito kami pumunta?
"Get in."
O_O
There's his kotse pala. And, why?
"I said, get in. Jewel."
O___O
His voice is authorative. He's serious talaga today so I make sakay na sa kotse niya. Blake's started the car engine.
I'm lalong kinabahan. Why Blake is acting like this? And saan ba kami mag-uusap? Is it so important that we can't talk about it sa school?
There are lots of question running through my mind and I'm so natatakot magtanong kay Blake. Baka magsungit eh.
"Jewel."
"Ah, Blake? W-why?" I'm nauutal pa. Kind'a ERRR!
"We're going to my secret place."
O______O
O to the M to the G! Secret place so it means no one knows about it? And we are pupunta don? Only the two of us?
O____O
We are gagawa na ba agad ng baby? OMYSHAKESHAKEFRIES! I'm not handa pa! But If he's going to pilit me, I'm papayag naman.
WAAA! So ERRR! What's happening to me? My ugats are nagwawala na! I'm kinikilig na kinakabahan.
Secret place..
He will make me dala don! So I'm lucky? Right?
Maya-maya ay nag-stop na din ang car. We're here sa parang out of the city? Like a probinsya but it's not.
Saan kaya 'to? I'm shunga naman! It's a secret place nga pala so it's really secret even the address, 'no?
"Baba."
O_O
He's ma-awtoridad talaga today. And I'm napapasunod naman agad.
He's nauna ng maglakad papasok sa..mapupunong lugar? It's really maganda here. The puno, the flowers, the grass, so wonderful.
We make tahak the daan and after ilang minutes were nakarating sa isang bahay? It's not really bahay but it's like a rest house. May mini gate pa nga eh.
My paa is masakit na tuloy kahit naka-flat-shoes lang ako.
O___O
Blake opened the gate and make hawak my kamay. We're holding hands habang papasok sa loob nung house.
"Bahay mo?" I asked hanggang makarating kami here sa main door.
"My secret place. And yes, its mine. Resthouse. Ako lang ang nakakaalam ng lugar na'to. Ikaw palang ang nakakapunta dito bukod saken."
Oh. So it means, I'm so special?
We're pumasok sa loob. It's so cute. All black. Kumpleto naman ang things. It's like a condo unit sa loob eh. Fully furnished. Ang galing naman. He have secret place na no one knows.
"Sit." Utos niya. He's dumiretso sa mini kitchen. It's kita naman here sa living room.
I'm naupo sa black couch saka nilibot ang tingin sa paligid. It's like bago. Malinis and mabango. Amoy Blakey. Hihi!
"Every weekend, pag free ako, dito ako tumatambay. Doing all my projects, my sentiments, kapag gusto kong mapag-isa." Sabi ni Blake while putting coke in can sa center table and cupcake.
"This is not alam ng family mo?"
"No. Hindi nila alam 'to. That's why I called it my secret place. When my Lolo died, he gave me a bank account na hindi alam ng parents ko. Pamana daw niya saken. Ayaw nyang malaman ng parents ko kase gusto niya may mapaglagyan yung pera. And there. Naisipan kong magpagawa nito last year lang."
Wow. I'm amazed naman to Blake. "Eh, why did you drag me here if it's secret?" I asked.
"Because you're my soon to be wife."
O______O
"...so I'm giving you the rights to go here whenever you want. I'll give you spare keys."
O_____O
"B-Blake..I can't intindi, wait.." I'm really naguguluhan. My heart is dumadagundong na after he said the word, wife. It's so nakakakilig talaga eh. "What do you mean ba?" I make him tanong.
"I want you to own me. I'm yours Jewel. And I want you to be mine. Sa tagalog, gusto na kitang i-tanan, Jewel."
O. H. M. Y. G. O. D
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A/N : OMG talaga. Haha. Hashtag #CLDSecretPlace