"John, please, listen to me." I said softly.
"You're a monster (Y/N). And I kill things like you. Did you really think you could lie to me indefinitely?" He asked as he aimed the gun at me.
"John... I never wanted to lie to you.... please I love you." I said through tears.
"Lier.... you have been using me from the start... I won't let you use me anymore." He said as he cocked the gun.
"Then pull the gun damn it! If nothing we had was real then shoot me! Right here right now!" I yelled angrily.
He kept his eyes on me and I felt tears stream down my face.
"I love you, John Winchester.... I really do, and if you have to kill me... then do it... but know that I never faked loving you... Hell I didn't even know you where a hunter until I moved in with you." I said softly.
"You're trying to get into my mind." He said as he put his finger on the trigger.
"No..... I'm making sure you know that before you pull that trigger.... that I love you.... I love you, I love Dean.... and I love Sam... and I would die before I hurt one of you." I said as I walked towards him.
"Stop walking now!" He ordered.
"No, because of you are going to shoot me I want to make sure you hit my heart." I said as I stopped at the barrel of the gun.
His eyes met mine and I searched them for any sign of the man I loved.
"Damn you." He whispered.
He put the gun down and before I could say anything he pulled me against him and kissed me deeply. I let out a sigh as I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer.
"Why can't I hate you?" He asked against my lips.
"Because we are both monsters... and monsters end up loving each other." I whispered as I pulled him into another kiss.