After some time, Niall drifted off to sleep. He had tried to see more of her room, but it was dark and the curtains over her windows were so thick that they hardly let any light in, so he ended up just sleeping. It wasn't until a kick on the side of his thigh awoke him later that night. His eyes shot open and his head snapped to the side to find that Ocean was clearly having a nightmare.
Her mouth was slightly parted and shaking breaths were inhaled into her mouth, as her eyelids were fluttering even though they were shut and her legs were kicking the covers away.
"Ocean!" Niall whispered as his hands fell on her shoulders and began to shake her slightly. Immidiately she awoke and gasped as she looked around her abruptly with the webs of her nightmare still clouding her mind. Once her eyes landed on Niall, reality kicked in and she scrunched her nose up in confusion as she automatically brought the covers up to her neck in reflex.
"Niall?" She said bewildered to find him in her bed, her startled eyes remained fixed on him as she added, "What the fuck are you doing here?!"
"Uh..." Niall rubbed the back of his neck as he began to think about how the situation might look. She clearly had no recollection of the earlier events. "You asked me to stay..."
Ocean's lips formed a small 'o' as her eyes blinked several times in attempt to remember if that was in fact true. After a minute or so, she settled on believing him as she fell back on the mattress and stared up at the ceiling, her mind lost in thought about the torments of her dream.
Niall figured she may be thinking about that, and decided to ask her what it had been about.
"I-" She mumbled in response as a hesitating sigh left her rosy lips, and her eyes fell on Niall debating whether or not if to actually tell him. Niall noticed a small bead of sweat running down the side of her forehead, and that her eyes were wide in recollection. The ocean of blue of her orbs were taking his breath away, and the way her chest heaved up and down, still exhausted by the hauntings, caused the Irish man difficulty in keeping his eyes on her face.
"You can tell me, Ocean. I won't judge ya." He said once he saw the colour of her eyes change. It always fascinated him how each time he looked at her, he would see them differently. The moisture on her face and how awake her feautres looked, made the blueness catch a slight bit of grey as a flame of uncertainty shadowed over her eyes.
"I don't want to talk about it," She mumbled sadly as her eyes hung onto his for a moment, before chosing to divert them and turn her face away.
However, Niall's hand extended out in reflex, his body already working on trying not to make her slip away, as his fingers curled around her chin and turned her face towards his again.
"Okay." He agreed with her words. He knew it may be none of his buisness, and he respected her privacy, "Ya don't 'ave to tell me, if you don't wan' to. But, I want you to know that ya can." His words were firm, as his eyes held a grip over hers in attempt to emphasise his words. "I'll always be 'ere to listen to ya, no matter the topic or the time. You can count on me, yeah?"
A tear snaked down Ocean's reddened cheek, as she heard his words, and settled just on the top of his thumb.
"Don't cry, Ocean." His tone was begging as his fingers tightened around her chin to try and reassure her of it. "---You'll be a sucker if ya do." He joked half-heartedly but then added, "Ya shouldn't waste your tears on 'im, especially when he's fuckin' sleepin' with another! Yeah, I was there when ya asked 'im who the girl was, so don't look at me like that. Ya don't deserve him, Ocean; he's such a dick. Ya deserve so much bet'er."
A small laugh spilled from Ocean's lips as her gaze on Niall soothed and her eyes were kindly hovering over his features. His words had struck a chord and had warmed her heart slightly, and Niall was returning the gesture by offering her a warm smile which made his eyes twinkle in the dim light.
"I can't," She choked as her eyes suddenly watered with the thought of being cared about. She knew his words rang true, and yet Ocean was still stubborn enough to accept them.
It broke Niall's heart to see her be in love with a complete arse and be in so much agony about it at the same time. He knew he shouldn't care as he kept telling himself he didn't like the girl, yet Niall still had an aching pain growing in his chest from seeing her be in love with that someone.
"I can't take him off my mind," She mumbled, turning her back on him.
Niall’s jaw tensed involuntarily as he stared at her.
"He's makin' ya fall apart," He whispered harshly. He couldn't believe how angry he was getting to see her so dependant on Jasper. He had made her sad and caused her to lose her way, and he hated him for it. "But ya know I'll be 'ere for you."
The words were forced, as his frustration was beginning to make him mad. She was lost; lost in this darkness that made her life bitter and which she refused to even leave; however, Niall wanted to help her through that dark. He wanted to see her smile again.
"Don't say that," Ocean's voice snapped Niall back from his reverie as she turned to look at him. She saw how his eyes were losing themselves in hers and she quickly shook her head trying not to get lost in his as well. "You don't know a thing about me, Niall. You really don't want to be with a person like me; trust me."
Her back was turned to him again, as she added nothing else.
Niall watched her place her head on her pillow and bring her knees to her chest as she buried her face in the covers. Watching her be so vulnerable made a rush of emotions swell inside him as he wanted to bring her against his chest and tell her that she shouldn't feel this way, that there was a way out.
Thinking about it, made his feelings overpower his senses and decided on showing her just how much she was beginning to mean to him. He gently pushed her hair to the side, away from her neck, and leaned forward to place his warm lips on the spot just below her earlobe.
His kiss ran a shudder down Ocean's spine, but it was not rejected. The girl with slivery-blue hair tilted her head to the side, granting Niall more access, which he willingly took advantage of as he began sucking on her smooth and freckled skin.
His hands reached under her body and pulled her towards him, just as a small stiffled groan escaped Niall's lips as he felt her press against him. That's when he noticed just how small her frame was, that it fit perfectly against his. They were both spooned into one another, and his strong arms were firmly wrapped around her waist as his head snuggled into the crook her neck, and his lips never parting her skin.
He became her shield, her barrier of protection.
The moment was heated, and Niall was finding it more and more hard to restrain himself from wanting to truly feel her.
There were times when Niall woke up with the thought of her still laced in his avid mind. The glimpses of her almost-naked body have tormented Niall at night, they have caused him to fantasise about it wherever he went. The way her kiss intoxicated him, and the way she wrapped her lips around that cherished roll of tobacco -making him wish he was the cigarette-, have driven him almost insane. He craved her and wanted her so badly, that his control was slowly slipping away.
The popstar could feel his groin straining against his already-tight trousers, and as much as he tried to control it, he knew he couldn't anymore. He knew Ocean felt his eraction, as she pressed her back against him and made Niall completely lose control. His hand reached down to the hem of her top and pulled it up as his palm began rubbing her stomach.
A blissful moan escaped from Ocean's rosy lips, just as Niall's hand was torturingly making his way down to her abdomen. The heavenly sensation was running through her entire body, as she began to rub her bottom against Niall's trousers.
Niall's lips disconnected from her neck to travel to her mouth, as his hand slipped inside her pyjama bottoms. A moan escaped him, as he could feel her wanting him through the soft material of her knickers.
"Fuck, Ocean." He breathed as she moaned inside his mouth, and arched her pelvis against his palm eagerly wanting him.
However, images of her tears and her nightmare sprung to his mind in that moment and he pulled back momentarily.
"Honest to God, ya're drivin' me crazy woman. I swear to ya, I won't be able to stop." His words tickled her skin as a small giggle escaped from Ocean's plump lips. "Please tell me ya wan' me. Tell me it'll be me, ya'll be thinkin' about."
"I want you." Ocean muttered clumsily as her hand covered over his larger one, and made him squeeze her just as she let out another moan.
"Look at me," Niall begged as he twisted her, his body now hovering over hers. One hand was still inside her pyjama bottoms, while the other was tilting her flushed face up towards him. "Look at me, and tell me ya wan' me."
But, Ocean blinked.
It was like reality suddenly crashed down on her and she realised just what she was doing, and who she was with. A gulp ran down her throat as her eyes lost some of the lustful flame they were carrying, before diverting them away from him.
That's when Niall cursed. He removed his hand from her trousers and ran it over his hair in frustration as he understood her unspoken response. Another curse left his lips as he turned away from her and buried his head in his palm before emitting a long sigh from his lips.
"Don't fuckin' use me, Ocean. Don't use me." He fired as he got up from her bed and quickly put on his shoes before leaving her bedroom without another word.
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A/N: Dum dum dum. Sorry for updating this quite late, but I was super duper busy these days, that I didn't have time to post this chapter.
The link is just the lyrics video of Through the Dark, because I'm sure you guys spotted the references thrown in this chapter. If you didn't then shame on you. Haha.
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