-Calum's POV-
I was already crying hysterically by the sight of Hope's blood dripping from Alex' claws. I could see her eyes roll back and I knew that I'd lose her in a few seconds. So I gathered all my energy, all my strength together, because this moment could change my whole life. It was so hard, but I didn't give up.
All the horrible thoughts gave me a little boost to resist Alex' powers. And suddenly, my muscles came back, I could feel again as I jumped up with a loud growl. I didn't waste any second to run to Alex and pin him against the ground. "No! That's impossible!" He screamed, before I took his head between my hands, ripping it off. The moment his skin was torn appart, I heard a silent gasp.
"Hope!" I cried, running towards her. She has flied across the room, her cheek was covered with blood and her white shirt has changed into a red one. "It's okay, I'm here" I mumbled, holding her fragile body tight against mine. "I... I'm sorry" Her soft voice whispered in my neck. "No, don't be... We'll... We'll get through this, together" I stuttered, while I was trying to communicate by mind with Luke, who could heal her.
Some seconds, which seemed like years later, Luke stumbled in the room, kneeling down next to me. Also his face and arms were bruised. "Please, heal her" I cried, showing him all the cuts that Alex has caused, whose head was laying appart from his body. Hope was strong, she tried to keep her eyes open, tears were rolling as her hand was envelopped in mine.
Without letting her go, Luke concentrated on her, to heal all the wounds. His eyes were pierced shut, wrinkles began to appear above his eyebrows and his teeth were clenched on each other. All of a sudden, I felt Hope's grip on me loosen up. "No... No, Hope, don't give up" I panicked, holding her closer to me. "I'm so sorry" Those were the last words that fell from her lips, before her eyes rolled back and her eyelids covered them.
"No" I mumbled. 'She's still alive. She's just having a black out. I didn't lose her, she's still here' I told myself, even though I knew they were big lies. I just didn't want to be in this reality, I wanted to be in that bubble again, with only her accompanying me, disconnected from the world. "No" I repeated, hugging the lifeless body tightly. "I'm so sorry, mate" Luke whispered, laying his hand on my shoulder.
My heart has survived a lot of pains, it has been ripped out often and every time it could recover. But all those bad memories have still left a mark in my chest. Every time something bad happened, my heart got a little weaker, but that wasn't comparable to what I felt when I saw Hope, dying in my own arms. I'll never be able to cure from this. The very last pieces of my heart that were still okay, untouched, are broken now.
'Now Alex has what he wanted. I'm broken and nobody will ever be able to fix me. He finally got what he's dreamed of for five years, but now he's dead'' "I love you" I mumbled, kissing her bloody cheek one last time, before I stood up. "Where are you going?" Luke chased me as I stormed out of this crappy chalet, into the woods.
"Calum!" I saw the others running up to me, also covered with several blood stains. The members of Alex' pack laid on the ground, all unconcious, but still alive, I could hear their heartbeat. "Are you alright? Where's Hope?" Jesse panicked, throwing her arms around me. "She's gone" The moment that sentence fell from my lips, my heart got ripped out once more, but I didn't show any emotion as I pushed her away from me.
A deadly silence domineered the moment, I didn't stop in my tracks as I made my way home and fortunately, I could hear they weren't chasing me. 'I knew this day was coming and I knew it was too perfect to be real. I should've been carefuller and more protective. I've never wished so bad to turn back the time, so I could prevent that fight. She would've still been here if I wasn't so stubborn. I am a fuck up'
My heart was pounding out of my chest and my shirt was soaked from the tears by the time I arrived at our special place "Fuck it!" I screamed on the top of my lungs, plopping down on the chopped off tree trunk. "Fuck it!" I repeated even louder. I wanted to rip all my hair out of my head, because that physical pain wouldn't be as bad as this mental torture I'm stuck in.
'And how am I supposed to explain this to Hope's mother? She lost her only daughter, the only person that connected her with her long gone husband, her only left family member is gone. And that's all my fault. I am such a fuck up!' The longer I thought, the more I began hating myself, tears were still streaming down my face like a waterfall.
-Ashton's POV-
One month has passed, but not one single day has ended without sorrow. Calum's a mental and physical wreck, he's paler and skinnier than ever, his eyes are black and dead, with dark bags showing beneath them. We all are suffering from the loss, but Calum's the worst. He can't sleep because of his nightmares, he doesn't eat and he hasn't smiled once since that day.
"No!" My eyes shot open by the loud screams that came from Calum's room. "No! Stay!" His voice rang through the whole house, waking us all. Jesse gave me a look as she faced me, her hair was spread all over her pillow and I gave her a single nod in return. I let out a long, deep sigh before I crawled out of the warm bed, ready to comfort my crashing friend.
"Hey, mate!" I busted into his room. Every single night, he breaks something, this time, Calum sat in the middle of the floor, shatters of his lamp were spread all over the ground, surrounding him. His knuckles were dark red, blood dripping down and his shirt was soaked with tears and sweat.
"Go away!" He yelled, his hand reaching for a shatter of glass, but I ran over to him and stopped his hand before anyone could get wounded. "No. Calm down" I whispered, demanding him to drop the sharp pointed piece of glass. "She's gone" This became pretty much our routine. Calum gets furious, mostly at himself and next he breaks into tears, begging god to turn back time.
"No she isn't. She's right there" I pointed at his chest, helping him to stand up. It was difficult to get out of the circle of glass without getting cut, but fortunately nobody got hurt. "Now you should get some sleep" I mumbled, not knowing what else to say, because I'm so damn bad at comforting people.
"I can't" He simply answered, his head hung down as he plopped down on his bed, while I started to clean the mess of the broken lamp. "Try at least, you need it" I sighed, picking up the trash. "Do it for us" I mumbled, but I didn't get any reaction. "Do it for Hope" It was even difficult for me to mention her and the moment Calum heard her name, his head snapped up, his black eyes staring at me and eventually, he gave in.
After we talked for a bit, it was difficult for Calum to keep his eyes open and finally he fell asleep. "He's sleeping" I whispered to Jesse, crawling under the blankets, next to her. "Good. He needed it" She answered simply, kissing my temple before burying her face in my chest, like she always does.
By the sound of her steady breathing pace, I knew she was sleeping, but I couldn't. I kept thinking about Calum and Hope. They were a perfect couple, everything in their life went smoothly, they were head over heels in love. But of course it couldn't keep going that perfect, because in a few minutes Alex ruined everything. He ruined my best friend's life.
We were all suffering, it was a huge impact on our lives. Hope Mitchell was known as nice girl, sassy when needed, but she had a huge heart. She has sacrificed herself, to protect those who were loved by her. She was too good for this world, and god knows it, that's why he has decided to send her to heaven, even though we're breaking because of it, especially Calum. I bet if Hope could see him now she'd want to turn back time to stay alive, for him.
-Calum's POV-
I woke up in a deadly silence and in a cold, empty bed, no Hope laying next to me. The birds that used to wake me up like in a fairytale have disappeared and have replaced by black crows that keep reminding me of the death. It feels like every time they sing, I hear a muffled voice that screams my name, and that voice belongs to Hope.
Since the day I lost her, I turned in an Alpha, for two reasons, I've killed an Alpha myself, namely Alex and I also could resist his powers. And to be honest, I hate it to be an Alpha, because I have to thank it to Hope's death, a memory that breaks my heart every time I think about it. And the worst is that I can't think of anything else but that.
We've told nobody, not even her mother about the reason Hope died, because of course, we can't tell them about werewolves. It's still an unsolved mystery.
"I've made you some pancakes" Jesse whispered, leading me to the kitchen. "Not hungry" I protested, stumbling along with her. "Come on, if you don't eat, you'll die" She tightened her grip on my arm. 'I want to die' "I'm not hungry" I repeated, but I went to the kitchen anyway.
"I'm going outside for a moment" I mumbled, snatching my arm out of her grip and before she could even protest, I was already at the door. Sometimes I just have to go to our place, for some rest, to talk to Hope.
I am so fucking mad at myself for letting her go that day. I want to punch myself until I stop breathing, to be with her. I could just cry a whole ocean by thinking of it. All those emotions are exploding inside of me, they're driving me insane, meanwhile I feel empty and lifeless all the time. Those two kinds of feelings are just the opposite of each other, which makes everything so fucking difficult. And that's why I come to Hope, to talk to her, let all my feelings free, to beg her to come back. It's so relieving to go there and when I come back, I start over again. That's the problem, I start from the bottom, but I never get up.
Without stopping, I ran to our place, where the chopped off tree is surrounded by flowers. "I'm back" I panted, plopping down on the tree trunk. This is the only place that connects us and that connection is a strong wire between us, one that isn't able to break. "I miss you" I mumbled.