LIVE (Depressed Taehyung X R...

By dat_agustd_tho

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"hey y/n.." he said still not looking at me. I turned my face up to him for him to say "you told me 'let go... More

EXPLANATION AND INFO
PROLOGUE
CHAPTER 1: WASTE OF SPACE
CHAPTER 2: SINGING
CHAPTER 3: GUARDIAN
CHAPTER 4: HATE ME
CHAPTER 5: REAL SMILE
CHAPTER 6: I EVEN ENVY YOU
CHAPTER 7: I SAVED THIS IDIOT
CHAPTER 8 PT1: AFFECT ME
CHAPTER 9: NARCOLEPSY
IMPORTANT!!!!
CHAPTER 10: I LOVED HER
CHAPTER 11: SWEET YET FAKE WORDS
CHAPTER 12: MY HOUSE
CHAPTER 13: MESSED UP
CHAPTER 14: TALK
CHAPTER 15: DECEMBER 29TH
CHAPTER 16: I DON'T HATE YOU
CHAPTER 17: BIRTHDAY PARTY PLAN
CHAPTER 18: I'M DYING
CHAPTER 19: I'M SORRY
CHAPTER 20: ALIVE
CHAPTER 21: FINALLY SAVED
NOT AN UPDATE!!
CHAPTER 22: I ADORE HIM
CHAPTER 23: WEAKLING
CHAPTER 24: SANITY
CHAPTER 25: HAPPIEST PERSON ALIVE
NOT AN UPDATE PT.2!!!
CHAPTER 26: YOU DID WHAT??!
CHAPTER 27: GRACE
CHAPTER 28: THE SHOW
CHAPTER 29: MOTHER MATERIAL
NOT AN UPDATE PT. IDONTEVENREMEMBER
CHAPTER 30: MOST BEAUTIFUL MOMENT IN LIFE
AN ANNOUNCEMENT!!
IMPORTANT PT.2
IMPORTANT PT 3
IMPORTANT PT. asdkasdkjkasdk
time to promote myself bish
new book??

CHAPTER 8 PT2: HAPPY

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Y/N P.O.V

Finally!! It's Friday! I can't wait for the weekend to be honest. It's been a long week without yoongi and I hanging out. I also would love to invite taehyung as well but he told me that his mother would kill him if I did, what a bummer..
The outfit for today is a mustard-yellow long sleeve crop top along with tight dark jeans and a pair of white Jordans.

We are now walking to school silently.
Ahh..Did you know that walking to school with yoongi is the second most boring thing ever after school? He's usually grumpy and the silent type when it comes to waking up early, but it's okay, he returns back to his savage self after awhile.

"Yoongi.." I spoke. "Can we hangout this weekend? We haven't went out since like.. forever" I tried sounding like im pouting. "Can't do today, I'll be Staying at school late to finish my song" he simply answered. "Why school though?"
"For Internet connection. And I'm not gonna be wasting my precious cellular data on a song" he explained making me whine even more.

Ahhh...I really wanted a good weekend.

~~~~~

Ahh... The rooftop, my now favourite place ever.

"Soo.. yoongi, why did you bring your laptop again?" Taehyung asked pointing at it. Yoongi explained the song thing to taehyung . Taehyung seemed like he didn't understand shit but just nodded anyway.
wait. NATURE CALLS. "guys, I'm going to the bathroom" I said before storming off.

TAEHYUNG P.O.V

*Sigh* y/n is not here.... Yoongi is focused on the laptop... I'm so bored!! "Taehyung.." yoongi finally spoke "do you mind if I start rapping?" Hmm... Wait, does he rap?
"Sure.. I don't mind" I just kept questions to myself for now. "Okay then.. first mixtape: THE LAST" wow.. ironic. He placed on a headset and the beat started, he then took a deep breath before....

"Behind every idol rapper who succeds
There's a weak self standing, it's a little dangerous
I fall sometimes again into depression and compulsion
hell no, anyway I dont even know if that's te real me

damn huh reality's separation
The conflict I've mentioned, it hurts your head
It was around 18 when my social phobia began
Yeah, that's right around that time my mental state became polluted

Sometimes I'm afraid of myself, thanks to my self-hatred
And the depression that came to play again
Min Yoongi is already dead (I killed him)
It's been a long time since my everyday life became killing my passions and comparing myself with others

My parents came up the first time I went to the psychiatrist
They got counseling with me, they said they hardly knew me
I don't even know my own self, so who can know me?
Friends? no,you? whoever it is, they don't know me

The doctor asked me
I said unhesitatingly that I'd been like that before

A world said like habit, oh, I don't give a shit, i don't give a fuq
Those words are all words I use to hide my weak self
That time I want to erase, that's right, the memories i want to erase of that day I had that concert
I was afraid pf people, so I hid in the bathroom and stared at myself

At that time I , at that time I
I thought I could compensate for success
But here's the thing, but here's the thing
As time passes by, it feels like I'm becoming a monster

My monster named success that I traded my youth for, he wants a bigger wealth
The greed that was my weapon, it devours me and sometimes it collars me
These things turn on my mouth, if I block it, he tells me to eat from the tree of knowledge
I don't want it , they want me to leave this hill

shit shit, I get it, please stop
The cause of all these issues is me, I'll quit in return
If my misfortune is your happiness than I'll be unhappy
If the target of your loathing is me then I'll go up on the guillotine

The things I only imagined are becoming reality, my childhood dream is in front of my eyes
The taste of performing in front of only two people, now Tokyo Dome is in front of my nose

Living this one time life more brightly than anyone, try saying I'm living roughly

My fan my hommie my fam, don't worry, I'm really okay now, damn

The things that corrupted my essence are numerous
My address is idol, I won't be corrupted
The agony that dug at my mental state
It's the end of wandering, there was no right answer

My self-esteem that said I'd betrayed myself is now my own pride
My fans honorably bow their heads, someone try as much as me, uh

From Seiko to Rolex, from AX Hall to the Gymnastics Stadium
The heads of many people that nod just at the movement of my hand
It's not that I couldn't do Show Me the Money, it's that I said I wouldn't, shit

It's not that you guys who betrayed us didn't do it, it's that you couldn't, shit
This world sprinkled with my creations, I've tasted sweetness and bitterness and even shit
From that time when I tried to sleep on the floor of a bathroom, now it's a memory to me, it's become a memory

The shoulder that was crushed because of an accident during my delivery job
The debut that I clutched onto, you guys just pretend like you've suffered

From Seiko to Rolex, from AX Hall to the Gymnastics Stadium
The heads of many people that nod just at the movement of my hand
It's not that I couldn't do Show Me the Money, it's that I said I wouldn't, shit

It's not that you guys who betrayed us didn't do it, it's that you couldn't, shit"

"That. Was. So. Cool. Yet. Hella. Depressing." I said shocked as hell. "Uhh.. thanks?" He awkwardly replied. "Are you planning on being an idol in the future?" Sorry but Curiosity killed me. "I dunno.. I mean, I like rapping and composing music.. so, maybe". "I think you totally should be.. I mean, you rapping skills are on point. You're good looking. What else would you need?" I blurted out without thinking. The reaction he gave me was unexpected. He just chuckled "you're just like how y/n described you" he commented making me embarrassed. "How did she describe me?" Yep, curiosity sure kills me. "Well, she did say you are shy at first when you trust people,you become yourself; a childish kid who is unique in his own way". "O-oh....did she?" My cheeks are burning! I can feel it. Shoot, yoongi noticed it. Damn, he smirked, this is not good. "You two are sooo in love~ " he teased. "Yah! Hajima! We aren't. you pabo!" I defended myself, Or at least I tried.

~~~~~

Y/N P.O.V

we're in class now and the teacher isn't here yet.  I just realized something, almost all the class are on their phones except for taehyung. He's just sitting there silently drawing, or.. at least trying to draw. "Wow taehyung, I'm impressed,you are definitely strong when it comes to not being on your phone. I mean, I can't live for a good 2 days without it" I said in envy. He just awkwardly laughed before saying "ahh.. it's not that I'm strong when it comes to it... But it's more like I never had one to be". I was now one with the 'are you fuqin' serious' face. "You've got to be kidding me. Why though?" I asked still in shock. "I-its just that.. I never really needed one. I mean, I'm not really a person who goes on social media alot or anything" I can see that 'im 100% lying about the reason' face in him. "Taehyung, truth please. It's obvious when you're lying" I said casually. "Alright fine, mother never let me have one" He confessed.

"Why?" I asked. "Well, she thinks that I would report her to the police or some shit if I had one".
"Well that's fuqed up" I commented. He sighed "I know y/n.. I know".

how about a gift for him. A phone is just perfect. I texted yoongi on the phone because it's a surprise.

Y/N IS A GENIUS
yooooooonnnnnngggggiiii
I need money

INFIRES YOONGI
why and how much?

Y/N IS A GENIUS
enough to buy a phone..

INFIRES YOONGI
you've got to be kidding me -_-'

Y/N IS A GENIUS
pleaaasse.. you know how sad it is? Taehyung doesn't have one ;(

INFIRES YOONGI
wow... That's actually pretty sad... I pity him

Y/N IS A GENIUS
Just give me da goddamn money!!!!

INFIRES YOONGI
alright I'll think about it..
How about we both get him one tommorow?

Y/N IS A GENIUS
you are a genius yoongi :)))

INFIRES YOONGI
great. Now change your username :)))

Y/N IS A GENIUS
NOT. GONNA. HAPPEN.

INFIRES YOONGI
Chiiilll girl, why the snap?

Y/N IS A GENIUS
Whatever, so tommorow you said?

INFIRES YOONGI
yes.

Y/N IS A GENIUS went offline
INFIRES YOONGI went offline


Oof I can't wait!... I want to see his reaction

Time skip to Saturday brought to you by panda Express (meme intended)

"Soo.. which one should we buy him?" I asked the bored yoongi. "I dunno, you want to give him the present, you decide" he said making me even more confused. "How about this one?" I asked pointing at the newly released iPhone. He shook his head knowing it's price can feed a living. Well, this is gonna take long..

After an hour, we ended up getting the new iPhone. I hardly convinced the guy. Actually, I don't think I did, I think he just got sick of my whining.but hey, I really needed the best of the best for my dear taehyung, He's just too precious and innocent. "Soo, now that you're free, let's hangout?" I asked for what felt like the tenth time "okay then, but no buying anything after that goddamn phone" I just chuckled at how grumpy he is and "okay" was all I said before we headed to have fun.

I did all because... I want taehyung to be happy.

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