I always knew you weren't perfect.
I like to call you perfect, and I know that no one is perfect, but you were to me.
Now I realize that I didn't know everything about you, and I may never.
I have been reminded that loving someone, is loving them even with their sins and flaws.
You just have to learn how.
I still love him, and I won't leave him because of these mistakes, because I could never go back to the way I was before him. I could never be the same as I was before, because after knowing him and loving him I know there's no going back.
It's just hard to face the reality, the person you looked up to the most, is human.
And humanity is a sinful species.
I can't judge him, and I don't.
I think I am just grieving over the image I had of him.
But the only way to love someone fully, is know them fully.
Even the darkest parts of them.
I just need to learn how.
Not how to still love him.
But how to accept and move forward to healing and truth.