Chaeyoung was tired again as she walked into the dorm. Today the trainer had been all about stretches. To say it was uncomfortable would be right. No matter how good her physique stretching wasn't her forte. Not to point out the fact that Mina was forever giving such tempting poses and looking enchanting as ever.
Somehow, during the entire session, Chaeyoung had found herself repeatedly looking at the girl without meaning to. So she had spent the day just staring at her or getting frustrated over her lack of flexibility.
Not a great combination.
With a bone tired sigh Chaeyoung looked at the clock in the living room and saw it was 11 already.
This time she had been the one held back because obviously the ballerina knew her stretches to the Z. She had stayed for an extra 2 hours and dear god the stretches had nearly made her muscles scream in pain. Walking to her room she went to take a much needed hot shower. She groaned at the slight ache in her joints and would have just tumbled to sleep if someone hadn't knocked on her door and peeked in.
"Tzuyu?" Chaeyoung called out a bit confused.
Tzuyu was wearing sweats and a tight fitting shirt which obviously meant she had been about to retire for the night. At Chaeyoung's confused frown she just gave her a small smile.
Being the same age the two of them had never felt the need to hold back from each other. They had felt at ease almost instantly, the result of being the youngest and probably sanest members from their group. Not to point out the fact that Tzuyu was in love with the one girl Chaeyoung had always considered something like a mother.
"Hey" she called back with a small smile.
Another weird thing about her that made her stand out even as a trainee was her reluctance to smile freely. She always hid that smile of hers and till now Chaeyoung remembered only a handful of times Tzuyu had smiled freely.
Chaeyoung smiled at her in return and did not ask her anything else. She just sat on the side of her bed rolling her aching shoulders. She didn't ask her any question knowing she would talk when she felt like it. Tzuyu after all never beat around the bush.
She heard her climb onto the bed after a while and move behind her. Then she felt soft hands massaging her shoulder.
After a strainful day such a treatment was of course heaven. So much that she almost moaned in pleasure.
"Shut up dude you might give the guys the wrong idea." Tzuyu reprimanded instantly with amusement in her tone.
So it wasn't almost.
Not really bothered by the slip up Chaeyoung just grumbled an incoherent reply and enjoyed the massage.
Tzuyu stayed silent for a while thinking about what Sana had told her.
"She is troubled." Sana muttered cuddling more into her.
Tzuyu hummed in response. She knew who Sana was talking about. She had been worried about the two 24/7 since the fight after all.
Holding tighter onto her Tzuyu just let her mumble her thoughts.
Sana let the warmth of the girl comfort her before continuing, "She has always been so strong about everything."
"But you still worry about her." Tzuyu muttered letting Sana pull her even closer. Sighing at the girl in her arms she tried to console, "Don't worry so much. I know you think that's impossible, I know that it is impossible for that matter but still try not to let the worry get to you."
Sana just mumbled something along the lines of "Will try." and then fell asleep soon after. But Tzuyu stayed awake lost in thought for a long while before she heard the front door close. Though her instinct was to let it be she looked at the girl in her arms and got up slowly. Ensuring she wouldn't wake up anytime soon she made her way to the door. With a hand on the knob though she turned to her bed, looking at the lovely sight infront of her for motivation, and muttered, "The things I do for you."
"What's on your mind?"
Tzuyu came out of her thoughts with a start to find Chaeyoung facing her with a raised brow. She had stopped massaging a while ago, too lost in thought to realize that Chaeyoung had moved from under her hands. Tzuyu shook her head to clear it off and met the curious eyes of her friend before asking, "You can't guess?"
Chaeyoung grinned at that and guessed, "Sana unnie?"
Tzuyu grinned in return and sighed. "That and something more."
Chaeyoung frowned in distaste before groaning, "Don't tell me its about me and Mina unnie."
"When are you going to be sure?" Tzuyu asked instead of answering.
Chaeyoung groaned in annoyance before tumbling onto her bed. "I don't know ok? It isn't easy damn it."
She felt a solid pat on her legs, probably an attempt at giving comfort, before Tzuyu suggested, "It's easy if you quit doubting your feelings."
Chaeyoung turned to face the ceiling then and muttered, "How can I not doubt it? I have never felt it before and I sure as hell know that it isn't something I can just make a half assed guess on."
Tzuyu just stayed silent letting her talk it out. That was one of the things her members always said they liked about her. She just let people figure it out by themselves by talking it out loud.
Chaeyoung continued still deep in thought, "She matters to me. A lot. And I know she is hurting because of my indecisiveness but I cant just rush this. I don't want to mistake this for something it isn't. I don't want to break her heart by later on realizing that I never felt that for her."
After a beat of silence Tzuyu couldn't help but point out, "It's been two years already. You have had enough time to figure it out."
Chaeyoung turned her gaze on the girl then and asked, "And when did I have the time? With the comebacks the practices and... "
Tzuyu nodded. They didn't talk about what had happened before. It was just one of those memories that they never wanted to relive again.
Chaeyoung looked up at the ceiling again then and muttered, "I have been pushing it to the back of my mind for so long now. I didn't try to really analyze it before, because I was happy with the way things were. It was so easy living the way it is instead of making decisions that might change everything." As she frowned over it she sat up and looked at Tzuyu's calm eyes and confessed, "I am scared of losing her. I am scared of losing what we have right now. And I am scared that I will let the fear decide things for me."
Tzuyu looked into her eyes and saw the confusion, frustration and fear running through them. And she could understand that fear. Had felt it herself. So she smiled in support and gave her friend's hand a comforting and supportive squeeze. "Then try right now. Things are more calmer now. So do your best to figure it out."
"I am trying." Chaeyoung grumbled before continuing, "Just answer me this one thing. How did you know you were in love with Sana unnie?"
Tzuyu smiled instantly then, thinking about the one girl who could make her eyes shine in happiness, and looked at Chaeyoung with humor in her eyes, "She just pestered me till I figured it out."
Chaeyoung giggled at that. It was the truth after all. Sana had actually pestered her till she had one day just shouted, "I do OK?"
Of course then Sana had refused to believe her which had resulted in Tzuyu trying to convince her. Talk about role reversal.
But that wasn't what Chaeyoung needed to hear, "She just pestered to get it out of you. I am sure you figured it out way before you said it."
Tzuyu sighed at that. "You guys just know me too well." Chaeyoung just gave her hand an impatient tug and Tzuyu continued, "I realized it when I tried to find a flaw in her, something that would make me not fall for her."
Chaeyoung looked at her confused.
So Tzuyu explained grudgingly, "I realized I was falling for her way before she did. I would just find myself staring at her and smiling, then wishing to be with her all the time. It came to a point where I just couldn't let her out of my sight." Remembering that feeling she shook her head ruefully, "I was scared shitless. She was a hurricane. She just wasn't something I had planned on. She just happened. And I couldn't deal with it. So I tried to think up things that I really find annoying about her. I tried to find flaws that would stop that horrible fall."
Chaeyoung looked at her feeling a bit of relieve that she wasn't the only one who got scared with this type of feelings.
Tzuyu sighed and met her eyes as she muttered, "But the weird thing was I couldn't find any. No matter how hard I thought about it I couldn't find a single thing wrong about her. I just realized then that I was in love with her."
Chaeyoung looked into her eyes then, confused, and muttered, "So it's love when you think that... "
"She is just perfect." Tzuyu finished for the girl. Smiling at the confused face she ruffled her hair before saying, "Sleep on it. You will think better with a rested brain."
Chaeyoung nodded with a tired sigh and just tried to follow her advice and sleep on it.
Tzuyu walked out of her room and into her own to join the girl sleeping in her bed. She put her arm on her slim waist and pulled her a little closer. Sana, in her sleepy state, turned to face her and hugged her, cuddling up to her before sleepily muttering, "Where were you?".
Tzuyu just pulled up the blanket and whispered, "No where love. Go to sleep again." Sana mumbled something before falling silent, something she usually did when too sleepy. Tzuyu smiled amused at her and then murmured softly, "I love you Sana."
And Sana smiled in her sleep before whispering back, "I love you too Tzuyu."
They slept the with their arms around each other and a smile on their faces.