Next Weekend
Ricky
I was on my way to take Kyle to get a haircut for tonight it felt good to be back home. Until this day people ask me what happened to Lemonade nightclub and if I'm really this criminal? Well, that wasn't for them to know and I was keeping it that way. Life has been amazing since we put Grant in the slammer every once in a while I feel bad about it but then again he was too much of a burden on the family. We had to do what was best for all of us and Grant wasn't getting the picture. Apparently, he's trying to send people out to get us and he has his own alliance in the pin, of course, he needs one. I'm sure by now he runs the yard and that's good for him. The only thing I beat myself up a lot about is taking Kyle's dad from him. Kyle doesn't know his mother and he'll never know Grant. It's not like Grant would've given a damn anyways or maybe he would've he spent all his life letting it be known that he didn't favor me what worried me was when Kyle gets older he is going to be curious. He's going to want answers outside of us and he'll probably be confused and somehow I feel like its going to be all my fault. He nodded his head to some Jay-z
"This your song huh? I looked at the mirror to see him mumbling words. He ignored me feeling the music I pulled up to the barbershop preparing myself for his tantrum. He hated to get cuts and cried every time and it was annoying but he's a little boy. I just hope he gets over the fear soon. "Come on lil man," I said helping him out the car. I held his hand as we crossed the street. We walked inside and he instantly turned towards me. "Wassup Ricky," my barber Nate said
"Wassup boyy" I went over to dap him up. There was a huge line it was never this crowded in here before that means they were making business. "I got you next," he said
"Noo" Kyle whined.
"Look boy your head is jacked up, be cool" I shook his head "I don't want to" he frowned. "You gotta face it lil man, you're a big boy now right? I asked. He shook his head and I laughed. I watched his client get up paying him. My barber looked over at me and I got up with Kyle walking over there.
"Hold up Nate, I been waiting for 45 minutes I was here before this nigga" he complained. I looked over at the guy he was heavyset kind of on the tall side. I looked him up and down placing Kyle on the chair
"Relax Darren, you're up next," he told him. I understood I jumped everyone's spot but I can't help I'm liked but since big guy is bitching I'll help. "You know its no problem he can go first," I said
"Yeah its no problem nigga, I was here first little nigga" he looked me up and down. I laughed he really didn't know me and if I was the same nigga I would've punched him just for looking at me the wrong way. "I don't know you nigga so let's keep it that way, I ain't no little nigga either" I looked him in his eyes
"Darren chill the fuck out"
"Do something then nigga" he yelled. I laughed ignoring him "Go ahead Nate," I told him. Darren turned around "That's what I thought pussy boy," he said
"These hands don't discriminate my nigga you better chill out before this be your last haircut pooh bear," I said sitting on the other side. "Or yours? He lifted up his shirt exposing a gun. Everyone started panicking I just sat back "Congratulations," I said. Deep down I was furious, I got a gun pulled out on me my whole life that didn't bother me but I wasn't trying to expose Kyle to any of that.
"Keep taking little nigga, hit the fucking gym," I said.
"Yo, Nate who your clients this shit is hilarious My G" I said. "I'm bout it' he said walking to the door. "Imma hold you to it baby boy" I said watching him leave. I couldn't be reckless how I used to be I had my little bro that looked up to me I had my own business that was doing numbers and I was finally happy I wasn't going to lose all of that over 5 seconds
"My bad Ricky these young niggas just tryna be down," he said
"How old is he 18? I laughed. Nate put the cape over Kyle and he began to cry. "Come on little man it won't be bad this time" Nate promised. Last time Kyle was moving terribly and nicked himself. "Stop all that crying, you wanna fresh cut like your big bro? I asked. He nodded his head wiping his eyes. If I didn't learn anything from Grant it was to face your fears or he would make me face them. And that's what I wanted to do with Kyle nothing out of the ordinary but I did want him to get used to this. "Calm down, he ain't gon kill you" I laughed. Kyle finally relaxed letting Nate cut his hair. My friend Shani is a celebrity hairdresser and she was convincing me to let her braid his hair.. but I don't like braids and nobody has time for all of that. He was finally finished "Aye you did good see it wasn't that bad," I said. Kyle nodded his head as I gave him a high five. I did feel bad for the people I cut. "Thanks, Nate, how many people you got in here? I said. "I got 4" he said. I took my wallet out giving him 110.
"Cover them," I said. "Ight, good looking out thanks man" he dapped me up. "No doubt, I'll see you in a few weeks," I said. "Okay man," I said. "Bye," Kyle said
"Bye Scottie" Nate waved. It amazed me that Kyle goes by two names. "I want chips," Kyle said. 'Aye you cant be demanded things all the time but you did well today so you can get some" I said
"Yayy" he skipped as we walked up to the liquor store. I saw a woman try to come out with her stroller. I opened the door for her. Kyle tried to help her push the stroller. "Stop that," I said. She laughed "Such a gentleman thankyou" she smiled. I nodded my head walking in with him. I saw the same big nigga with the attitude problem from earlier with a group of his familiar friends. He talked out the side of his mouth then they all looked at me. "Go find what you want," I told him. I walked over to them "Wassup Ricky' his friends said dapping me up. "Wassup," I said. Fat guy had the most confused look on his face "Ya'll know him? He asked him
"Yeah," they said. They run the block for Cortez. He was the only one still in the game so I knew them. I just didn't know this dumb nigga was with him. "Rigo come here" I told him. "Ricky I want these" Kyle grabbed 5 bags of chips. I pulled him to the side "wassup Ricky? He asked. I looked up at Darren and he quickly looked away. 'Wassup with that nigga over there? I asked. "Oh, Darren? He asked
"Yeah, he a little of the chain," I said. He sucked his teeth "My bad bro, he just be on some shit" he said. "Speaking from experience you don't need that kind around you" I said
"I hear you imma definitely check him about," he said. "It man, be safe out here," I said dapping him up. I walked off "Yo put some of them back greedy, just one" I told him. He laughed sticking it under his shirt. "Stop playing," I said. Kyle picked his favorite bag which was sour cream and onion chips. $1.50
"I wanna pay bro" he looked at me. I gave him 2 dollars and he happily handed it to the register.
Josie
I looked in the hotel mirror smoothing down my dress. "You like this? I asked Morgan while she was texting her little friend. She looked up "Not really," she said. "Why? I asked. "I think its cute" I tilted my head listening Cardi B x Money.
I was born to flex (Yes)
Diamonds on my neck
I like boardin' jets, I like mornin' sex (Woo!)
But nothing in this world that I like more than checks (Money)
All I really wanna see is the (Money)
I don't really need the D, I need the (Money)
All a bad bitch need is the (Money)
I got bands in the coupe (Coupe)
Bustin' out the roof
I got bands in the coupe (Coupe)
Touch me, I'll shoot (Bow)
Shake a little ass (Money)
You get a little bag and take it to the store (Store, money)
"It looks like a grandma dress, and that's not the look you want to go for," she said. I laughed Morgan was a trip. I take care of her as if she's my daughter but she's still my little sister and our relationship is something else. She's such a respectful shade queen.
"You don't know what look I'm going for?
"I don't know much but I know when women go out on dates and stuff they want their butt to show and it's not showing," she said. I laughed "What if I don't want it to show Morgan," I said
"Yes you do," she said. "I can't wait till I get curves and stuff," she said. "Morgan you're a little girl, it's not your time," I said. The girls at her school were my size and she's insecure that she's still small.
"The other outfit does look better" I laughed changing out of it.
"Please please please make sure she takes her medicine" I handed Imani her pill box. Imani nodded taking it "She takes this at night and then this set in the morning," I told her. "Josie pleaseee" Morgan begged. "Girl bye, learn how to take your medicine and we wouldn't have this problem," I said. Morgan has Ulcerative Colitis and effects her digestive tract. Making her fatigue all the time, bad stomach pains, and its the reason she's really thin. She's always sick and can't eat certain foods or they'll upset her stomach. She's on heavy medication and I think she may be moderately depressed from it all. It was a lot for a 10-year-old to be going through. We were still trying to find her the best treatment. I worried about her every day between her and my dad I was highly stressed. One minute my dad is sick then its Morgan. It's never really a break that's why I'm so hard on Morgan to stop playing around.
"Um, I'll text and call you to remind you. She may give you a hard time but just do it okay" I chuckled. "I got it, I'll make sure she takes it" Imani said. I looked around to see a few girls "Who else will be here? I asked. "My brother," she said. I looked at her funny since when did she have a brother then it clicked to me. "Junior right? I asked
"Yup, he went to get the pizza," she said. Rudy was 18 now and in college, so my anxiety went away. I know they would be safe. "And Maya and my dad will be back around midnight," she said
"Okay" I turned to Morgan holding her sleeping bag. "Can I go now? She asked
"Yes, gimme a hug," I said. She hugged me "I love you, and I can't help it sometimes," I said
"I know; I love you too," she said
"Stay away from the popcorn please," I said
"And don't act like you don't want to see Mr. Ricky tonight" She chuckled. My mouth dropped to the floor. Huh? Since she's going in the 7th grade and getting older she just thinks she knows everything. "Lies....Bye, smarty" I said watching her go in "Bye, text you" she said. "Bye Mani" I turned around walking to the car. "Bye Josie," she said closing the door. I was sad my little sister is growing up on me she basically told my ass to get a man and stop checking for her all the time. My heart couldn't take the sassiness. I got inside the rental car making my way to Ms. Monica's party. I finally arrived later on purpose I walked in the middle of Grant's speech. I waved at Maya and made my way to her table. She moved her bag letting me sit beside her. Dreux was on the other side with Dylan sleep on his lap. "Hey" I whispered. "Wassup Jo" he smiled looking down at her. She was just the cutest in her tutu. I remember when I used to dress Morgan like that kind of made me want to have a girl one day. Everyone began clapping I looked around at the scenery it was about 50 people not as big as I expected. "How was the trip? He asked
"Long but Morgan, Kamara, and Kiyan had to see each other" I laughed. "Oh yeah, I forgot about that. Poor Dylan wanted to come but she's not old enough" He said
"She's 3 right? I asked. "Mmhm," he answered. "How does it feel having a girl? I asked
"Like heaven," he said
"Aww I know she's spoiled," I said
"Of course I can't say no" he laughed. I enjoyed the music looking around. I watched the photographer take a few pictures. Dylan began to get up "No, go back to sleep," Dreux said looking down at her. "Hi, daddy," she said.
"Hi baby, you enjoy your nap? He asked her. She nodded her head "Can I have some ice kweem" she tilted her head to the side. "You didn't eat all of your food," he told her. Her mouth frowned "pwease I be good" she said. He laughed "That means you know what you doing little girl, later," he told her. "Aww look at you" I smiled.
"Oh Dylan say hi to Josie" Dreux said. She turned around looking at me. "Hi" she smiled. "Hi sweetie" I said. "Let me go say hi" I said getting up. I walked over tapping Ms. Monica on the shoulder as she was talking. She turned around surprised to see me. "Hey darling didn't think you were coming" she smiled hugging me. "Of course I was coming," I said. "Hello, young lady," Craig said. "Hey Mr. Craig," I smiled hugging him
"I was just asking about you, how's everything? He asked me. "Everything is amazing; I can't even explain it," I said holding on to my clutch. "So good to hear; there's still food help yourself," he said. "Okay I will," I said. I walked over to the food looking at the shrimp cocktail. I ate not too long ago so I just grabbed that and some punch. I sat back down catching up a little more with Kamaya. I was telling her about a promotional video I was working on for my brand and she just gave me the news that she was going to appear on America's Next Top model guest coach. "That's big Kamaya oh my god" I said. "I couldn't believe it and the fact that my agency has 5 stars now is just a blessing," she said
"Ha better tell these scam agencies to watch out," I said. Miguel - how many drinks came on which was a mood. I was on chill mode now. Surprisingly no one was sweating me today about Ricky and he wasn't even here. At least I didn't have to feel awkward this time.
"The girls have been so excited about this sleepover. I heard about Morgan" she frowned. "Is she okay? She asked.
"Mm she's off and on, it's a lifelong illness we just have to keep it under control. She's a little in denial right now, I just hope she gets more responsible" I said
"She's a kid Josie. She's not worried about taking medication that's longer than her name" she said. I chuckled a little "I know just even at the sleepover I get scared she'll have a flare up its like its nothing I can do. I hate that I can't help her when she's in pain even when she's in the hospital I physically can't help her. Its hard" I admitted
"Aww, I am definitely praying for you two. I wish you would've told me sooner. I wish we didn't fall out. I would've been there.. poor baby been through a lot but its going to get better. I promise" she said. Kamaya was different, very positive and super nurturing. I can tell she really took some time to work on herself and I loved her glow up. "Thank you girl" I sighed.
"But she'll be in my care. We're about to leave shortly I'll be back at the house to check on the old ladies" she laughed. The Dj was playing some good music. I watch them slow dance "Aye this my shit, Mia where you at? Dreux asked. "I'm right here," she said. "Come on dance with me," he said. She smiled getting up as they walked to the floor. He wrapped his hands around her waist. I looked at my phone seeing that it was 9:45. I was going to leave at 10:30 and catch up on some sleep. "You know where Ricky is? Maya asked Kasey. I continued to eat my salad while sending Morgan a text.
"You okay?
Morg: Yeah I'm having fun 😃
I placed my phone down trying not to be on it the whole night. I saw a little boy run to the dance floor. I turned around to see Ricky walking in. My heart dropped a little again.
Ricky
I walked in terribly late after I got Kyle's haircut. The both of us took a nap and slept for hours. I woke up and it was 8:30 pm. I ran right into my mom and Craig. "Hey momma" I smiled. "Hey baby, I missed you" she kissed my cheek as I hugged her. "You look gorgeous," I said
"Thank you, you looking sharp as usual," she said. "Hi, Moni" Kyle hugged her. "Hey sweetie" she picked him up. "Wassup pops" I dapped up Craig. I had so much respect for him he deserved the title. "Wassup son" he dapped me up. "Nothing much, sorry we got here late," I said
"You know I don't care about that, I'm just glad you're here," he said. "I gotta talk to you later," I said. "Okay, I'll be around," he said. I walked back over to Kyle "Alright Kyle stop cockblocking now" I said
"Ricky" my mother looked at me. I laughed "He doesn't know what it means," I said. "My baby wants me all to himself, leave us alone," she said. I began to walk to where my brother was "Oh, Ricky" my mom called me. I walked back over
"Yeah"
"Josie is here," she said. "For real? I asked turning around to see her at the table with Dreux and Maya. "I paid her a visit at her shop and got this beautiful dress anyways I asked her what happened between the two of you," she said. "And I think you two need to talk," she said. "No disrespect momma but why are you so pushy? I asked. I get it! Josie is a gem and I should've wifed her up the moment I saw her but I have to deal with that, they don't! I don't want to be reminded of the past and every so often someone brings us up
"Because you're getting up their honey," she said. "So she came all the way to Florida to talk? I asked. "No, I invited her to the party. She seemed a little hesitant and as your mom I want you to correct it" she said. "What she say? I asked curiously. "That's for me to know and for you to find out... chop chop nip it in the bud" she said. I laughed "Ight imma talk to her" I said. I didn't expect to see Josie ever again after she moved to New York. It was nice to see her at my sister's wedding but I just knew after that I wouldn't see her again and now she's here. I don't even know what problem she could have with me. We did leave off with some unresolved issues but since its been 4 years I would think whatever it is wouldn't be relevant anymore but I'm not scared of confrontation with women anymore. I used to get so defensive and avoid conversations that had to do with me fucking up but I learned that if you care about someone you're going to always make sure they're good emotionally even if the truth hurts.
"Wassup fam," I said hugging my sister. "Kase" I dapped him up. "Josie," I said. "Hey," she said as I gave her a light hug. She was being all shy and reserved. I left the table to say hi to my other family that were here. I felt a tap on my leg to see Dylan's bad self-holding her hands up. I asked had to stop playing around I want some kids. "Wassup mama" I picked her up kissing her cheek. "Uncle Ricky," she said in her cute little voice. "Hi, busy body" I said.
"I wan ice cream," she said. "Oh, you were just using me huh? What did your daddy say? I asked. She shook her head covering her mouth. "Uh huh, you ain't slick little girl," I said putting her down. She turned around wandering off to where Kyle was. He was with Craig making him a plate.
30 minutes later
I was standing against the wall talking to my bros. "Yo, I almost forgot you need to check on your boy Rigo and his little niggas" I said. "What happened? Cortez asked rubbing his chin. I usually let shit like this slide but they were Cortez workers. "The little fat nigga was talking big shit when I was in the barber shop. We had some words then the nigga flashes his gun like I'm supposed to be scared or something" I said. He shook his head "I never should put him down. I got you though, its gonna get handled" he said
Its one thing to talk shit but to put your gun out and my little bro was there. I didn't like that shit he should've got his jaw broken but I just couldn't do it at the time. "And little cuz was there" he sucked his teeth. "Aye don't kill the little nigga," I said. "You must've read my mind cuz I was definitely bout to blow his brains out" he laughed.
"But on the real, though I think its about time to retire" he admitted. "Wow, bout time you tryna hang it up" Dreux said.
"It ain't a definite but I'm thinking," he said. Cortez was money hungry and it was more like an addiction to him. Once we stopped he kind of took over and now he running things. He likes the power of it but like I tell these little niggas that always come out to me asking me for game. I tell them it cost too much being in that lifestyle. Not to say I won't have consequences in the near future but you gotta try to stop you can't get trapped into it.
"You know I was honestly thinking about doing comedy," Dreux said. We all looked at him. "Yo, you should bro you're funny as hell," I said forgetting we talked about this not too long ago
"Hell yeah, start writing that shit down," Cortez said. I peeked over at Josie talking to Mia. I just remembered what my mother was telling me about earlier.
"I am I'm really looking into it" he said. "So when are you and Josie going to stop playing? Cortez asked. "Here ya go, the girl only been back around for 5 minutes," I said. "I just had to know, I mean ya haven't said one word to each other" Cortez said.
"I had my share of trying to get them too together I quit," Dreux said. "I ain't looking too much into it, she may have a boyfriend," I said. "Nigga where's your big dick energy you used to have, you sound like a square," Cortez said.
"All you gotta do is walk over to her tell her we getting too old for these games. You're my woman, you're having my kid and boom her legs gon be wide open instantly" Cortez said. I laughed "That's that young boy shit, shit don't work anymore," I said
"It really doesn't, not when its been a fallout" Dreux agreed. "Not literally Jack and Jill what I'm saying is bust a move, not a nut," Cortez said.
"Nigga your ass definitely needs to follow your own advice the fuck? I laughed. He sucked his teeth "Yeah yeah, I'm giving her space" he said
"But isn't she back with Raymond? Dreux asked me. "Nigga I don't know" I laughed. "It looks like they may be," he said
"If that's the case then good bout time that nigga manned up," I said. "I forgot you with Shani," he said.
"Shani and I our friends with benefits. I don't have to be in a relationship with every woman I'm around damn" I said
"Word, let me get at Shani then," he said. Cortez wife divorced him for the cheating and he clearly doesn't give a fuck unless he's lying on the inside. "No bitch, she doesn't want your ugly ass," I said. He laughed "Fuck you," he said. "Yeah, ight" I laughed.
I saw Josie talking along with Mia and Maya after what my mom told me earlier I was debating on how to even initiate this conversation.
Josie
"So you couldn't go anywhere? Mia asked
"Literally locked in a house with a bunch of strangers for weeks. I was so homesick" I said. "Girl I'd die," Mia said. "I wanted too but I knew the outcome would be great," I said while walking to the restroom I felt my dress that was too big for me come loose. I had pinned it up earlier so it could stay tight. I walked inside the restroom going straight to the mirror. "So are you and Ricky going to act like ya'll don't know each other all night? Mia asked. I looked in the mirror digging the crust particle from out my eye. "You guys are so pushy? I mean, I can't control any of this" I said. Ricky hasn't said much to me and I haven't either, I didn't expect us to be buddy buddy talking about the past but everyone else was. "Yes, you can" Mia came out of the bathroom washing her hands. I grabbed my lipstick reapplying it.
"Please just drop it, why do ya'll insist on torturing me" I laughed. "It's fun, I mean come on if Dreux and I were to break up today, at every function ya'll would tell us to work it out or ask if we're back together every chance you get" she said. She had a point but still, it was slightly annoying. I rubbed my lips together "Yeah yeah yeah" I said. It was like I never left when it came to Maya and Mia were chatting and talking about things how we used too. Mia walked in front of me pushing open the bathroom door. "But seriously, I'll stop playing around. I know how you may feel" she said. I pulled down my dress. "I'd appreciate it" I saw Ricky from my peripheral vision and he was literally 1ft beside me as he was talking to his family. Why were they so close to the restroom anyways? I felt a little tug at my hand stopping in my tracks. I turned around facing him. He got me away so fast I didn't even make it to the table.
"Oooop" Mia said walking off. I rolled my eyes watching her sit back at the table. "Can I talk to you for a second? He asked me.
"Uh, yeah," I said. He walked in front of me taking my hand as I followed him to a quiet area. His cologne was blessing me, he smelled delightful. I didn't know what was going on he turned around. "So someone told me you wanted to talk to me? He asked staring in my soul. Then it all made sense Ms. Monica probably told him about our personal conversation we had at my shop. Dammit, Ms. Monica, it wasn't that deep to intervene. I was going to ask him about but when I was ready. I was very annoyed now why can't grown folks just mind their business sometimes. "Mm no, who told you that? I asked. I didn't want to make a big deal out of this. He probably thinks I'm crazy trippin over some shit that happened 4 years ago.
"My mother," he said grabbing his chin hair. "She just asked me about us and I told her we fell off, that's it" I said. He looked at me like he didn't believe me. I couldn't concentrate I swear I had my whole speech prepared on how I was going to come at him. I was going to call him all kinds of inconsiderate assholes and here he is right in my face calm, collective, and fine. My brain was clouded the outside music was in my head. Jon B they don't know was playing. I turned around to peek at his parents slow dancing. "Hellooo" he said.
"Talk to me" he swung my wrists. I snapped out of I turned back around, his eyes never left mine.
"It's nothing to really talk about, its done with," I said. "You sure? he asked. "I'm positive, I'm about to leave-
"You're always about to leave shorty," he said. "I'm a busy woman now," I said. I leaned a little to the side.
"I can see that, but are you going to avoid the question all night-
I crossed my arms "I feel like you should know" I said. God this felt like Deja vu all over again. I was feeling like my 24-year-old self all over again just spit it out Josie now you looking dumb.
"I don't... that's why I asked sweetheart" he said licking his lips. Who the fuck did he think he is?
"I don't see how you couldn't know" I spoke. He didn't say anything he just slouching back on the couch looking at me giving me a slightly impatient look.
"You stood me up and I didn't appreciate it" I said. "Stood you up? He asked confused
"Yes, you were supposed to visit me a few weeks after I moved and you didn't," I said
"I had a lot going on"
So he was aware of what he did? Yet, here he is trying to act clueless. Lawd this is why I didn't want to come. I'm not the same Josie I was years ago. I have the patience of a two-year-old now and everything I used to tolerate I don't anymore.
"So you were aware of what happened? You knew exactly what you did, even tho you just acted like you didn't know what I was talking about" I said. Niggas will always paint you as crazy until they admit something.
"I had a lot going on Jo, please don't take it personal," he said
"I understand but you could've had the decency to just let me know that you couldn't show up anymore," I said.
"I was going through a lot of things just progressed. I thought it was best to distance myself, I didn't want to come to New York and give you false hope and fill your head up with lies. I was protecting your feelings. So I just disappeared on you, it was wrong but that's what it was at the time" he explained. Fill my head up with lies? Protect my feelings? I'm a grown woman and I was a grown woman when I left him. I get it, I know he went through a lot and I'm not surprised if everything went downhill as soon as I left but a bitch just wanted a text or something.
"Protect me? Ricky I'm a grown woman, I've been through far worse than being in a situation ship that didn't work out. Come on now from being in a cult, damn near homeless living home to home, having my baby by myself, getting kidnapped was far worse than him cutting me off.
"You telling me you think its best if we go our separate ways was never going to break me, it's not that deep but not only did you hurt my feelings you hurt Morgan's," I said
Ricky
Sheesh! Josie is a force to be reckoned with. She was letting me have it, telling me what's on her mind. She was so damn fine, I couldn't even focus. She really grew into herself and I was digging it. Fuck! I missed her caramel skin, her wide hips, thick thighs, long hair, and chinky eyes that disappeared when she smiled. I didn't want any kind of animosity with her. Hell, she could tell me I ran over her car and Imma apologize for that shit but I was disappointed in myself. I didn't communicate with her and I never gave her an explanation she had every right to be upset.
"Then its like you blew me off then up and had another girlfriend. I guess I just took it harder than you when it was over" She said. I felt extremely bad I really didn't mean to break her heart. If I could go back in time I would've just called her or sent her a text but I wasn't in the best mental state that's why I took some time off to get help.
Josie
He would never understand he's a guy. Yeah, our relationship was toxic but I can't help that I fell hard for him. When I met him he wasn't invisible to me, I could see the real him and the man he desperately wanted to be but his circumstances didn't allow him to, that was the guy I fell for not because he was an intriguing, sexy, intimidating, ex-drug dealer, cold-blooded criminal that would get any woman's panties wet. We went from being manager and employee to playing fiancés, to semi being together and the sex was passionate like he wanted to marry me. How could I have not been heartbroken about that?
Ricky
"I'm sorry," I said looking at her.
"I was wrong, I should've communicated with you, you didn't deserve that. I just was doing what I thought was right at the time. I apologize" I said. She looked relieved I should've apologized years ago. I don't know I just thought she had so many blessings her way she was over that and my bullshit. "You accept my apology? I asked. She looked like she really didn't want too. Keep going okay
"I don't know Josie I just thought since you were on your shit and made a name for yourself. You wouldn't give two shits about my fuck up" I said. I owed her the whole story I wasn't going to tell her everything right now but I'll tell her what's been going on soon.
"I sincerely apologize," I said looking in her eyes trying not to get sucked into them.
"Forgive me? I asked.
"Yes, I accept your apology," she said. "Thanks for apologizing, "she said. "No problem, I know I owe Morgan one too," I said. She crossed her arms looking down at her heels. "You can never be wrong in her eyes," she said
I laughed "That's ride or die but Imma still call her up" I said. "Cool, she'd be happy to talk to you," she said
"Cool now I want my apology," I said trying to lighten the mood. She laughed "For? She asked. "You blocked me and I ain't appreciate that you could've had the decency to tell me first," I said.
"Listen, I had to focus. You know how it goes" she said. "Well, I'm glad you unblocked me, superstar-
"Hold up, you didn't even congratulate me either so," she said. "I did, I texted you but you must've changed your number and I DM'd you, but you big shit now so you probably didn't see it," I said.
"Sure you did," she said
"I said Congratulations Josie, I see you doing your thing but I was blocked so it probably got deleted" I explained.
"Mmhm, okay," she said. She'd never believe me and that's okay. "But congratulations I'm proud of you really," I said. "Thank you, I appreciate that," she said.
"No doubt" I got up from the cushion seat. "Well-
"I'm about to leave" I mocked her. "Don't do that" she laughed a little. "I'm playing, but I'm glad we cleared that up," I said. "Me too," she said
"Now gimme some love," I said
"Yeah, I'm good on that," she said. I laughed oh she became one of those. I guess roles have reversed and I gotta break the tough cookie but I was cool with that. I'd take no time at all. You know you wanna give me a hug" I said
"I can't your hugs are too touchy-feely. I'm seeing someone" she said playfully. "Aww, you were waiting 4 years to say that, weren't you? I asked
She laughed "Never pressed.. but you're a known boundary crosier so that's that," she said. I laughed she's fucking cute. "I thought it took two- you know what who's the lucky guy? I asked.
"I'll see you around" she ignored my question. "You funny, but on a serious note. I'm not on that bullshit I used to be on and I do apologize for how I went it about things. I don't want you walking around with a chip on your shoulder" I said
She laughed a little "I just wanted clarity.. that's all" she said
"Understood" I nodded
"But I accept your apology Ricky," She said as I walked her to her car. "Glad to hear, you park a mile away this time? I asked.
"Actually no, I'm right here," she said walking in front of the car. "This you again? I asked. "Another rental seems like I can't stay out Miami," she said
"Me either, get home safely," I said standing there. I watched her unlock her door "Thankyou you too" she said.
"Josie"
"Yeah" she turned around. "I heard about Morgan... y'all okay? I asked. "Yeah" she said quickly. Too quick, so I knew things weren't that great. I wasn't going to push it though, her guard is still up and that's my fault so I understood. Once I take lil Morgan out she'll tell me everything anyways. "Okay well if you need anything let me know" I said
"I'm good, you've done enough Ricky.. you truly have but thank you for your concern. I appreciate it" she said. "No doubt ma" I said opening her door. "Bye" she said. "See ya" I closed her door for her. I walked back inside enjoying the remainder of the party "Damn she really ain't hug me" I laughed to myself
Josie has her guard up this time lol oh how things have changed. I'M LIVING BY THE WAY they were showing off for a few seconds lmao
Ricky =GROWTH
Grant wants revenge or???
Thoughts?