Their drag music video for I want to break free was adored by thousands of people after it was being released. "I do make a pretty girl." Roger says taking a slice of his french toast for breakfast while reading about their song.
"Also, Jude won't be all alone on tour this time." Roger says smiling. I stare at him waiting for his answer. "Brian's kids are also joining." He says. "Louisa and Jimmy?" I ask to which Roger nods his head. "Yay!!" Jude says clapping her hands. "That's right. So we'll be leaving late this evening." He says. "Oh." Was all I could say. "Sorry it's all like this now love. I'm gonna head to the studio to pack up my drum kit." He says kissing us goodbye.
As one of their stylists and writer, touring was fun but I worry about Jude. Unlike other children growing up going to parks, Jude's here traveling the world with a famous band. I smile thinking she's having a cool childhood.
The weather wasn't that great but the country is fabulous. We were all waiting in the hotel lobby getting our room keys. Jude shyly buried her face in my neck as Jimmy, Brian's son, stood behind his mother. "They are gonna take a while to be all okay. Maybe we could go the park on the next block." She suggests. I think about her suggestion. It's only the next block, maybe Roger wouldn't mind.
"No." He says sternly once I had told him about it. "It's just on the next block and for an hour maybe. They are only here for one show and they are going to their grandad's." I say. "Fine." He says with a sigh. "We are leaving in an hour again to the venue. Stupid flight had to get delayed." He says frowning.
Me and Jude met with Jimmy, Louisa and their mother down at the lobby. "This is something new." She says smiling. The roads were pretty much empty. It was cloudy and a bit cold. I put Jude on the swing and swayed it a little. She held onto the rope on the side smiling. I smile back.
"What's with the envelope ?" Brian's wife asks. "Nothing. Just some mail." I reply shoving the brown envelope in my bag. "Remember that time when you sat at the pub with a paper like that when Freddie invited you to meet us?" She asks.
I try not to remember much about that night. Well, obviously only the parts that included Roger would be remembered. It was a chill night Freddie had invited me to meet his friends. I was going through a time trying to get over an abusive relationship which my ex was still contacting me. As the other left only Freddie stayed with me to talk about things just the two of us. "So he just still bugs you?" I hear a voice say from my right side. A skinny blonde stood with a frown. I look at Freddie. He smiles back introducing us. "Roger, this is Y/n. You know. She'll be working with us." He says giving his friend a smile. Roger's eyes went a bit wide before he rushed off with his cheeks red. "He's usually not like that." Freddie had said a bit confused.
"He likes you." Freddie says as I was taking a sip from my drink but making me almost choke. "What? We just met." I say. "Yeah but he knows a lot about you." Freddie says. "Why?" I ask him. "Well, cause he asks about you and you guys would go really well. I want you to be happy." He had said.
Freddie was right. Roger always had some kind of excuse to just spend time with me. Whether it was him running off after his recording session or just daily things like picking up an outfit for the day.
"Y/n? So you do remember." She says snapping me out of my daydreams. "Scaring off a blushing Roger. Yes I do remember." I say with a laugh. "That was one side of him we never knew we would see until we had to set you guys up because he was shy but look at him all changed now." She says. "Yeah." I reply smiling to myself as things did go happy with several ups and down. "So you have to tell him. What's he saying now anyway?" She asks referring to my ex boyfriend. "I don't really care. It's been years and he still wouldn't stop. It doesn't matter anymore." I say. "But it matters to Rog if anyone hurts you. I've seen the messages he sent before. I don't want you to be down. I'm sorry that I won't be here for the whole tour but maybe at least talk to Brian or maybe Freddie about it." She suggests. "I've settled down and he has settled down. Just because he didn't get what he wanted doesn't mean it's my fault." I say. "I know but he can't always go torturing you like that. He left you and found another girl. He doesn't have the right to get mad at you when you are with another guy." She says. I nod.
"Darlings we have to leave in 15 minutes. I have to come here myself to get you guys before Roger throws a tantrum. Y/n, dear you alright?" I hear Freddie say as he stood looking at us. "Yeah. I'm fine. Let's go." I say.
-Roger's P.O.V-
Y/n's been rather quiet than usual and that's not her. Jude sat on my lap playing with her stuffed toy as Y/n went through the clothes picking up outfits for the show. "Oh, let's get you some water." I say as Jude looked at me confused with her hiccups. Reaching for the bag I grab Jude's water bottle along with a brown envelope. I raise an eyebrow at the amount of papers folded inside that she has gotten. The address clearly states it was from her country but the address is very unfamiliar to me.
Checking one of the folded papers, I begin to feel angry at that person. I knew who it was but why again? It's been years. I remember how much he made Y/n go through. It took months to ask her to be my girlfriend. I was scared and had Freddie to update me on when the right time was. Classic Rog. Classic. But things turned out great. Well, at least for me it did. "You wanna go see Uncle Freddie?" I ask Jude as she held her small water bottle. Putting back the envelope in the bag I carry Jude outside to meet Freddie who sat on the stairs of the stage. "Roger. Jude darling!" He says greeting us. Jude smiled with a hiccup. "Freddie, can I ask something?" I ask. "Anything." He says. "It's about Y/n." I say. Freddie looked at me a bit worried. "Are you two having troubles again?" Freddie asks signalling someone behind me. Freddie hates when me and Y/n has any fights or any other problems.
Before I could say anything I get interrupted by John. "Jude!" He says. Jude let her arms out for him to carry her, still with her small water bottle and hiccups. "Let's get you more water." John says walking away with Jude. I sigh. "Freddie, you think Y/n's happy with me?" I ask trying to push back the frustration of the messages aside. "What made you say that? Of course she is happy." Freddie says as if I have asked a dumb question. "I mean, does she still get scared with the things that happened before?" I ask. "Roger, she will always have that fear but she has been doing really well after being with you. Although you ran off blushing like a tomato on the first night." He says with a laugh. I frown at that thought. I wanted her badly but I was scared to ask her and seeing her face to face made me so nervous that I rushed off.
"It's her ex again." I say. "Oh that's not that good. Just block the number and don't bring it up." Freddie says. "She saw those. I saw them and she has been all quiet than usual. It's letters now." I say angry and worried. "Roger. Just don't bring it up." He says. "Freddie, whatever he had said she has already seen it and I don't want her to go through what she had to go through before and knowing that I can't do anything about it would make things worse." I say pointing at myself.
"She's married to the famous handsome drummer of Queen. Has a lovely baby girl with a name so dear to the both of you. I'm happy that you made my friend very happy." He says with a smile. Freddie is right. If I put my anger take the best of me then things wouldn't be okay. I decide not to talk about it.
"Jude." He says snapping me out of my thoughts. "What?" I ask. "Lovely name." He says making me a bit confused. "How did it happen again? You sang her that song when she was down." Freddie says smiling at me. "When- how did you know I sang it?" I ask. "I saw you hugging her as she cried and you sang that song to her." Freddie said. He was happy. I smile back at him with the the memories of that night.
Y/n was by the window crying when I walked into the room. She had had a terrible day and I hugged her comforting her singing Hey Jude by The Beetles softly.
"So let it out and let it in, hey Jude, begin
You're waiting for someone to perform with
and don't you know it's just you, hey Jude, you'll do
The movement you need is on your shoulder"
We all walk back into the changing room to get ready for the last rehearsal ahead of the show. Jude slept on John's shoulder. I watch as he kept her on the sofa making sure she wouldn't roll over. I clench my teeth as I remember about the envelope still in her bag. Leaving out a breath I take the envelope out of her bag before she could notice what I was doing.
-Y/n's P.O.V-
"I got all the outfits ready." I say as the boys gathered around the room. "I picked out a black shirt for you." I say handing the shirt to Roger who smiled in return which was odd for his behaviour.
"Hey." I hear Roger say as I put back some outfits on the rack. "Yes love?" I ask. "Tell me if anything is bothering you okay?" He says leaning in forehead to leave a kiss on my forehead. I spot Freddie smiling at the door.
Annie sat with Jude in the changing room as she slept while I decide to watch the boys rehearse. Roger hit his drums forcefully breaking 3 sets of drumsticks. "Roger, calm down." Brian said. He glared at him before throwing the broken stick away. Paul must have said something to him earlier. He's always making Roger angry.
Jude woke up at the beginning of the last song. She clapped her hands and screamed out at Roger and the rest waving her hands at times. Unfortunately Brian's wife had to leave mid way through the show. Jude was back to being her hyper self. "Da da!!" Jude calls out as he made his way down the stairs towards us but ignores Jude calling him making her have a sad pout. "Hei Jude. Want to go have some cake?" John asks as Jude nods her head. John carried Jude as Brian gave a small smile walking away with John. "What happened to Roger?" I ask Freddie who looked at me sadly. "Freddie, what's going on?" I ask scared. "Nothing. Everything is okay. Roger is just trying to keep a hold of something. Trying but letting it all on his drums." Freddie says with smile. "He is sending letters now." I let it out. "Yes. I know." Freddie couldn't continue his sentence as Roger walked up to us. "C'mon let's go." He says holding my hand dragging me away from Freddie. "Um, Jude's with John and Brian." I say. "They'll bring Jude." He says before hailing a taxi and making our way towards the hotel.
I rush into the room walking towards the phone. "It's blocked." I hear Roger say. "What?" I ask confused. "I blocked the number." He says. "I just want to call Freddie." I say. "Why? I just want to talk." He says. "You are scaring me. You broke all the drumsticks, Roger." I say. "I was furious at the messages I saw." He says raising his voice but calming down. "It doesn't mean anything." I say. "Why didn't you tell me about it?" He asks. "Because it didn't matter. Nothing of that matters anymore. It's been years." I say. Before we could talk about it anymore Jude's soft voice came from the other side of the door. "Mommy!" She says almost falling onto me from Brian's hold as I opened the door. "Sleepy love?" I ask as she nods and rubs her eyes. "Did I interrupt something?" Brian asks softly. I shake my head no before saying goodnight.
"Da da!!" She says falling onto him now as he sat at the edge of the bed. I stand on the balcony looking at him put Jude to sleep. The cold wild on my dried tears made me shiver. "Were you gonna tell me?" He asks joining me outside. "Roger, I didn't want to tell you because it didn't matter. I got you. At least I think I got you." I say. "What does that supposed to mean?" He asks. "Nothing." I say not wanting to bring up a newspaper headline. "It was on the newspaper on the table top." I say. He walked back in coming back with the newspaper. "This happened before I even met you. I have nothing to do with this women." Roger says looking at the newspaper with an old picture of him with some girl. "I didn't talk about it because it doesn't matter anymore. It was before." I said. "Yeah but this is happening now and you didn't tell me." He says. "I didn't tell you because I don't care about what he has to say anymore. I'm happily married to the drummer of a famous band that throws tantrums at times but loves me deeply and made me the happiest girl and have a nice family." I say crying. Roger stood in front of me trying to process what I had just said. "Hug her!!" We hear the rest of the band scream from the next room balcony door. I tilt my head wiping away my tears to find three boys with there faces attached to the glass door.
"I'm sorry." He says walking towards me and hugging me.