JENNIE'S POV
It has been 6 years since I chose to live here in New Zealand with Jisoo. I could still remember how she said sorry at the airport. I almost want to run back to her that time and forgive her, but then I remembered every words she said to me and it really hurts every inch of my existence. How she was so angry at me that encounter back to the restaurant. My knees became weak. I want to tell her how sorry I am, and how much I love her. But I was too weak to do so. I feel small with her words and feels like she was curving every words she spit in me to my skin.
Sometimes, I wish that everything did not exist at all. Every time that Jisoo and I are reminiscing about things in the past, Lisa always pops up into my mind. Who knows that a little secret can become something so dangerous? That it will cost pain to anyone who is involved.
Lisa made me feel heaven and hell at the same time. I can't blame her if she feels really bad after everything I confessed to her. She's the love of my life. But maybe our love isn't enough to make everything lasts. Maybe love is never enough to make someone stay that long. They said the truth will set us free but I don't know if that was true. There is still a pain in me.
I will never regret loving her, the only thing that I regret about and still regretting is hiding things from her. I should have told her everything sooner before everything messed up but my coward ass did not make it. But what can I do now? I left Korea to avoid her. That means I surrendered, right? It has been 6 years. I don't have any news about her. because I chose to not to. While Jisoo and Rosé also stop talking. I feel bad that Jisoo Unnie and Rosé's relationship is also dragged into this. They don't deserve that. Not at all.
"Jen!" Jisoo shouted at me distracting me from my thoughts while I am at my swivel chair looking at the ceiling.
"You scared the shit out of me!" I yelled at her. I did not know that she's inside my office.
"I've been talking here since I got inside your office but to realize you aren't even listening to me. Aish." She hissed at me.
"I'm sorry Unnie, I was just thinking about something." I explained
"What were you saying?" I asked her.
"What were you thinking?" she asked me back.
Jisoo seats at my couch and put her feet on the table.
"It's about the paper works I need to finish." I lied. "So, you were talking about something, you said? What is it, Unnie?" I asked her once again.
"I don't know if you will like it." She said as she grabs a magazine.
"What is it?" I asked her curiously.
"Why do you have tons of magazines here, you don't not even reading them," she commented.
"Why do you wear bra?" I asked her and smirked. She then threw the magazine she's holding. The last time I saw the magazine, it was on her hands now it flews into my face.
"Alright, tell me what you are going to tell me now before my office messed up." I said to her and Jisoo gave me a serious look.
"Well, your father and I want us to go back to Korea." She started and with that, she easily caught my attention. "There is a special event that is going to happen. It is called 'The Heiress' where every child of big company owners or business person is recommended to attend. And they both decided that they want us to attend to that." Jisoo explained to me.
"They look really excited about it. They said it's a good opportunity for us since we are going to handle their businesses" Jisoo added as she sighs.
Going back to Korea? Attending that event? Lisa can be there too...
I don't think I am ready to see her again. I mean yes it has been years but I am still not ready to face her after all.
"I know what you are thinking, Jen." Jisoo mumbled.
"I'll talk to them if you want?" she added.
"Are they really looks excited about that event?" I asked her
Jisoo nods at me immediately.
"When is that event?" I asked again. Jisoo sits properly and puts down her feet.
"Are you serious? Exactly two weeks from now." She answered me
"Let's fix our things and book a flight. We're going" I said to her. Am I doing the right thing? It's for my father and to our business, right?
JISOO'S POV
After Jennie confirmed to her father and I that we are going to attend the event, I feel really excited. Chaeyoung will be there for sure. I should wear a nice dress to impress her. I know what happened to our friends are not really a good thing. Jennie doesn't want to go back to Korea if this is not really a big event she won't go for sure. I am kind of nervous and at the same time excited to what is going to happen. The event is coming two weeks from now, so as the Christmas.
"Unnnie.." I heard Jennie talked while I'm chewing my chicken skewers. I don't want to answer her because she's interrupting my time with my chicken but when I look at her, her eyes are worried and sad.
"What's wrong, Jenduek?" I asked her.
"What if you see Rosé at the event, what will you do?" she asked me. I know she's asking me this question because she doesn't know what to do if ever Lisa and her, crossed paths.
"Are you asking that because you are afraid to see her in that event?" I answer her question with another question.
"Of course not! Don't you remember she's saying sorry to me when we are at the airport! I'm not marupok(AHAHHAHAHAHAA)!" she defended herself at me and I laugh really hard.
"Are we talking about Chaeyoung or Lisa? Because I don't remember my Rosé saying sorry to you at the airport Jennie." I said while laughing.
Jennie's face turned red and she drinks water immediately.
"The cat was caught through her own words. Ppoong!" I teased her once again.
"Aish! Stop it Unnie! Or I'm going to ppoong ppoong your face!" she said to me but it made me laugh a lot.
"But if ever I see Chae there, I will ask her out and maybe eat her out .." I said then winked and Jennie choked in her own saliva.
"Asshole!" she shouted at my face this time I was really laughing so hard. Her expression was priceless. She maybe thought I was going to answer seriously.
"But kidding aside," I said with a serious tone and Jennie raises her brows at me. "I want to talk to Rosé, maybe we could continue our relationship. I mean .. It's been 6 years. With that 6 years, she's still here. I still want her." I said as I pointed my chest where my heart is located.
Jennie let out a sigh and smile. "You are really in love with her." She said as she taps my head.
"Nothing change." I said. "But, how about you? What will you do if you ever see Lisa there?" I asked her the same question.
Jennie just looks at me. I know she's still in love with Lisa. I know my best friend. She did not talk at all.
"You still love her?" I added.
But instead of answering my question, Jennie stands up. "I need to shower. I stink." She said faking a smile. I did not force her to answer my question and just nod at her.
JENNIE'S POV
"Nothing change." She said. "But, how about you? What will you do if you ever see Lisa there?" She asked me the same question. To be honest, I really don't know how to answer that question. I really don't know what to do if we ever cross our paths again.
"You still love her?" She added. I stand up from my sit "I need to shower. I stink." I said forcing a smile to her. Thank God she did not push the topic. She really knows me.
As I went to the bathroom and filled the bathtub with warm water, as I sink inside, my thoughts are messing with my head.
There are a lot of what ifs
What if I saw her?
What if she hates me for turning my back at her?
What if I stay in Korea?
What if I talk to her at the airport?
What if she's happy with someone else now?
What if, if I'm still in love with her?
Am I still in love with Lisa? Am I?
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Sup madlang pipol. Joke. Lol. This semester isn't yet over but I want to write the first chapter so here it is. Maybe the next chapter will be after this week? Or maybe next next week? Lol I can't promise because I'm still busy. Sorry.
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