⚠️ THIS MESSAGE IS COPIED INTO MY OTHER BOOK 'Endings and Beginnings' SO IT HERE AND THIER IT IS IMPORTANT TAHT YOU READ THIS TO UNDERSTAND WHY IM NOT POSTING NEW CHAPTERS FOR A WHILE ⚠️
This is very important
This will be in both of my popular and ongoing books as a chapter so bare with me
I need to say something
Due to something
And I don't even know what it is
I'm having difficulty writing
Let me explain
Writing used to be my escape from reality it used to help me
But now i have trouble seeing the words
Like not physically
But I can't image the situations as well
I used to have anime such as my hero academia closer to me than some real people
I know that's not a good thing but it kept me sane and my depression lessened
Well now an all to real event happened
This may not seem life changing but it gave me a realization and woke me up from my old fake reality in a way
Not even my cousins suicide made me feel this way
What happened is a friend of mine has a crush on me
Now you may already know this from me asking for advice
But there's more
I had a dream and we were in it and we kissed and blah blah blah
But after that o went through this week or two long happiness high of a sort
I felt like I would never be depressed again!
I felt wanted for once
This brings us to recently
The high faded
It's gone
I feel more sad than ever
And for some reason I'm spiraling down a hole in my mind
Do I want a relationship? Do I like him?
Constant questions bombard me and it just is overwhelming
So I told my other friend that I don't want a relationship and after that o felt content
But then it didn't feel right the next day
I'm going to confront the friend who has a crush on me when I go back to school to figure this out
Ok so all these real events are making my ability to write nonexistent
That's all I hade to say