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-Sofia’s POV-
This is it wala ng urungan ito. Halos mabingi ako sa lakas ng tibok ng puso ko habang nakatitig sa mukha nya. Hindi lang naman pera ang dahilan kung bakit gusto kong gawin ito. Kahit pa maging mukhang desperada ako sa harapan nya I dont care.
I wanted to confirm something para matapos na ito once and for all.
He grabbed my thighs and spread my legs wide. Hindi ako gumawa ng move para umiwas sa kanya. Nakatitig kami sa mata ng isat isa. He’s looking for a signed of weakness but I made it sure na wala syang makikita.
If he’s expecting na matatakot ako sa ginagawa nya. Think again!.
I wanted him to FUCK me hard!. Gusto kong maging manhid ang isipan ko sa mangyayari. Hindi ito ang oras para atakihin ng konsensya at i-differentiate ang tama sa mali.
“You cannot say ‘No’ at the middle.” He gritted his teeth.
I smile. “Bakit parang nagiging madaldal ka na ngayon Chad?.” He made a sound of primal longing. “Dont worry hindi ako mag baback out even if you beg me.”
Humigpit ang hawak nya sa magkabila kong braso. Nararamdaman ko ang ulo ng kanyang pagkalalaki na bumabangga sa aking kaselanan.
Shit! It would surely hurt. Siguro nakita nya kung gaano ako kadeterminado and no matter how much he scares me I would never cringe.
He took a long deep breath. May namumuong butil ng pawis sa kaniyang noo. Kung tutuusin this is lot harder for him, being with the woman he love just for tonight he could die happy.
And with one penetrating thrust he slid deeper inside.
Uyy, alam ko gusto nyo tagalog. oh etoh.
Tinutok nya!
Pinasok nya!
Enjoy walang daplis!
Tapos sabay sabay nating maaalala ang kanta ni Andrew E. like we are having a throwback night eh?. I bite my lower lip. Alam nyo yung feeling na hiniwa ng matalim na knife?. yung sobrang lalim? Tapos hindi mo alam kung sisigaw ka para humingi ng tulong o hahawakan ang sugat mo at iisip ng paraan kung paano iyon mapapatigil sa pagdugo?.
Ganoon ang feeling ko that time!.
Para akong nahahati sa dalawa. He’s breaking me into two!.Shet..!!! His penis is L-O-N-G plus he is soo B-I-G...!!! and oh dont forget the shinning shimmering apadravya Equals?
DUGO!
DUMADANAK ANG DUGO!
"Holy cow! You’re a virgin.” Sabi ni Chad nanlalaki ang mata nya.
Ewan ko kung nagpapatawa sya oh ano. I am actually waiting for someone to show himself and yelled ‘WOW MALI’ like in a gagshow pero hindi nangyari. "B-Baliw ka ba? hindi na diba? binutas mo na!. Are you making fun of me?.” I manage to say while sobbing.
"Oh God, I-I’m so sorry." I dont know if I would take him seriously eh. Nagsosorry sya pero sa hilatsa ng mukha nya parang masayang masaya pa sya. I’m telling you, this guy is CRAZY!. kung hindi ba naman gago't kalahati eh!.
He bent his head and showered me with soft butterfly kisses. And because he’s a stupid guy and I really want to hit his head with something (pero wala lang akong mahablot). Hindi sya na aware because of that dumbed simple moved, lalo lang syang bumaon sa loob ko.
"FUCCKKKKK." i jerked my body upward. "Ayoko na. alis alis! shoo shoo." Do i sound like an old lady who was shooing a dog that just left a poof on her backyard?. I hope not!. Nagwala ako para paalisin yung katawan nya sa ibabaw ko. “Get off me!”
Perhaps that is a wrong move! Lalo lang kasi syang bumabaon. So maybe I’ll start looking for my phone and start dialling 911 for emergency hotline to get me some help huh?.
Nagtaas ng kilay ang gago. “Nasan na ang ‘Dont worry hindi ako mag baback out even if you beg’”
I gasped. Sinabi ko yun?. Did I really say that?. WHY DO I HAVE TO SAY THAT?!. Anyway, wala naman syang mapapakitang katibayan na sinabi ko yun kanina right?. Maniniwala lang ako kung may ilalabas syang CCTV footage o kaya naman ay Recorded tape. I rolled my eyeballs. ARGH, Fine, inaamin ko na! Kinain ko din ang sinabi ko kanina and it taste bitter!.
Iyak na si ako. Bakit ba hindi ko napaghandaan ang ganito?. I know naman na masakit eh pero sabi sa book sandali lang daw yun. bakit ang tagal mawala ng hapdi?. Hindi na ko nakatiis pinaghahampas ko si Chad sa chest. This is all your fault!.
Hinuli nya ang palapulsuhan ko and pinned my hand down on the bed.
"Just relax Sofia juts take a long deep breath." Pakonsuwelo de bobo ni Chad sa akin. "Gayahin mo ko aahh-huhhhh."
"Ahh-uhhh mo din!."
He frowns. "Minumura mo ba ko?"
"Sinong nagmumura?” Clueless kong sagot. Bastos na halimaw ito minumura ko raw sya? HA!. “I’m just following your lead, Sir." Actually, ilang beses ko na syang namura sa isip ko. And also in my head he’s already dead!.
He give me the ‘I dont believe you’ look then napabuntong hininga na lang sya and he rotated his hips a little.
Napasigaw ako sa sakit.
"Ssh baby, it will ease in a minute."
"Minutes dude! as in minutesss! ilang minutes 60?" 60 minutes is equivalent into ‘ONE FREAKING HOUR!’ Holy shit!.
"Bakit ba ang dami mong reklamo?!"
"I’m appalled because You.Are.Appalling!”
“What?”
“It is so unfair!. Why only guys got the pleasure?! Is there any written law about it?.”
“Did you lose some screw in your head? Want me to look for it?.” Pang iinis nya sa akin.
LOSE SOME SCREW?!. Mukha ba kong nawalan ng turnilyo sa ulo?. Sa ganda kong ito?. F.Y.I Mister walang nawawalang turnilyo sa ulo ko – well lumuwag na turnilyo perhaps – and I repeat kumpleto ang turnilyo ko sa ulo. Are we clear?. Hindi naman kami nag sisigawan nyan ano?. Hehe. Nagsukatan kami ng tingin ng gago. Geh mag away lang tayo sa ganitong posisyon!. Weird huh?.
I sighed. "Ilang inches ba yang sayo?"
"Does it matter?"
This is a world record, me and him we’re having a conversation BAM. I rolled my eyeballs "Hello! 3 inches lang ang lalim ng flower ng babae and you have--URGH..!!"
Kumurap kurap pa muna sya bago napabulalas ng tawa. "Gee, I-I can’t believe it. You call it flower?"
So dapat ba tahong? Susme ka!. Flower is a –uhm ‘universal word’? Yeah! Marami syang pwedeng pag gamitan. Am I making any sense here? "I think iyon ang dahilan kaya hindi nawawala yung sakit because of your sized."
"Maiistretch din yan.” Simpleng sagot nya. No simple math! No eklavush chenes!.
Tangina gawin bang lastiko?. Stretch talaga? I-compare bas a isang rubber band?. I can’t believe you!.
Gumalaw uli sya. "Aaaaaahhh.." hala?. Did you hear that?. gulat ako sa boses ko.Bakit parang nasasaktan na nasasarapan at the same time?. Is that possible?.
"Ano masakit pa din?"
Naramdaman kong namula ang buong mukha ko. “H--hindi na..." at least I am honest.
"See? I told you." Nakakainis ang mayabang nyang ngiti. Umayos sya ng upo then he slowly thrust into me. Noong una mabagal tapos bibilis, tapos biglang didiin. It feels like he was finding a nice rhythm.
Nakapikit pa yung mata nya. Tipong humahanap ng beat. Geniuses? I really don’t get them.
Ako naman sigaw lang sigaw. Putek! I’ve never thought na I'm a screamer pala. Kung makikita ako ng direktor sa isang horror films hindi na sya mag dadalawang isip na i-hire ako immediately. I am getting wetter every moved he makes.
My breast bounced up and down, down and up.
He slowly withdrew his hip. Oh my!
He thrust hard and deep. Oh my...
He rotated his hips. OH.MY.GOOODDD..!!!
He rotated his hips again.
Sideward!
Backward!
Forward!
Steward? (nasama talaga?)
For the love of all that is HOLY!. I’m Flying!. I AM FLYING!. Para akong sumasayaw sa limbo at tumatakbo sa ibabaw ng Cloud nine not only that I am also doing a cart wheel and stabbed a freaking signed board on my forehead with the written words ‘NO LONGER A VIRGIN!’ or something like ‘I LOVE SEX!’.
He leaned his weight a little to force himself deeper."Yeah, it feels good huh?."
My eyes were beaming. Oooh Chad, You had no idea!
Bilang sagot, I wrapped my legs on his waist wanting him deeper! Deeper!. If only I have the power to turn back time, kung bibigyan lang ako ng pagkakataon na maitama ang mga nagawa ko noon then masasabi ko sayo ng harapan na naging importante sya sa buhay na ‘I feel so empty without you..’
I blinked back the tears. NOOOO! Hindi ito totoo!. Napahawak ako sa tapat ng dibdib dahil parang may kumikirot doon.
Nagulat pa ko ng hawakan ako ni Chad sa beywang at hilahin ako paupo. Sa pwestong ito magkaharapan na kami ngayon. We’re facing each other, nandoon na naman ang pagkabog ng didbib ko ng malakas.
“Dont look away...” he whispered.
I had to swallow the lump in my throat at katulad kanina hindi ko kayang salubungin ang mga tingin nya. To make it easy for me, kinabig ko sya sa batok at hinalikan sya ng buong diin. He responded!. I was nipping on his lower lip while he continued those merciless thrust.
Darn it! pumipintig sya sa loob ko. He’s getting bigger and bigger inside me. tapos yung bulitas nya kumakaskas sa dingding ng pagkababae ko. Sheesh! Sofia, kelan ka pa nagkadingding?.
Yes, that’s right!... take me deep!
Iniyakap ko ang dalawang braso sa leeg nya at sinalubong ang bawat pag ulos ng balakang nya. My vocalizations grew louder with each thrust. Wala sigurong maniniwala na virgin pa ko kanina lang dahil sa intensity na isinusukli ko sa kanya.
He’s growling.
"Chad! Chad..” I am calling his name like crazy. Bumaba ang kaniyang mga labi patungo sa aking leeg leaving a hot trails of burning sensation. “Ahh, ahh, Ahh...” I am definitely not being dramatic on this moment pero bakit pakiramdam ko kapag pinakawalan ko sya ngayon madami ng magbabago?.
*plak plak plak*
Umiingit ang ilalim ng kama sa bawat galaw. Shit! I am closer again. When I looked down to see the part where we are connected it glistened with fluids. Until now iniisip ko pa rin kung paano sya nagkasya sa loob ko.
But the biggest question is how perfectly we fit together. Na para bang isa kaming game puzzle na nabuo. Is it wrong to feel this way?.
Chad suddenly cupped my face and held my chin up. “Do you have any idea how badly you hurt me four years ago?” parang may kumirot ng puso ko ng pinong pino. “Sa tingin mo ba sapat ng kabayaran ito?” nagulat pa ko ng bigla nya kong binuhat at italikod mula sa kanya.
“C-Chad?.” He pinned my face down at the bed. Hindi ko alam pero bigla na lang bumigat ang atmosphere. “You’re hurting me!” he rammed me hard, hitting my womb too much. Hindi iyon ang mas ikinasakit ng puso ko. But the fact na he doesnt want to see my face.
I smile painfully, he just wanted to blow his load as quickly as possible tapos kapag nakuha na nya ang gusto nya itatapon na lang nya nya ko na parang isang laspag na laruan. Nilunok ko ang bikig sa sa aking lalamunan.
If this is what he wants, FINE...!!!
Madali naman akong kausap eh. Ang hindi ko lang inaasahan ay ang katotohanan na alam ko na ang dahilan kung bakit hanggang ngayon hindi ko sya makalimutan. Kung bakit sobrang naging apektado ako ng umalis sya at nangibang bansa. Akala ko nagiguilty lang ako pero ngayon I am hundred and one percent sure about one thing.
‘I’m inlove with him...’
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