i didn't save enough for rent. ashton would've helped me, giving me what i didn't have and sighing softly.
because ashton abandoned me so i could go fucking nuts, today was the first time i had to tell my landlord i was short on rent. he told me it was fine, as long as i gave him this extra as soon as i had it, because i was a great tenant who never caused problems. if only he knew i was diagnosed insane, he'd see me differently.
other than going to the landlord's office on the second floor, i haven't left my apartment in six days. michael has tried to come over and check on me twice, but both times i had to motivation to get up and open the door to calm the insistent knocking.
both times he ended up leaving and sending me an annoyed text message.