"I just can't let you go..."
Robyn Fenty
"Two more months. You look like you're about to pop!" A nurse exclaims, running an at-home sonogram.
Onika chuckles while she holds my hand and we look at Kyng, already grown in size, kicking in Onika's belly.
With one hand on her belly, I can feel his movements. I lean near Onika's stomach and speak to him.
"Hey little dude. Calm down in there. I know you're ready to go. And I'm ready for you to come here. But you gotta be patient and quit giving ya mama a lot of stress."
As if he heard me, his kicking calms down and the nurse and Onika share a laugh. I look up at the screen as the picture goes blurry. Cursing, I wipe my eyes quickly before Onika notices. I'm such a crybaby at these times.
"Aw... my baby's crying," Onika looks up at me, pouting.
I blush and chuckle," no I'm not. Someone started cutting onions."
Onika smiles, showing her pearly whites and I smile back.
"Well, we have about seven more weeks before the little guy comes in. Make sure you are taking your vitamins and eating plenty of food. Also, continue drinking more than a gallon of water a day. If you experience any unusual symptoms, just let me know. Unfortunately, it isn't my week to stay in the home."
"That's alright," I nod understandingly. Usually we have a nurse that stays in the home with us but this week was really busy for them. They are only a call away but it's more convenient if they are here.
We watch as the nurse wipes the gel from Onika's stomach and powers off the machine after disposing of the gloves. I give Onika another smile and kiss her hand. Really, she's fighting against all odds. The baby was supposed to not have made it about two months ago. But she's been fighting. I'm hoping everything goes well through the rest of her pregnancy. I've been making sure she gets the proper amount of rest, not too much sex, she doesn't stay on her feet or work for a lot time and she's always taking her medicines. I want everything to go right. No mistakes.
My phone vibrates, pulling me out of my thoughts. I look at the Caller ID and see that Zen is calling me.
I answer the phone," yo."
"Wazzahhhhhhhhhh," she stretches out.
"Wazzzaaaahhhhhh," I return the favor, sticking my toungue out.
"What you been up to, negro?"
"Nothing. Just finished looking at my baby boy. I'm about to fix Onika some dinner."
"Speaking of baby boy, how is the pregnancy going?"
"She's killing me everyday," I fake sob, making Onika roll her eyes. I smile and head to the kitchen.
"Damn. Same over here. Roman is always throwing shit at my head every time a girl comes at my presence. Like... even if we were in a field of dirt, she would still find something to throw at my head."
I burst out laughing," it's not that serious bro."
"D-deadass! It's like having a Mexican for a wife."
As I listen to her rant, I get the ingredients together for some Parmesan chicken spaghetti. As I do, my thoughts drift to how much of an American Onika has turned me into. Even my accent is gone. I mentally sob. Thanks Onika.
"Aye, you still there nigga?" Zen asks.
I nod as if she can see me and set the phone on the island, putting her on speakerphone.
"I know yo ass just nodded. So Ima continue. And last week, she threw dishes at me because she thought my trainer was trying to fuck me when she was stretching my legs. Like brooooooo..."
I chuckle and shake my head. I drop the straws in the water and open the chicken pallets to put in the oven. Once seasoning them with garlic and parsley, I add some Parmesan and push the pan into the oven. Eating healthy was my main plan and she's not supposed to be eating noodles but she's been good on her diet and a small portion is the best for her.
"What you cooking?" Onika asks from the doorway.
I glance at her and scowl," excuse me. Get back in bed."
"Whyyyy," she drags out, stomping her foot.
"Because. You are pregnant and I don't want any complications."
Onika pokes her bottom lip out and crosses her arms over her chest.
"Babe. I'm making Parmesan chicken spaghetti. Something you've been craving for a while. Sit down and let me spoil you."
Onika smiles and her cheeks redden. I haven't seen her blush in a couple of days. It made me happy to see it.
"Okay daddy," she says, walking to the den.
"Ohhhhh shit!" Zen jumps in from the phone. I mentally facepalm myself when I realize that I forgot her," Zen don't you have better things to do? Like... I don't know- Roman?"
Zen whines," she's at work man. And I can't live much longer without my wife."
I chuckle," I know how that fee- wait. Did you say wife?!"
"Huh?" Zen asks, pretending not to hear the question. I quickly rush to the island and dry my hands.
I pick up my phone and click the FaceTime call button. Zen declines it and I call again.
"Really?" She asks.
"Yes. Answer it before I slit your throat."
She quickly answers and I see that she's sitting on her couch, looking away from the camera.
"Zen."
"Hmm?" She asks, still not looking.
"Look at me." I demand and she follows.
"Why did you call her your wife? You did that earlier and I didn't notice."
"Because..." she drifts off," I'm actually starting to y'know..."
"Love her."
She sighs,"yea. And I've been looking at this ring. And I'm thinking... shit. Why not?"
"Zen. You're too young," I state truthfully.
"I'm about to be 19. I feel like I'm already grown and I know what I want. And I'm not trying to get married right away. Just something to show that she's mine forever. Shit... we can be engaged for five more years. I just want that unspoken bond between us, y'know man?"
I nod and sit on a stool at the island, laying my head on my arm ," yea. I feel the same way about Onika. Like... I feel like she's everything I need and she's so good to me even when I treated her like trash, man. I cheated on her. Abused her. Wasn't there for her through a lot. But it's changing. And our unspoken bond is this baby. In the past 10 months or so... I feel like we've been through hell and back. Through crazy stalkers, to many fights to coming out to her parent as pregnant and gay. Bro. Her mom caught us and gave us a fucking death stare."
Zen smiles and then laughs," you never told me what happened."
"I didn't?" I question. I really don't feel like telling it, considering it was a turning point for us.
She shakes her head and I roll me eyes, thinking about it.
"Start from the beginning." Zen says, looking like she's getting comfortable.
"Okay. So I wake up right? And Onika is on top of me. She's kissing on me and stuff. So I'm like 'wassup? What you doing?' And she's telling me that she's ready. And I'm like 'nahh yeen ready' and she's like 'try me'. And boy, best believe I was about to push that button. So I'm in it, just my fingers. And just when she about to ride, here comes her mom. She yells out Onika's name and we both look over there. I guess it took Onika by surprise because she straight falls off me. Onto the floor. With the sheet."
Zen starts laughing and I continue," like the sheet wasn't even on us. It was pushed to the side. But she grabs it, slips off me and leaves me naked. So I get a pillow and cover myself. Then her mother is staring at me and she tells me to put my clothes on. So I'm scrambling and trying to put on my clothes. Then as soon as I do, her mother is still staring and she tells us to go downstairs. So then we end up downstairs. The whole time she's going off of Onika, I'm nervous as hell. My heart is pounding and I'm just thinking of the many ways we could've avoided the situation. Then she points to me and starts talking to me, saying how she was gonna take Onika away and shit like that. Onika buts in and says she's not much of a mother and then her mother slaps her. And she's going in for the kill so I stop her and she hits me and starts yelling at me. Then she basically disclaims Onika. So then Onika walks out and I follow and that's when everything started to change."
It's silent for a minute as Zen nods slowly," damn. But it changed for the better huh?"
I nod,"yea. I'm glad it did. Or we wouldn't have this house and all this alone time and I would still have to sneak around with her. I'm glad it changed."
Onika's voice pops in," me too..."
I look up and see Onika in front of the island, tears sliding down her cheeks.
*boop, boop, boop*
I look at my phone and see Zen respectively hung up.
"What do you mean?" I ask, looking back up to Onika.
She gives me a half smile,"I'm glad things changed. And not one day goes by that I'm not glad that I was being nosy the day you moved here. Not one day goes by that I'm not glad that I met you. Even if it was under the worst circumstances. You complete me and that's all there is to it..."
I search deep in her eyes and find honesty in her words. She holds my gaze for more than a minute before she speaks," and I love you. So much. For being there for me through change. And for helping me adjust to it. You've been there for me and you've ridden the waves that no one else dared to even get near."
I smirk at her words," I mean... I was swimming in- ow!"
I hiss when she punches my arm with enough strength to touch bone.
"I'm trying to be serious!" She whines, stomping her foot.
I lean over the countertop and kiss her on her lips softly. Once I pull away for air, I smile," I know. And I love you too. I was in love with you from the first moment I saw you bang your head against your window."
Onika blushed hard and covers her face,"oh my god. Why didn't you ever tell me you saw tha- Oh my god, that was so embarrassing."
I smile," it was cute. Honestly."
She shakes her head," no. No."
I glance at the pot and see that the noodles aren't standing in the pot anymore.
"Go sit down," I tell Onika.
"Okay papi," she bites her lip and follows my order.
I shake my head, smiling, and walk over to the stove. I'll say it time and time again... that girl will be the death of me...
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Just a little sumn before shit hits the fan 😌
Don't try to guess bc I doubt that you'll get it. Matter fact... go ahead. Guess 😂😂
Soooooo. Guess who got accepted to the college I been wanting to go to for the longest?
This negro ✊🏾 and I start in exactly one month. I got a soccer scholarship and the first two weeks, while I'm staying in the dorm I will have NO roommate 🙌🏾 Ima be living large 😭
Anyhoo. I'm starting a new book soon. Two actually. One is going to be my last fan fiction 💔 I've decided to call it ~wait. I'm not telling yet. But it's gonna be a lit ass book 🔥 and the other is more of a one-shot book. Just things that come off the top of my head. Anyhoooooo.
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~Trina J.