Honey
Our lips collided. It was a very soft kiss. His thin pinky lips were tender like my big, white pillow on the bed in my bedroom. The adrenaline started moving as it rushed through my veins. It's magic, the way his lips connected with mine. It was right, and somehow, among all of the dizziness and passion, something inside me changed, never to be reversed. His face close to mine radiated warmness. The scent of his fragrance ARMANI made me more hectic. L cupped my face with both of his hands and didn't let go for the next few minutes. I could feel his heart beating at the same rhythm as mine. He teased the corner of my mouth, gently, making me furrow my eyebrows and wish for just a little more.
Later, he deepened the kiss. And all the sweetness was gone, it became rough. It was replaced by fire, burning. L bit my lower lip so he could enter his tongue in my mouth and I let it be. He explored my interior and with each second I melted inside. His hands were encircling my waist and mine wrapped his neck. Our breaths became one. The taste of Pepsi was overwhelming. Our tongues stroke and trust, fighting for dominance, we moaned and gasped for more...
God, it's embarrassing to describe our first kiss in public but... you should understand how I felt...
So, where was I? Ah, yes.
L ended up getting up from this spot and landed on me. Despite his weight on my body, I didn't mind.
That kiss was... heaven. I have never felt anything special before. Sure, I've kissed lots of guys, but this was totally different. The feeling was dissimilar and I loved it.
He caressed my curled hair and placed his hands on the sides beside my head. We stopped kissing to catch our breaths. I opened my eyes. His were looking at me with desire and mildness, you'd sink into them. I stood up and recalled everything happening then, he backed away slightly.
I realized... I was a traitor, I made a horrible mistake. What was I thinking? How am I supposed to look into Suzy's eyes?
I felt ashamed that my heart let me do something I shouldn't have. It was a sin. And even though I enjoyed the moment, I wasn't happy.
''Honey.'' L called me. I turned to him to see what he was going to say.
''I love you...''
Did I hear him right? I was totally shocked. Those three words should not be wasted on someone like me. I am not worth such love.
''L-... sunbae, don't joke.'' I shook my head.
''I'm not kidding. I'm being serious.'' L whispered, his eyes, however, revealed softness, contrasting to his statement. ''Also, using ''sunbae'' after my name doesn't feel right. ''Sunbae'' is used when the person has more experience in a certain field. I am in the same class as you, so you have to call me ''oppa''.
Was it really the time to ruin this great moment with that? But he was absolutely right, after all. Why should I oppose him? His gaze towards me was too mesmerizing that I was forced to look away. I spotted a familiar figure whose head popped out from one of the trees. I prayed it wasn't any of my friends. It was no good. I just hoped a random person was just loitering around. Heck, I would be very pleased if I saw Hyuna there and see her angry face when she witnessed that I was hanging out with L that moment to prove her he didn't only pay attention to her. Being seen by Infinite fanatics and paparazzi was not the best option but it was still better at some point because my friends getting to know the info that L and I were dating is a huge mess and I couldn't imagine enough how Suzy go through a heartbreak since her 'bestie' and her crush were flirting in the middle of a park at night, hidden from the public, especially her.
My eyes narrowed when I saw Suzy sobbing quietly, although I could still hear her from afar. Her eyes wet and, I assumed, red from crying. Her makeup ruined and it was much worse than last time. I heard L turning to Suzy's direction and saw her. Before he was given a chance to react, she turned away and ran to the school.
I followed her leaving L behind probably bewildered. I knew that something like that was going to happen.
I ran as fast as possible. I reached every restroom for girls and I looked in every corridor but nope. No sign of her. I went to the school hall, everyone was still having fun and dancing. I hoped Suzy was among the crowd. I spotted Sungjong who continued talking to the alien. I made my way to him and tapped on his shoulder.
''Have you seen Suzy, Sungjong?'' I asked.
''She went to look for you.'' Catfish was holding a bar of chocolate.
''I haven't come across her.'' I lied whilst continuing scanning through the population for the only Sadako in the school building.
''I'll phone her telling that you're here with me.''
Of course, why didn't I think of taking out the cell phone? He fished his smartphone out of his pants' pocket. Oh, shoot! He mustn't find out about the occurrence. I was about to prevent the Sungjong's act but he already dialed her number. As I expected, she did not to answer...
I prayed she's holding tight. I intended to seek her again.
''I'll go look for her,'' Sungjong informed. He didn't even suspect anything to be wrong. Before I stop him, he said, ''You wait here.'' He shed a few words before he stormed out of the hall. I sensed a grip on my shoulder. I turned to the questioning person. L remained quiet since the dialog back there. My back faced him. I couldn't look into his beautiful eyes.
''We shouldn't have done this,'' I muttered.
''Why shouldn't we? Don't you feel anything about me?'' He whispered in my ear and put a strand of hair which was covering my right eye behind the ear. ''Don't you want us to be together? Aren't you happy with me?'' L came to the front so I could see him. I avoided his gaze.
''It's not that... it's just... you hurt my best friend Suzy. And I don't think she'll forgive me because of the happening in the park... I can't let our friendship be in pieces. It is so precious to me.'' I explained.
''What about me then?'' L questioned.
He was being selfish... and I didn't like it. He should understand my friend is more important than him. I'm sorry, L...
''I-'' I started.
''L! Your bestie's here!'' Somebody hollered.
''Oh really?'' L turned to the tallest one of the group. He seemed super happy and waved from afar. The rest of Infinite were behind him, curiously looking at us.
''Yup. Come here. You don't want her to wait for you all night, do you?'' The giant added. The leader nudged him on his arm, maybe implying to lower his voice down. The latter looked at him with annoyance, confusion, and curiosity at the same time. The girls averted their gazes at the face of the group and began squeaking. Didn't they recognize him until then?
''I'm coming.'' L looked back at me apologetically. ''Wait for me, okay? We'll talk later.'' And he disappeared from my sight.
Should I really wait for him? Listen to him? Was it worth doing? What was going to change the situation, anyway?
''Ugh!'' I was frustrated and ruffled my hair making it look like instant noodles.
Suzy wouldn't talk to me and I didn't know what would freaking happen to me and L. Why should my life be this miserable? Life, why do you hate me so much?
''Boo!'' Someone shouted and I flinched. I saw no one behind me where the source was. It was weird but I thought it could be a junior. Wanting to scare people since it's Halloween.
''Boo!'' Another squeal was heard. That noise reminded me of someone. The air suddenly became cold and I rubbed my hands fast so I could get warm.
''Guess who.'' A flash of thought came into my mind. ''Come outside.'' A girly voice said next. I followed her order anticipating the following happenings. I vanished from the school ball hall.
Right now, I needed my sister's advice, comfort and, most importantly, her soul beside me. I saw her on the same bench that I sat on a while ago. Her spirit was there and she extended her arms. For the love of spaghetti, why did Yuki choose that bench?! Memories and flashbacks filled my brain. My heart immediately reacted to the sight in front of me by starting to beat insanely; its velocity speed up and I began feeling aches in my chest.
''Come here,'' Yuki said quietly but enough loud to hear. Gladly, no one was in the park or people would've thought I had gone crazy. I approached her and situated myself in her arms.
My sister's body remained the same like she was still alive and that made me more depressed because I had to face the reality that she wasn't. I felt wet tears on my cheeks trailing down constantly. I just let them do even without sobbing. Yuki, on the other hand, calmed me down in every way she could find. She wiped away the drops and took out from her jeans' pocket a tiny bag which was tied with a microscopic rope.
''I'm going to pour this over you.'' If I hadn't been zoning out, I would have puzzled over my sister's statement. Do whatever it takes, my sister. Just heal me from my heartaches.
Then I felt something on my head. I touched it and saw yellow dust which was shining like the stars above me from the dark sky. ''It'll stop you from hurting, crying, saddening but this spell will fade away after a period of time. For the time being, every affected point will have disappeared.'' She stopped and fondled my hair. ''I can't stand seeing you suffering. I went out to work for some time and you are already weeping. You are OK right now?''
I touched my entire face - my eyes weren't swollen, no more traces of dry tears. But how did that happen? I felt nothing during my ''cure'', yet I don't look like a crying mess.
I also realized that Yuki wasn't there anymore. Honestly, I miss her already but this feeling wasn't shown outside.
''Time to find Suzy again.'' I stood up and entered the hall for the umpteenth time. What greeted me were L's words:
''Didn't I tell you to stay here?'' His hands were on his waist. I wasn't in a mood for his remarks. ''Never mind. Let me introduce you to my friend. This is...''
I didn't hear the rest of the sentence and I didn't need to since I knew this person in front of me. She was wearing almost exactly like me but instead of a black dress, it was contrary to it - white like pristine snow. Her bolts, stitches, green paint, black lip gloss, and nail polish were in their places. She was a beautiful, popular girl and both of L and her suited much better than me and L. We stood like that for a while until she greeted me cheerfully. That girl was...